I forget you with my wedding

Chapter 94 Do You Love Me?

After my mother woke up in the afternoon, I stayed with her in the room. She lay on the bed without speaking or responding. She just opened her eyes and looked at the light above her head. She didn't know what to see from the dazzling light. what.

I handed the glass of water in my hand to her lips and said, "Drink some, moisten your lungs."

My mother said: "What else do you drink, no matter how much you drink, you will die."

I didn't expect her to be so pessimistic, and I said, "This is just the initial stage, which means it doesn't mean there is no chance of survival. Don't scare yourself."

My mother said, "Yeah, it's just early stages, but a few people who get cancer survive."

I said helplessly: "The doctor said that you will be fine after the operation, why do you insist on digging into a dead end?"

My mother finally blinked her eyes looking at the pair of lights, and she said, "I dreamed about Lin Haixin just now."

I gripped the cup tightly.

My mother seemed to sigh and said: "It's been many years, I haven't dreamed of him for many years, in the dream, you don't know how young he is, I stand in front of him as old as his mother, I always I asked him repeatedly if he knew me, but he didn't speak, just looked at me with a cold face, just when I wanted to give up and leave."

My mother suddenly stretched out her hand to pinch her neck, and said to me emotionally: "He pinched me from behind, I couldn't breathe at all, I couldn't see his face, I just felt him pinch my neck The hands on his neck have the same temperature as when he died." My mother said with fear in her eyes: "Lai Lai, you don't know how scary it is, it feels like you are really going to die in his hands, I Struggling desperately to call for help seemed useless, and no one paid any attention to me. At that time, I was so helpless and scared, and I begged him desperately, but his hand around my neck was still getting tighter and tighter."

My mother seemed to be still trapped in that fear, and that face suddenly became extremely ferocious.

I was afraid that her emotions would be agitated and affect her body, so I shook her body vigorously and said, "Mom, wake up, it's just a dream, now it's the real world, it's impossible for him to come and pinch you."

My mother grabbed my hand and cried loudly, "Lai Lai, I don't think I can escape this test. Lin Haixin will not let me go. I killed him. He must have come to find me this time. I took revenge, otherwise my health is so good? Why did I suddenly get this terminal illness? Lai Lai, mother must die!"

I grabbed her hand and said over and over again: "It's impossible! Mom, wake up! This is just a natural disease of the body. Don't think about it anymore. The doctor said that this is the initial stage, and it can be cured. You have finished the operation. After that, you can live a normal life as before, don't scare yourself."

"What will you do if I never wake up again on the operating table?" My mother suddenly became extremely quiet, and she asked me such a sentence.

I didn't keep up with her thinking for a while, so I couldn't answer.

My mother said with tears all over her face: "Lai Lai, it doesn't matter if mother dies, but what should you do, you child is too careless, it's like losing your soul when you encounter feelings, you will definitely mess with Lin Rongshen after I die Taken together, you will definitely suffer a lot by then, and I can't help you much, and the person I'm most worried about is you, do you know that?"

I hugged my mother in my arms and said with a choked voice, "I know, I know, don't worry, mom, you'll be fine, you really believe me, can you stop thinking about it now?"

After my mother was hugged by me, she stopped struggling and just leaned on my shoulder crying. She cried for a long time, so long that I didn't know what other words I could use to comfort her and make her not panic so much.

I don't know how she is feeling right now. After all, I am not her, so naturally I can't truly understand how she feels now, but I understand that people who are entangled by cancer are actually more than half desperate in their hearts. This is not at all. Two or three words of comfort from others can make her feel at ease. Now she must be very scared, very scared, and very difficult.

In the end, she was so tired from crying that she didn't even have any strength, so she lay down on the bed and closed her eyes to rest.

She held my hand tightly all the time, as if she was afraid that I would slip away if she was not paying attention.

Sitting on the side of the hospital bed and looking at her white hair intertwined with her hair and the wrinkles at the end of her eyes, I felt an indescribable discomfort and sadness in my heart.

After all, no matter how strong her heart is, she will still be instinctively afraid when facing death.

After my mother fell asleep completely, I was pregnant myself, so I couldn't sit for a long time, so I took her hand away from mine and left the ward lightly.

After returning to the room, Lin Rongshen was still sitting on the sofa reading the materials, probably preparing for my mother's surgery. I stood at the door and watched his side face seriously flipping through the materials. I suddenly felt warm in my heart. I asked in a low voice. He said, "Aren't you going to the hotel to rest?"

Lin Rongshen heard my voice, he raised his face to look at me, and said, "Well, I'm about to leave."

He reached out to me and said, "Come here, let me give you a hug."

I saw that he was so tired of my mother's work during this time, and he didn't shirk with him like usual, but walked towards him very cooperatively. Lin Rongshen put down the materials in his hand, and hugged me on his lap, With her head buried in my chest, she said in a dull voice, "How is your mother feeling now?"

I also put all my body weight on him, rested my face on his shoulders, played with the collar with my hands a little bored and said: "I'm not in a good mood, I cried a while ago, and it took me a long time to fall asleep."

Lin Rongshen said: "It's normal to be afraid."

I said, "Rong Shen, do you hate my mother?"

After I blurted out these words, Lin Rongshen hugged my hand tightly for two or three seconds, and then he recovered to the previous strength, but he asked in a normal tone: "Why do you ask like that?"

I leaned on his shoulder, smoothed the folds on his collar with my fingers dishonestly, and said, "I've been thinking, why are you willing to help my mother with the surgery? After all, our family..."

I didn't say the latter words, because for us, those words still can't be said too casually.

Lin Rongshen raised his face from my chest, held my face in his hands, and said: "For me, there is no personal enmity now, only dying patients. This is my job, so don't worry, I won't be here I stabbed your mother on the operating table."

Hearing his words, I immediately knew what he had misunderstood, and I quickly explained: "Rong Shen, I didn't mean that, I just thought it was strange that you should hate my mother very much, why are you willing to save him here? , don’t get me wrong, I didn’t mean that.”

Lin Rong smiled deeply and said, "What do you mean by that?"

I said, "It's not that you're going to use this operation to get revenge on my mother."

Lin Rongshen said: "If your mother knew that I was the one who performed the surgery this time, she would definitely think about it like you do."

I felt that Lin Rongshen still misunderstood, so I said anxiously: "I didn't, I really didn't mean that, I didn't think of it at all, I was just afraid that you misunderstood my words."

Lin Rongshen picked up my expression of about to cry, the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually widened, he patted my head with his hands and said: "Okay, fool, I'm kidding you."

My mood was like riding a roller coaster because of his words, and I complained a little: "Why do you keep talking nonsense, I obviously didn't mean it."

Lin Rongshen caressed my face, hugged me in his arms, studied my face carefully with his eyes, and said in a gentle voice: "Even if there is, it is human nature, if I were you, I might think the same way, it's nothing It needs an explanation."

I said, "But I know you're not that kind of person at all."

"Huh?" Lin Rongshen raised his eyebrows and looked at me.

I said: "My mother did have such doubts in her heart, that's why she panicked when I approached you. If you really want to use this operation to keep my mother from waking up, it won't be like that. Now that I am working hard for my mother's condition, I know that this operation is very risky. Even you, who have never prepared much before, have become extremely serious. This is also related to your future, so I have never done this I doubted you, I know what kind of person you are."

Lin Rongshen said: "What if the final result is that your mother really didn't wake up?"

I have never thought about this question before, Lin Rongshen saw that I fell silent, he was always waiting for my answer with a smile on his face.

I thought for a while and said: "If this is the result, I can only say that we deserve what we deserve, and we should give everything back to you."

Just after I finished saying this, Lin Rongshen suddenly put me down on the sofa, kissed my forehead and said, "Tell me, what kind of person I am in your mind."

Our two faces are very close, his eyes are very gentle and gentle, like a pool of spring water in spring, he quietly waits for my answer.

After a long wait under his gaze, I said: "A very powerful, very powerful person, a very powerful doctor, and a man I like very much."

When Lin Rongshen heard my answer, he nodded and said, "It sounds pretty good."

I found that his face was getting closer and closer to me, and the warm breath sprayed on my face made me feel itchy. I thought he was going to kiss me, so I turned my face and looked a little shy and said: "What are you doing?" .”

Lin Rongshen landed another kiss on the tip of my nose, and said in a muffled voice, "Well, what do you think?"

I blushed and said, "Didn't you say you can't do it? Then..."

His lips reached my earlobe, and his voice changed slightly, pretending not to understand and asking: "So what."

I felt the itching around my ears was killing me, so I closed my eyes and said, "I don't know, I don't know anything."

Lin Rong smiled deeply and said, "Really? Your body is obviously very excited now."

I immediately opened my eyes, blushed and denied it: "Nonsense, I don't have one, let me go!"

Lin Rongshen asked in a frivolous tone: "How?"

I stretched out my hand to push him away, but after Lin Rongshen held my hand, his kiss came down softly, I didn't dare to move immediately, and lay straight on the sofa.

Lin Rongshen kissed me bit by bit. After the kiss reached the back, he took off more than half of my clothes. I realized that something was wrong. I just wanted to remind him not to continue, but when the words came to my lips, I Swallowing it down, I thought in my heart that it should be fine, just once in a while, so it should be fine.

I thought about it like this, so I didn't care so much, and cooperated seriously with Lin Rongshen, who was a little confused, but at the last step, Lin Rongshen, who was a little impulsive, still held back, he stopped all movements, and pressed on me. There has been no reaction from the body.

I panted slightly, and looked at him with my eyes blindfolded. He hugged my body tightly in his arms a few times, put his face next to my ear and said in a hoarse voice, "No way."

I said, "Will you feel bad?"

He said, "Well, of course."

I didn't want him to feel too uncomfortable, so I asked in a low voice, "Should...it's okay once?"

Lin Rongshen said, "Well, it still doesn't work."

I can only say oh.

Lin Rongshen could hear the loss in my voice, and he asked, "Do you want it?"

I immediately denied it and said: "No, I'm pregnant, and I don't have any needs for this."

Lin Rongshen was amused by my words, he said: "Well, you really don't need it, who was the one who kept pestering me just now for the next step?"

I didn't expect him to hit back and want to refute something.

Lin Rongshen suddenly kissed my lips again, blocking my words, and after kissing until he was out of breath again, he let me go and lay me down in another position, and casually pulled a blanket on the sofa to hug me. The two of us said: "Sleep, get up early tomorrow."

I said, "Aren't you going to the hotel to rest?"

Lin Rongshen said, "Yes."

To be honest, I’m a little scared to live here alone, I always feel flustered, I’m a little happy when I hear him say that I’m going to stay tonight, so I shrink into his arms, lie on his chest and close my chest The eyes said: "Rong Shen, do you love me?"

He didn't answer me, but touched my head with his hand.

I didn't pursue the answer either, I just fell asleep peacefully.

It turns out that when I am with him, I can still be as happy as before. This feeling seems that I have not withered, as if I am still Chalaile when I was young.

Who you are with in love and marriage really matters.

When I was living with Zhan Dong, I always felt that the future was scary, and sometimes I felt that the future was far away, but these few days when he was together, no matter how much troubles and difficulties I encountered, I always thought in my heart, and It's good to be together with him, you don't have to be afraid of the future, with him holding your hand, you will never be afraid of getting lost.

I thought that Lin Rongshen would just hug me and lie on the sofa overnight, but who knew, when I opened my eyes the next day, I was lying comfortably on the bed, and the special nurse was cleaning up the room.

The sunlight pouring in from the window was brilliant.

After I sat up from the bed, the special nurse who was cleaning the glass smiled and said, "Miss Xia, did you sleep well last night?"

(End of this chapter)