I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 120 Do You Love Me?

Sister Tan didn't answer when she saw that I was dead, so she took the initiative to ask me: "Zhan Dong?"

I sat there without moving, and asked again: "Lin Rongshen?"

This time I finally had a reaction, and my body shook a little out of control. I didn't know why I had such a reaction. Sister Tan seemed to understand something. She smiled and said, "Lai Lai, the human heart He is very eccentric and selfish. Even if Zhan Dong lost his life for you, the person you want to take away is not him, but Lin Rongshen. Do you know why? You can’t let someone leave you if you love someone. Hope the other person is good, but selfishly hope that you can participate in everything about the other person. Even if it is death, you also selfishly hope that you can take him away instead of letting him live alone in this place where you can't do it at all. In the touched world, love is appropriation, love is selfishness, and Zhan Dong, you don’t love him, so you want him to live well in this world, you don’t worry about whether he will be lonely, miss him, whether he fall in love with another woman."

When Sister Tan said this, she took my hands covering my ears from my face, and her voice became a lot softer, and she said: "Since what you have lost has been lost, don't you still want to let the things you cherish most Is it lost from your own hands? Lai Lai, there is no medicine for regret when many things are lost in this world, so we can only try to cherish them as much as possible. Zhan Dong left, but your life has to go on, There are still many people who need you in this world. You are like this every day. It is not you who are torturing you, but all the people around you who love you. I dare not tell her, if I let her know, it will definitely be a big blow."

She said: "Do you still remember what Zhan Dong asked you when he died? Didn't you promise well at that time? Don't you want to go back on your word? Have you forgotten the responsibility you shouldered? Now Zhan Dong's wife went to prison because of this incident. Murdering her husband is a capital crime in China. Basically, the chance of surviving is very small. Even if mental illness is used as an excuse for blessing, it may not be possible for her to survive in this life. Come out alive, what about the child? What about Zhan Dong's old mother? Don't you care? Could it be that the result of Zhan Dong's death is to make you more and more decadent? Let his relatives fend for themselves? If so In this way, Sister Tan has to tell the truth, Lailai, you are really sorry for Zhan Dong."

Sister Tan's words hit my heart right away. Yes, Zhan Dong still has a child and an old mother. That day in the mourning hall, Zhan Dong's mother seemed to have fainted. How is it now?Have you ever been relieved, where did the child go?
After being reminded by Sister Tan, I just remembered what I was going to do, and immediately got out of bed and walked towards the door. Sister Tan didn't understand what was going on with me, so she immediately grabbed me from behind and asked: "where are you going?"

I said, "I'm going to see Zhan Dong's mother."

Sister Tan said: "The old man is living in the hospital now, you should take care of yourself first."

I said, "There is still a child. What if the child doesn't have a mother? I want to take care of him."

Sister Tan said: "The child is being taken care of by Zhan Dong's relatives, and they won't let you see him."

Sister Tan pulled me towards the bed, then pushed me down and sat down, she said: "Lai Lai, you are a sensible person, Sister Tan told you so much today, as for how much you have listened to, I don't know." Be clear, now I just want to remind you, don’t magnify your sadness, no one in this world owes you anything, so don’t use your sadness to infect those who love you around you, your mother is still waiting You go back to see her, if you don't go back this Wednesday, we really can't hide these things."

When Sister Tan said this, she didn't talk nonsense, but took a document from her bag and gave it to me. She said: "This is your mother's recent review report. I heard that there is a bit of lung infection. If the condition recurs, then Even the emperor and I can't save her, do you want to stay in this illusory sadness, or want your relatives to live better, you think it through yourself, and I won't force you."

Sister Tan saw that I didn't pick it up, so she put it in front of me, and the person turned around and left with the bag. When she walked to the door, she saw the person standing at the door, and she said with a faint smile: "I think, The you just now should have heard me and her clearly. There is no doubt about who she loves, and there is no need to doubt it at all, and human sadness is also a very powerless thing. At this time, if I want to replace you , you can't control your emotions. As a husband, I think what you should do is not to stand on the sidelines, but to help her out of this haze. If you can't do it, then let her go and let her live alone It's better to be self-destructed, isn't it? Why do you want to maintain this marriage with her?"

Seeing that Lin Rongshen didn't respond, Sister Tan continued to smile and said, "Lin Rongshen, you before marriage are really very different from you after marriage. I have to wonder whether you love her or are you torturing her."

After Sister Tan said this, she didn't say anything, she passed in front of Lin Rongshen and walked towards the gate. After she left, the nanny ran out of the kitchen and closed the door.

She glanced at Lin Rongshen who was standing at our door, as if she was afraid of disturbing something, she quietly went back to the kitchen.

It took me a lot of strength to lift my arms to get the things left by Sister Tan on the bed. I took out the results of my mother’s reexamination and read them over and over for a long time. Although I couldn’t understand them, it clearly said lung Internal infection, need to stay in hospital for observation These words clearly reflected in my eyes.

I watched for a long time, but I didn't know how I would react.

Lin Rongshen, who was standing at the door, finally came in, he closed the door gently, then reached the bedside, gently pulled out the test result from my hand, he looked at it for a while, and said: "The white blood cells are high, there is inflammation , it was obviously a lung infection caused by a cold, if it continues, there is a 40.00% chance of her disease recurring, I advise you to take her to the hospital as soon as possible, don't say I didn't remind you."

Seeing that I lowered my head and didn't respond, Lin Rongshen sat on the side of my bed slowly, he didn't make any movements, just looked at me like that, the emotions in his eyes were very complicated and difficult to understand, he seems to always look at me like this recently .

He looked at me for a long time, so long that I thought he would continue to be in a stalemate with me, but in the end, he suddenly stretched out his hand and embraced my body in his arms, leaning his lower lip on my forehead, and said: "You You know? I hate you for being so sad, Zhan Dong's death seems to have taken your soul away."

He frowned and said in a low voice: "Don't you deserve to belong to me? Why do you lose your soul for another man? Why does his death make you so sad, why do you seem to give up the whole world for him? important?"

At this moment, Lin Rongshen didn't seem so strange anymore. He finally hugged me. After so long, from marriage to quarrel, the indifferent he seemed to have finally loosened up a bit.

Shouldn't he continue to add insult to injury?Shouldn't he continue to step on my pain points with words?He is not……

Why is he at this moment, I feel strange and familiar.

Lin Rongshen raised my face and saw that there were vertical and horizontal tears on my face. His frown deepened. He looked at the bottomless sadness in my eyes and asked, "If I am the one who died, would you Will it be like this for the sake of grief?"

He asked softly, "Will you?"

I said, "It's not you."

He turned his face slightly to look at me, looking at me puzzled.

I said: "You are finally willing to hug me." As soon as these words came out, Lin Rongshen's face was shocked. He seemed to have realized something suddenly. There was an intention to let go of me, but in the next second, he restrained the emotion on his face, hugged me tightly again, and wiped the tears on my face with full of pity on his fingertips , he smiled lightly and said, "It turns out that I haven't hugged you for so long."

He looked me in the eyes and said, "Do you love me?"

I said, "I don't know."

These words suddenly brought the temperature in Lin Rongshen's eyes back to freezing point, and he said, "You put me and Zhan Dong in the same position?"

I said, "What about you?"

I kept my eyes fixed on him.

He didn't answer me.

I cried and said: "Lin Rongshen, I feel your hatred. I have felt it since the day I got married. Don't lie to me anymore. I know why you have been so cold to me during this time. You are just You just want to torture me because you can’t let go of the past, I know it all, you don’t even need to tell me that I know it.”

Lin Rongshen suddenly let go of my body, and I fell on the side lightly. Lin Rongshen stood up from the bed, his back was facing me, a sneer appeared from the corner of his mouth, and he said: "Xia Lailai, I just hate you very much." For you, for your mother and me to argue, as for you saying that I can't forget, this is a non-existent thing, why should I not forget? I am not the one who seeks money and murder, it should be you mother and daughter who can't forget .”

I slowly got up from the bed, sat there and said hoarsely: "Yeah, as you said, I can't forget, and I suddenly found that our marriage seemed to be a false start."

Lin Rongshen turned around and looked at me and asked, "So."

I said, "If you want to...divorce, I agree."

Lin Rongshen asked blankly, "What if I disagree."

I didn't answer.

Lin Rong said with a deep smile: "Xia Lailai, I don't have the habit of getting married again. If you want a divorce, you can ask me. I will seriously consider it, but I may not agree."

(End of this chapter)