unresponsive love

Chapter 154
The face-to-face meeting with Lu Nansheng passed away after returning, and Xia Lin was relieved for no reason.

She admitted that she hadn't completely let go of her feelings for Lu Nansheng, and she didn't really have no ripples in her heart when facing him.

But no matter what, things are over.

In the past five years, he had his world, the people he knew, and his way of life, and she also had her own life, with everything she knew.

The relationship between them has become two parallel lines since five years ago, and there is no longer any intersecting parallel lines. Within five years, there is no her in his world, and there is no him in hers. Become two people who have no intersection...

She didn't know what kind of feelings Lu Nansheng had for her now, she thought, she probably hated her a little bit, hated that she only left a divorce agreement and disappeared without a trace...

There are really too many things that can't be explained between them. Love or hate is not important. After Chu Xiu's death, Liu Yuechuan's amnesia after he almost died, the loss of two children, and the journey along the way In the past, there was no respite at all, not only was it difficult for her to maintain that relationship, but it must be the same for him.

Love is supposed to be a joyful and happy thing. If each is full of depression and pain and suffocates to the point where you can't breathe, why continue to pretend to be sweet and fine together?
Although some depression and pain are not caused by them themselves, they are still inextricably linked with them.

Besides, she is actually very clear that if she continues to be with Lu Nansheng, Liu Zongyao will never agree. After experiencing Liu Yuechuan's incident, no one knows how much Liu Zongyao hates her better than her. Conflict, when the time comes, she will become a sinner who can never be washed away, the real sinner, than she failed to accompany Chu Xiu to the end, than she almost let Liu Yuechuan die for her, than she still failed to keep the child , and the more unforgivable sinner...

She is not afraid of becoming a sinner herself, she is not afraid of the voices of accusations and complaints from all over the world, what she is afraid of is that the relatives will turn against each other...

There is nothing more sad, heavy and crushing than the turning against each other between relatives. She has experienced it, so she knows.

She used to think that she could continue to stay by his side for the sake of the child, and that she could continue to persist for the sake of the child so that she would not care about all of these things. After the child was lost, finally that little bit of persistence was gone.

Love should not be heavy and depressing. If love is so heavy and depressing that you can't breathe, if love makes people despair, and even the last reason to persuade yourself to persist is gone, what is the need for persistence?

Letting go, even though it hurts, even though it hurts like tearing the heart, is the best way, just let him go, let go of yourself at the same time.

And after seeing many psychiatrists in the past five years, she finally came to the conclusion that not to treat each other as strangers, and not to entangle too much, other than this, there is no better way to get along...

**
After Xia Lin came out, she didn't see her boss Yang Tianqin, thinking that he should be waiting on the first floor, so she didn't stop any longer and quickly stepped into the elevator.

However, just as the elevator door was about to close, it was suddenly pushed open from the outside.

Outside the elevator was a woman holding a pile of folders in her arms.

The woman was beautiful and beautiful, and looked about her age.

After seeing her, the woman smiled and nodded at her, then entered the elevator and pressed the floor she was going to.

Xia Lin stood calmly in the elevator, when suddenly the woman standing beside her said, "Are you looking for our president?"

She didn't expect a woman to say such a sentence to herself suddenly. She was startled, then turned to look at her, and explained with a smile on her lips, "Because of some cooperation at work, my boss brought me here to talk about something." .”

The woman nodded her head, smiled decently, and said nothing more.

Seeing her silence, Xia Lin subconsciously glanced at the sign hanging on her chest - President Secretary, He Man.

She is Lu Nansheng's secretary?

Lu Nansheng had made an appointment with them before, and Xu Hao directly arranged it, so she had never met this secretary.

Xia Lin's gaze didn't linger on her too much, she looked forward naturally, and the beautiful appearance of a woman was reflected in the elevator in front, she was suddenly startled.

Why do I suddenly feel... as if I've seen it somewhere?

Before she had time to catch anything, the elevator door opened, and the woman walked out with the folder in her arms. After taking two steps, she turned around suddenly and said to her with a smile, "My name is He Man, remember my name, Maybe we will meet more often in the future.”

Leaving such a meaningful sentence, she turned and left.

Just as Xia Lin wanted to ask her what she meant, the elevator door closed again, and she opened her mouth, but she couldn't ask anything, and the elevator began to continue to descend.

Standing in the elevator, she frowned, why did she feel strange?

I always feel... This secretary named He Man seems to have something in his words?

After a while, the elevator stopped on the first floor. Although he was puzzled, he didn't have time to think about what that sentence meant. Xia Lin stepped out of the elevator door.

His eyes were looking for the figure of his boss Yang Tianqin on the first floor, but he was caught by the little man sitting on the reception sofa on the first floor unexpectedly.

There is a person and a dog in the sofa, the person is a small person, and the dog is a big dog.

The little man is about four or five years old, wearing a small suit and trousers, looks white and tender, petite and cute, he is a boy who can easily be mistaken for a girl.

He was sitting on the sofa, next to a white and majestic dog, the breed of the dog was similar to the Tibetan Mastiff, she didn't know the breed of the dog, and she didn't know whether it was a Tibetan Mastiff or not.

She didn't know whether it was such a strange combination that attracted her attention, or if there was some other kind of attraction. Her gaze was fixed on that one person and one dog for a long, long time in a daze.

The dog next to her suddenly barked twice at her, and the little boy seemed to sense her gaze, and slowly turned his head, his big clear eyes were also staring at her.

All of a sudden, the four eyes looked up, and there seemed to be something strange flowing in the air.

I don't know what kind of feeling this is, maybe because I have lost two children, when the little boy's clean and pure eyes looked at her, Xia Lin could only feel his eyes looking into her. Deep in her heart, layer after layer of ripples opened because of his gaze, and then her heart trembled heavily.

The little guy stared at her, and was also taken aback, as if he didn't quite understand why a woman would stare at him like this. His pink and tender cheeks were flushed, he scratched his head shyly, thought about it, and finally turned to She squeezed out a big smile, as if greeting her.

There was a strange electric current in her body, and Xia Lin's eyes were inexplicably sour, almost subconsciously, she took a step, and suddenly wanted to walk over.

However, she had just taken a step when someone grabbed her shoulder from behind, "Director Xia."

Looking back, it was the face of the boss Yang Tianqin.

Seeing her stiff expression, Yang Tianqin asked politely, "What's wrong with you?"

"I..." She opened her mouth, suddenly didn't know what to say, and turned her head to look at the sofa over there. The little boy's eyes were no longer on her, and she felt a sense of loss in her heart, and pretended to be fine. She smiled, turned back to him and said, "It's nothing."

"Then let's go." Yang Tianqin looked at the time, "It's almost time to get off work, so you don't need to go back to the company anymore. Want me to take you back?"

"No, no need." She tried her best to smile, "Since it's almost time to get off work, I'll go back by myself first. Goodbye, Manager Yang."

Seeing that her face was still a little stiff, Yang Tianqin frowned and said, "Your face is not right, is it really okay to go back by yourself?"

"I'm fine, I'm fine. Goodbye." She felt a little depressed in her heart. After saying this, she hurriedly turned around and walked outside, as if there was a scourge here.

Yang Tianqin looked at the back of her leaving in a hurry, with some doubts in his eyes, but he followed her out without thinking too much.

Xia Lin didn't know what was wrong with her. When she saw the strange child just now, she thought of her two children uncontrollably.

two kids...

The two children she lost...

In the past five years, because she was afraid that she would think about children, she did not dare to go to places with many children, and she did not dare to look at other children. I can't stop thinking about my two dead children...

Although she has seen many psychiatrists and let go of many knots, the child is still the most painful thorn in her heart, a very painful thorn.

No one knows how she feels when she sees other people's children calling other people's mother affectionately...

**
"Lu Jingrong."

A familiar man's deep voice came into his ears, and Lu Jingrong, who was sitting on the sofa, suddenly turned his head to look at the source of the sound, and saw a tall and arrogant man in a black suit striding towards him, he slid off the sofa , called him sweetly, "Dad."

As soon as he slid off the sofa, the dog beside him also jumped down, walked up to the man wagging its tail, raised its head and barked twice at him.

The man's face was a bit stinky, and he was cold and cold. He walked up to him in a few steps and looked down at him, "Who sent you here?"

"I called Uncle Zuo Tang to send it." Sensing the man's unhappiness, he lowered his head slightly, raised his ears, and said with a pouted mouth, "Are you unhappy?"

From the past, he couldn't come to the company, and he couldn't understand why his father didn't let him come. Today, he coaxed Uncle Zuo Tang to send him here. He didn't expect his father to be so unhappy.

Lu Nansheng looked at him coldly, seeing that he looked like he had done something wrong, his stern face softened unconsciously, but he still asked in a cold voice, "Did you meet anyone just now?"

The little guy replied without thinking, "Yes."

(End of this chapter)