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Chapter 381 Marriage and love in the city, inseparable in this life 26: Rejecting love, he lives in darkness
Chapter 440: Marriage and love in the city, inseparable in this life 26: Dreaming at night, refusing to love and being loved
(After eating, Long Ziqi wanted to clean up and wash the dishes, but Jin Cunxu reached out to take the bowl, and accidentally pressed his fingertips against her hand, feeling slightly warm to the touch, both of them were stunned.)
Subconsciously, Long Ziqi quickly withdrew his hands, and glanced at him from the corner of his eyes.

Jin Cunxu didn't react much, holding the bowl, he said softly, "I'm going to wash the dishes, you go take a shower first."

Long Ziqi nodded.

There are no bathrooms available here, hot water is boiled every day, and then cold water is used for showering!

The small shed built next to the toilet has a faucet, and the ground is covered with blue stones. On the stone.

Jin Cunxu, who was washing the dishes, could vaguely hear the sound, and his breathing became rough involuntarily. He wanted to outline something in his muddy mind, but he suppressed it.

There are some things, don't be in a hurry, he doesn't want to scare her away!

After taking a shower, Long Ziqi changed into a very conservative cotton pajamas, sleeves, and trousers, which were not exposed at all, but the neckline was slightly lowered, and when viewed from a high angle, the spring light inside could be faintly seen.

She didn't have men's clothes here, so when she borrowed the quilt, she specially borrowed clean clothes from Kalu's father for him.

If he will!

Naturally, Jin Cunxu didn't refuse. He was already mentally prepared when he came here. Since she can live here for half a year, why can't he?
Cal's father is not as tall as him, and the gray clothes are slightly smaller on him, with a large part of his arms and legs exposed, which makes the picture look a little funny.

When he walked in, Long Ziqi had already laid the floor and clean sheets for him, and when he looked up to see him, a slight smile flashed across his bright eyes.

"Good night."

Jin Cunxu pulled back the quilt and lay down, seeing her hanging the simple curtain between them, his thin lips could not help but twitch.

This curtain is obviously to guard against gentlemen, not villains.

Long Ziqi didn't turn off the lights immediately, because she has the habit of reading before going to bed, if she doesn't read for a while, she won't be able to fall asleep.

Jin Cunxu saw her sitting on the bed reading a book through the gap, her expression was calm, her eyes were focused, her long hair was casually scattered on her chest, on her fair skin, it was like a pleasing painting, embroidered in the bottom of her heart.

His sleep has not been very good these years, otherwise he would have to see a psychiatrist, but this night, he slept very peacefully.

There was not much verbal communication, and there was no ambiguous entanglement in the TV series. It was a quiet and ordinary night.

Because he slept so peacefully that when he woke up the next day, she was no longer in the room.

When she woke up and when she left, she didn't know at all.

There was a note from her on the table, and there were only a few pieces of bread and hard-boiled eggs for breakfast. If he wanted coffee, there was instant coffee in the drawer.

Jin Cunxu held the paper in his hand, the beautiful font came into view, and a faint smile overflowed his thin lips.

She prepared brand new toiletries for him. After breakfast, he changed into his own clothes. He went out, asking all the way, and finally found the classroom that took him almost half an hour to find.

There are a few dilapidated and precarious mud houses, and there are more than a dozen children sitting in the classroom. Her slender figure is outlined in a simple white T-shirt and smoky gray jeans. Her hair is still braided loosely and she is holding a Books, leading the students to read together, she reads a sentence, and the children read a sentence.

Her moderately soft voice wafted in the morning wind, her delicate face was full of seriousness and focus, and each of those children was very serious.

That morning, Jin Cunxu didn't go close to disturb them, he stood outside quietly watching her every move, every interaction with the children, his heart had already been shuttled and mended by thousands of stitches, filled with warmth and affection .

If he hadn't met her, he would have been a monster living in the dark all his life, and he is still dealing with a psychiatrist. In the eyes of everyone, he is a terminally ill patient, but since meeting her, he knows that he will not be a patient Now, even if the whole world says he is a monster, he doesn't have to be afraid...

Because the whole world is not her!
If he wanted to warm someone, he had to learn how to warm himself. For her, he was willing to break the bondage of painting the ground as a prison, walk out of the darkness, bathe in the sun, hug her, and warm her.

So, at this moment, he stood under the high temperature of the sunrise clouds, looking at her, his warm eyes were full of lingering.

Long Ziqi realized that he had been standing outside after a morning class. The sun was shining brightly at the moment. She paused for a few seconds, looked at her wrist watch, and announced a 15-minute break.

The children rushed out of the classroom with a "boom".

Long Ziqi tidied up the books and put them on the podium, he had already walked in, probably because he had stood outside for too long, his forehead was covered with fine sweat, shining with light.

She took out a tissue from a canvas bag and handed it to him: "You can go back first."

"I want to wait for you." He naturally took the tissue and wiped the sweat from his forehead.

"What I mean is that you go back to China first! As for the clothes, I will wait for Qu Yan to come back and ask clearly. If it doesn't work, I will buy one and return it to you."

Seeing that he misunderstood what he meant, Long Ziqi explained patiently.

Jin Cunxu paused for a second with his hand holding the tissue, his face sank calmly, and he pursed his lips and said, "No!"

Long Ziqi raised his eyebrows and looked at him puzzled.

"I waited for half a year, but you didn't come to return it, and even ran away secretly." Jin Cunxu said very seriously, as if she really sneaked to this place to avoid him because of that dress.

Long Ziqi: "..."

It's just a piece of clothing, why is he like this?
"I'll pay for Aunt Fu to buy another one for you."

"It's not the original one." Jin Cunxu frowned, very dissatisfied with her solution!
Long Ziqi was silent. She had never met anyone more difficult than him. He was the one who wanted to lend her the clothes at the beginning, but he didn't ask for it. How could he chase him to Africa for a piece of clothing now!

"Then how do you want to solve it?"

Jin Cunxu threw the crumpled tissue into the trash can, thought carefully for a while, and said, "Go to country A with me, and be responsible for finding the clothes back!"

Long Ziqi's eyes froze for a moment, his curled eyelids trembled slightly, avoiding his dark eyes, his fingers were under the table, he pressed the podium secretly, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Jin Cunxu was not in a hurry, and patiently waited for her to think it over and tell him the answer.

Outside the classroom are the innocent smiles of the children, chasing and playing with each other, sweating profusely from playing without getting tired, and their small bodies seem to contain endless energy.

In the classroom, they faced each other, but they were speechless. Dust was floating in the air, and there was endless noise.

He lowered his eyes and gazed tenderly, only a podium away, the breathing of the two intertwined shallowly, inexplicably ambiguous.

Long Ziqi avoids his eyes on purpose, pretending not to know how much affection is filled in those deep eyes, and why he travels thousands of miles just to find her that readily available dress.

The clear and bright pupils looked at the children, the thin lips were pursed lightly, and the voice was graceful but cold and alienated, "Sorry, these children can't do without me!"

Jin Cunxu frowned, and before he could speak, he heard her say: "You are the crown prince of a country, your Excellency the president in the future, you will not understand the sorrow of these children who have no one to teach. Because no one wants to come Coming from such a remote place, until I arrived here, they were illiterate and unreasonable, and danced with mud and branches all day long. Jin Cunxu, they can’t do without me, and I can’t do without them. There are many important things in this world. Things are waiting for you and me to do, instead of entangled in those things that have been lost."

These words had a lot of meaning, one was that she didn't want him to continue pestering her about that dress, and the other was that she hoped that he would leave as soon as possible so as not to disturb her and the lives of the children.

He is His Royal Highness the Crown Prince, and he should not waste time on such trivial matters, but to deal with state affairs.

When the voice fell to the ground, she walked out of the classroom directly, leaving him with a depressed back.

A faint smile appeared on the corner of Jin Cunxu's mouth, it was darker than his eyes, mixed with a bit of sourness, his thin lips curled up, and he murmured softly: "You are not me, how would you know, I don't understand!"

The long and narrow eyes drooped for a few seconds, and when they were raised again, they looked out the door without any emotion.

Long Ziqi leaned over and wiped the sweat off the children's foreheads with a towel. Each of them smiled happily. She looked at them with gentle eyes and a slight curve on her lips.

The sunlight scattered down unreservedly, lingering around her, from a distance, it seemed that a pair of glowing wings grew on her back.

……

Long Ziqi accompanied the children back to the classroom. Jin Cunxu was no longer there. His eyes subconsciously searched around, but he didn't see the figure, and secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

Every proud man would probably not stay after hearing her words, and this was her purpose.

Long Ziqi opened the book, and continued where he read last time.

During the first half year here, she lived a peaceful life with a still heart. Looking back on all the things at the beginning, she felt sentimental in vain, only complaining that she was too persistent at the time, and couldn't tell what dependence and affection were.

Watching parents go from young to old, experiencing too much hurt and grief, and going through life and death several times, is there any couple in the world of love who can persevere?Most of the feelings are submerged in the trivialities of life after being squandered by passion. No one can integrate all the feelings into the ordinary trivialities of life like Long Pei and Mingxi, and love each other more every day.

She said that she couldn't bear the heavy and strong feelings like her parents, it was too grand and huge, she couldn't bear it!The feelings she prayed for were ordinary, without any harm or conspiracy, and Long Lifei was the most reassuring reliance in her heart, an existence that would not bring harm to herself no matter what.

So she confused her emotions, walked into a dead-end alley, lost her way in the mist, stumbled, bumped, and had a bloody head.

These six months were enough for her to let go of the past and see clearly that there was never any love between her and A Li, but it was just the trust and dependence between relatives and the special affection between twins.

The younger sister of the ordinary family would be jealous and angry if she saw her brother who always loved her give her love to another strange woman; what's more, they were twins, so she would naturally mind that someone would take away A Li's love for her .

That caring has nothing to do with deep love or jealousy, but the sister's love and possession (desire) for her brother!

It's a pity that she saw it too late. Feifei was sent away by her and Qingcheng together. She wanted Ah Li to find Feifei back. She would try her best to turn those opposing voices into blessings, but——

Ali has completely given up.

Not only did he give up on Lan Mufei, but he also gave up on his own feelings. Since then, no one can get close to his emotional forbidden zone!

Saying goodbye to unclear and cruel growth, after the dust settled, she sadly discovered a reality, she didn't understand love, and she couldn't love, just like a man suffering from the most unspeakable disease—(xing) impotence!
If you can't give others a response, then don't give a glimmer of hope, because hope will only bring despair.

As for the taste of despair, she had tasted it so many times in her nightmares that she couldn't remember what it was like to have hope, so at least she would save others from being devoured by despair like herself.

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In the evening, the youngest children were sent home separately, unable to refuse the enthusiasm of the parents, and walked back slowly with a bag of food.

On the way, I received a call from A Li.

"I'm fine, don't worry."

"..."

"Yes, I should be leaving today..."

"..."

"You think too much……"

Long Lifei didn't know how he knew that Jin Cunxu had gone to Africa, so he called subconsciously, thinking that he was looking for Yan'er, and that Yan'er must go home early!
She refused to go home with the same reason, these children could not do without her, and she could not do without them.

In the end, Long Lifei was persuaded by her, sighed and cut off the phone, looked up at Jiang Chongjian who was standing in front of the desk, with deep eyes, hesitated a little, and finally said: "Go and see her."

Jiang Chongjian was silent for a while, "What are you worried about?"

Long Lifei leaned back in the chair, cast his dark eyes on Jiang Chongjian, and said in a cold voice, "We are all worried about the same thing."

Jiang Chongjian took a deep breath, and then breathed out slowly, but still couldn't get rid of the stagnation in his chest, and whispered to himself: "Maybe I should tell her."

Ming Xi, who had already been killed by Yi Ruo, was in pain, and they would not let the second Yi Ruo harm Yan'er, not even a single bit.

………………

Long Ziqi walked home alone, and when he reached the door, it was already dark, so he opened the door and turned on the light.

The quilt on the floor was folded neatly and placed on the chair. The note she had left on the table was gone. Putting down her phone and food, she sat by the bed and looked at the new towels hanging on the washbasin. .

What happened yesterday was like a dream.

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