Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 196 False feelings, cheated you?

"Only a few vassals knew about this matter. At that time, I was just born, and a foreign country rebelled. In order to gather the military power in the hands of all the vassals, my father made an agreement with them, that is, to pass on the kingdom The power is placed on me. Before I reach Jiji, if any vassal king can get the power to inherit the country from me, then the future throne will be his. On the contrary, if I live safely until after Jiji, then I will marry Xiao Qin, and this agreement will automatically be invalidated, and all the feudal lords will have to surrender their military power."

Speaking of this, Yu Qinghua's expression became self-deprecating: "Oh, what a ridiculous agreement, the position of a country is just like a child's play."

"But it's also because it looks like a child's play, so those people want to get the national power weapon even more, don't they?"

Having said that, Yu Qinghua's eyes met Gu Fengwan's.

He looked at her flatly: "When did you know the existence of this agreement?"

Yu Qinghua smiled and said: "It's very early...I didn't know it at first, but I saw that paper agreement in the belongings of the queen mother, ha ha, I was very surprised when I saw it, I didn't even know, father Will put such an important thing with me."

Then, Gu Fengwan watched her quietly, and said softly: "You know what that thing is, why did you give it to me?"

Shouldn't he be surprised?

Yu Qinghua thought that she could see his unexpected appearance, but there was nothing, he still looked so indifferent, which made her feel uncomfortable.

He pretended not to care and smiled: "It's really important, huh."

As she said that, she slowly faded the smile from her face, looked at him very solemnly, and said calmly: "But, to me at that time, there is nothing more important than you."

Yes, that's it...

At that time, in An Guo Palace, she had already given her heart to him, and nothing was important to her, because at that time, she could already give up her life for him.

Unknowingly, I fell in love so deeply...

So, when he asked her for the personal treasure box, she gave it to him almost without hesitation, even though she knew a long time ago that after opening that little treasure box, it was a seal, which was a person with the right to decide. The weapon of power is the jade seal of the great merchant.

She obviously knew everything, but why did she still do that?

Why, who can answer...

Isn't the word love that no one can see through since ancient times?
Hehe, she is just a person in the world, how could she escape, she couldn't escape in the previous life, and she couldn't escape in this life...

Hearing Yu Qinghua's words, Gu Fengwan's expression froze for a moment, but it was only fleeting.

Then, he put on his usual expression and said softly, "That's how it is."

Shouldn't he feel guilty?

No, he shouldn't have any guilt, because she did it voluntarily, it has nothing to do with him, if she is willing to give it, he will accept it, it's so simple, it's so natural.

"I thought that I had already seen through everything, from the very beginning, heh, I would never look at that person again, and I would never be fooled by them again. I always thought that I had already escaped, escaped from that person The trap, and escaped from that fate." Yu Qinghua suddenly murmured in a low voice, his tone was so humble, it didn't look like her at all.

"However, I did all my calculations, and I still made a bad calculation. I thought I avoided that round, but I didn't think about it. When I turned around, I fell into another round."

That's right, she thought that this life would be the same as the previous life, and that Qiao Chuliang was her fate, so she had been trying to stay away from him, get rid of him, and wanted to have nothing to do with him.

She did it, and she has nothing to do with Qiao Chuliang.

However, she still lost.

It's because she didn't expect that the catastrophe in this life was not Qiao Chuliang, but Gu Fengwan, the person who disturbed her heartstrings when they first met.

In this life, not only her, but even the woman Concubine Yu was covered in it. She didn't know that there was another person besides Qiao Chuliang, and this person was her real doom in Tsinghua University.

Compared with Gu Fengwan, what is Qiao Chuliang?
It's just that she never thought of it. She thought she had escaped from that fate, but she didn't know that she had been firmly controlled by fate all along.

He thought he had escaped that catastrophe, but in the end, he stepped into another bigger catastrophe.

In the game, she couldn't escape after all.

Gu Fengwan is Su Huaci, and Su Huaci is Gu Fengwan... By the time she realizes this fact, everything is a foregone conclusion.

When the king of Nanyang grandly led the army into the city, she had already come to her senses.

No matter how bold Nanyang King is, he would not dare to risk the disgrace of the world. How could he enter the capital so blatantly?
The reason was simply because he held a very important thing in his hands, that is, the imperial treasure that she personally handed over to Gu Fengwan, the jade seal of the great merchant.

Gu Fengwan is Su Huaci, so it is not a problem for King Nanyang to get that jade seal.

This is a situation they set up long ago. In order to comply with the agreement that Yu Chongxuan made back then, King Nanyang and Prime Minister Zuo set up a completely closed situation for her. On the surface, it was to let Qiao Chuliang charm her, but In fact, the person who was really sent to confuse her was not Qiao Chuliang, but Su Huaci, the son of King Nanyang.

Su Huaci is Gu Fengwan.

He used two faces to deal with Tsinghua, and what was even more ridiculous was that no matter which face or identity he was, she was deeply trapped in it, unable to extricate herself.

It's ridiculous, she even blamed herself for having no sense of shame for such thoughts.

That's right, these two people are obviously one person, one person, but she fell down twice. She, Yu Qinghua, fell on him twice, and they were all so miserable.

Yu Tsinghua is really stupid.

No matter when it is, you can't escape the arrangement of fate.

In the previous life, such heart-wrenching memories came to her heart like a tide at this moment, and she asked herself: What on earth are you?No matter the past life or the present life, what kind of existence are you based on?Why are you still here, why, time and time again, you don't know how to repent?

Hehe, ridiculous, ridiculous...

"Do you regret it?" He suddenly asked her.

Regret?
She also asked herself, do you regret it?No, how could she regret it? She doesn't regret it...

If she had regretted it, then she would not have chosen to make herself regret it in the first place. She could choose. At that time, when he asked her to pass on the national power weapon, she could choose not to give it.

At that time, she had already realized...

Why would he know of the existence of that thing?Why did he ask her for that thing?

These can all be the reasons for her rejection.

However, in the end, she still chose to give it. She gave him such a thing, without asking the reason or the effect, and gave it to him.

Since then, she has already made a choice, she said to herself: Yu Qinghua, you can no longer regret it...

For him, what else can she not do?
There is nothing to regret, even if it leads to a big mistake in the end, it is her willingness.

Between reason and Gu Fengwan, she chose Gu Fengwan without hesitation.

She is crazy, she has known for a long time, when she was sure of her feelings for him, she was already crazy, completely crazy...

"If I regretted it, then I wouldn't be here today." Yu Qinghua smiled at each other.

He looked at her with a calm face.

"Let me tell you, I'm here just to ask you something, otherwise, I won't feel at ease." She said calmly, her eyes as clear as water.

He looked at her and said nothing.

"Today, I must hear the answer, because it means more to me than anything else."

He suddenly became interested: "Including, your life?"

Without hesitation, Yu Qinghua said, "Yes, it is more important than my life."

what is...

Actually, it's not a hard question to answer...

However, for her, this was something she had to hear. The reason why she wanted to see him anyway was to hear his answer.

"Have you ever been sincere to me for a moment?" Even for a moment, at least it can prove that her stupidity is not just that beyond recognition.

After he listened quietly, he raised his lips, his eye bags were alluring.

"No." The voice was as calm as the wind.

Yu Qinghua still kept the smile on his face, and then said: "So, those words, those loves and sympathies are all fake?"

He nodded slightly: "That's right."

He answered her very calmly, without any hesitation.

After listening, a certain place in her heart was also empty.

"Heh..." Yu Qinghua laughed.

is that so……

Looking at him again, every look seemed to carve him into his bones.

"I see."

"Then, I wish you a happy wedding." After she finished speaking, she turned around with a smile, and then left.

When the door was closed, her figure completely disappeared from his eyes, and she was never seen again.

He closed his eyes, and the smile on his lips faded. After a long time, there was no movement, but he just kept staring at a certain place, where she disappeared, not knowing what to think.

Yu Qinghua couldn't remember how she walked out of the gate of the Nanyang Prince's Mansion, and how she got on a horse and left the capital city.

She only remembered that when the Jin army guarding the city saw her, they were surprised and asked her, "Why are you going out of the city gate again now?"

Yu Qinghua didn't pay any attention to that person, but he didn't dare to stop her, he just let her go out of the city as if he was out on business.

Maybe it's because her expression is too terrifying, heh, yes, it's been a long time since she felt like being struck by lightning.

It turned out that Yu Tsinghua did not cultivate her to become a fairy. Her heart was still made of mortal flesh, and it still hurt, as if she was about to die.

However, she has long been numb and has no feeling...

Having experienced so much, she should have gotten used to it...

I'm used to it...

However, getting used to it doesn't mean you can accept it calmly.

Now, she has nothing to worry about anymore. For her, everything is like a dream. The queen mother, father, brother, grandmother, Xiao Qin, Wu Yue, and that person...

It was all a dream, a dream she had after she died.

The only difference is that this dream is too real, the reality makes her unacceptable, and makes her feel miserable...

She doesn't want to go on like this...

Already, I can't take it anymore...

In this dream, she got nothing, gained nothing, but gave everything, the result.Everyone still left her one by one, never to be seen again.

Even if she worked so hard, so what, the result, isn't it still like this?
So, she shouldn't go on like this, don't, let this tormenting dream continue.

Since she started this dream, then it's up to her to end it...

When you wake up from the dream, everything will be back to normal.

There is no such thing as Gu Fengwan, no such thing as Su Huaci, that is just a person she imagined, without this person, she would never have fallen in love with him...

So, it's up to her to end it all.

Thirty miles outside the city of Kyoto, in a forest, she threw a piece of ling cloth onto a branch and tied it tightly.

Yu Qinghua didn't cry, didn't get angry, and always had a gentle smile on his face.

(End of this chapter)