Elopement: My Decade of Life and Death in Thailand's Red Light District

Chapter 25 Destruction of Hope

His eyes are changeable, one moment is so melancholy, as if a child who has been wronged a lot, is longing for the comfort of his mother; but for a moment it is full of anger, as if I thought there was something mortal between him hate like...

Although I didn't understand why Brother Huang said that, I still habitually turned my head to glance, and I really saw familiar figures from the crowd of people, and those were Sister Chun's confidants, Brother Biao and the others.

Brother Biao has obviously felt more and more loyal to Sister Chun since the Tao'er incident. I don't know if he is pretending or if he has really become obedient. Even though I have a handle on him, it is the opposite. I'm getting more and more afraid of him, let alone running to threaten him.

Seeing Brother Biao and the others following us all the time, my heart sank. It seems that it is not so easy to escape.And this young man is like a roundworm in my stomach, how does he know that I want to run away?

I sneaked sideways glances at Brother Huang, hoping to find the answer from him, but apart from being closer to me, he just kept walking with his head buried in concentration.A chill began to rise from the bottom of my heart. I thought that Sister Chun was the scariest one, but now it seems that this young man is even more terrifying. He actually has the ability to see into my heart when I want to escape.

Why did he tell me that Sister Chun's people are following, are they enemies or friends?

It seemed that escaping was far more difficult than I had imagined. I looked up at the blue sky, and took a deep breath of the free air despite the smell of fish.

How much I wish I was a member of this blue sky, wandering freely and freely, how much I wish I could get rid of this place, return to the embrace of the motherland, and return to the front of my family.But it was a very simple request, but because of my own selfishness back then, it was completely ruined.

Soon, passing through a place with a lot of people, I came to a small courtyard with a fairly elegant environment. In a side room, all kinds of delicacies were already set up.After Brother Hei and the others entered the yard, they arrived here by familiar means.I sighed in my heart, although I wished I could fly away immediately with a pair of wings, but I forced a smile on my face and followed in.

"Of course good food and good wine are indispensable. Come and have a few beauties and have a good drink with my brothers!"

Hei Ge said loudly.

Regardless of whether you can escape or not, you still have to do it when you see it.But what's the use of delicious food, it's not just tasteless, this glass of fine wine, poured into the stomach, all turned into words of sorrow.

Although in the past few years, I have been exercising to a small extent, but by the end of the drink, I was still drunk.

Fortunately, I wasn't too drunk, and when brother Huang carried me to a room and put me carefully on a big bed, I still woke up.Brother Huang's face was full of distress and he said: "Are you awake? Is there something uncomfortable? You, if you can't drink, drink less. With me here, no one will force you to drink!"

These are all words of concern, which warmed my heart all of a sudden, and I chuckled and said, "It's okay, it's really okay!"

Brother Huang shook his head, went into the bathroom, took a towel that was still steamy, and gently wiped my forehead.I closed my eyes and let him wipe them for me.This feeling is so familiar, so warm, I really don't know which nerve is wrong. At this moment, I suddenly thought of Gu Yifan.I remember on the wedding night, I was drunk by the person making the new house, and afterwards, he wiped me with a hot towel in the same way.

I couldn't help wrapping my arms around Brother Huang's waist, imagining that I was holding Gu Yifan, and said to myself: "Yifan, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I was really wrong..."

Brother Huang suddenly said, "Who is Yifan? Why did you say sorry to him?"

This boy can read minds, but he can hear what is in my heart?I pushed him away and looked at him in surprise.

Brother Huang smiled: "You accidentally said it just now!"

It turned out that I accidentally said it out and leaked my thoughts. It seems that I really drank too much wine, and I didn't even know what I was talking about.I shook my head, wanting to hug Brother Huang again, but he dodged it.

Although at the wine table, Brother Hei and the others described Brother Huang as a veteran of romance and a girl killer, but time passed by, and Brother Huang did not show any disrespect to me, just sitting on the bedside all the time. On one side, he stared blankly at me, his eyes were so sad that people always wanted to hug me distressedly.

I expected to take good care of him and run away quietly while he was asleep, but he seemed to know that I wanted to run away, he didn't sleep, and he didn't do anything that a prostitute would do, just blankly, without saying a word He sat down on the chair opposite me and looked at me in a daze.

I tried to get close to him, but every time I got bored, I simply leaned on the bed with my eyes closed and waited for the opportunity.I really can't believe that brother Huang, who also drank a lot of wine, can sit like this all night without sleeping.

But I found that I was really wrong. I quietly opened my eyes a few times, and I saw that Brother Huang's eyes never left me.His eyes are changeable, one moment is so melancholy, as if a child who has been wronged a lot, is longing for the comfort of his mother; but for a moment it is full of anger, as if I thought there was something mortal between him like hatred.

I didn't have time to think deeply about what kind of story was hidden behind Brother Huang's eyes.I am only anxious about the loss of time every minute and every second. If I want to escape at dawn, I will never have another chance.Waiting for this opportunity, I have waited for so many years, I am really not reconciled!

Although I pretended to be sleeping, I was so anxious that my mind was running fast, hoping to find a way to get Brother Huang to leave here, and then run quietly again.

I jumped up from the bed and said, "Brother Huang, you just sit all night and don't sleep?"

But Brother Huang's reaction made me both angry and funny, as if I was some kind of scourge that would pounce on him and eat him, he kept leaning back, and hurriedly replied: "Just sleep, I'll sit That's it."

This young man is very interesting. He paid a woman to come out, just to have a look?I got down under the bed and approached him, teasingly said: "Little handsome guy, since you have spent money, let me have fun with you!"

As soon as these words came out, Brother Huang's face suddenly changed. He pushed me onto the bed and said with a serious expression:
"Please respect yourself!" This is really a joke, the client calls the chicken to respect himself!I lay on the bed and couldn't help laughing, but when I laughed, I couldn't help crying again.

For so many years, although I have fallen into prostitution, even though I have been beaten and scolded by Sister Chun, I have never taken the initiative to have sex with anyone. This time, if I didn't want to escape, I would take the initiative to show off in front of a junior who can call me mother style?

Crying, laughing, and tired, coupled with the effect of alcohol, I actually fell asleep amid crying and laughing.When I woke up, a thin quilt was covering my body. I pulled the thin quilt and sighed deeply. Looking at the empty room, I really didn't understand what kind of medicine was sold in this Huang Ge's gourd.

He seemed to care about and like me very much, but he didn't even touch me at all.When I was thinking about this unpredictable Huang brother, Huang opened the door and walked in from the outside, holding a plate in his hand, on which was a bowl of refreshing mung bean porridge. and a plate of pickles.

Brother Huang put them on the bedside table and said, "Eat breakfast, I'll take you back home after eating!"

Then, without waiting for me to make a sound, I backed out of the room.Send us back after eating, which means that soon, we have to be sent back to that cage again.I was really not reconciled. When I came here, I was full of hope, thinking that this time was an opportunity given to me by God, and I would definitely be able to escape and go home to reunite with my family.But the fact is that God gave me hope, but it also gave me despair. I didn't have any chance to escape.

I still have no intention of eating. I kept stirring the bowl of mung bean porridge with a spoon. The mung bean porridge was so cold that there was no trace of heat, but my lips didn’t even open my mouth until Brother Huang pushed the door open again. Probe came in and asked: "Okay, I'll be waiting for you!"

Then I hurriedly replied: "Okay, it's almost ready!" Then I hurriedly scooped up a spoonful of mung bean porridge and handed it to my mouth.Mung bean porridge is very fragrant and smooth, but it is all bitter in my mouth.

God, why did you do this to me?I raised my head and asked the sky speechlessly, but the sky was blue, just telling me that today will be a good day again.

It's really because I've been dawdling for too long, and finally Brother Hei's impatient voice came from outside: "Little Huangzi, is the old cock woman you brought out ready? Send them back, we still have business to do today Woolen cloth!"

Old chicken woman, what a nasty name, but in fact I am really an old chicken, let alone say it behind my back, even if I say it in front of my face, like Brother Hei, sister Chun For the distinguished guests in front of me, I can only greet them with a smile.

Unexpectedly, Brother Huang would fight for me because of this ugly name: "Brother Hei, her name is Cheng and Xiao Luo, I forbid you to call him that!"

Brother Hei seemed to be angry: "Little Huangzi, you took some wrong medicine early in the morning, do you know who you were talking to?"

Brother Huang didn't make any more noise, and there was silence outside, but my heart was full of waves like a lake that had just been blown by a strong wind.I am even more curious and fond of this incomprehensible brother Huang.

I wiped my mouth, opened the door and walked out.Outside, Brother Hei was glaring at Brother Huang angrily. Although Brother Huang lowered his head, he looked unwilling.

This matter happened because of me, how could I want this young man to suffer another accident because of me, I walked up to Brother Hei pretending to be coquettish, and said softly: "Oh brother Hei, you are the one who does great things, Don't get too fussy with these juniors!"

Brother Hei pushed away: "Go, go, stand on the side, you don't have a place to talk here!"

After speaking, he yelled at Brother Huang: "What are you standing there for? You've had enough fun, and you've had enough fun. Hurry up and call Sister Chun's people to pick them up!"

Brother Huang gave me a complicated look, then picked up the phone, and soon heard him say on the phone:
"Brother Biao, you can take them back!"

I hoped that I could walk back like yesterday, so there might be opportunities on the way, but now the hope is shattered again, Brother Biao and the others will not let us have the opportunity to walk like yesterday.Soon, the familiar sound of a car came from outside the door.

Brother Huang made a gesture of invitation to me, and walked out by himself. I could only follow and walked out. Outside, the other two girls who came out with me were already standing beside the car, When I was about to get in the car, seeing me coming out, I muttered dissatisfiedly: "Miss Luo, you can really dawdle!"

I didn't make a sound, but turned around and looked at Brother Huang with the same complicated mood. At this time, Brother Huang walked up to me and asked abruptly, "Are the pickles delicious just now?"

Ah, pickles, that’s right, there were pickles in the breakfast brought by Brother Huang just now, but I didn’t eat them at all!
And why did Brother Huang ask this question out of nowhere?Is there any mystery hidden in the pickles?

Seeing that I was confused, Brother Huang shook his head: "It's okay, just ask casually, in our hometown, they say eat pickles to hangover!"

As soon as Brother Huang finished speaking, he heard a girl chuckle and say, "Sister Luo, I didn't expect you to be so old, and there is such a handsome guy who cares and loves you so much. I also drank a lot of wine last night." , why no one let me eat pickles to hangover!"

Brother Huang's face turned red when he heard this, he waved his hand embarrassedly, and then strode towards the courtyard.

I watched his back, and when I was feeling infinitely sad and confused, Brother Biao said: "Cheng Xiaoluo, don't dawdle, get in the car!"

As soon as Brother Biao finished speaking, the other girl who was silent just now also said jealously: "Yes, yes, Miss Luo, get in the car, seeing how affectionate this handsome man is for you, I will definitely return it in the future." Will come for you!"

can you?Will there still be such an opportunity?If I can meet him again next time, I'd like to ask why he behaves so strangely.

I had to get in the car, I didn't make a sound all the way, just looked out of the window silently, my mind was full of every move and every word that Brother Huang said to me, but the more I thought about it, the more I couldn't understand this Brother Huang Behind the strange behavior, there is something unknown hidden in the end.

When I stood again in this small courtyard where I had been imprisoned for almost ten years, I really had mixed feelings in my heart.

Yesterday I was full of longing, thinking that as long as I stepped out of this courtyard gate, I would never have to come back.But at this moment, I am full of despair, I really hate God, why do you treat me like this, if you don't give me the ending you want, why give me hope?

As the saying goes, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. Although I have been back in this yard for a few days, I have been in a trance like a dream, so that I make mistakes one after another, not because I forgot to dry the washed clothes, It's just that Sister Chun just told her what to do, but she forgot all about it.

Naturally, I was completely unaware of this change in me, but the people around me had already talked about it.One day, Zi Qiong, the most popular girl in the courtyard, brought a dress to me early in the morning and said, "Miss Luo, help me wash this dress, I have an important dinner tonight waiting to wear it!"

I smiled and replied, "Leave it alone! I promise I won't miss your business!"

I can't say how busy this day was, anyway, I spent it in a daze.After dinner, I just finished cleaning the dining room with the kitchen staff, when I saw Ziqiong walking towards me and asked, "Miss Luo, have my clothes been washed?"

I slapped my head, oops, I completely forgot about it.I lowered my head in embarrassment, and said with a hum that only mosquitoes could hear: "I'm sorry, I forgot!"

Naturally, Ziqiong didn't hear my sorry, but she guessed the end of the matter from the shame on my face.Angrily, she jumped in front of me, grabbed my chest and shouted loudly: "What do you mean? I told you again and again, I must want this dress today!"

While struggling with Ziqiong's entanglement with me, I tried to excuse myself: "I'm sorry, I really didn't mean it!"

Ziqiong continued to yell persistently: "I think you did it on purpose, don't think everyone can't see it, you think that if someone points you out once, you can pretend to be an elephant with green onions in your nose!"

This is really a great injustice, I really never had such an idea, I raised my head wronged and said: "Ziqiong, don't talk nonsense, please, I never had such an idea!"

Ziqiong snorted heavily, let go of her hand holding my chest and said: "If you have such an idea, you can go and tell Sister Chun yourself!"

Tell Miss Chun?I turned around suspiciously, only to realize that Sister Chun was standing behind me at some point.The way she looked at me was so cold that I couldn't help but shiver.I really can't figure it out, this old hag is already gray-haired and old, but I'm still so afraid of her.

After I lowered my head for a long time, I slowly spit out the word "Sister Chun".Sister Chun sneered when she heard this, which was the answer.

That laughter was like the thunder before the storm, reminding me, no, there will be a storm soon.

Sure enough, as soon as Sister Chun stopped laughing, she walked up to me and slapped me on the face quickly, hard and accurately.Damn, I'm already getting old, but the strength is still so strong. I clutched my hot left cheek, and my anger began to be aroused a little bit. I raised my face stubbornly, and stared at Sister Chun.

When Sister Chun saw that I dared to be so disrespectful to her, she became even more angry, and she yelled: "Cheng Xiaoluo, don't think that I, Sister Chun, is really old and will use you for help. Tell you, I have to clean up your little girl." You little bastard, I have plenty of ways!"

I know that what Sister Chun said is not a threat, but barefoot people are not afraid of wearing shoes. I used to naively think that as long as I have the opportunity to step out of this courtyard gate, I can escape from here, but with this After testing the waters once, I found out that I was really naive. It was a time when I was discouraged, so no matter how cruel Sister Chun said, I was not afraid at all, and my eyes were still staring at her like copper bells. , and also sneered: "I have never doubted Sister Chun's ability, but because I, Cheng Xiaoluo, have been your cow and horse for ten years, I still have an unfeeling request. You'd better end Lin Xiuer like you did back then." Same, give me a happy time!"

I don't know which nerve my words hurt Sister Chun. After hearing what I said, she seemed to be stupid all of a sudden. It's no wonder that since Lin Xiu'er died, I never said this dead word again, but now The word "death" came out of my mouth so suddenly, it's no wonder that Sister Chun didn't feel a chill in her heart. After all, the contrast between Lin Xiuer before and after she was so focused on looking for death was too great.

I still stared at Sister Chun, really hoping to make her really angry, so I also pulled out my gun and shot me.

It's a pity that Sister Chun didn't follow my wishes, she actually walked away slowly under my angry gaze.

I watched her back, and suddenly found that Sister Chun's steps were a little faltering. This is not the Sister Chun who walks like flying in my memory!Through the big glass in the lobby, I also saw my own face covered with crow's feet, it seems that we are all old.

(End of this chapter)