Mrs. Lu is a sensation in the city every day

Chapter 301 301. Very High

When I was young, in fact, at that time I knew that my father would bring me a lot that others did not have, but I never felt that this would make any difference to me. At that time, I always felt that in fact The appearance between parents is something that everyone has, and it was that classmate who made me realize that I am different from others. At that time, I remembered that person told everyone what kind of person my parents were. At that time, everyone It's the same feeling.

Only I know that my parents seem to be different from others. Everyone lives with their parents, but I live with my mother. Not only can I not see my father, but I can feel it every time my father comes. The father's cautious state, for fear of being seen by others, seems to be wrong. At that time, I really didn't think about it a lot before, but I felt that as long as my father was always by my side, it would be the best. OK, always good.

But I have never thought that some things can actually make me so uncomfortable, that is, the friend I mentioned, in fact, I think it is a good thing for Gu Molian to meet Lili when he was growing up, and he Because when a friend appeared for a long time, he didn't believe in the kindness of others towards him at all. He always felt that others were kind to him for some reason, but he didn't feel that others just liked being with him.

But at that time, the most uncomfortable thing in my heart was that sometimes when I remembered that I had no friends, I actually missed the time when that person was with me. I always felt that if I didn’t find out about this, there would still be someone following me. When I go home together, I still have the feeling that someone told me that I will protect myself, but I am the kind of person who, once I find out, can't make this thing hungry again.

But sometimes I really regret a little bit, but this kind of regret will not bear my own time for a long time, because I understand that if I regret it because of this, I will be really sad, because I can accept it if I don’t have friends It is simply ridiculous for a person who once betrayed himself to be his friend.

In my whole life, I have never been like this, and I don't want to do this to give myself the last bit of face.

When I have a lot of time, I actually feel that I have always been abandoned by others, and the reason for losing all my self-confidence is also because of these, because when I feel that I am alone, I will think about why others can be at home. Everyone is there, so I just want to see that my father is actually invisible. At that time, my mother said, because everyone has certain things that need to be borne by themselves, and it is impossible for a person to live forever. Everything went well.

At that time, I felt that it was okay to not go well at this time, and I could go smoothly when I grew up, but when I grew up, it was followed by parting again and again. First, I sent my mother away. I haven't felt bad yet, because I have to deal with it alone, and after my father comes, I have to go back inside to deal with my own affairs. There is no way to follow me to deal with this matter with all my strength, but I didn't cry at that time.

In my heart, I have already understood some things in my heart. These things are actually things between my parents. I have no reason to say anything, but think about my mother who has always liked such a person for so many years. People, even everyone felt that their mother had paid too much for this relationship at that time, but the mother didn't think so, and always felt that it was enough for her to love someone very much.

But I don’t know why when I heard this sentence at that time, I felt uncomfortable for a while. It is true that loving someone is enough, but I am also an indispensable part of your life, but for it, parents feel very little. , I said it before, if I didn't talk about my parents before, I think it's appropriate, because I never think I have a father.

In many cases, the most similar thing between me and Gu Molian is because of my family, it is very difficult for me to have a normal friend, and others come to be friends with you because of some things, or else I just came here to help you when I felt that the things at home could help me.

At that time, I thought this was ridiculous, because friends are originally a good self-chosen thing other than love.

And I seem to have never owned it, I thought I had nothing at the beginning, because I think you are my friend, and I am a good friend with you, even this Li Qiongmo was at that time It is because there is a need for each other to be together as a friend, and in fact, for this Li Qiongmo, he spends more time as the boss, a good boss.

But for me, Li Qiongmo is actually the first person who trusts me. He was the first person who chose to trust me after knowing my identity at that time. I have always felt that this is actually very good, so I will feel very happy. At the beginning, I always felt that the biggest difficulty of the matter itself was the feeling in my heart when I understood these problems.

When I have a lot of time, I actually understand that it is not easy to really like someone, and it is not easy to be good friends with someone for the rest of my life. When we get together, I will understand that I don't really want too much, I just want to have someone to rely on when I need it, which is the best, and I have no other ideas.

In the past, my father said that as a person who needs friends very much, in fact, many times he will be taken advantage of by this kind of emotion, but if you think it doesn’t matter, it’s okay, after all, these are just one person. It is best not to have too many thoughts, otherwise it is still not a good feeling. At the beginning, I even felt that it was a certain degree of difficulty.

In the past, I actually felt that I had certain problems in my heart, and people didn’t know how to explain them. In the past, I even felt that these problems actually existed. I feel that the difficulty of these problems is still very high.

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