Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 15 After You Gone, Memories Miss Thin

In September, when the hibiscus flowers were withering, a boring and long summer vacation was finally over.

In just over a month, many people and things have changed.

I no longer miss a man named Lin Yuehe day and night, I no longer have any expectations for Ning Qinglan's new work, and I even lost the only lawless friend who "was born to die" who could play around with me, Cheng Shanan.

Youth is as obscure as a crappy pencil drawing, without color, without aura, only boundless depression and troubles.

On the morning of September [-]st, I had breakfast and was about to report to school when I suddenly heard a loud noise coming from the next door. Through the window, I saw trucks carrying furniture coming in and out of the gate.

Ning Qinglan, who was a little thinner again, packed the dishes and said that a new neighbor moved in next door.

I had no interest and ignored her. I picked up the schoolbag hanging on the wall, changed my shoes and prepared to go out.Ning Qinglan was embarrassed, wiped her hands on the apron, and said, I'll take you out and see your new neighbors.

Throughout the summer vacation, this dull and awkward situation between our mother and daughter has been maintained.

The sky was blue and the sun was too bright.A group of pigeons flew across the sky in September. Under the shadow of the pigeons' wings, I saw a girl in a bright yellow dress shuttle among the furniture movers, shining brightly like a golden sunflower.

And she turned her face at the right time, and saw me with a glance.

"Hey, Bosha!" She waved her hand to me joyfully, and then ran over lightly and quickly like a deer.

"Are you moving?" I asked.

She smiled sweetly: "Yes. Your family lives here?"

I nodded.

"Hey——" She turned her head and smiled even brighter. She raised her small hand like a bamboo shoot and waved it not far away. A boy in white short-sleeved blue pants who was helping a worker move the sofa turned around. sweat.

It was Lin Beifeng.

When he saw that it was me, his expression changed slightly. He couldn't tell whether it was joy or disgust, but... the kind and friendly smile he used to see every time he saw me was missing.

He walked over slowly, Ye Weiyang handed over a small light yellow handkerchief at the right time, he took it, symbolically wiped his sweaty forehead twice, and whispered "Thank you".

"From now on, Sha Sha and you will be neighbors, isn't it really destined?" She smiled, her eyebrows and eyes were curved, and her nose was wrinkled like a cute kitten.

But I felt uncomfortable in my heart. I can't say whether it was because of his sudden indifference to me, or because whenever I saw this face that was very similar to Lin Yuehe's outline, my heart would be deeply stimulated.

I put on a colder and smellier face than his, turned around and walked away.

"What's the matter, Shasha, why are people so rude when they talk to you?" Ning Qinglan's voice was behind her, at some point, she came out of the courtyard and stood in front of Ye Weiyang with a light smile on her face.

"This is auntie, she has a real temperament." Wei Young's mouth is always as sweet as honey, and Ning Qinglan seems to like her very much, with her brows and eyes wide open and a faint smile: "This girl has a weird temper, don't take it for granted." .”

"Aunt Qinglan." Lin Beifeng called out to her suddenly.

"You are..." Ning Qinglan was stunned. After seeing Lin Beifeng's young and handsome face, which was exactly the same as Lin Yuehe's face more than ten years ago, she was shocked and speechless.

"His name is Lin Beifeng, and he is his nephew." I said indifferently from the side.

Then I walked away, with long strides, choosing, as always, the grassy and secluded path instead of the wide open road that could pass through cars and trucks.Perhaps, I am a different kind in the world, like weeds under my feet, desolate, selfish, growing alone and wild.

The registration office on the first floor of the school was crowded with parents and students. I squeezed through the crowd and finally paid the tuition fee. When I came out again, my clothes were almost soaked in sweat.

Sitting down in the shade of a tree beside the flower bed, the hibiscus flowers blown by the wind are falling on my shoulders one by one.

I remembered that when it rained last time, Cheng Shanan stood here with an umbrella and shouted to me with a smile on his face: "Thin sand! Thin sand!"

"Bao Sha!" When I was in a trance, someone slapped me heavily on the shoulder. I turned around in surprise and almost called out Cheng Shanan's name, but I didn't expect to see Zhang Nuanlu's more round and smooth face.

"A holiday, Nuanya, you gained weight again." I said dumbly.She rolled my eyes at me, grabbed my hand and bit it fiercely, then sat down beside me and whispered in my ear: "Big news!"

"Ms. Lin... is gone!"

"... "

"Ms. Lin is gone!" She stared at me nervously and repeated it again.

"Yeah." I continued blankly.

"Ms. Lin is gone! I'm going to Ningxia!" She jumped up, and Xiaopang's hands were pounding on my shoulders, with a bit of a posture of hating iron and steel, "He went to a small mountain village to teach, maybe I'm not coming back in this life! Bao Sha, did you hear that?"

"Die!" I hit her, "Just leave."

"Don't you have a crush on him, like him, love him? Are you so indifferent?" Her eyes were full of puzzlement and her face was full of doubts.

I sneered twice, hugging my shoulders, feeling the coolness penetrating my heart from my back, and the hibiscus leaves above my head making a lonely swishing sound in the wind.

Quietly, it is the early cool of autumn.

"I'm leaving." Shaking off the fallen flowers on my shoulders, I got up and walked, every step was like stepping on the lonely end of youth.

The man who gave me my heart for the first time in this life has completely disappeared. I know that this absurd and rebellious youth feast should also end here.

"Where are you going?" Xiaonuan grabbed me and said hurriedly, "I'll go with you."

"Go and see Cheng Shanan."

M City Central Hospital, the wind is cool and the clouds are low.

Unexpectedly, the sky in early autumn is so changeable. The leaden gray clouds cover the red sunset that should have burned the sky, like a sudden encounter, freezing the mood of spring.

Xiao Nuan and I brought Cheng Shanan's favorite oranges and lychees to see him.

Although the hospital is clean and white, and the corridor outside the intensive care unit 502 is extremely clean, I always feel that the hospital is the most unclean place.How can a monkey-like person like Cheng Shanan bear the smell of disinfectant every day?However, what I'm more worried about is whether his eyes are really going to be blind.

I still don't believe this can be true.

After wandering outside the door for a long time, it was Xiao Nuan who reached out and knocked on the door. I huddled against the wall, fearing that I would bump into Cheng’s mother Jiang Meirong again. She stared at a pair of deep eyes and said that she would exchange mine for his son. It was really scary, as if my eyes were going to be gouged out by her the next moment.

"Excuse me, is Cheng Shanan here?" Xiao Nuan asked the middle-aged man who came out of the door with her head tilted and her face cute, wearing a thin blue gauze skirt.

"Who?" The man asked with a wooden expression.

"Cheng Shanan, he is the patient who lives here, a tall and handsome boy." Xiao Nuan stretched out her hand and gestured.

"I don't know, I just transferred in today." After the man finished speaking and slammed the door, Xiao Nuan turned to me and asked, "Are you sure it's this ward?"

"It's not wrong, it's here." I was a little panicked, and continued to pat on the door. Just in time, a nurse came from the corridor. I hurriedly stopped her and asked, "Where is the patient who lived here?"

"You mean Cheng Shanan?" It turned out that the little nurse also recognized him, so I nodded repeatedly: "Yes, yes, has he been discharged from the hospital?"

"Are you his classmate? Yesterday he had an operation, why didn't you come to see him." The little nurse said regretfully, "The operation had a high chance of success, but..." She shook her head, and inserted her hands into the white nurse's mouth. Put it in the pocket of the clothes, sighed and wanted to leave.

"Nurse!" I yelled, "what's the matter with him?"

"He..." The nurse hesitated to speak. Under my pleading eyes, she said regretfully, "The operation...failed. It may involve the brain nerves. He was sent to the provincial hospital overnight by his parents for treatment yesterday... As for What happened, I dare not speak nonsense."

The nurse left, and I was completely stunned. The bag containing the fruit in my hand fell to the ground, and golden oranges rolled everywhere.

Xiao Nuan kept tugging on my sleeve and asked repeatedly: "What should I do? What should I do? Bosha, Bosha, Bosha..."

There was a whistling sound in my ear, like thousands of waves and broken rocks rushing and rushing towards my chest. In an instant, blood flowed like a river.

(End of this chapter)