Emperor's Girl Allure: Monk Lord, I won't marry

Chapter 90
However, at this moment, she is so weak, lying in front of her in such a emptiness, she clearly knows her pain, but she can't take it for her.

Such pain is so tormenting.

"Mother..." Yu Qinghua's eyes blurred for an instant, and she slowly knelt down beside the bed and held Su Jinxi's hand.

"My queen...I'm sorry...Hua'er failed to take good care of you...I'm sorry...Hua'er came so late...I'm sorry, Hua'er is useless, I can't save you...I'm sorry, my mother..." Yu Qinghua Keep talking, over and over again, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...

As soon as Yu Jinyuan entered the dormitory, she saw such a scene. Yu Qinghua was like a helpless child at this moment. She was so scared and terrified. She just knelt there and said sorry over and over again.

Heart, there is such a slight trembling.

Yu Jinyuan resisted the trace of sadness in his eyes, he walked forward, put his big hand on Yu Qinghua's shoulder, and called out in a gentle voice like water: "Hua'er."

Yu Qinghua turned her head slightly, her face was full of tears, she looked at Yu Jinyuan, her heart was even more sad, she just said: "Brother... I'm useless... My mother is like this, but I can't save her..."

Yu Jinyuan frowned slightly, and he also bent down, getting close to Tsinghua University.

"Don't talk about yourself like that."

Yu Jinyuan looked at her very firmly.

"You're right, it's none of your business."

"Hua'er, don't talk about yourself like that, you're fine..."

Yu Jinyuan's words seemed to have magical powers, which suddenly eased Yu Qinghua's restless and sad heart.

Yu Qinghua turned around and looked at Su Jinxi who was lying on the bed, biting her lips: She is really useless... She has been reborn once, she thought she could change everything... She thought she could save her mother, she thought she can do...

hehe, hehe...

The results of it?
In the end, isn't she still helpless like everyone else?
What right does she have to feel superior to others?What reason does she have to live in this world so shamelessly?

Powerlessness, at this moment, all Yu Tsinghua could feel was the weakness all over his body.

Noticed her sudden weakness and saw her silent tears.

Yu Jinyuan's heart trembled again, he hugged Tsinghua tightly in his arms, and said: "Hua'er, don't do this."

"The queen will be fine."

"Don't worry, don't be sad, or the queen mother will feel distressed when she sees it."

"The queen mother is very good, she will be fine, you believe in brother."

"Hua'er, I believe that my brother...the queen mother...she will be fine."

Yu Jinyuan kept saying such "lies." He stretched out his hand and patted Yu Qinghua's back lightly, trying to calm her down.

However, while he was saying this, his eyes were fixed on Su Jinxi who was on the bed, and he couldn't help avoiding his eyes, knowing in his heart: the mother's time is running out.

It seems to be troubled by the same dream all the time: in a place full of red, the fiery red sunset will soak the whole sky in a special way. Fear, even so, is not warm, but seeps out a biting cold, and it is this kind of red that wraps her whole body in it.

Every time at this time, Yu Qinghua always wanted to escape desperately, without direction, without a goal...

She was terrified of such a sky and such a place.For countless days and nights, she was haunted by such dreams. She screamed, hoping that someone could hear her and rescue her, but no matter how much she shouted, no one could answer her.

When he woke up, his clothes were wet with tears.

Yu Qinghua was really scared, terrified of such a dream... Sometimes she even felt that this was not a dream at all, but a reality, a reality that had always trapped her...

That's right, it might be true, that's why she ran away desperately, whether in a dream or in reality, she was running away almost all the time.So, when she saw how powerless her mother was, she became afraid again.

It was as if she had returned to that dream again, where she was powerless to break free, and could only keep dying.

"Mother..." The tears seemed endless.

Yu Qinghua was hugged by Yu Jinyuan at this moment, crying silently.

It seemed that she hadn't been this weak for a long time, yes, it had been a long, long time since she shed such uncontrollable tears.

She has always, always been alone, holding on, facing everything.In her impression, it seemed that until she died, she couldn't really let go of everything.

At that moment when she closed her eyes, what exactly flashed through her mind?Are you relaxed?Have you left everything behind?Is it liberated?
No, not at all, she didn't really let go of everything, she didn't get the slightest bit of relief, all she had was unwillingness, only hatred, and that deep apology.

Although at that time, she was already very tired; even at that time, she should let go of everything and free herself; even so, she still didn't relax, she didn't choose to let go of everything, she didn't choose to let all the grievances go away turned to dust.

She, with her strong persistence in the end, refused to let go of everything... She, whose eyes were covered by unwillingness and hatred, was reborn just like that.

She, reborn.

With her resentment and unwillingness, regret and longing.

And so she was born again.

Does God really pity her... Hehe, it really looks like this now.

She really should be more willing to give her such a chance, so that she can start over, so that she can personally settle those grievances and grievances in her previous life; more importantly, this time, she can redeem those things that made her regret for life thing.

She really thought that she could redeem all the regrets and let her guilt-filled heart be released again.

However, she was still wrong after all.Things were far from going as she had imagined.

She thought that as long as she was careful, as long as she could avoid the catastrophes of her previous life, as long as she did so, she could change everything...

However, when things really came, it seemed that it was not the case.

She could only watch feebly, but couldn't make any changes.She can only watch on the sidelines like this uselessly, but she can't do anything.

How could this be?How did that happen?

She really wanted to ask loudly: Why is this happening?Why are you playing tricks on me like this?Why give me hope and then break it alive?Why?Why?
But who should she ask?

That's right, her rebirth was originally an accident for no reason.

Why on earth did she have to be reborn, why did she start over again, and feel the pain carved into her bones all over again?

No one knew, and no one could tell her.Right now, she is like a wandering soul with no direction, unable to do anything, and can only wander around aimlessly.

It's really sad, Yu Tsinghua.

Ha ha……

It's so sad...

"Cough..." A light cough broke the silence in the room, which woke up Yu Qinghua, who was still immersed in endless thoughts of grief.

Almost at the same moment, she raised her head from Yu Jinyuan's arms, and both of them stared directly at Su Jinxi who was lying on the bed.

"Mother's queen..." "Mother's queen..." The two shouted loudly, causing the person on the bed to tremble slightly.

"Hua'er...Jin'er..." Su Jinxi seemed to feel the ardor of her children, and finally came to her senses. Her delicate voice sounded a little empty at this moment, but she still listened to Yu Qinghua without saying a word. In Yu Jinyuan's ears, both of them were overjoyed.

"Mother, Hua'er is here." Yu Qinghua eagerly moved forward and held Su Jinxi's hand.

"Mother's queen..." Yu Jinyuan called out choked with sobs, and also leaned forward.

Su Jinxi tried hard to open her eyes, trying to see clearly, she felt the warmth from her daughter in the palm of her hand, and the corners of her mouth twitched slightly.

"Hua'er...your hands are so warm..." Su Jinxi spoke slowly, the smile on the corner of her mouth never disappeared, but Yu Tsinghua's heart tightened when she saw it.

"Mother..." Yu Qinghua called softly.

"Mother, do you feel better?" When she said this, Yu Qinghua had already turned her head aside. She didn't want to see Su Jinxi's forced smile, but felt that the brighter the smile, the more it would pierce her heart pain.

"Heh..." Su Jinxi smiled softly. "Hua'er, you don't have to be like this..." Su Jinxi said, as if she was sighing something, making it hard to see clearly.

"Mother, you should talk less, rest more, and don't think too much, you will definitely get better." At this time, Yu Jinyuan finally spoke, he was not as heartbroken as Tsinghua, but he also endured great sadness , to speak so calmly.

Hearing her son's voice, Su Jinxi wanted to sit up, but Yu Qinghua and Yu Jinyuan had no choice but to help her up.

Only now can Su Jinxi see the two clearly.Under the dim light, both of them were tall and tall, with beautiful faces and elegant postures, which were even more eye-catching than the light.

Seeing this, Su Jinxi's eyebrows and eyes were curved, and the corners of her mouth were raised even more. "That's great..." "My children... are all dragons and phoenixes..."

"Hehe, that's great..." Su Jinxi kept talking, and her gaze was always on the two of them, never leaving her eyes.

When she spoke, there was a star in her eyes, as if she was lamenting that she could give birth to such a pair of good children, and she was proud of it.

"Mother..." Yu Qinghua felt sad, so he could only call out urgently: "You don't want to be like this...just take good care of her...don't talk about these..." Saying these words seemed to leave them far away.

For some reason, Yu Qinghua felt that the words Su Jinxi said at the moment seemed to be words that meant to leave them, what a great thing...

"Heh..." "Hua'er... come here." Noticing Yu Qinghua's discomfort, Su Jinxi didn't say much to blame, but waved her lightly.

Yu Tsinghua was obedient and moved closer to Su Jinxi.Su Jinxi put her hands in Yu Tsinghua's hair and stroked it gently. "Hua'er's hair is so soft..." Su Jinxi said, her brows and eyes were full of softness.

Yu Qinghua frowned slightly when he heard Su Jinxi's words, but he didn't say anything, just let her touch it without resisting.

"Mother, you should lie down and have a good rest." Seeing his mother and younger sister getting along peacefully, Yu Jinyuan felt sad.

"No, I won't lie down..." Unexpectedly, Su Jinxi suddenly insisted, her voice seemed a little hurried, although it was not loud, it surprised people who heard it.

"Mother, what's the matter with you?" Yu Qinghua asked, a little surprised, she didn't know why Su Jinxi had such a big reaction.

However, Su Jinxi just lowered her eyelids slightly, and in an instant, there was no joy in her eyes, only a touch of sadness remained.

She said: "Those who can't lie down... lie down, and they can't get up again..." Su Jinxi's words made Yu Qinghua and Yu Jinyuan's eyes open at the same time, and they both exclaimed: "Mother's queen."

"Hehe...don't be afraid..." Facing the astonishment of the two children, Su Jinxi just smiled lightly.

"Mother, why are you like this..." Yu Qinghua choked up again, seeing Su Jinxi's indifference, she felt a burst of grief in her heart.

(End of this chapter)