The Lost Heart of the Five Parts

Chapter 54 There is nothing more sad than death
Xiaohua helped An Xiaoyu wipe the tears off her face, but she didn't know how to comfort An Xiaoyu, just because An Xiaoyu's pain was beyond the comprehension of others, because no one could have imagined that in that wordless world, An Xiaoyu No one can understand how much pain Xiaoyu has endured all this time, and what this situation means to An Xiaoyu.

All hopes were completely shattered the moment Wan'er appeared. For An Xiaoyu, all the dreams she was looking forward to had completely disappeared. Once, An Xiaoyu hoped that Wan'er would come back, because she didn't want to see Chen Lianqiu was sad, but when Wan'er really came back, An Xiaoyu realized that once Wan'er came back, she wouldn't even be a stand-in.

An Xiaoyu didn't know how she was brought back into the room by Xiao Hua, nor how long time had passed since then. In short, if it wasn't for the constant thunder, An Xiaoyu didn't know how long it would have taken her to get back to the room. Come back to the reality in front of her. Although she really doesn't want to return to this reality, she also knows that there is no dreamland in this world that she can escape from.

Stumbling down from the bed, An Xiaoyu walked to the window, watching the gloomy weather outside, the pattering raindrops fell on the window, An Xiaoyu's vision became more and more blurred.

"Ma'am, why are you up?"

Xiaohua walked to An Xiaoyu's side and helped An Xiaoyu onto the bed, but couldn't say a word.

"What about Lianqiu?"

Uncharacteristically, An Xiaoyu didn't call Brother Qiu like she used to, because now she has understood too many things, maybe the phrase "Brother Qiu" should not have been changed to her name from the very beginning, although An Xiaoyu has too much yearning and love. Hope, but in the face of the ruthless reality, An Xiaoyu already knows that things that do not belong to her should learn to keep a distance.

"He He……"

Xiaohua didn't know how to answer An Xiaoyu. In fact, Chen Lianqiu just went out with Xue Wan, but Xiaohua didn't want to mention the word Xue Wan in front of An Xiaoyu, because Xiaohua knew clearly that the name Xue Wan What does it mean to An Xiaoyu.

"What's up with him?"

An Xiaoyu seemed to have forgotten about Xue Wan's matter, and asked without any scruples, but Xiaohua was in a dilemma, wondering if she should tell the truth.

"He has something to go out."

Xiaohua tries her best not to irritate An Xiaoyu anymore, because the current An Xiaoyu is no longer the An Xiaoyu she was before, if there is any trouble, An Xiaoyu may collapse, Xiaohua really doesn't want to see such a thing happen .

Something... went out...

Although Xiaohua had already said this sentence very carefully, An Xiaoyu suddenly remembered something that she shouldn't have thought of.

"Is it with Wan'er?"

Xiaohua hesitated for a long time before she nodded lightly, looking at An Xiaoyu, her eyes were closed, Xiaohua couldn't see her eyes, so she couldn't guess what An Xiaoyu was thinking at this time.

"lady……"

"I'm fine, you go to work first."

An Xiaoyu's gestures were calm, without any abnormality, but after Xiaohua left, An Xiaoyu's broken and desperate eyes betrayed her heartache so easily.

An Xiaoyu felt that her heart seemed to have been torn apart, and she couldn't stop it. If she could stop this pain now, An Xiaoyu would not hesitate to pay any price, but what made An Xiaoyu puzzled was that she was so heartbroken, But no more tears could flow, as if his own tears had been dried up.

There is nothing more sad than death...

In the past, An Xiaoyu never believed that there is such sorrow in the world, which can make people so desperate, but now she completely believes it, because her heart is dead, An Xiaoyu doesn't know what else in this world can make people feel so sad. I have found hope again, and what else can I believe in.

A burst of thunder echoed in my ears. An Xiaoyu came to the window again and looked up at the dark sky. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it seemed that she didn't want to stop at all. With such a heavy rain, I really don't know when it will be sunny .

An Xiaoyu leaned against the window, her exhaustion caused An Xiaoyu to fall to the floor, looking at the gloomy weather outside, listening to the sound of rain, it started to rain in An Xiaoyu's heart, the rain outside might soon turn cloudy It was sunny, but the rain in An Xiaoyu's heart didn't know if there was a chance to stop.

The heavy rain continued until night and still didn't stop. Familiar footsteps sounded in the corridor, but An Xiaoyu didn't have the slightest mood to pay attention. When Chen Lianqiu came back in the past, even though he knew that Chen Lianqiu would not pay attention to him, But An Xiaoyu is still looking forward to it. At that time, An Xiaoyu felt satisfied as long as she could see Chen Lianqiu, but now, An Xiaoyu doesn't want to see Chen Lianqiu again, because by Chen Lianqiu's side, Xue Wan must be there too. .

The sound of footsteps from far to near finally disappeared in my ears. An Xiaoyu just glanced at the door. It has been less than two days since Xue Wan appeared, but her world has been completely turned upside down. Even if it is a lie, at this time I can no longer lie to myself.

For An Xiaoyu, her road has come to an end. An Xiaoyu doesn't want to think about how to go on in the future, and she doesn't have the energy to think about it. At this moment, the only thing An Xiaoyu thinks about is to forget it like this Well, why worry about what will happen in the future, who knows how long your own future will be.

The sky was completely dark, and lightning came in through the window from time to time, but no one saw An Xiaoyu's pale face, and no one knew that her heart was broken.

"Lianqiu, what's wrong with you?"

Seeing Chen Lianqiu's absent-minded look, Xue Wan actually guessed the reason, but she knew that Chen Lianqiu would not admit it, so she simply pretended not to know anything.

"It's nothing, I just feel that the rain is very heavy today."

"Yeah, it hasn't rained so much for a long time."

Xue Wan followed Chen Lianqiu's words without contradicting him at all, even though Xue Wan was so clear that what Chen Lianqiu said was not true at all, but...

A voice echoed in her ears, and Xue Wan lowered her head helplessly. When will she be able to end this kind of life completely? Her request is so simple, but it has not been realized until today...

"Wan'er, what are you thinking?"

"No."

Chen Lianqiu's expression was a bit dignified, he didn't know if it was his own illusion or it was true, Chen Lianqiu always felt that after coming back this time, Wan'er seemed to have changed, and sometimes, Chen Lianqiu even felt that she didn't know her. She does.

"Wan'er, where have you been all these years?"

"I……"

Xue Wan avoided Chen Lianqiu's eyes. This question... was the last thing Xue Wan wanted to bring up. Sensing Xue Wan's strangeness, Chen Lianqiu did not continue to ask, and gave up asking this question just like before.

"I'm sorry, Wan'er, I assure you that I won't ask this question again in the future."

Looking at Chen Lianqiu, Xue Wan's eyes were full of guilt, it's not that she didn't tell him, it's just that... she really has too many difficulties.

"No, Lianqiu, I should be the one who should say I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do this. It's just... please forgive me. If possible, I will definitely tell you one day."

At this time, Xue Wan really wanted to tell Chen Lianqiu like this, but she couldn't, she couldn't do this, absolutely not, for him.

A thunderstorm streaked across the sky. Hearing the thunder, An Xiaoyu seemed to be awakened in an instant. A thought flashed in her mind that she had escaped many times before, to leave here.

Thinking of leaving, An Xiaoyu felt unbelievable. How many times, more than one person persuaded her to leave, but she was refused by all kinds of reasons. Although every reason was so far-fetched, but now, An Xiaoyu She wanted to leave so desperately, she didn't want to think about the consequences at all.

(End of this chapter)