I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 193 Stupid
I frowned and said, "I didn't torture myself anymore, I just felt a little uncomfortable, that's why..."

Lin Rongshen sneered and said, "Xia Lailai, how many times did you wake up crying in your dreams, calling whose name and who you were thinking about? Do you think I don't know? They say they have the same bed but different dreams. It's really a different dream. How did you agree before?" Mine? Why do you always ask these messy questions every time you get pregnant? "

I said weakly, "I'm just not feeling well and I just caught a cold. It's really not like what you said."

Lin Rongshen said: "Why do you feel uncomfortable, don't you know in your heart?"

I said, "I just have a common cold."

Lin Rongshen sneered and said, "Then it seems that your cold will never be cured for the rest of your life."

After he finished speaking, he got up from the bed and left towards the door, his back was a little indifferent.

Soon the doctor came in and checked my body. The doctor told me to stabilize my emotions recently. Don’t think too much. My body itself is weak. would be dangerous.

I sat there annoyed, not speechless.

The doctor gave me some instructions later, but I didn't listen to them, because I knew what was wrong with me. In the final analysis, it was all a heart disease. I still couldn't break through the forbidden area in my heart.

I'm a murderer, I'm a murderer who killed Zhan Dong, I'm a murderer who killed everyone in Zhan's family, I had a splitting headache, I scratched my hair with my hands, and didn't care about the existence of a doctor at all.

The doctor looked at me for a long time, then he leaned down and asked me softly, "Mrs. Lin, what's wrong with you?"

I shook my head and said painfully, "I don't know, I have a headache."

The doctor directly removed my hands from my head, then removed my eyelids, and checked the rest of my body. He then called a nurse to comfort me. After the nurse surrounded me, the doctor got up and walked out the door. And Lin Rongshen happened to be standing outside the door talking with someone on the phone, but when he saw the doctor coming out, he hung up the phone and turned to look at the doctor.

The doctor obviously had something to say to him, so when Lin Rongshen put away his phone, the doctor took the stethoscope from his neck, and said, "Rongshen, the situation is not good."

Lin Rongshen glanced at me in the room from the door, and when he saw me covering my head on the bed with a grim expression, he withdrew his gaze, and said to his senior brother, "Let's chat in another place."

After finishing speaking, he walked forward. The doctor Du Yunsheng also followed Lin Rongshen to the entrance of the quiet corridor. Lin Rongshen sat on the bench. Lin Rongshen's brother from the same school took out a cigarette from his pocket and handed it to him. He doesn't smoke, so when he saw the cigarette, he originally wanted to refuse it, but when the words came to his lips, he swallowed it again, and reached out to take the cigarette.

After Du Yunsheng lit it for him, he lit one himself and asked how he was doing in the past few years.

Lin Rongshen looked at the long smoke that was emitting blue smoke from his fingertips, and said, "That's how it is."

Du Yunsheng was in Chongzhou University with him before, but because Lin Rongshen transferred in the end, so they parted ways, but the relationship between the two is pretty good, and they have contact occasionally.

Du Yunsheng smiled and said, "To be honest, I didn't expect you to be in business now."

Lin Rongshen flicked the soot on his fingertips, and said helplessly to Du Yunsheng: "After all, there are still many things that need to be compromised in reality."

Du Yunsheng said regretfully: "I think back then you were a legend in heavy boats, and the teachers regarded you as their pride, but you just gave up this industry. To be honest, I feel it is a pity."

Lin Rongshen was still not used to smoking, so he put out the cigarette in his hand.

He said, "Tell me what's going on."

Du Yunsheng is a well-known expert in neurology. Lin Rongshen probably had some guesses about my situation in his heart, so he asked Du Yunsheng to come over.

Du Yunsheng said: "The situation is not good. Your wife seems to be very ill."

Lin Rongshen said: "I know this, is there a way to alleviate it?"

Du Yunsheng said: "Now that she is pregnant, it is not easy to prescribe medicine, so I am at a loss what to do during this time, at least I have to wait until the baby is born, and then see her situation."

Lin Rongshen said: "I suspect she has prenatal depression."

Du Yunsheng said: "This is true. It was hidden before, but now it may be a little stimulated, so the hidden prenatal depression has become obvious. Prenatal depression is not big, it is not small, it is so big that it will kill people. Self-mutilation, even self-destruction, loss of appetite, weight loss, and mood swings at a young age."

Lin Rongshen said, "I know."

Du Yunsheng asked: "Now I can only clear my mind. Your wife is very ill."

Lin Rongshen sighed a little tiredly and said, "I'm a bit at a loss about this."

This is the first time Lin Rongshen admitted that there are things he can't do, which made Du Yunsheng inevitably look at him a few more times, and he said: "Isn't there? There are things you can't do? The heart of a pregnant woman is actually very simple. Before the depression, most of them were worried about whether they would fall out of favor after the child was born, etc. The most important thing is that you should spend more time with them, and you should be fine."

Lin Rongshen remained silent, did not answer Du Yunsheng, just looked forward and thought.

Because he knows better than anyone else that Xia Lailai's knot is not here.

He chatted with Du Yunsheng for a while, and after the chat was about the same, they separated. Lin Rongshen came back to the ward. At this time, I also calmed down and was lying on the bed in a daze.

Lin Rongshen stood at the door and looked at me for a long time, then he walked in slowly and said, "It seems that I have calmed down."

I heard his voice, and raised my face to look at him. At this moment, I was in a bad mood, and I didn't want to speak, even if it was Lin Rongshen, I didn't want to.

After Lin Rongshen sat beside my bed, he didn't speak, but just observed me silently. After observing for a long time, Lin Rongshen said, "You're still thinking about those things, aren't you?"

I said, "I killed everyone in Zhan's family." I frowned and said, "Zhan Dong's aunt is right, if I hadn't killed Zhan Dong, Zhan Dong's mother wouldn't have died either, Zhan Dong Dong's wife will not be shot, and she will not become homeless. You don't know how pitiful and terrible the body of Zhan Dong's mother is in the mortuary. I have never seen such a person, his whole body is purple and black, Braving the icy cold, even if he died, his face still maintained a painful expression."

I shook my head vigorously and said: "It's all because, you don't know that I dream of Zhan Dong standing opposite me crying every day, at first he was crying alone, and then his mother and his wife were all demanding their lives like me .”

Speaking of this, I was so excited that I grabbed Lin Rongshen's hand tightly and said, "You know what? I was helpless in the dream, I was very scared, I was very afraid to sleep, I was very afraid to hear those cries, so many dead people standing How does that feel in front of me?"

I was very excited, but Lin Rongshen looked at me calmly the whole time. I thought he would feel the same as me and know my fear, but he didn't. He just said: "Why do you want to do this to yourself? hold."

I said, "Isn't it my fault?"

Lin Rongshen said, "Why is it your fault?"

I said: "If I didn't kill Zhan Dong, Zhan Dong's mother wouldn't die, his wife wouldn't die, and he wouldn't get too much..."

"That's enough!" Lin Rongshen interrupted me with a frown and growl before I could finish my words.

I have never seen him like this before, his face is full of anger and impatience, in fact he is a very gentle man, no matter what he is talking about, he always whispers, even if he is angry, at most he speaks coldly A few words of sarcasm, this is the first time he has expressed his anger so openly, without concealing it.

I kept a stiff posture and looked at him stupidly.

He said: "Xia Laile, remember, Zhan Dong's death has nothing to do with you, and his mother's death has nothing to do with you, you know? I hate your horny character very much. I shouldn't have done it from the very beginning. Let you touch such a thing, I know that after going this time, you will start to doubt yourself again when you come back, and you will stuff yourself into that hole again. If you can't get in, you will still stubbornly climb in, human Death is not at all because you think he's going to die because of you, why don't you want to, if Jan Dong didn't make mistakes with his ex before, if his ex girlfriend wasn't mentally ill, if you were homeless that night, Jan Dong A little bit of experience in the world, if he doesn't have any thoughts about you, do you think he will take you in? If he didn't take the initiative to take you in, I believe you wouldn't take the initiative to ask him to take you to his residence. Why did all this happen? It became like this? Because a man like Zhan Dong will always regret losing it. He is vacillating between his current wife and you. After he married his current wife, he cheated mentally. It is normal for her wife to be unable to bear it. It's normal to be crazy, because no woman can bear her husband and still miss another woman, if it's not his own problem, do you think this kind of thing will happen?"

I couldn't speak, I just kicked Lin Rongshen with my eyes open.

He continued: "One thing is made up of many factors, just like an airplane, which needs to be made up of many parts before it can start flying. You think that a sudden decision by you alone will make this matter go to nowhere. Redeemable extremes? No, you overestimate yourself, you don't have the skills, it happens, everyone is responsible, I have it, Jandon's, Jandon's wife is, Jandon's The mother also has it. From the beginning to the end, everyone contributed to the flames. That's why this kind of thing happened. Why do you always pick yourself up? Is it fun? It makes people feel very comfortable and exciting? In this way, you will become very happy? Xia Lailai, don't you think you are stupid like this?"

(End of this chapter)