I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 77 Leave
Just as I opened the door and wanted to go in, Zhang Xiaoya grabbed me from behind and pulled me back. She seemed to be determined to say something, she said: "Xia Lailai, whether you want to break up with me or not, I always have to say, Lin Rongshen is going back to foreign countries, and he is leaving today, do you know? This matter was told to me by Zhang Ze, I didn’t even eat, and I rushed towards you non-stop. What's the matter between the two of you? You obviously like and care about each other, but why do you have to make such a fuss about your clothes?"

At this moment, I can't wait to cover my ears with my hands to prevent those words from being drilled into my ears, but I didn't just stand there with a numb face from the beginning to the end, watching Zhang Xiaoya's dry lips opening and closing, her words kept repeating. My ears were buzzing back and forth.

After Zhang Xiaoya fiddled with all the words, seeing that I hadn't responded, she grabbed my shoulders and shook me vigorously and said, "Xia Lailai! Wake up! He is your lifelong pursuit of your lifelong dream. , Why do you not understand how to give up when you have everything within your reach? Do you understand what you are doing?"

I knew exactly what I was doing, so I dealt with this matter more rationally. Lin Rongshen and I had a natural conflict, and there were so many things and so many grievances between us. Let's not talk about Lin Rongshen's grandfather's problem Just my mother, I believe she would not let me be with Lin Rongshen even if she hanged herself.

This is a thing that knows the end result from the beginning, why should I take such a big risk to try?I'm not young anymore, the current Xia Lailai is not as brave and reckless as before, and she can't stand such a big toss.

It's not so much that she is not brave now, but that she is cowardly. She can no longer go to pieces for a relationship, because she is afraid of the consequences.

Zhang Xiaoya shook me for a long time, and seeing my ashen face, she said, "Are you really going to give up?"

I thought about it and nodded.

Zhang Xiaoya said again: "Can you forget him?"

I nod again.

Zhang Xiaoya said: "This is your last chance, Zhang Ze said, if Lin Rongshen leaves this time, he may never come back."

I said, "I know."

Zhang Xiaoya said, "You won't regret it?"

I said: "No."

Seeing the hopeless look on my face, Zhang Xiaoya could only nod her head and say, "Okay, anyway, everyone is an adult, and you have your own ideas, so I won't force you to do anything anymore. I've finished what I want to say, you Think about it again."

I hummed.

Zhang Xiaoya left with a look of resentment.

After she left, I stood at the door in a daze. I didn't notice that the key in my hand had dropped to the ground. Until an old woman in her 70s and [-]s came out from the house opposite. She saw me standing there stupidly. There, he looked at me defensively.

After she left, I also entered the house, took a shower early, and then lay down on the bed, but in fact, I didn't close my eyes at all that night. When I went to work the next day, I felt that my legs were vain.

In those few days, I was in a very bad state. When facing the camera, my eyes were out of focus, and I couldn't speak alive. I was so scared that Sister Tan thought something big happened at home.

She felt that my state was not suitable for going to work, so she gave me a few days off, saying that it was to let me go out and have fun, and it didn't matter if I came back to work after I had enough fun.

I also feel that I don't have much energy to go to work again. Although I say it lightly, but if I really want to remove Lin Rongshen from my heart, it is equivalent to letting myself lose a layer of skin.

Then I also agreed to take a break. In fact, there is nothing to do when I take a break. I just stay in my room and sleep every day. After waking up, I sit by the window in a daze. Add insult to injury and say that I deserve it, obviously there is room for manoeuvre, but I do it here.

He also said that the more I wanted to die, the more she started, the happier she was, so I didn't listen to her before.

In fact, I didn't regret my decision, but I also didn't deny my sadness. Sadness and not regretting later are two different things.

I think, just give me a while, get used to not having him at last, get used to being alone, get used to forgetting him, not liking him, and one day I will heal.

On the contrary, it may not be a good thing to keep suppressing yourself.

Zhang Xiaoya is a typical knife-mouthed bean curd heart. Although she calls me what I deserve, she still pays attention to my emotions. She is afraid that I will do impulsive things, and she has to check my safety every day before going to bed.

Seeing her look like she is afraid of me committing suicide, sometimes I also want to laugh inexplicably, thinking how can she think more wildly than me?But I was still very moved, fortunately, fortunately, she was there, so I am not so helpless now.

When I got better, Zhang Xiaoya thought that I couldn't go down like this anymore. She thought I needed to start a new relationship, so she suddenly went crazy and searched for some men who matched my conditions to go on a blind date with me.

In fact, I don’t really refuse, after all, it’s really impossible for me to be alone all the time, and I also want someone to accompany me, so she arranges for me, and I will basically go to see one or two, and I will also put my heart into it. Get along with each other.

All the way down the blind date, but there is also a good one, the appearance and conditions are not bad, and the conversation and conversation are pretty good with me. The two of them have had a few meals together, but they have always maintained a relationship that is not salty or weak.

Zhang Xiaoya has been lobbying by my side, telling me to be more active. Although the other party has also been divorced, but has no children, a clean family background, and an honest person, he is the best candidate for a husband. Not bad, but because my attitude is relatively cold, I have been afraid to make any moves.

Every time Zhang Xiaoya said these words, I would usually ignore them. That’s how I am. I wouldn’t deliberately rush to develop something with him. Instead, I think it’s good to start with friends first, and I won’t change anything. The state is dying.

That man suddenly asked me to go hiking with Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze on Saturday. I didn't want to go, but Zhang Xiaoya kept threatening me that if I didn't agree, she would break up with me.

There is no way, during this period of time, I have too much love for her, and under her threat, I can only agree to climb the mountain.

But on the day of climbing the mountain, the sun was shining brightly, but I felt an indescribable discomfort in my whole body. As for the source of my discomfort, I don’t know. It seemed a little nauseated and a little fever.

(End of this chapter)