I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 16 Marriage
At that time, I was covered in thorns, and even my mother couldn't subdue me, but when I arrived in front of Lin Rongshen, I behaved like a cat.

At that time, I felt that even the air was sweet. As long as Lin Rongshen gave me a kiss, a smile, and a touch, I would be happy for a long time, so long that even the fearful future became worth looking forward to.

The beast of adolescence is too powerful, devouring people's will, young and ignorant and reckless, this ulterior secret that grows in the dark has never been discovered by adults.

I sighed, and brushed off the dust from those complicated medical books, and the beautiful handwriting on the books was also exposed. I stared at the notes carefully, trying to break them down word by word, but found that I couldn't read them before. I understand, it is the same now.

I always thought that Lin Rongshen was a monster, because I couldn't understand such things all my life, but it was easy for him. People with strong brains are really scary.

I closed this troublesome book, did not stay in this room any longer, and left here lightly, went to my mother's room to find the eyebrow pencil for her, went downstairs and gave it to her, waiting for lunch During the table, our mother and daughter chatted a few words from time to time, and the conversation was naturally about my newly adopted child. My mother did not object to the fact that I adopted a child. Yes, but I will kiss after raising her. Regarding what happened last time, let me not worry about my mother-in-law's fault.

After talking about the child, she asked if Lin Rongshen had come to see me again since I was transferred to another hospital.

In order to fear that she would be overwhelmed, I naturally would not tell her what happened recently, so I told her that we hadn't seen each other since last time.

Of course my mother breathed a sigh of relief, she just told me to live a good life with Zhan Dong, and never mentioned Lin Rongshen again.

I stayed with my mother until dinner, and when I was about to leave, my mother handed me some of my favorite pickles, and said that they were specially sun-dried, and reminded me to seal them well.

I held it in my hand, and when I was about to change my shoes, I suddenly remembered something. I straightened up and turned my head to look at my mother. Seeing my expression, my mother knew that I must have something to say. He asked me, "Is there anything else?"

I said, "Mom, what if... I want a divorce?"

As soon as I said this, I was ready for my mother to be furious, but to my surprise, she didn't. Instead, she looked at my words calmly and asked me: "Well, tell me, what are you going to do after the divorce?" ?”

I said, "Work."

"and then."

I was stumped by such a simple question.

My mother clasped her hands and said with a sneer: "Xia Lailai, it is impossible for a person to work for a lifetime. I believe that even after you and Zhan Dong divorce, you will not be in the mood to fall in love and get married again. Do you want to live alone for the rest of your life?"

I said, "Isn't it okay to live alone?"

She said: "Of course, but let me ask you, do you know how to handle my funeral on the day I die? The light bulb at home is broken, do you know what to do? One day there will be a huge storm in your life, You are caught off guard, you are flustered, you are extremely tired, what should you do? There is no one behind you, everything is small and big, and you have to rely on yourself. When your friends are celebrating the New Year, bring your husband and Do you know what you are doing when your son walks with relatives from house to house? You stay in your own home, no one eats the New Year’s Eve dinner with you, no one talks to you, and no one even eats the New Year’s Eve dinner you cook. You know that people are old What are you most afraid of? I am most afraid of loneliness. You are still young and don’t think so. When you reach my age, you will understand how terrible loneliness is.”

Her words paused, her voice became hoarse and sad for a long time, she said: "Anyway, I can't stay with you forever."

After finishing speaking, she pushed me and pushed me out of the room, and then she closed the door, and I was shut out by her.

The cold wind outside swept over and made me shiver, and suddenly I realized that marriage is not for you to obtain happiness, but to prevent yourself from being lonely and alone.

Compared with pain, loneliness and loneliness seem to be more terrifying.

I went outside by myself at about eleven o'clock and didn't come home. I just opened the door and found that Zhan Dong was sitting on the sofa smoking a cigarette. When he saw me coming back, he immediately extinguished the cigarette in his hand and stood up from the sofa. He stood up and said with a smile, "You're back."

I said, "Are you still asleep?"

He smiled and said, "Not yet."

I put down the key in my hand and said oh.

Zhan Dong quickly walked to the window and opened the curtains. He knew that I hated the smell of cigarettes, so he didn't smoke often. He asked me, "Have you eaten yet?"

I changed my shoes and clothes and said, "I ate at my mother's."

Zhan Dong said, "How is Mom doing recently?"

I said: "Very good."

Zhan Dong didn't know what to say, and after oh, he fell silent.

We have always had nothing to say between us.

I asked again: "What about you? Have you eaten?"

Zhan Dong just wanted to say that he had eaten, but when I saw the cold instant noodles on the coffee table, I asked, "Didn't you have dinner?"

He nodded and said, "The company has been busy recently, so I haven't eaten yet."

I sighed and said, "Let me make it for you. How about eating instant noodles?" Then I picked up the apron hanging on the door and went to the kitchen to cook noodles for Zhan Dong. Zhan Dong didn't follow, but just stood outside the door Looking at me who was busy in the kitchen, I said, "Lai Lai."

I washed the vegetables without looking back at him, but agreed.

Zhan Dong's voice collided with the sound of the water, so it was a bit weak, but he could still hear it clearly. He said, "I get off work at six o'clock, and I sit in the living room until eleven o'clock. Do you know how I feel?"

I said, "How do you feel?"

Zhan Dong said dumbfoundedly: "The house is really deserted, I'm not used to it."

I said, "Aren't you alone when I'm not at home?"

Zhan Dong said: "How can it be the same? If we get divorced, I will always be alone in this room, and I won't even have someone to talk to."

I didn't answer him any more, and continued with my hands. After the interview was over, Zhan Dong sat at the dining table and devoured it. I looked at the man and whispered, "Zhan Dong, let's start over."

He paused as he chewed his noodles, then raised his face to look at me.

I smiled and said: "Actually, I am quite afraid of being alone. I will probably never fall in love with anyone again in this life. It is actually quite good to find someone I know well for the rest of my life."

Zhan Dong smiled and said, "Okay, can you accept the child?"

I said, "Can you accept my past?"

He said, "I can."

I shrugged my shoulders and said indifferently: "It happens that I can't have children anymore, so I should have no choice in facing this problem, right?"

Zhan Dong raised his hand and lightly shook my hand on the table, but he immediately let go of it as soon as he grabbed it. He smiled at me, then continued to eat the bowl of noodles I made for him, and went to work the next morning to go to work, to clean the house to clean the house.

The two of us are back to where we were before.

The first turmoil in my marriage was passed by us safely. Since then, my daily task is to settle the relationship with Dede and send him to school every day. He still doesn’t like me as always, but Fortunately, children always have a kind of fear of adults, even if they don't like it, they don't dare to make big moves.

But having a child is also good. At least Zhan Dong and I no longer have nothing to say. The two of us often discuss child issues before going to bed at night. We are both new parents, so we have a lot to communicate with each other.

At the beginning, my mother-in-law was a little worried that I would get along badly because of my prejudice, but she was stubborn for a long time and refused to let go when we were going to have to take care of him. In the end, it was Zhan Dong who persuaded her for almost a week before she agreed to take care of me. Dede was sent back, but my mother-in-law was still worried, and came to the house from time to time to check whether I had abused Dede, and found that although I was not particularly close to Dede, it was still harmonious, so she didn't say anything.

In this way, almost another week passed, and my hard work finally made him treat me a little better. Although he still doesn't like to get close to me, he will occasionally come home when he receives candies from the teacher at school. On the way, when I led him to cross the road, I secretly stuffed one into my hand, and I didn’t say it was for me, but I just said with a look of disgust: “It’s really unpalatable.”

The first time I received candy from him, I was so happy that I didn't know what to do. I called Zhan Dong immediately to tell him the news. Of course he was happier than me, and he said on the phone that he would Get off work early, and take me and Dede out to have a good meal to celebrate.

Of course I would not spoil his interest, so I agreed with a smile.

After he got off work, I also took Dede to the hotel he booked. After the three of us met, we ordered a lot of dishes together. During the period, Dede was immersed in eating desserts. Zhan Dong and I were in a good mood , I also ate and chatted about some things.

When we were eating happily, a strange woman appeared beside our table at some point, and she yelled like a ghost: "Zhan Dong."

Zhan Dong and I put down the tableware in our hands at the same time and looked up. Before we could see the person clearly, De De, who was sitting by the side, waved his hands happily and shouted: "Mom!"

Zhan Dong's face changed drastically in an instant. He glanced at me first, and seeing me sitting there with a normal expression, he frowned and asked the woman who suddenly appeared: "What are you doing here?"

The pale woman looked at Zhan Dong with resentment in her eyes, and said, "I miss the child and you."

(End of this chapter)