I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 119 Choice
Seeing this situation, Zhang Xiaoya could only whisper, "Go away, Zhan Dong's mother was stimulated once today, and she can't be stimulated again, Lailai, although Zhan Dong's death was not directly caused by you, but he was Because of saving you, you will die in Huangquan, Zhan Dong's mother must not be able to let go of this."

As soon as Zhang Xiaoya finished speaking, the relatives of the Zhan family gathered around. I felt familiar with those relatives, and I should have met them once or twice in my impression, but I couldn't say their names. They all looked like Surrounded me with fierce voices, someone pointed at me and said, "Zhan Dong was killed by you, do you still have the face to come here?"

Someone else said: "If you weren't shameless and went to him in the middle of the night, would something like this happen to him now?!"

Some people dragged me to Zhan Dong's portrait, pointed at Zhan Dong's smiling face and said, "Look, let me take a closer look, if it wasn't for you, Zhan Dong is still alive and well, if not Because of you! His future is bright, and it’s fine if you blame him in front of him! We don’t care about your flirtatious cheating, but why do you still come to harm him? How can he be sorry for you? "

The person who was talking to me suddenly pulled my hair with her hand, and she said excitedly: "You still dare to dress up like this to see him, don't you want him to die? Ah? Do you still have any?" Conscience? Do you think today is a very festive event?"

When her topic moved to my makeup, a group of people discovered that today I was wearing bright red lipstick and bright red clothes. Their expressions were even more excited than before, and some people even stretched out their hands to hit me. It was Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze who rushed up, desperately protected me, and then dragged me towards the outside of the mourning hall.

I am like a robot, she dragged me two steps, I took two steps, finally she exhausted all her strength to drag me out of the mourning hall, when she saw Lin Rongshen's car parked not far away, she didn't even think about it He dragged me forward, opened the car door and stuffed me in.

Lin Rongshen saw that Zhang Xiaoya and I were in a state of distress, and asked with a smile, "What's the matter? Was it beaten out or coaxed out?"

Zhang Xiaoya wiped the rain from her face, panted and said, "Really! These people are all crazy, damn it, they beat people."

When Zhang Xiaoya was wiping her face, she realized that someone's fingernail had scratched her chin, and there was blood on her chin. She glanced at the blood on her finger, frowned, then turned her head to look at me, and saw me sitting there blankly. There, she was as unresponsive as a puppet, and she asked anxiously, "Lai Lai, what's the matter with you?"

Seeing that I didn't answer, she shook me again. Just as she was about to say something, Zhang Ze also rushed over from the heavy rain. Seeing this, Zhang Xiaoya immediately opened the car door for him to come in.

After Zhang Ze got into the car in the heavy rain, Zhang Xiaoya saw the torn clothes on his body and screamed loudly, "What are you doing?! You beat me up! Are the relatives of Zhan's family crazy!"

Zhang Ze wiped the rain off his face and said indifferently: "Okay, people are human too. After all, it's normal for them to be angry on a day like today, so don't talk about it."

Zhang Xiaoya was still a little unconvinced and said: "Why can't you say it? The person who killed Zhan Dong was not Lai Lai, but Zhan Dong's wife Li Ting, okay? Will they make a point, although Lai Lai shouldn't go to Zhan Dong's house?" Staying overnight, but who would know that her wife is mentally ill? So crazy? If Zhan Dong doesn’t die, the one who dies is Lai Lai, so should we settle the debt with Zhan Dong today? Besides, Lai Lai has no children Is it? Why should it be counted on her head? "

Zhang Ze kept signaling Zhang Xiaoya to stop talking with her eyes, but Zhang Xiaoya didn't pay attention at all. Instead, she spoke more and more vigorously. She took all her anger on Lin Rongshen, and said, "Lai Lai is your wife! Even if she is absolutely wrong Wrong, you shouldn't be indifferent to her. Don't you know what happened just now? You let her in alone. What if something goes wrong? Yes, you can make excuses for your cold-bloodedness because of what happened before , but as long as your marriage with her exists, you, a husband, have the obligation to help her instead of letting her fend for herself!"

Zhang Xiaoya lost her temper completely. She tried her best to say these words. After her words fell silent, the car was silent. No one spoke or moved. cry.

At this moment, I, who was sitting by the side without moving, covered my ears with my hands, and then wept bitterly without warning.

Both Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze were taken aback by my sudden cry, because it was the first cry I made after Zhan Dong died, and it was also the first time I had a reaction after Zhan Dong died for so long, and Still such a violent reaction.

None of them moved, and no one came up to comfort them. They just sat on the sidelines and watched me crying out of control. I don’t know how long I cried. To the point where I couldn't even breathe, the world was spinning in front of me, a string in my mind suddenly broke at that moment, and I fell unconscious on the back seat.

Surrounded by the exclamations of Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze.

I think, I really need to take a break. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep for more than ten days, and I haven’t eaten anything. Every minute and every second of living in this world is a kind of torture for me. This kind of torture is like a knife resting on my neck, if I move it a little, the knife will cut the knife on my neck, the knife makes me feel suffocated, as if I can die in the next second, However, he was still alive on his last breath.

When I woke up again, I was already lying on my bed. Sister Tan was sitting on the edge of my hospital bed and looking at me. When she saw me open my eyes, she immediately leaned down and asked me in a low voice if I felt comfortable. a little. "

I just wanted to get up from the bed, but I only moved a few times and found that there was an infusion on my arm.

Sister Tan immediately held me down and said to me, "Don't move, the infusion is still going on."

I looked at Sister Tan, and I didn't know what to say, my voice seemed to be stuck, and it hurt so much.

Sister Tan stuffed a pillow behind me, and she sighed and said, "Lai Lai, you just had a miscarriage and it's a stage of nourishing your body. If you make such a mess, your body is completely destroyed by you. You child, why do you want me to give birth?" Is it just not worrying?"

Seeing Sister Tan, I felt a little more at ease. It took a lot of effort to say a word, and I said, "You...why are you here?"

Sister Tan said: "Zhang Xiaoya went to find me. If she hadn't told me about you, I wouldn't have known that such a big thing happened recently."

I didn't want to talk about it, but turned my face to the side.

Sister Tan saw me put on a gesture of rejection, she looked at my haggard and pale face, her voice lowered a lot, and she said: "I have also experienced things like you, so I naturally understand what you are like now Feeling, and knowing this, you must be very painful. This kind of pain cannot be replaced by anything, suffered for you, and borne for you. But Lai Lai, Sister Tan once felt like you that life has no hope, and also Ever wondered what I was doing in this world? Facing anything, anyone, during that dark time, I was as extreme as a hedgehog.”

She held me gently with her warm hand, and she said: "But Lai Lai, do you know? When a person dies, he is not necessarily dead. Maybe he just fulfilled his mission in this world? In this world, who I also know about life and death. I always feel that when a person dies, he may not really die. He just went to another time and space to live a better life. Now you are also traveling. Isn’t it the mission you should travel? Zhan Dong is not the only one in your world, and his death has nothing to do with you, you should cheer up, after all, you still have your mother, your husband Lin Rongshen, you still have us, don’t you?"

I tiredly replied: "Sister Tan, I understand every word you said, I really understand, but I may not be able to do it, and I don't want to live like this, but I can't beat myself."

I frowned and said with a painful expression: "You know what? As long as I close my eyes, the image of Zhan Dong's death is all in my mind, and the appearance of Zhan Dong confessing to me at the end, I killed him, If I hadn't gone to look for him, if I had stayed outside in the cold that night and hadn't followed him away, he would still be alive today."

I still can't accept this fact. I put my hands on my head and said hysterically, "I killed him. Do you know that I am a murderer?"

Sister Tan said: "Why do you have to be so stubborn?" Sister Tan suddenly straightened my body so that my face faced her, and she said: "Tell me, do you love Zhan Dong or Lin Rongshen?"

I didn't expect it to be this time, and she was still asking me this question.

I broke down and said, "Sister Tan, don't ask me this question, I don't want to answer it."

Sister Tan persisted and asked: "If you had to choose between Lin Rongshen and Zhan Dong that day, who would you choose to die?"

Such a cruel question, an impossible question, caused another sharp pain in my scalp.

When Sister Tan saw me and wanted to avoid it, she forcibly grabbed my shoulder and said, "You can't escape, you have to answer me."

I have nowhere to escape, Sister Tan is too aggressive, I cried in a low voice and said: "I will choose to let me die."

Sister Tan said, "If two of the three of you had to die, who would you choose to die with you?"

I held my head and couldn't bear it any longer, and said hoarsely, "Don't ask me this question again, okay?"

Sister Tan said, "You have to answer me."

I said, "I don't want anyone to die."

Sister Tan said, "No, Lailai, you have to make a choice."

(End of this chapter)