The strongest warm marriage

Chapter 80 The Heart Buried Deeply by Time
Qiao Nianzhi picked up the old notebook and opened it.The first page reads: Qiao Nianzhi, I hope you can see it one day.

That is Xu Xu's handwriting, but the strokes are still a little tender, not as graceful as it is now.

Qiao Nianzhi was a little excited, he didn't know what was written in it, and didn't know what Xu Xu would want to say to him.He sat down directly at the table, and then began to read carefully.

The date of the first diary entry is September 9.

"Today I finally understand what it feels like to like someone, because I secretly like a boy in my heart. His name is Qiao Nianzhi, he is so good, so good that I dare not expect extravagantly. He bought it for me. Tampons, and brown sugar, and lent me his coat. Maybe he will never know, but just today, he warmed my whole world. I know I am not good enough for him, but what should I do? I But my heart is crying: I want him! Never in my life has I had such a strong desire——I want him!"

The second diary is ten days later.

"In the first monthly exam of high school, my score was No. 15 in the class, but he was No. 1 in the class. Qiao Nianzhi, you are so good, how hard do I have to work to catch up with you?"

"Qiao Nianzhi wanted to help me with my lessons, and even gave me his repeater. I couldn't fall asleep with the excitement of holding the books he turned over at night. I must cherish the books he turned over and the gifts he gave me. That repeater."

"I was ridiculed for singing today. It turned out that I sang so badly. But Qiao Nianzhi saved my embarrassment again and sang the song "Yesterday Reappeared" with me. What should I do? I like him more and more? Joe Read it, are you a knight sent by the heavens? You are here to save me who is in distress, can I pray to the heavens and let you be my exclusive knight?"

"Qiao Nianzhi is a little unhappy today. It seems that he lost his string of beads. I don't want him to be unhappy, so starting tomorrow, I will help him find the beads. Xu Furong, come on! You can do it."

"I was scolded by Qiao Nianzhi today. He said, Xu Furong, can you stop sending love letters to me so kindly? It's really annoying. Yes! I find it annoying too. I don't want to send love letters to those girls either. Love letters, but I really want to see you throw those love letters into the drawer without even opening them, and then don’t care about them anymore. Because only by seeing them with my own eyes can I be sure that you don’t like them. I don't have anyone I like. Only in this way can I have a chance. Maybe it's just a very slim chance, but it doesn't prevent me from continuing to dream of such a beautiful dream. Qiao Nianzhi, you are my dream."

"Christmas is coming, many students are preparing gifts for Qiao Nianzhi. I want to give it too, but I don't have any extra money. And I seem to be getting more and more impatient and impatient. Seeing other girls talking to Qiao Nianzhi makes him unhappy; seeing Qiao Nianzhi take the initiative to talk to other girls makes him unhappy; seeing other girls secretly writing love letters to Qiao Nianzhi makes him unhappy; Qiao Nianzhi was not happy when he gave gifts; he was also unhappy when he saw Qiao Nianzhi explaining math problems to other girls... All of them were unhappy because of Qiao Nianzhi. I know, it was jealousy, crazy jealousy. Said I really like you secretly, saying that I don’t want anything in return, that I can’t expect anything. But now, I want to occupy you. Qiao Nianzhi, do you know? Because I like you, I have become a look that even I hate .”

"I saw a sentence in a book today: When you want to do something, don't wait, do it immediately, because you don't know what will be waiting for you tomorrow? In case you have no tomorrow Now? Qiao Nianzhi, if I don’t have tomorrow, my only regret is that I didn’t tell you that I like you. So, I have to be brave again, and I hope you can know that there is a girl named Xu Furong who she likes very much I like you very much. Even if you don't like me, I still want you to know that I like you so much."

"Start saving money today, and save all school supplies. You can't buy any more school supplies within a month. The set of tutoring materials that you fancy before should also be slowed down, and the worn out sneakers Take it to repair it, and last for another month. Grandma, I’m sorry I can’t go home to see you this month. I want to save the round-trip fare. I can’t buy the ointment to prevent frostbite for the time being. It’s okay to bear with it... In this way, maybe before Christmas, I can raise enough money to buy the fountain pen I like, and give it to Qiao Nianzhi as a Christmas present."

"Today is Christmas. I finally collected enough money to buy that pen, and finally gave it to Qiao Nianzhi, together with my deepest thoughts. Qiao Nianzhi, will you like it?"

"On the first day of sending out the presents, there was no response. Qiao Nianzhi is so busy and has received so many presents, must he not have time to open them?"

"The day after the gift was delivered, there was still no response, and I was a little disappointed."

"On the third day after the gift was delivered, there was still no response. I was unhappy, super unhappy."

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"On the nth day when I gave the gift, I waited tirelessly, but there was still no response. I didn't get a response, not even a word of rejection. Qiao Nianzhi, you must hate me very much. Right? You hate it so much that you don’t even want to tell me in person. That’s why you pretend you don’t know anything? It’s just my wishful thinking, so what am I expecting?”

The handwriting on this page is not very clear, and some watermarks appeared, so the handwriting is a bit blurred.Qiao Nianzhi reached out to caress the blurred characters, lowered his head, but his eyes were moist.He seemed to see Xu Xu lying on the table at that time, crying and writing down his feelings.

I really want to go back to the past, to the time that was hidden deeply, to go back and hug that sad Xu Xu.Say to her, I'm sorry, I didn't know you gave me a gift, I didn't open that gift.Sorry to disappoint you.

Then scroll down, the optimism and clarity slowly returned.

"Xu Furong, don't cry. This is the answer you expected. Don't be too greedy. You just want him to know that you like him. As for his answer, is it really important? At least he didn't refuse, right? At least you can secretly like him, right? At least you can comfort yourself, it’s okay, maybe there is still a chance.”

"I'm very happy today, because I finally found all the Buddhist beads that Qiao Nianzhi dropped in the lawn. But I can't return them to Qiao Nianzhi, because I still need to find a way to string all the Buddhist beads. Grandma said, you can go to the temple Please help Master, you can also consecrate it, so that you can be safe. But the final exam is coming soon, so I can only wait."

"The results of the final exam have come out. My grades have risen rapidly. Although they still haven't met my expectations, they have risen from the bottom No. 20 to the top [-] in the class. And Qiao Nianzhi is still the top [-] in the class. First in the class. I'm so happy to be one step closer to Qiao Nianzhi."

"It's winter vacation, so I can go home and spend time with my grandma. But I won't see Qiao Nianzhi for a long time, and I feel a little bit reluctant. Qiao Nianzhi, I will miss you very much. Then can you be a little bit Miss me?"

"It's a holiday! Everyone is so happy. I will leave school and go home soon. I said to Qiao Nianzhi, I wish you a happy new year in advance! Qiao Nianzhi took out a beautiful gift box from the drawer and handed it to me. He said, Happy New Year! This is a New Year's gift for you. Although I don't know what it is, I am really happy, so happy. Later, Qiao Nianzhi helped me carry my luggage and put me in the car. Before leaving, Qiao Nian Zhi said, Xu Furong, come on! Today is really a very happy day."

"It's very cold today, but because I'm wearing the scarf and gloves that Qiao Nianzhi gave me, I always feel warm all over my body. Even if I walked a long way and climbed a high mountain, I still have endless energy Strength. I asked a lot of people, and people in the village said that this temple is very spiritual. Grandma said, sincerity leads to spirituality. Therefore, I came here with sincerity. I asked the masters in the temple to help string the beads and opened It was all gone. I used the pocket money I had saved for a long time to donate cigarette money, and made two wishes on the wishing book. One was for Qiao Nianzhi, wishing him a safe life; the other was for myself, There are only three words written on the wishing book - Qiao Nianzhi."

"School has finally started! I'm so happy, I can finally see Qiao Nianzhi. It's just the first day of school, but Qiao Nianzhi didn't come to report."

"It's been two days since school started, and the seat next to me is still empty. I finally couldn't bear it anymore and asked the head teacher. Teacher Yang told me that Qiao Nianzhi had transferred to another school! At that moment, I didn't know how I got from Yang. You came out of the teacher's office. You changed schools without warning, without even saying goodbye, just disappeared into my world. Qiao Nianzhi, I suddenly hate you a little bit!"

"Today I have a new tablemate, who is a very naughty boy. No one in the class is willing to be at the same table with him, and no one is willing to be at the same table with me, so I became tablemates with him like this. He Very bad, really very bad, often pulling my hair, breaking my pencil case, and often teasing me... Qiao Nianzhi, do you know? I really miss you, miss you very much!"

"Tang Shilin, Shen Xuan will always unite to bully me, and it's going too far. Qiao Nianzhi, if you're not here, no one will help me; if you're not here, I don't even have anyone to talk to in class; You are not here, it seems that the surrounding sun is dimmed. Sometimes, I think, what did I do wrong? Why do my classmates hate me so much? Now I finally know the reason. It turns out that it is because you treated everyone coldly Humans are the only ones who are soft to me, even tender. I think you are sympathizing with me? But I am still very happy because I have this uniqueness."

"One semester is over again, and my grades have improved again. I am already No.5 in the class. Qiao Nianzhi, you will be happy for me, right? That day, you said to me, Xu Furong, come on! You see, I kept trying and never gave up."

"Qiao Nianzhi, I'm already a sophomore in high school. Your mathematics, physics and chemistry are so good, you will definitely choose science, right? So I also chose science. I don't know where you are, and I don't have any news about you, so I can only imagine Sitting in the same classroom as you, taking the same classes. Although I know this is self-deception, it is the motivation for me to keep working hard.”

"Today I am very sad, very sad, this is the first time I am so angry. Shen Xuan somehow found my diary and read the contents in front of the whole class. Everyone started laughing at me, Say that I am a toad who wants to eat swan meat, that I am not worthy of liking you. Yes! The gap between me and you is too big, one is in the sky and the other is in the ground. Even so, can’t I like you? How have I ever hindered anyone? How did I ever trouble you? My love is so humble that it can even bloom a flower. Why am I not worthy? I was very angry and slapped Shen Xuan on the spot, and then we are still in love There was a fight in the classroom. We didn’t stop until Teacher Yang came. After learning what happened, Teacher Yang picked up the diary and returned it to me. Then he said to Shen Xuan and all of us, Dear children, the teacher can't do anything to you, but the outside world can. Outside the campus, there is no greenhouse, and when you grow up, there is no child's play. Please remember, the outside world will not forgive you easily. I was shocked at the time, I suddenly understood some truths, as if I grew up overnight. If I liked you before, then from this moment on, I love you. Because at this moment, I suddenly have a clear direction in life, And there you are."

"Qiao Nianzhi, I've worked very hard recently. Oh! I forgot to tell you, I'm No.1 in the class now. But I know, it's not enough. Because I heard Tang Shilin say, Your goal is Tsinghua University. I don’t know how she got the news about you. I envy her a little bit, but I’m more envious of her. Have you been in touch all the time? Then why don’t you contact me? "

"Grandma, I'm sick. It's been really difficult recently. I've been asking for help and borrowing money everywhere. I borrowed everything I could find and places I could borrow, but it was still not enough. I called my father, but it was Aunt Wang who answered the phone. I begged Aunt Wang to send me some money, and I swore to her that I would pay her back in the future. But she still said: no money! I really hate my father. The school calls on all the teachers and students in the school to donate for me , I stood on the stage with the donation box in my arms, but the audience was full of sympathy and pity. That feeling was really embarrassing. But there is no way, I need money, I need money to treat my grandma, I need money to come Continue to finish my studies. I can have no self-esteem, but I can't have no money. I was thinking, it would be great if Qiao Nianzhi was here. You will find a way to lend me money, and you will tell me that this is only for you , If you want to pay it back, you will never look at me like a poor worm, making me just want to find a place to hide."

"The dark third year of high school has begun. You, who are far away, must be preparing for the college entrance examination, right? Don't worry! I work hard, and I spend all my time studying except thinking about you. See you at Tsinghua University, okay?"

"I'm sorry, Qiao Nianzhi, I'm going to miss the appointment. Because of the difference of one point, I missed Tsinghua University. But I applied for a university in City A. I hope you have been admitted to Tsinghua University as you wished. I hope that in the next four years , we can be in the same city.”

"Grandma, I'm gone after all. The person who loved me the most in this world is gone. Now, I'm really the only one left alone. No one will ask me if I'm tired anymore; I will worry that I won’t have enough to eat or wear warmly; no one will hold my hand and send me to school... Qiao Nianzhi, I’m so sad, really sad. Qiao Nianzhi, where are you? I’m really I wish you could give me a hug?"

"Qiao Nianzhi, are you really at Tsinghua University? Why have I searched the entire campus of Tsinghua University and wandered there whenever I have time, but I have never met you?"

"Qiao Nianzhi, I changed my name. I am not called Xu Furong now, but Xu Xu. Grandma helped me pick up the word Furong, but my younger sister was always messing around, so I changed my name. Because grandma also My surname is Xu, so I miss my grandma in another way! When my name and your name are combined, I read it slowly. Doesn’t it sound nice? And it has another meaning! I can’t forget it, so Slowly plan it. Because I never forget you, I slowly plot you."

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