Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 14 You took away the light from half of my world
I'd love to get into a fight with someone.

Among the people I know who is good at venting excess youthful passion with violence, is Cheng Shanan.

I hurriedly got rid of the man and woman who were frozen in the wind, and ran to Cheng Shanan's house.

When I went to Cheng's house and knocked on the door, the nanny said that his young master was taking a shower and asked me to wait.

Not in the mood to wait, just as she was about to leave, she heard Cheng Shanan yelling and running down the stairs.He was bare-chested, holding a towel in his hand and wiping the drops of water off his face, giving off a healthy and sunny youthful glow.

"Take me to play!" I said hurriedly with a cold face.

"Okay, what do you want to play?" He grinned, a little surprised, but also very happy.

"Whatever stimulates you to play."

Cheng Shanan lowered his head and took a closer look at my face, and asked, "What's wrong with Miss? You look so unhappy?"

I pushed his head: "What nonsense, hurry up, put on your clothes and follow me!"

Cheng Shanan asked the driver to drive us to Chengnan Bridge, and then he asked the driver to go back, and the two of us walked under the bridge. As far as I know, that area is where the city's entertainment facilities are concentrated.

He took me to a billiards club, which he said was the safest in comparison.

Although I prefer more exciting places such as bars and karaoke halls, Cheng Shanan refuses to let me: "I said earlier that I would bring you to the billiard hall, please satisfy me this time."

I finally discovered the advantages of Cheng Shanan, that is, he is actually very considerate, but if he doesn't express it directly, I will take it for granted without guilt, and I will not show the slightest gratitude.

The big K billiards club has good facilities and high-end decoration. There are more than 30 billiard tables, almost full of people.

Cheng Shanan and the boss seem to be very familiar. Although there are many players, as soon as he arrives, the man in his 40s and 9s smiles and shouts at the waiter: "Prepare table [-] for this handsome young man."

Cheng Shanan bought two bottles of black tea for me, then picked up the club leaning on the side, sharpened the club head, tilted his head and said to me: "I'll play a round first, you watch carefully, pay attention to my posture and angle .I'll teach you later."

"Ah."

In fact, I was absent-minded, and my mind was full of what happened just now. I was thinking, what did Lin Yuehe mean by "farewell"?Where is he going?When did he and Ning Qinglan meet again?

While thinking wildly, Cheng Shanan hit one shot and two balls went into the hole. He waved to me happily: "Come on, let's see how I played just now."

"Table No. 9 is ours. We have already reserved it. What's the matter with you? Is the business still going?" In front of the boss of the billiard hall, he pointed and cursed, and some of them stretched out their hands and kept pushing and shoving the boss' neckline. It was obvious that they wanted to mess things up.

The boss explained: "You guys haven't been here for a long time. Recently, table No. 9 was reserved by that young man. Can I change another table for you?"

A group of young people with hair dyed in various colors quickly turned their attention to our side.

The two leading ones are very familiar, one yellow and one red are bright and dazzling like torches, and they were also surprised when they saw me: "Oh, isn't this the little sister?" I found a green dragon, he leaned over, picked up a club and tapped it on the table, the tip of the club suddenly turned and stopped at the throat of my neck.

"What do you want to do?" Cheng Shanan immediately swung the cue, approaching the red-haired, crew-cut face, raising his voice an octave: "I haven't lived enough in the game, have you been arrogant as soon as you come out! Get out of here!"

I was also full of annoyance, turned my head to the left, and hit my flat-headed round stomach with a fist, cursing: "Get the fuck out of my way, my mother is having a bad day today..." Then I was planning to have a good time with them After a hard work, the billiard hall has already started to be chaotic.

The young man with yellow hair took the lead in overturning the tables and chairs for people to rest next to the ball table. There was a loud noise, the glass of the counter was smashed, and the LCD TV on the wall was poked a big hole with a club. blue smoke.

"Brothers, this brat is the one who got big brother into trouble last time, he must be killed today, let me..."

The scene suddenly became chaotic and out of control, the seven or eight youths each copied a club, and soon surrounded Cheng Shanan.

I was so anxious that I shouted from the side: "Don't mess around, or I'll call the police..." It doesn't matter if I don't say this, as soon as the voice fell, the yellow-haired youth swung a club on Cheng Shanan...

No matter how Cheng Shanan was a student who could fight at school, he was a student after all. He was just a thin boy of fifteen or sixteen years old. He seemed too weak in front of such a group of strong and sturdy young people who were used to fighting No matter how hard you try to resist, you still suffer a big loss.

I also swung a cue to join the melee, but was dragged aside by the club owner, "Silly girl, go to the police, call the police!" He handed me a mobile phone, picked up the cue himself, A gangster was hit hard on the back.

As soon as I got the phone, before I could dial 110 with my fingers, a miserable cry of pain came from my ear.

I dropped the phone, ran over quickly, and desperately got into the middle of the crowd. Cheng Shanan, who had been kicked and punched, was lying on the ground, with his hands tightly covering his face, groaning in pain.

"It's a fatality, run!" The crowd scattered, and the people who had fought before and those in the billiard hall rushed to the door.

"Cheng Shanan, Cheng Shanan, how are you?" I threw myself on him and reached out to touch him, but my fingertips were covered with sticky and hot blood.The blood splattered down from his face stained the white T-shirt on his body red, he raised his hands in panic, the blood was dripping drop by drop from the finger crevice of Cheng Shanan's left eye, which was tightly clutched.

...

He lay quietly in front of me, his expression in deep sleep, like the pure face of a baby.

In the hospital, the monotonous whiteness spread all over the sky. In my eyes, it seemed like a heavy snowfall.

This is the Cheng Shanan I have never seen before, calm and serene, like a pool of crystal-clear sunlight, softly and obediently scattered on a vast expanse of white snow.

Even though a thick layer of white gauze was wrapped around his breathtaking eyes, it still couldn't hide the youthful and heroic spirit of the young man who grew up like a jointed green bamboo.

I stood in front of him like a puppet, and wanted to reach out to touch his eyes, but just as I stretched out my fingers, I was startled by the sound of the door and retracted my fingertips.

The door was pushed open, and I turned around in a hurry. If the Cheng family saw me here, they would beat me to death on the spot.

It was the little nurse who made the ward rounds. Seeing me, the round-faced female nurse handed me a thermometer and said, "Clip it on for him. I'll get it in 10 minutes."

I accepted it obediently, and when the nurse closed the door and turned around, one hand was suddenly held tightly by someone.

"Baosha." He smiled like the warmest sunshine in December, "I knew it was you."

The hand was gripped tightly, and the scorching temperature spread from the fingertips to the palm.I felt very guilty, and said anxiously: "Your mother is coming back, I...I'm leaving."

"Don't go." He tilted his upper body slightly, making a gesture to hold me back, "Stay with me for a while."

The quiet ward was filled with the fragrance of lilies, and the afternoon sun shone through thinly, sprinkled on my hair and eyelashes, but he couldn't see it.

"It's a pity I can't see you," he said.

Deep shame filled my heart immediately. I put his hand on my face and couldn't help but choked up and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Yesterday, I was still listening to people say these three words to me over and over again. At this moment, I realized that these three words are actually the most powerless and despicable thing in the world. Sorry.

He rubbed the back of my hand lightly, with a smile still in his voice: "Silly, don't keep imitating me when you know you're wrong, be good, don't be self-willed and angry, your mother is not easy... "

"That's what she deserves." With tears hanging on my eyelashes, I still said dumbly.I almost wanted to tell him what I saw yesterday, but I swallowed the words abruptly, and I couldn't say it. From yesterday, I swore that I would never forgive these two people I loved the most.

Now I feel a sense of loneliness and helplessness.

Cheng Shanan didn't express any further opinions, but just pinched my face with his fingertips, I felt the pain, I cried out ahh, and beat back habitually, before I could say "I'm going to die", the door was pushed Open, next to the little nurse who came to get the thermometer, a beautiful woman in her thirties and 40s stared at me with a pale face.

"Nannan." She called out, and then watched me walking all the way, with sharp eyes, as if I had eaten his son into my stomach.

Cheng Shanan's hand moved in my palm, I quickly let go, stood up and dodged aside.His mother, Jiang Meirong, is a well-known powerful woman in M ​​City. Not only is she strong in her career, but she also treats her son and husband with a slap in the face. Cheng Shanan said that whenever he does some bad things outside, he will never miss a meal when he returns home. Received Jiang Meirong's fat beating.

"Are you Qinglan's daughter?" Her eyes are slender and charming, like a calm female leopard when she is not smiling, I can't help being a little intimidated.

I nodded and moved my feet: "I'll go first." Looking back at Cheng Shanan, the corners of his mouth were drawn into a straight line, obviously very unhappy.

Jiang Meirong suddenly looked up to the sky and sighed, and shook her head weakly: "I really don't know what to say about this matter... My son's eye is blinded because of you, girl, you can see what to do."

"Mom..." Cheng Shanan muttered dissatisfiedly, but accepted the fact that he was blind in one eye.

"I..." But I couldn't accept it, I couldn't accept that a sunny boy would lose half of the world's light from now on because of me.

I retreated weakly, forced myself into the corner of the ward, and shook my head again and again.

"I don't believe it. How could Cheng Shanan be blind? The doctor must have made a mistake."

Jiang Meirong's voice suddenly increased: "I also hope that I made a mistake! But I have traveled all over the hospitals in M ​​City, and even invited well-known domestic experts for consultations. No one, no one said that his left hand Eyes can be saved! It’s all because of you, it’s all because of you!!”

She pointed at my face suddenly, her nails dyed dark blue Danko almost touched the pupil of my left eye.

"Otherwise, I'll take yours in exchange." Although these words were low, they were cold to the bone.

I shuddered and huddled in the corner of the wall at a loss, I forced back the unbearable tears every time I thought about it.

Cheng Shanan was obviously in a hurry, struggling to get up from the hospital bed, and activated the infusion equipment and treatment equipment beside the bed, causing the nurse and Jiang Meirong to rush to pull him.

"You just let me die!" Cheng Yanan complained to Jiang Meirong, "Those bastards did it, what's the matter with Baosha! If you don't like having a blind son who will burden you in the future, leave me alone, let me Fend for yourself!"

Jiang Meirong's delicately made-up face turned pale in an instant, and her cold eyes were filled with tears from being a mother.

"Nannan..."

Cheng Shanan kicked the instruments and equipment that had fallen on the ground irritably, and her tall body in a striped hospital gown wobbled towards me.

"Thin sand." He stretched out his hand and fumbled wildly.

I hid in the corner and didn't move, because Jiang Meirong's hateful gaze was like a sharp knife cutting down and scratching my heart.

His hands were still waving blindly in the air, and he said loudly as if comforting: "Don't worry, I will be discharged from the hospital after a few days of rest. I will still sit behind you when the time comes, and we will still go to and from school together. During the exam, you can I have to copy the paper..."

After speaking, realizing that Jiang Meirong was present, the blindfolded boy stuck out his tongue playfully, then stretched out a hand and waved in the air: "I'm fine, let's go back."

"Bosha, wait for me to go back to school."

"Yeah!" I held back the choking in my throat, and I promised strongly, I didn't even dare to look at Jiang Meirong, and hurried out of the hospital.

Ning Qinglan stood at the door and looked around, her figure in the twilight was like the loneliness in an oil painting.

When my heavy and slow footsteps sounded on the path full of weeds, she rushed up to meet her: "My child, Mom has been waiting for you all afternoon, and school is about to start. Have you finished your summer homework?"

"Cheng Shanan is blind." I pushed her away, my voice was like a dry piece of dead wood.

She was stunned, with a confused look on her face: "Who?"

Look, this is my mother. She has never been to my school once since she was in middle school. Except for the neighbor Xiaonuan and Shire, she doesn't know any of my classmates or teachers.

Of course, except for Lin Yuehe.

She doesn't know who Cheng Shanan is, so I don't intend to tell her about the catastrophe I have caused. No matter whether I can bear it or not, I will smash my teeth and swallow it.

I went back to my room and fell asleep with my head covered, and Ning Qinglan came in after me.He patted my quilt lightly, hesitated for a long time, and said slowly: "He's gone."

"You...don't worry, mom...will never do that kind of thing again. "

I didn't answer, that him, I don't want to think about him anymore.After a long time, she couldn't wait for any movement, let out a faint sigh, and walked out the door.

But I fell asleep in a daze.

Inexplicably, the melody of Matthew Lane's "Bressanone" kept lingering in my ears. Under the sky full of stars, a train rumbled and galloped across the barren field, taking away the body of a tall and thin man without any hesitation. figure.

I woke up in the early morning with a tight pain in my chest.The moonlight came through the window faintly. It was such a peaceful and peaceful night. I rested my head on my arms and thought about many things and many people.

Youth is like a roaring train, whether it is pain or joy, it will be driven far away by irresistible time.

(End of this chapter)