Sadness begins with your name

Chapter 5 Displaced, Living by Faith
Because of the rumors of her puppy love with Cheng Shanan, Ning Qinglan hit me again.

"Women are most afraid of contempt. If you do something wrong, you will always be looked down upon by others." I remember the way she said this while beating me with a bamboo stick. Learn well, shameless.

She thought that after her father left, she would find more men for trysts, but she didn't expect that whenever some men with malicious intentions came to the door, she would be thrown out without mercy.I've seen it with my own eyes once, a fat man slapped his hands and feet on her body, and was pushed away by her again and again. She couldn't escape, and she touched the feather duster on the man's head a few times.

The fat man was blown away, and Ning Qinglan stood in the yard panting with her hips crossed and scolded: "You stinking men, do you really treat my mother like a whore? Tell you, you are my mother's joy!"

I stood outside the gate, looking at Ning Qinglan with disheveled hair, wearing an old pajamas under the gloomy sky, with a haggard face, feeling desolate for her loneliness from the bottom of my heart.

So, even if her temper is getting more and more irritable, if she doesn't do a word or a thing right, she jumps up and slaps me twice, I can only grit my teeth and swallow my tears.

Only in the sleepless nights do I hate myself for being born into such a broken family.

Every night, she writes at her desk, and the lights and coughing have become what I see and hear before going to bed.

When she is happy, she will cook a pot of fragrant and sticky porridge, and then ask me innocently: "I wrote a new book again. I named it..."Tumi", Shasha, how do you feel?"

Tea millet.

The flowers are in full bloom.For no reason, I had an ominous premonition, but I still put on a show and said, "Very good."

At this time, she didn't know that I had contacted my father privately.

I once borrowed the phone number from Lin Yuehe's office to call Bo Yuntian.

It's been two months since he left, and to be honest, I miss Dad.However, when he said such words from the phone, my heart was solidly cold.

He said, "Shasha, come to Beijing to study. I'm really worried about leaving you alone by her side."

"If you don't worry, come back, come home, come home Dad." I said in a crying voice.I want to say, Dad, I miss you, Dad, I miss the warm home that used to be.

But Bo Yuntian answered me with a weak sigh: "I can't go back...I've planned to be with your mother..."

"Dad!" I cut him off, anticipating what he was going to say, and I would never accept it.

A woman's voice came softly from the other end of the phone:
"Yun Tian, ​​who are you calling?"

I threw away the receiver with a bang, like a patient suffering from a sudden cerebral infarction, with one side of my body numb.

Lin Yuehe pushed the door open and came in. Seeing that my expression was not right, she hurriedly called out, "What's wrong?"

I was panting heavily, still feeling short of breath: "It's hard. Teacher Lin, I... can't breathe, it's so hard."

I covered my chest, wanting to cry but couldn't, at this moment his warm hand stroked my back, "Calm down, take a deep breath, thin sand. It's okay, it's okay."

The comfort from the closest person is the most unacceptable to a person when he is vulnerable. His warmth made the tears in my body freeze like water that burst a bank, rushing instantly.

"Mr. Lin, I don't have a home anymore..."

I know that what is broken can never be restored.If my hunch is correct, it won't be long before Bo Yuntian will come back - come back and divorce Ning Qinglan.

Many years later, I went through the world and recalled the panic and broken youth, and often thought, if Lin Yuehe, Cheng Shanan, and later Lin Beifeng and Ye Weiyang appeared at that time, maybe I would always be addicted to the lack of family affection, In the shadow and trauma of a broken family, I can't wake up for a lifetime.

(End of this chapter)