Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 299 [Kay Me] Treat you the same (14)

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There were still many vehicles and pedestrians on the street at two o'clock in the morning. I wrapped my coat tighter and walked more quickly. I quietly hid in the darkness, and it was difficult to see my expression.

I look very ugly now.

So luckily it's nighttime, so luckily you can't see.

When I went downstairs to Wang Junkai’s house, I saw a young man leaning against the wall and playing with his mobile phone leisurely from a long distance. When he heard the sound of footsteps, he still kept his eyes fixed, as if he was determined that the person who came would be me. , and said, "Go in."

The tone is polite and distant, but it doesn't affect the sound.

It was only when I saw his face clearly that I pulled the corners of my mouth and smiled slightly. That Yi Yang Qianxi who has won many awards for dancing. It seems that his personality is so indifferent, but he is really good to Wang Junkai.

It seems a little relieved.

When I opened the door, I couldn't help looking back at the young man under the moonlight. I didn't speak, but turned around and walked in in a moment of absence.

I turned on the light, and there was a good-looking boy lying on the sofa and falling asleep, as if he couldn't stand the sudden light, I saw him rubbing his eyes, "It's so bright."

The complaint in my tone was not 01:30, I shook my head helplessly, and closed it again.

The bright house was suddenly surrounded by darkness, and I groped to the door of Wang Junkai's room based on my memory, but now I was full of mixed feelings and complexities, I was afraid to see it, but I really wanted to see it.

Humans are greedy animals.

I pursed my lips but struggled in my heart. Since everyone is here, I will die. I frowned and reached out to open the door.But just such a simple action exhausted all the strength in my whole body now.

I forgot how I got in, and I also forgot how I got to Wang Junkai.

At the moment I saw Wang Junkai, I even forgot many bad things, as if I forgot that I left, as if I forgot that he hadn’t contacted me for a long time, as if I forgot that he is now a star identity.

It's as if we're still together.

All along, I seem to like him because of instinct.

All the time, I seem to be doing what I like.

The moonlight shone all over the room and fell on Wang Junkai's body.

I stood at the place closest to Wang Junkai and stared blankly at him.After a long time, I saw him frowning slightly, his eyelashes trembling, and then tears came down.

As for me, those backlogs of thoughts could no longer bear it anymore, bit by bit, the thread was disconnected just like that.I didn't turn on the light, just stood aside and watched stupidly, as if the hustle and bustle of this world had nothing to do with me.

right now.Obviously Wang Junkai is right in front of my eyes, but I actually feel that he is far away from me.I suddenly sneered softly, and then stuffed all the recent memories into my mind. There are too many things, too many, as if I want to exhaust the courage of this life.

What kind of role did I play in Wang Junkai's life in just a few dozen days?I do not understand.

When we were together at the beginning, it was just because of pure liking, just because I felt that he just made up for the incompleteness in my heart.and after?Why do we have to separate again?Why can't you accompany me through the rest of the days, Wang Junkai?My eyes dimmed, lifeless and empty, I sighed slightly and laughed at myself, "I asked you to go, I still blame you."

You have everything, but I am not bad.

I have nothing, but I am not afraid of not having you.

The good you have given me is enough, enough to brighten my barren years, how can I still blame you for all my mistakes and say you are wrong.

The one who has been wrong all along is me.

I really shouldn't want to provoke you, and I want to go out of my way to get into your life.Frankly speaking, I regret it, I regret letting you leave with sadness and regret, because I found that your sadness will be passed on to me in the end, which makes me even more sad.But if time comes back again, I would still choose to meet you, and I would rather be as desperate as I am now.

I would still love to talk to you when we first met.

I am still willing to nod and answer without hesitation when you let me go with you.

I would still like to.
I deeply know that even if everything starts from scratch, I will still be like this.

"Well, it hurts so much." Wang Junkai's mumbling voice was full of exhaustion, piercing through this endless night into my ears, tearing my heart as hard as I could.

My thoughts were interrupted by him, and I stood in front of him frowning, looking bewildered and embarrassed.

"Xu Luo, I'm in pain."

Wang Junkai is showing weakness. He has always been strong and arrogant. I should have known that some people are not what they seem on the surface at all. Those so-called glamorous are deceiving.When I wanted to rush out to find Yi Yang Qianxi to get the medicine, the door just opened, and Yi Yang Qianxi shook the ointment in his hand and threw it at me, neither serious nor heavy. "He hurt his back during filming last time. For some reason, he couldn't go to the hospital, so you understand."

As he said that, he turned around and left and took the opportunity to close the door. I don't know why I feel that he seems to hate me, but it is understandable. After all, he must be blaming me for making his good brother look like a human being. Does it look like a ghost?

If I were him, maybe I would hate people like myself even more.

"Wang Junkai, I'll give you some medicine."

I don't know what I'm thinking right now, all I know is that my hands are shaking, I don't know if it's nervousness, fear, or guilt?

Wang Junkai didn't answer me. At that time, his even breathing and occasional small movements caused the loose sound, but I knew that I didn't sleep soundly and didn't sleep well at all.His brows were tightly frowned, as if he was having a nightmare. I turned on the bedside lamp to illuminate him, and I clearly saw dense cold sweat on his forehead.

"Xu Luo, I'm in so much pain." The drowsy voice clearly didn't wake up, but I clearly saw him open his eyes, and his frowning brows relaxed the moment he saw me.

I put my hands on his, ignored his cries, and said softly into his eyes, "I'll give you medicine and endure."

He was indifferent and just looked at me blankly, probably because he fell asleep and was in the process of self-healing when he was awake.

While talking, I made a gesture to lift the quilt to check his wound, but I didn't expect that I would be pulled into his arms by him. I looked up at him, and I saw his gentle and deep eyes.Now Wang Junkai seems to have become more mature again, and I can clearly feel that his hands have become stronger. At this moment, the warm yellow lamp by the bed has coated his dense eyelashes with a layer of gold, which looks blurred.

If it's a dream, then let me just sleep on it.

"Xu Luo, can you, don't leave."

He rested his head on my shoulder, and I clearly felt something wet my clothes.

Also, tearing my heart apart, completely crushing the city walls I originally built with all my heart, heh, it seems that in front of him, I will only lose and be defeated.

But what to do, I can't tell you the answer to this question.

The world is always having problems.

Do you know Wang Junkai, sometimes I don’t have to leave if I don’t want to.

It's as if many things will happen if I don't want them to happen. It's too difficult to do what I want in this world.

You are strong but bowed your head for me time and time again, put the most vulnerable and frightened self in front of me, foolishly held a sharp knife in my hand and told me to let you hurt me.But, I can't.

In fact, even if there was no Xu Ruotong at the time, I would find various reasons to leave in the end, and that was just the best one among thousands of reasons to ease the pain of both of us.

Life is better than death.

But what am I doing these days?It's just cruelly hurting each other in a way that they think they won't hurt each other.I clearly understand that sadness is like old wine that has been soaked, getting stronger but not sweet.

I didn't push Wang Junkai away and was hugged by him so tightly. His breathing was even and clear, and his tears were complicated and painful, cutting my heart bit by bit like a knife.

Do you still love?
I am dumbfounded.

Will you go?
I am speechless.

I wish time would just stop like this, let me engrave this hug more truly in my heart, so that when I leave, I will be willing to think even if I am in a mess all over my body now.But when I think that I will hold someone else in this embrace in the future, my tears are really about to burst.

Time flows quietly like this.The muffled sound of the hands of the watch hit each other.

It was a long time before I tentatively said, "I'll give you medicine."

He waved his hand and wanted to say no, but when he met my gaze, he smiled softly, and then he hesitated to speak.We have too many things on our minds about each other, and these secrets are like the mud in the sewer, which is disgusting.

We each have our own opinions. In this small world, no one wants to lower his proud head first.But we are all the same, we are the same kind, we are all afraid of losing.You see, even if we separate our habits, we still become alike without knowing it.

Hugging poses, placement of flower pots, books for hypnosis by the bedside, there are too many.

At the very beginning, it seemed that he made up his mind that Junkai Wang would leave me, because I always thought that a person as proud as him would never bow his head in love.But now I find that I was wrong, as long as he likes him, he will bow his head, because he likes it enough.

When he was giving Wang Junkai the medicine, he kept talking, telling many cold jokes that Qianxi told him, and many interesting things when I was not around him. He shared all the joyful things with me, but He didn't say a word about the sadness and distress I caused him.

He laughed, and I laughed heartlessly along with him.

Isn't a smile just as simple as grinning with white teeth and cat lines?

[Phase [-]/Original Work: Min Luo/To be continued]
(End of this chapter)