Qingqingzijin, miss my heart

Chapter 2 Even memories are loads (2)
Why leave without saying goodbye... She bit her lips tightly, unwilling to speak.

"Say!" His tone was more indifferent, even aggressive.

If it could be said, she would not have left without saying goodbye.Her wrist hurt from his grip, she was silent for a long time before she spoke: "There is no reason, and we have broken up for many years, what's the point of bringing it up now?"

"Two years and 56 days." He blurted out a precise number, his eyes darker than ink reflected her face.I haven't seen him in two years, Cen Nian's face is pale like a normal person, and because of the struggle, her cheeks are slightly flushed. She is afraid to meet his eyes, and she is even more afraid that she will accidentally tell the truth.

"During these two years and 56 days, there was not a day when I didn't think about you." He raised his other hand, held her face, and forced her to look at him, "I don't accept this kind of breakup without saying goodbye."

"You have to accept it."

She didn't want to look at him, she would be afraid, and she would have the urge to tell everything, but she couldn't.

Just because she loves him too.

"Cen Nian." He growled her name in a low voice, "Do you love me?"

She moved her lips. Even if it was more than two years apart, she couldn't say that she didn't love him. This was like her bottom line, which couldn't be touched.Just when she couldn't stand it anymore, a pair of hands suddenly rested on her shoulders, and then came a gentle voice——

"You didn't tell me how you got here, I've been looking for you for a long time."

Hearing the sound, Jiang Bei looked up at the familiar face, gentle and elegant, with a spring-like smile.He was stunned, but from the corner of his eyes, he saw Cen Nian's frown that suddenly stopped frowning and the undisguised reassuring smile on the corner of his mouth.

His heart twitched suddenly, as if someone had stabbed him with a knife. It was obviously very painful, but he was also very jealous.

"Long time no see, Jiang Bei." Tao Yuan smiled at him, opened his fingers calmly, and pulled Cen Nian to his side.The movements in one go, intimate and gentle, instantly put Jiang Bei in the position of a bystander.

So, in a trance, Jiang Bei only felt a gust of cold wind, carrying fine dust, sweeping across his heart, making him painful.

Since when did they become so close?It seems that the person Cen Nian loves is not himself, but Tao Yuan.

When this kind of thought flooded into his mind, Jiang Bei's brows were tightly frowned into "Shen Chuan". He was clearly an old friend and had been close to each other, but at this moment he couldn't say "Long time no see" heartily.

In his heart, he had unspeakable doubts about the intimate interaction between Cen Nian and Tao Yuan.

He couldn't figure out how Cen Nian, who belonged to him, would frown when facing him, but smile when he saw Tao Yuan.

When Jiang Bei didn't answer, the three fell silent, and finally Cen Nian ended the silence.

Cen Nian raised his arms and gently wrapped around Tao Yuan's waist, and the little bird rested his head on his chest, and said shyly, "No matter where I am, you can find me, can't you? "

She looked at Jiang Bei, saw his darkening face, still smiled slightly, and introduced him: "By the way, Jiang Bei, you and Tao Yuan haven't seen each other for a long time, you must not know, Tao Yuan is now It's my boyfriend, but he will soon be his fiancé."

Cen Nian's words were as clear as the wind, but they carried a flame, which immediately ignited the explosives in Jiang Bei's heart.

"Say it again." Jiang Bei said coldly, his tone was like a thousand years of ice.He clenched his hands tightly on his thighs, he was afraid that he would hit someone with his own hands.

"We're going to get engaged in two days." Cen Nian seemed not to see his displeasure, and continued to smile, "This trip to Tokyo is to attend Tang Yin's wedding, and to Hosting our own engagement party. By the way, do you want to come? I forgot to bring the invitation card, but it doesn’t matter if you have the invitation card or not, you can enter the venue. Also, I saw that you are I came with senior sister Zou Yuqing, why don't you bring her along, you really deserve it, I hope it will be your turn after Tao Yuan and I get engaged."

"Engagement?" After being silent for a long while, Jiang Bei finally let out a chuckle, the corners of his mouth curled up in a sad and vicissitudes of life, and he asked, "How long have you been together?"

"Almost two years." Cen Nian answered first, but did not dare to meet his gaze.

She turned her head, looked at Tao Yuan with a smile, and said to Jiang Bei: "Love is very strange. I thought I could love you until death, but in the end I realized that I was nothing more than that to you until I got married to you." When Tao Yuan met again, love woke up in my heart again. The days when I fell in love with Tao Yuan were the happiest time in my life." She said it firmly without any hesitation, as if their love was really so unbearable, It seems that the love between Tao Yuan and her is real.

"It was also my happiest time." Tao Yuan, who had been silent for a long time, also smiled cooperatively, looked at Cen Nian tenderly, and then looked at Jiang Bei, "I'm sorry, but, Jiang Bei, you know, The matter of love is your love and my wish, in fact, we have nothing to be sorry for you."

Jiang Bei's nails dug into his flesh. This was his best friend, and the other was his favorite woman.

"Jiang Bei will definitely understand." Cen Nian gave Tao Yuan a meaningful look, "Okay, it's almost time, we should go back."

"En." Tao Yuan nodded, and gently draped the shawl in his hand over Cen Nian's body, "It's windy outside, you're in poor health, don't catch a cold."

She was holding his arm, obviously the picture was beautiful, but Jiang Bei had the urge to tear it apart, anger ran wildly in his heart like a roaring lion, and his sharp claws scratched all his expectations for love.But even so, he didn't say a word, and he didn't show any anger.

He gritted his teeth silently and clenched his hands into fists.

Cen Nian, who had already turned around, turned around again, and after standing in front of him for a few seconds, he raised his head and said with a sweet smile: "Jiang Bei, you and senior sister Zou Yuqing must come to our engagement party, we are very happy I hope to get your blessing." His brows and eyes were curved, just like when they had agreed.

This smile is beautiful, but he can no longer have it.

Hearing this, Jiang Bei raised his head slightly, and then the corners of his mouth also rose slightly.

It was a cold smile.

He looked directly at Cen Nian, smiled and said, "I'm sorry, I won't bless you, never."

After all, he purposely passed between them and left decisively.

04
Sleepless all night, the deeper the night, the colder the heart.

What came to mind repeatedly was Cen Nian's happy smile when he was holding Tao Yuan's arm, and Cen Nian's soft and sweet sentence "You and Senior Sister Zou Yuqing must come to our engagement party, we really hope Get your blessing."Her smile and her voice, like the fragrance of lemons, permeated the air, enough to confuse people and reset him to the past, but his heart unknowingly broke the lemon, so The sour taste overwhelmed the heart.

In the dream city, reuniting with her in the warm spring season, for Jiang Bei, is the most surprising and romantic thing.

However, what he never expected was that the surprise brought by the reunion was instantly shattered.

Jiang Bei got up and poured a glass of Japanese sake, the sound of the wine shaking in the glass echoed in the air.

Cen Nian is getting married.

This pain of knowing the truth made him a little depressed. In the past, Jiang Bei was very sure that if she wanted to get married, he must be her groom.Even if she first left without saying goodbye and then asked someone to break up, he never doubted it.

He has always firmly believed that Cen Nian loves him, even if this feeling passes through a hundred, a thousand or even ten thousand years, it will not change.If it wasn't for the reunion today, he wouldn't have understood that certain certainties may not necessarily be the truth.

But he didn't want to accept it, not at all.

The phone on the table rang again, interrupting his thoughts.Jiang Bei glanced at the screen, it was Zou Yuqing calling.This night, he was so chaotic that he lost his composure, and he also forgot the agreement with Zou Yuqing.

She must be worried!
Jiang Bei chose to answer, and as soon as he said "Hello", Zou Yuqing interrupted him, and her soft voice echoed in his ears, she said, "That's great, it's good that you're fine... I'm here Leimen waited for you for a long time, but seeing that you didn't come, I went back to the hotel first."

"Sorry, I've been delayed." He softened his tone a lot, but still had a cold taste.

Zou Yuqing's room was opposite to his. She asked, "Jiang Bei, what happened?"

Looking down at the brightly lit city, Jiang Bei opened his mouth and said, "Cen Nian and Tao Yuan are together."

The dark room was in stark contrast to the bright outside. He clenched the wine glass in his hand, unable to say the following, but Zou Yuqing on the other side sighed softly and said, "Jiang Bei, open the door to the room." Come on, I'll stay with you for a while."

Jiang Bei knew that Zou Yuqing was comforting him and worried about him, so he hung up the phone and opened the door for her.

Zou Yuqing, who was standing at the door, was wearing cotton pajamas and a long coat over it. She walked in and sat on the sofa: "Let's have a chat, you can say whatever you want." As long as you can put Cen Nian down, You can talk about anything.

Jiang Bei poured down the wine, and the hot feeling spread all over his body in an instant. He poured another glass, and the transparent wine glass reflected the bright moon. He twitched his lips and said, "If Cen Nian is the moon, then from the beginning to the end All I have is this moonlight reflected in the wine glass, if I shake it like this, she will disappear without a trace."

Tao Yuan, he has it all, as expected, the real victory is to have the last laugh.

Zou Yuqing lowered her eyes and poured a glass of wine for herself. She only dared to taste it. She didn't like wine: "Although you can't have the moon, you have the sun. No matter day or night, the sun is willing to be just for you. Go alone."

"But you're not her." Jiang Bei looked at her. He was leaning against the glass window, and the light outside the window reflected his figure, making Zou Yuqing unable to open his eyes.

— But you are not her.

Even if she knew this sentence a long time ago, even if it was not the first time she heard it, her heart would still hurt.

Zou Yuqing stopped tasting and took a big gulp of wine, choking her to cough, with tears in her eyes: "Yeah, I can never become her."

"Yeah." He raised his head and drank all the sake, "You are you."

Zou Yuqing smiled, facing him under the moonlight, his smile was uglier than crying.She took a breath, her eyes swept across the room like a bird, and finally stopped on his suitcase, and asked, "Why did you pack your luggage? Aren't we leaving the day after tomorrow?" Originally, they came to Japan together, except Apart from attending Tang Yin's wedding, I also want to appreciate the Japanese style.

"No, I want to go back." Jiang Bei's glass is empty, he can only leave as soon as possible while he still has reason, and returning to China is the only choice for him now, "Leave tonight, the plane ticket I've already re-signed."

In his life, he had never escaped from anything, but when Cen Nian announced that he was going to be engaged to someone else, his first reaction was not to struggle but to run away.

For a moment, even he despised himself a little.

"Jiang Bei..." Zou Yuqing paused, she wanted to say "you are escaping", but she couldn't get it out, she was not qualified to say that about Jiang Bei.

Escape, she has also had.

"I'll be leaving in a while." He put down the wine glass, and the moon in the glass dangled, disappeared, and would reappear after a while, just like Cen Nian, who always followed him around, making many unimaginable things. things.

Two years ago, Cen Nian was as innocent as the moon, but two years later, Cen Nian left his world.

Zou Yuqing got up and walked to him, and said helplessly, "Then I'll pack up too, let's go together."

"No, I'd rather leave alone." Such an act of running away was too embarrassing for anyone to see.

Zou Yuqing put her hand on the glass window, feeling a bit cold: "Do you hate Cen Nian and Tao Yuan?"

"I can't hate them honestly," he murmured, "but I would never bless them either." He walked to the door and left with his suitcase.

In the end, what was left for her was a back view.

After arriving at the airport departure hall, Jiang Bei completed the formalities and sent a message to Zou Yuqing.

He was standing in the waiting hall where people were coming and going, when his cell phone rang suddenly, he frowned for a long time, and only picked it up when the other party was about to hang up.

It was Tao Yuan calling.

On the phone, Tao Yuan called "Jiang Bei" and then fell silent. The moment of silence was full of sadness, and then he said, "Cen Nian...Cen Nian was in a car accident and went to the hospital."

There was a sudden thunder in his ears, and the usually elegant and gentle Tao Yuan uttered the cruelest words, even crueler than saying that he and Cen Nian were going to be engaged.

Jiang Bei felt that the whole world was empty. He clenched his phone tightly, moved his lips tremblingly, and wanted to speak, but his throat seemed to be blocked.

"Jiang Bei?" There was no answer, Tao Yuan called his name again, and said, "We are at Qiandai Hospital, I... no, she wants you to come."

Jiang Bei hung up the phone first, and Tao Yuan's words kept echoing in his ears.

"...I... no, she wants you to come."

Cen Nian, wants to see him.

He hesitated in his heart, his slender fingers pinched the phone tightly, and the intimate scene between Tao Yuan and Cen Nian came to mind like a rewind.

He put away his cell phone and strode away from the airport.

After all, he still couldn't let her go.

……

He drove all the way to the hospital by car. The street was very deserted late at night, and the rain of cherry blossoms fell in front of his eyes, pink and tender, very beautiful.But he felt that cherry blossoms did not represent beauty, but cruelty.

Jiang Bei's slender figure was a bit eye-catching in the not-so-wide hospital corridor. He looked at Cen's mother and Tang Yin who were crying in each other's arms. Their shrill cries made his hands and feet feel cold.

"Auntie..." He knelt down and patted Cen's mother on the back, but the other party was already in despair and had no time to pay attention to him.Tao Yuan, who was standing opposite and leaning against the wall, shook his head at him. After not seeing him for a few hours, his voice became so hoarse, like a rusty knife, revealing tiredness: "She is inside."

Jiang Bei nodded. When his hand touched the door of the ward, he retracted uncontrollably. It turned out that he was also afraid.

Walking soberly all the way, at this point, he still flinched.

Jiang Bei stretched out his hand again, grabbed his trembling left hand with his right hand, and pushed open the door with difficulty...

(End of this chapter)