The strongest warm marriage

Chapter 81
There was still half of the content that Qiao Nianzhi hadn't read, but Qiao Nianzhi stopped suddenly.If at the beginning, his mood was excited, then at this time his mood was heavy.Every time he turned a page, his heart felt a little heavy. Such a thin piece of paper seemed to be filled with lead, heavy.Such a heart is too precious, too precious!

Before, he was always wondering: why did he and Xu Xu hit it off so much?She can always catch up with the points he throws to her, and throws back another one, with ins and outs, just like talking about cross talk.They always have endless topics to talk about, Xu Xu always knows him so well, and can always find what he likes... Now, he understands that there are not so many coincidences in this world, some are just deep affection.

This diary is full of Xu Xu's thoughts, heavy.On the one hand, he was reluctant to read it all at once, and wanted to read it slowly; on the other hand, he wanted to finish it quickly, wanted to know more about her, and wanted to make up for the time he lost as soon as possible.

Then, he turned another page.

"I've been very busy recently, so busy that I don't even have time to write a diary. I have to go to class in the morning, take a tutor in the afternoon, and work in a bar at night. It's very tiring, but very fulfilling. It's said that good girls shouldn't work in places like bars , but the wages are high there, and only there is no need for work experience. Aunt Wang said that the university tuition is too expensive, and I have to earn living expenses by myself. So, I have no choice. But I earn money with my own hands for nothing, I don't think it's shameful, and there's nothing shameful, and there's nothing that can't be known. Qiao Nianzhi, if you hear crazy words about my difficult years in the future, I hope you can believe it Me, believe that I will never demean myself, believe that I will always wait for you with the best self."

"Today is my birthday, and it's my first birthday alone. Before every birthday, my grandma would make me a bowl of longevity noodles. She would always say, wish our family Arong good luck and good health. Now that grandma is gone, No one remembers my birthday. This is the third year since we separated, and I haven’t seen you for 860 days. Qiao Nianzhi, how are you? Do you still remember me? This year, I will make three wishes as usual : The first wish is for my grandma in heaven, may she be well in another world; the second wish is for you, I hope your life will be smooth sailing; the third wish is for myself, I hope to see you again soon.”

"I had a quarrel with my sister at home tonight, and I ran out alone in the middle of the night. And I didn't bring my mobile phone or wallet. The sad thing is that I found that I have nowhere to go. I have been focusing on my studies for the past few years. I'm so busy that I don't even have time to make friends. Besides you, no one wants to make friends with me. At this moment, when I was wandering aimlessly on the street, I suddenly realized how much I have lived these past few years Closed. I think, I have to change, because you will not like me like this."

"I caught a cold today, and I walked on the street in the middle of the night last night, and then I was really sleepy, so I went to KFC for a while. I thought at least my father would come out to find me, but he didn't. Although I always knew that I was at home I am a superfluous person. But when the bloody facts are in front of me, I am still sad. Qiao Nianzhi, your family must be very happy, right? I hope you have a happy family and don’t have to work so hard like me , Chilling."

"Recently I started to learn makeup, matching, supporting, cooking... I also joined a lot of clubs and tried to make friends. I am not beautiful, so I should learn some skills to add points to my appearance, Right? Beautiful people always have an inherent advantage, but I don't have such an advantage, so I can only rely on the day after tomorrow. I want to become a better version of myself so that I can be worthy of the best you."

"Qiao Nianzhi, someone confessed to me today that he is a very good brother in our English club, but I refused. He is very good, really good, but no matter how good he is, he is not you. Suddenly, I was a little scared .I was thinking, if I can't wait for you, will I die alone?"

"It's already a sophomore in a blink of an eye, and we have been separated for four years. In four years, I haven't seen each other, and I don't even have any news about you. It's strange, isn't it? Such a hopeless wait, I still persist? I like you When I was in love with you, I just simply liked you. I didn’t think so much about the future. I never thought that I could last for so long. I thought that time could dilute my love for you, and I thought that slowly I would forget you I thought that such hopeless waiting would wear down my will. After all, you are so far away from me. After all, you are just a dream of mine. Dreams are really just for thinking about it. In this world, there are How many people can dream come true? I know clearly, but one year, two years, three years, four years I still love you so much, and I still want to keep such a dream. It’s blank for me, but it still can’t stop me from loving you. If I say, I love you more every day, will you believe it?”

"Today I chased a boy on the street for a long time, and finally went up to hold him. The back of that boy really looks like you. I thought it was you, but it turned out not to be. Qiao Nianzhi, where are you?" What? I really miss you so much. Where do I go to find out about you? Please tell me, okay? If you can’t come to my side, then I’ll go there, okay?”

"When my roommate was watching a movie today, I accidentally clicked on a video. Then, I saw you in that video. God knows how happy I was at that moment. I just jumped at my roommate like a pervert. Then snatched the mouse from her hand. The roommate was startled, thinking that I had lost my mind. I held my roommate's hand tightly and kept asking her, is this Qiao Nianzhi? This is Qiao Do you want to read it... It has been four years, I finally saw you, and finally got news about you. It was the video of you participating in the domestic memory competition. I watched that video no less than a hundred times. Those nights when I miss you, I will Watching that video over and over again."

"I thought that I would be able to get in touch with you if I had news from then on. But after that video, I searched all the information about the memory contest, but there was no more detailed introduction about you. Except knowing that your name is Joe Nianzhi, I’m from City A, and I don’t have any other information. But City A is so big, where should I go to find you? I haven’t seen you for four years. When I don’t have any news from you, I can only wait. But once we meet again, Longing is like a tide and cannot be suppressed. Lovesickness has become a disease, do you know Qiao Nianzhi?"

"Recently, I have been teaching in the mountains. The conditions here are very difficult. The classrooms are so simple that they cannot be more simple. The children have to go over mountains and mountains to attend classes every day. They can only eat two meals a day, but they are very eager to learn. See When I see these children, I will think of myself at the time. I was also in a difficult situation at the time, but I am luckier than them, because I have received help from many people along the way. When I leave, I will leave all I bought school supplies for the children with all the money I saved, and the living expenses I had saved so hard. I was a little impulsive, but I was very happy that I could finally help others. I think, if you were here, you would definitely help those children, right? Just like when you reached out to me."

"Qiao Nianzhi, let me tell you, the steamed buns and XX brand instant noodles in our school cafeteria are really unpalatable. This month, every meal is steamed buns and instant noodles, because these two are the cheapest, because I can only afford these two .The living expenses are spent on buying school supplies for the children, so I am a little poor. When I am cold and hungry, I always miss you. When can we meet again?"

"Some people say that you fall in love with a city because of one person. But because of you, I started to pay attention to the memory contest, and now I am a senior fan of the memory contest. By the way! You shouldn't know it? I'm not bad at mental arithmetic." .When I was young, my family was very poor, and I didn’t go to school when I was six years old. I was very envious of other children who could sit in the classroom and study, so I often lay in front of the classroom window to listen to their classes. Later, a kind grandma took me She brought me into the classroom with her hand. She said that I can go to class every day in the future. She is also my first teacher of mental arithmetic. Before, I practiced mental arithmetic because I didn’t want to disappoint her, and it also helped to improve my math scores. .Later it became a habit, and I only practiced it as a hobby, and I haven’t let it go for so many years. Now, I will not let it go, because the ability of mental arithmetic and memory belongs to the ability of brain. Is this the In the dark, is it already destined? We are in the same circle, I think sooner or later, we will meet."

"What I know about you is that the news is that at the World Memory Championships, you represented our country in the World Memory Championships held in country M, and won the highest honor of memory master in one fell swoop, becoming the youngest world memory master ever. You are heroic and majestic on the field. I have never seen Qiao Nianzhi. I haven't seen you for five years. You have grown from that handsome young man to a king who can defy everything. I am really happy for you , but I feel a little sad for myself. I thought I was getting closer and closer to you, but now I find that it is still far, far away."

"Today I went to Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts, and after many twists and turns, I finally found the art department where you are. Finally, I can see you up close, not on TV or in a dream. But when you are right in front of my eyes, In a place a few steps away from me, when I just walk over and you can see me and even talk to me, I am afraid. Maybe this is the timidity of being close to home? In the end, I still I didn't have the courage to take that step. Maybe I wasn't ready, maybe I wasn't good enough, and I ran away after all. You will look down on me who is so worthless, right?"

"In the past two weeks, I have been going to Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts almost every day. I copied your class schedule, so I know your schedule, and I can show up where you go almost every day. I follow behind you, Walk the path you have walked, read the books you read, take the classes you went to... You never look back, and you don’t know my existence. But even if I just follow you silently like this, I feel very happy.”

"Qiao Nianzhi, it turns out that you are so popular in your school, and so many girls are crazy about you. That's right, you have always been so outstanding, and you have always been so dazzling. And I saw Tang Shilin today, I did hear that she also came to city A to study at university, so she came here for you. However, she didn’t recognize me. You seem to see each other often, and I saw you went into the library together. I didn’t Followed in, because I suddenly lost the courage, and I was afraid of seeing the scene I didn't want to see, so I would rather pretend that I didn't know anything. I thought, I hope you can be happy, even if your happiness is different from I have nothing to do with you. At this moment, I realized that I have been viciously wishing you to be unhappy. If you are happy, what should I do? You must hate me like this, right? "

"Qiao Nianzhi, after all, I'm still impatient, and I can't help it. Because I'm afraid that if I shrink back, I will never have another chance. You are so good, and there are so many girls who like you, but the one I like is There is only you. I should fight for it, and I should use all my strength to fight for it. So, I mustered up the courage to walk in front of you. But before I could speak, you walked past me without looking away It turns out that I have changed so much? Not only Tang Shilin didn't recognize me, but you also didn't recognize me? Should I be happy or sad? Or, in fact, you never remember me. So what are my five years?"

"I haven't written a diary for a long time. This time is very decadent. I hate this kind of me. It seems that I have suddenly lost my direction in life. The road ahead is very confusing and I don't know how to go on. Qiao Nianzhi, I lost my way because I couldn't see you."

"During this period of time, I thought a lot, wandered, struggled, and thought about giving up, but in the end I couldn't bear it. For the first time, I liked someone so much, wanted someone so much, why did I give up? How could I give up? What? I have already decided that even if this is a secret love that ends without a cause, I will go to the end. If I don’t go to the end, who will know the result? If I don’t go to the end, how can I be willing to leave halfway? Regardless of the final I won't regret whatever the result is. Because of Qiao Nianzhi, you deserve it."

"Starting from today, cheer up and work hard! From today on, I only have one goal: sleep, sleep, Joe, read it!"

"In the sixth year of separation from Qiao Nianzhi, I am about to step into the society. A new start, a new challenge. Qiao Nianzhi, do you know? I stood behind you for a whole year, but you still didn't notice me But it doesn't matter, this year is enough for me to know you. Now, I can finally be sure that I am one step closer to you."

"Qiao Nianzhi, I have been a waiter in Nanguo Teahouse for half a year, why haven't you found me? My current tea making skills are comparable to the tea artisans there. I learned this specially for you. I hope that in the future , I have a chance to make tea for you. You always sit in the same seat every time you come to Nanguo Teahouse. Why do you never look back? If you look back, you will see me sitting behind you. Why do you never Why don't you look through the wish book on your seat? It's full of what I want to say to you."

"I have already started an internship. I have endless classes every day, and I will be scolded by the leader every day, but I am improving every day. I am not afraid of hardship, tiredness, or scolding. I only need to improve myself. After that day , I told myself that I will not recognize you until I am not sure that I am worthy of you. I can't tolerate myself shrinking anymore, I can't tolerate my lack of self-confidence. I will work hard, so please come again Wait for me."

"Qiao Nianzhi, I passed all the CPA exams today. I only took one year for five courses. I am very good, right? Although I can't compare with you, please believe that I will definitely get better and better. Awesome. But why did you suddenly give up your favorite painting?"

"Very tired, very tired! Missing you, Qiao Nianzhi, Qiao Nianzhi, Qiao Nianzhi, Qiao Nianzhi, Qiao Nianzhi..."

A whole page is full of his name.Moreover, Qiao Nianzhi also found that Xu Xu's handwriting changed as he went to the back, becoming more and more like his handwriting.

No!It should be his handwriting.If he hadn't seen it with his own eyes, even he himself would have thought it was written by him.

　I thought I could update it earlier today, but I was so busy at work today that I couldn't code secretly, and it was a bunch of locked things when I got home.

　　Sorry to break my promise!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)