I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 174 Complicated Emotions

Hearing her rippling words, I asked her, "What about you?"

My mother said, "What am I?"

I said, "Then you intend to accept him?"

My mother said: "I don't know yet, and I haven't decided whether to accept him yet."

I said, "Seeing what you mean now means accepting him."

My mother heard the dissatisfaction in my words, she looked at me sideways and said, "You seem a little dissatisfied."

I said truthfully: "Mom, although I agree with remarriage, I also agree that you have your own emotional belonging. After all, I also have my own family. It is impossible to be with you every day, and you have your own life, so you have to I have no opinion on love, but I hope you understand that we are all adults, and you are not young. In the face of feelings, I believe you should be more sensible than anyone else. This person's identity is very suspicious, and I always feel that this real estate The company is not as simple as I imagined, although the documents and procedures are complete, but I always feel that something is weird."

My mother said: "You can't accept such a big thing, so you don't feel safe." My mother said with a smug smile on her face: "And Lailai, your Uncle Lu has already given me the dividends for the first half of the year." , It’s several million. More than half of the money I invested came out in an instant. If it’s really like what you said, it’s impossible for this money to reach me, so don’t worry about my affairs, take care Think of you and your child."

My mother has already said this, and I can’t say much, after all, she spends her own money, and I have no right to interfere, so I can only sigh and say: “Well, I’m too lazy to care about these things, you can see for yourself Let's go."

After I got home, I still felt a little uneasy, so I called Sister Tan. She has always been more experienced than me in this area. It happened that she was on vacation today, so she invited me out for some tea. When I arrived at the teahouse, Sister Tan had been waiting for me there a long time ago. After I sat opposite her, I told him about the recent incident in great detail.

I asked Sister Tan, if she were me, what would he think about this matter?
Sister Tan picked up the teacup in her hand and took a sip of tea, and gave me a very positive answer. She said, "Lai Lai, you are too sensitive."

I frowned and asked, "Why do you feel that way?"

Sister Tan said: "Haven't you been panicking about this? Whether it was before you married Lin Rongshen or after you married Lin Rongshen, you have been panicking about Lin Rongshen's prejudice against your family, but in fact, you are panicking. Did it happen? Did he come as you expected?"

I thought for a while and shook my head.

Sister Tan said: "So, all of this is just you scaring yourself. Now that you and Lin Rongshen have another child, I think he didn't take any action before, and even now he won't take any action. He It may have been let go, but you yourself have not let go."

I said, "Then what should I do?"

Sister Tan said: "Learn to trust him."

I bit my lip, with a pale face, hesitated for a while and asked, "Is he trustworthy?"

Sister Tan said: "Your own husband, don't you understand?" Sister Tan was a little angry, and she said: "Lai Lai, can you not go into a dead end when you encounter such a thing? Don't you think that now Are you completely worrying about it?"

Hearing Sister Tan's words, I instantly felt that I was worrying too much, so I could only listen to her words in silence.

Later, Sister Tan kept telling me, telling me not to worry so much. Lin Rongshen was not as bad as I imagined, and Lin Rongshen did not manage the real estate company first, but he participated in it to embolden my mother. From this point, we can see Lin Rongshen's sincerity.

Sister Tan also said, I need to cherish his change like this, if I still have conflicts with Lin Rongshen because of my doubts, then we will basically walk in a dead end in the future, and there is no way to get along harmoniously.

I think what Sister Tan said is very reasonable. If Lin Rongshen really had such an idea, he would have done it long ago. Why wait until now, maybe I shouldn't be thinking so wildly, I really need to try to believe him once, no The person who let go is actually myself.

Sister Tan was so thirsty for enlightening me that she didn't know how many pots of tea she drank. Later, she was called back to the company because of a work phone call. Before she left, she patted me on the shoulder and said, "Think about it yourself Think, I'll go first."

I just nodded and watched Sister Tan leave.

Because I have something on my mind these days, I have become a little indifferent to Lin Rongshen. After he came back at night, I also tried to change my state. When he walked in from the door, I immediately walked over and arrived. When he was in front of him, he took the coat from his hand and was about to ask him why he came back so late, but he smelled a little alcohol on his body.

I frowned and raised my face and asked, "Have you been drinking?"

Lin Rongshen looked at me, his eyes were affectionate, his lips were also a little red because of drinking, he saw that I was looking at him with worried face, he gently stroked my face, looked at me and said: "Well, not yet sleep?"

I said, "I'm waiting for you to come home."

When Lin Rongshen heard these words, a corner of his heart sank. He saw me looking at him with a complaining face, and a few muffled smiles appeared on the corners of his lips. He stretched out his hand and gently hugged me in his arms, and Whispered in my ear: "Waiting for a long time?"

I was full of grievances. When he came back at twelve o'clock, he was really drunk. Although he knew that this was a must for a man to socialize, he was still a little unhappy in his heart.

I hummed unwillingly, Lin Rongshen's whole body pressed on me, and pressed me directly towards the entrance, I took a few steps back, when my back pressed against the wooden door, Lin Rongshen's hand gently protected me At my waist, he whispered in my ear, "Fool."

After that, he put his eyes down and his chin on my shoulder, breathing lightly in my ear, I didn't move, I kept supporting him, for a long time, I called Lin Rongshen softly.

He hummed.

I said cautiously: "My shoulders are a little tired."

Lin Rongshen laughed again. After he walked away from my shoulder, he looked down at me. The height of the two of us is not equal. When I stood in front of him, my head could only reach his jaw.

You have to raise your face slightly to be able to see his face.

This time I still raised my face to look at him, and looked at him for a long time, but I was still speechless. Lin Rongshen lifted my chin lightly with his hand, and he asked, "Is there anything you want to say to me?" ?”

I nodded.

Lin Rongshen waited patiently and said, "Then tell me, I'm listening."

I looked into his eyes and asked, "Do you love me?"

As soon as his thin lips opened a little, I immediately said again: "I don't want to listen to plausible answers, I want to answer in the affirmative."

Lin Rongshen was amused by my serious expression, but the laughter at the corner of his mouth subsided slightly, and he also looked back into my eyes and said, "I don't know."

My mood is in the words, like riding a roller coaster, going up and down for a while, my body swaying, I didn't expect Lin Rongshen to be so honest, although I have asked this question countless times, but this is the first time he used such affirmative answer me in tone.

I don't know why I feel that my eyes are sore, and I want to push Lin Rongshen away for a moment.

Drunken and spit out the truth, it really is true.

Just as I was fighting with myself in my heart, Lin Rongshen said in the next second: "Every time you ask me this question, I actually don't understand myself, whether I love you or not, and what is love? I only know that from the moment you came to my house when you were 17 years old, I thought in my heart, that little girl is quite interesting. At that time, you were probably still young, so no matter how you talked or looked at people, you were always timid. The corner of his mouth curved into a smile and said: "I don't know why, I hate your mother very much, but for you, I can never be really cruel, or even really hate, it seems that when I face you, I always hate you." I can't help but want to protect you and help you, I don't want to see you cry, because I like your smile the most, carefree, with flying eyebrows, people can't take their eyes off."

Lin Rong took a deep breath, and he also said a little confused: "I even hate myself like this, I can't control it, and sometimes I even become less like myself because of you." He frowned and said: "This is the same as what I think What I want is too far away, and I don’t know what I am.”

He thought mockingly, "Is this probably the love you're talking about?"

He looked at me with uncertain and confused eyes, and I didn't know how to answer him. It turns out that the reason why he hasn't answered my question directly is because even he himself still doesn't know what love is. How could he? Can't figure it out?He is so smart, no matter how difficult the medical problem is, he can solve it, but things like emotions, things that even I can figure out, can he not solve it?
I also looked at him with some surprise.

Lin Rongshen said: "From childhood to adulthood, in my world, it seems that some people are always learning. I don't know what anxiety and badness are. I only know that when encountering things, deal with them calmly and face them, it will not be a big deal. The problem, I don’t understand, so, in my world, everything was planned by me and me in an orderly manner, but when you came to my house when I was in my 20s, I felt like I was in a bad and impatient situation at any time, Sometimes, I am tired of playing those boring and naive emotional games with you, but sometimes, I seem to be addicted to them, unable to extricate myself, and even a little bit of fun, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m bored, and I’m in it again , I like it but I hate it, I am conflicted, I don’t know how to solve such a thing, I encountered the biggest problem in my life, which is my own complex emotions.”

(End of this chapter)