Beijing, after all, has nothing to do with me

Chapter 19
After going out, Tao Jie was no longer at a loss as before. Driven by her anger, she walked quickly towards the station. After three stops, she could go directly back to their humble home. The place turned out to be the safest and most appropriate place for her.

Before the person reached the station, a breathless call came from behind, "Tao Zi, Tao Zi, wait a minute!"

The one who caught up was Li Yaoming. He was tall and long-legged. He came up behind her in a few steps, and grabbed her with his hand.

Tao Jie threw him away vigorously, Li Yaoming said "I'm sorry", desperately trying to pull her to his side, but Tao Jie's stubbornness also came up, and he refused to let him succeed, and the two actually went back and forth. A scuffle broke out on the crosswalk.

"Let me go! Let go!" Tao Jie bit and kicked again, the brute force that came from nowhere surprised Li Yaoming.

He didn't know that Tao Jie could no longer bear the grievances in her heart, and tears flowed down her cheeks.

The scuffle stopped suddenly, and the two stood on the side of the street in a daze, with two faces full of grievances.

"Tao Zi, I just told the truth." Li Yaoming was a little frustrated, "Is it wrong to tell the truth? Don't you always hope that I can treat you honestly?"

Tao Jie sniffed hard, she felt that the scene just now was so absurd and so sad.She turned her head to look at the "honest" Li Yaoming, feeling mixed feelings for a moment.

Is he wrong?Where is he wrong?
Is he right?But why am I so sad?
The cold war continued, this time, not only between Tao Jie and Li Yaoming, but also between her and her parents.

For the next day, neither father nor mother contacted Tao Jie again. She gradually calmed down from the initial resentment and wanted to call her father several times. After all, they came so far for themselves. , but she didn't even have the chance to sit together and talk for a while, let alone accompanied the two of them to various scenic spots in Beijing. Although she didn't think it was her fault, as it is now, the family clearly There is nothing more frustrating and unsettling than being in the same place but not interacting with each other.

Holding the phone in her hand, she hesitated again and again, but she still couldn't press the dial button. There were some truths she understood in her heart, but it was not easy to do. She felt that if she called first, then she would be in front of her parents. , Maybe he will always be a heartless child who will not grow up.

There was also a serious long talk between Tao Jie and Li Yaoming, that was after they both left the tea room and arrived home.

"Do you have to stay in Beijing?" Tao Jie asked first.

"In three years, I'm afraid it will be like this." Li Yaoming did not change his tone.

"Why?" Tao Jie frowned, "If you want to start a business, you can do it anywhere, why do you have to be in Beijing?"

Her tone was a bit aggressive, and her features were somewhat similar to her mother's. Li Yaoming seemed to see the old lady with cold and sharp eyes through her, and snorted lightly, "You're not in Beijing, why don't you go to City M?"

Tao Jie could hear a hint of sarcasm in his tone, and she couldn't help feeling angry, "Why can't I go to M city? I can go to Beijing to accommodate you, why can't you accommodate me once?"

"You are really a good baby of your parents!" Li Yaoming half-jokingly and half-seriously wanted to sit over and hug her. He didn't want to discuss this issue anymore. He felt that he had made it very clear. If it wasn't for Tao Jie Didn't Tao Jie stay with her all the time when her parents suddenly came here?

His words touched Tao Jie's sore spot invisibly, she pushed him away furiously, gritted her teeth and stared at Li Yaoming, but she didn't know what to say to fight back.

In all fairness, she didn't want to go back to City M either, but Li Yaoming treated her like this, and her self-esteem was seriously bruised all of a sudden!

"Hey! Just kidding, why are you so angry!" Li Yaoming was taken aback by her fierce reaction, and couldn't help thinking in his heart that Tao Jie's temper seems to be getting hotter and hotter recently, almost to the point of breaking out .

"I don't want to make any jokes with you!" Tao Jie yelled, "You can stay in Beijing if you want, but I don't want to stay in Beijing anymore! Tell us what to do next!"

"Don't just use this to talk about things, okay?" Li Yaoming was also angry, "I told you clearly before you came to Beijing, it may be a little harder in the short term, but I will do my best The ability to pave a way for our future. You also promised well. But what happened after you came?"

Tao Jie stared at him excitedly, listening to his complaints.

"Sometimes I feel that the living is not good, and the next moment I say that the work is not satisfactory. I said I want to start a business, but you refused to support it. Now when your parents come, you are more enthusiastic and clamor to go back. Since you can't bear the hardships, you didn't want to go back. Why are you here?"

Tears fell down, Tao Jie knew that what Li Yaoming said was right, and she seemed to be the one who was wrong, but was she willing to do this?
Seeing her crying, Li Yaoming shut up. If it wasn't because he was so aggrieved, he wouldn't have poured out those ugly words all at once.

After that, no matter how much he coaxed him, Tao Jie was unwilling to talk to him anymore.

His stubbornness made her gnash her teeth, and it was only today that she realized that her status in Li Yaoming's heart was far inferior to that of Beijing.Realizing this, the city seemed to be opposed to her in her mind.

Getting irritable, she wished she could slap the desk and leave in a hurry!

But where should she go?Do you really want to go back to your parents and be your mother's marionette?

Before she came to Beijing, before she realized this, she might have had no objection, but now, she absolutely does not want to.

Besides, is she really willing to dump Li Yaoming?

Everything condensed into an annoying mess, binding her thoughts, making her even more anxious and irritable this summer.

Li Yaoming first accompanied her carefully and leaned beside her to try to make her happy, but what he said was just scratching the surface of her boots. It couldn't solve the fundamental problem, and could only make Tao Jie more upset. After several times, he also lost his patience. The two are like an old married couple who have spent most of their lives. When they are together, it seems that there is only relative silence left.

Tao Jie likes to sit quietly on the sofa in a daze, gnawing her fingers, actually not thinking about anything, but only this state can make her relax a little.

Li Yaoming seemed to be afraid of disturbing her. Several times, when he received a phone call, he sneaked outside to listen to it. He was still very busy and had to go out after staying at home for a long time. Tao Jie didn't bother to take care of him. Now she needed The ears are quiet.

On Sunday afternoon, Tao Jie was lying on the bed bored, struggling with the hot weather and wondering whether to call her parents, when her cell phone rang suddenly.

Hearing the melodious ringtone, Tao Jie jumped up from the bed in an instant. She had a premonition in an instant that it must be the call from her father.

Picking up the phone to look, sure enough, I guessed right!
"Xiaojie, is it convenient to come out and meet Dad now?" Dad's kind voice rang on the other end of the phone.

In fact, Dad has been used to talking to her in such a polite tone and slow speed since she was a child, but she has never felt so kind and precious like now.

"Is it just Dad?" She still didn't dare to take it lightly. Since her mother argued with Li Yaoming yesterday, Tao Jie's feelings for her mother were somewhat chilled.

"Just me." Dad seemed to sigh softly, "You can choose the location, I'm not familiar with Beijing."

An hour later, Tao Jie sat with her father in an elegant tea room in Zhongguancun.

Dad slowly poured tea into the empty cup in front of Tao Jie. The cup was transparent glass, and even the kettle was made of glass, which was very delicate.

The bubbling heat reminded Tao Jie of his childhood, when he went to his father's school office in winter, he did the same thing now, taking a water bottle, pouring hot water into his teacup, and handing it to Tao Jie to drink.His teacup was refitted from a pickle glass bottle, not as exquisite as the one in front of him, but the white water mist that evaporated was exactly the same.

"Xiaojie, there was something wrong with your mother about what happened yesterday." Dad looked at her face and said slowly, "I've already told her, I hope you don't have any objections to her."

Tao Jie lowered her head slightly, looking at the enchanting mist swirling around the cup.Usually, such an attitude indicates that she still has a problem in her mind, and dads are well aware of their daughters.

"You may not know that when your mother gave birth to you, she had dystocia and hemorrhage. At that time, every half hour in the hospital, a critical illness notice flew in front of me, asking me to decide whether to protect the adult or the child. I almost collapsed."

It was the first time Tao Jie had heard of what Dad said, and she couldn't help pricking up her ears.

"Of course I want to protect my lord. Don't blame me. I didn't know you at that time!" Dad said with a slight smile.

Tao Jie grinned, she could understand Dad's deliberate sense of humor.

"But your mother won't! She must give birth to you. You don't know how stubborn she is! Fortunately, both of you are safe in the end." Dad breathed a long sigh of relief, as if he had just come out of a dangerous situation. Breaking away, in fact, it was more than 20 years ago.

"So your mother's love for you over the years is conceivable, and because of this, she may have taken care of you a little too strictly."

"Mom, she..." Tao Jie wanted to say that it wasn't a matter of being strict or not, so she paused and said, "She shouldn't treat me as her personal property."

Dad nodded, "You're right. I felt it too. So I've been telling her this truth last night and this morning! But you know, some things are hard to turn around all at once. I just want to Let me make you understand that no matter how you say it, your mother loves you, and it is absolutely impossible for her to be malicious to you. She wants to keep you by her side, and she also hopes that you can continue to live like this forever, don’t be deceived, don’t live We have all come from that very difficult time, and we never want our children to go back to the original hardships, that is not romantic at all, on the contrary, it is very sad."

Tao Jie was silent. Compared with the excitement when she first came to Beijing, the current her has indeed become numb in the monotony and sleepiness day after day, without passion.

But she didn't want to give up just now, in that case, even she would despise herself.

"Dad, maybe you're right, but a person's life has to be experienced by oneself, and others can't arrange it for her. I don't have many requirements, I just want to live freely and do whatever I want. I want to live my own life , not someone else arranged for me."

"So, do you feel that your life has reached freedom and doing what you want?" Dad asked lightly.

Tao Jie concluded that, on the contrary, she was entering an unprecedented period of irritability.

"Dad has an old saying that I have to tell you. Although you may think that Dad's thinking is too backward and too feudal, but now is not the time to talk about the truth."

"What?" Tao Jie stared at him puzzled.

"The poor and lowly couples mourn for everything." Dad slowly spit out these words.

Tao Jie was stunned for a moment.

"However," Dad said again, "I didn't come to you today to persuade you to go back with us immediately. You are right, this is your life, and it is up to you to decide. Xiaojie, you have grown up " Dad's last sentence was mixed with a trace of loneliness for no reason, which made Tao Jie's heart soften.

"That you……"

"I'll go back with your mother on the flight tonight." Dad's expression became relaxed again, "Don't worry, Mom won't make things difficult for you anymore. After all, she's just doing it for your own good, but the way is a bit..."

"Dad!" Tao Jie felt ashamed, "Can you... say 'I'm sorry' to my mother for me?"

Dad stared at her for a long time before saying slowly, "Why don't you go and tell her yourself?"

At seven o'clock in the evening, Tao Jie accompanied her parents in the airport waiting hall waiting for boarding.

Mother Tao sat beside her, looked at her for a while, and couldn't help but stretch out her hand to put the few strands of long hair scattered on her forehead behind her head.

"Xiaojie, you should keep your eyes open for everything, you know?" She told her daughter tirelessly.

"Okay! Okay!" Dad smiled and dissuaded her, "How many times have you said that Xiaojie is an adult! You still treat her as a three-year-old child."

Mother opened her mouth, and was very unconvinced and wanted to say something, but in the end she held it back. Tao Jie's trembling lips in the tea room that day when she spoke was still in front of her eyes. That expression made her feel distressed and a little brand-new. of fear.Now that the mother and daughter are finally reconciled, she doesn't want to spoil this rare atmosphere. Some things seem to be rushed, so she can only take her time.

"Dad, Mom, don't worry about me. I know my own affairs well." Tao Jie pursed her lips and said, this seemed to be the first time that she spoke with an equal attitude in front of her parents.

"Where's Li Yaoming?" Dad asked suddenly, as if remembering, a shadow flashed across Tao's mother's face, and it disappeared in an instant.

"Him? Oh, he's working overtime."

"Xiao Li is so busy all day long, and it's quite hard work. You two, please be considerate of each other." Papa Tao said.

"I know."

"Okay, okay, you can board the plane, don't talk about this." Mother Tao glanced at the display screen above her head, and interrupted them impatiently.

Tao Jie watched her parents leave from this side of the security gate, and she kept waving until she could no longer see them.

She turned around, and now, she was the only one left facing the whole of Beijing.

(End of this chapter)