The years I was a birdman

Chapter 166
Trembling.

I killed, I, I killed...

Zhang Shifei knelt down on the ground, repeating these words to himself. At this moment, his whole body was covered with plasma, and the original color of the white T-shirt could no longer be distinguished. On the head, feet, hands, And heart.

Why is this happening?Why?
Zhang Shifei has been spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, and he often fights, but he has never done this kind of murder. In other words, except for trampling ants to death and killing mosquitoes, he has never hurt any living life at all. But now, He killed so many people out of control, how could this not make him feel broken?
What I have to say is that although Zhang Shifei can be regarded as half a monster, to some extent, he is still just a young man in his 20s.

Although there will be thoughts of killing every now and then, how can ordinary people have such courage?

He is indeed an ordinary person, at least it seems so now, the scene in front of him made him unbelievable, the tears in his eyes dripped down uncontrollably, across his thin face, mixed with blood stains , across the cracked mouth corner, piercing pain.

It is really unimaginable that the power of anger is so great, the indifference of human nature reversed the black and white, and made him collapse out of control, causing him to lose his reason and kill so many lives. Only crashes.

But is it his fault?
At this moment, Zhang Shifei didn't know what to do other than the unstoppable tears. This is Harbin, and this is his home. He killed someone, even though those people were really too much.

He should have felt happy at this moment, because killing them was the only thought in Zhang Shifei's mind before he lost his mind, but now that his wish has come true, why is there only regret and fear left in his heart?

Why is that?
At this moment, the little boy whose stomach was ripped open by Zhang Shifei just now spoke. He is now lying on the ground, his limbs showing a strange arc, blood gushes out from his stomach continuously, his little face is pale, only Seeing him crying, he said fiercely: "Why did you kill my mother... We are going home, and she doesn't know you, why did you kill her...?"

Zhang Shifei knelt in front of the little boy, staring wide-eyed at the child who was about to lose his life. For a moment, he was speechless and didn't know how to answer, yes, their mother and son were just passing by here, looking at the distance He wasn't a bystander either, so why did he kill him?What's the difference between you and a monster?
Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei stretched out his hands tremblingly to the child, wanting to hug him and send him to rescue, but just before his hand touched the child, the child looked at him with disgusted eyes. looked at him, and then said weakly, "Don't touch me."

"No...I, I'm sorry, I just wanted to..." Zhang Shifei trembled all over, and at this moment he looked more like a child who was at a loss.

"Murderer." The child said with incomparable resentment.

Zhang Shifei trembled all over, only felt his scalp go numb, and saw the child struggling to raise his bloody little finger and pointing at him, then said viciously: "I will never forgive you..."

As soon as the words were spoken, the child's hand dropped suddenly, his eyes rolled up, and he lost his life.

I will not forgive you, I will not forgive you.

Zhang Shifei opened his mouth wide, watching the young life in front of him pass away, his last words pierced Zhang Shifei's heart deeply, and he suddenly felt as if the whole world collapsed in an instant.

At the same time, his head started to hurt again, just like before he lost control, but this time the pain was more serious, as if his brain was about to pop out, but a voice came from his It came from the bottom of my heart, the voice was soft and magnetic.

The voice said to Zhang Shifei: You have killed everyone now, and no one has killed you anymore, that's why you are in such pain, kill yourself, so that you can be free.

Zhang Shifei knelt on the ground, clutching his head desperately with both hands, but still couldn't resist the voice, and for a moment, he became confused again.

Once the precept of killing is opened, it will be irreversible, and if the demonic nature is combined, it will endanger the common people.
The old man Chen Tuan's words in Yingzhou suddenly reminded him of the killing ring, haven't I already opened it?Am I really doomed?

Zhang Shifei thought, maybe this is not important, now that he has killed so many people, it is impossible to survive in Harbin as a normal person, or even the right to live on this land There will be no more.

Sure enough, is death the right choice for me?Zhang Shifei smiled wryly.

He looked at his hands, which were already covered with blood, which could no longer be washed off. As he thought about it, his tears kept dripping on his hands.

Yes, maybe he should have died a long time ago. All of this is the retribution he deserved. As early as in the painting, he should have died with Xu Ying. If he had done that in the past, he would not have such like pain.

Xu Ying, Liang Yuner.Zhang Shifei thought of Liang Yun'er, and felt extremely sad. It seems that in this life, it is not you who are not waiting, but I who will break the oath.

He smiled wryly, raised his right hand and grabbed his neck, thinking in his heart, I don't deserve the right to love you with my sinful body now, see you in the next life, my love, if there is an afterlife …………

He closed his eyes, and then the peacock fairy bone in his right hand suddenly activated. You must know that the killing kalpa has already begun, and there will be no redemption. I can't help myself, although he is not a good person, but these things can still be figured out.

Rather than living a fugitive life in the future, or confronting Mr. Cui and the others, it would be more comfortable to end it now, kill life and calamity, heh, he smiled wryly again, it seems that this thief has never stopped attacking him Just kidding, this phantom body of his should not have been killed, but it is beyond his comprehension to make things trick people.

It doesn't matter, let it be like this, this world is really terrible, Zhang Shifei suddenly felt very tired, he wanted to rest.

"See you in the next life, my friends," he murmured.

After saying these words, the spirit of the immortal bone in his right hand suddenly rose, and his heart was about to cut off his own neck.

It was too late to say that, just when he was about to kill himself, suddenly there seemed to be a force to stop him, as if someone was breaking his hand, and at the same time, an anxious voice came out of nowhere: "Xiao Zhang !! Wake up!!!"

He trembled all over, this voice was very familiar to him, hoarse and deep, slightly magnetic, it was the voice of Mr. Cui Fuzetang who taught him the way of immortal bones and the way of being a human being!
At that moment, he subconsciously let go of his hand, and then searched around, but he couldn't find Mr. Cui. Zhang Shifei said in surprise: "Parting, is that you? Where are you?"

Mr. Cui's voice came again, but he didn't seem to hear Zhang Shifei's words at all, and he still shouted to himself: "Xiao Zhang!! Wake up!!!"

After these two voices, Zhang Shifei suddenly came back to his senses, and only then did he realize that something was wrong around him. The streets on both sides were empty, only the dozens of corpses. Isn't this quiet too weird?He looked up and saw that the sun was still hanging in the sky, just above the opposite building. He thought to himself, it should have been a few hours since he first met that Fu Xuehan, but The sun is still in that position without moving at all!
Why is this?

At this moment, Mr. Cui's anxious voice sounded again, and the voice shouted: "Xiao Zhang!! Don't worry! All this is fake, it should be just a hallucination! I gave you a lesson before. Zhang Fu, take him out!"

Zhang Shifei suddenly understood something!It turns out that this is the case, all of this is fake!Although he didn't understand when he had hallucinations, the appearance of Mr. Cui now is undoubtedly a life-saving straw for him.

For a while, those thoughts of committing suicide were all thrown into the back of his mind. Fortunately, he carried the talisman with him. Zhang Shifei secretly rejoiced in his heart. He quickly picked up the talisman. At this time, Mr. Cui's The voice came for the fourth time, and the voice shouted: "Now you have to read it to me without distracting thoughts, hurry like a law!!"

Hearing Mr. Cui's words, Zhang Shifei suddenly gained confidence in his heart. He raised the amulet to the sky with one hand, and then shouted: "Urgently, like a law!!!!"

In an instant, the talisman emitted a dazzling light. The light was so bright that Zhang Shifei couldn't open his eyes for a while, so he had to close them tightly. At the same time, his body became weak and he fell backwards involuntarily. .

After a warm current, Zhang Shifei only felt a cool wind mixed with a slight fishy smell blowing towards his face. It was the smell of the river wind!
Zhang Shifei quickly opened his eyes, the surroundings were dark, and it was already dark!He just felt as if he was lying in someone's arms, but when he looked up, it was Li Lanying!Fatty Li hugged Zhang Shifei with an anxious face, while Mr. Cui and Yi Xinxing stood beside him.

Seeing that Zhang Shifei had woken up, Li Lanying was overjoyed, and quickly shouted to Mr. Cui, "He's awake, he's awake!!"

Mr. Cui nodded. Zhang Shifei had just gotten used to the darkness at this time. He looked up, and it was indeed night, and he was currently on the beach by the Songhua River.

Zhang Shifei was a little surprised. He stretched out his hand and touched his face. The corner of his mouth was not injured. Except for his physical and mental exhaustion and his clothes were soaked in sweat, there was nothing wrong with him. How could he be here?How is this possible?Haven't he and Fu Xuehan already walked a long way?What the hell is going on here?
Just when he was puzzled, Mr. Cui spoke up. He walked to Zhang Shifei's side and squatted down, then said to him, "Are you all right?"

Zhang Shifei nodded, and then asked weakly, "I...what's wrong?"

"You almost strangled yourself to death." Mr. Cui said with some lingering fear, holding an unlit cigarette in his mouth.

It turned out that this piece of right and wrong was indeed trapped in a hallucination. When Mr. Cui and Yi Xinxing went out, the sky had already darkened. Due to the traffic jam, it was already night when they rushed to the riverside to reunite with Li Lanying. Yes, because of Yi Xinxing's previous instructions of "asking the way in the red sand", that Zhang Shifei should be on the bank of the Songhua River at this time, so the three of them searched along the river, and when they found Zhang Shifei, they happened to see him explode. He wanted to choke his own neck, so Li Lanying hurried forward and grabbed his hand to prevent him from moving. Mr. Cui had seen a lot, and he knew Zhang Shifei's mind when he saw Zhang Shifei's eyes were dull, his three souls were uncertain, and his seven souls were not working. He must have been trapped by some demonic obstacle and lost his common sense, so he pressed the 'Tuoshengmen' behind Zhang Shifei.

This 'Tuoshengmen' is an acupuncture point, which is also the entrance for the soul to leave the body. Mr. Cui knew that Zhang Shifei could hear his voice only in this way, so he rescued Zhang Shifei.

After Zhang Shifei heard what Mr. Cui said, he couldn't help feeling a cold wind blowing down his back. Is this a hallucination?But it's too real!What the hell is going on here?In the pitch-black night sky, he couldn't have imagined that he was trapped in the hallucination for half a day, but this was wrong, he clearly remembered that he walked a long way with that Fu Xuehan.

"By the way, where's Fu Xuehan?" Zhang Shifei struggled to get up and asked subconsciously.

Mr. Cui pointed aside, Zhang Shifei looked in the direction of Mr. Cui's finger, and saw a person lying on the beach not far away, it was Fu Xuehan, Zhang Shifei hurriedly asked subconsciously: " Is she okay?"

Mr. Cui nodded, and then said: "I just passed out, but you almost killed yourself. Tell us, what happened?"

Li Lanying also said anxiously from the side: "That's right, did the egg demon come to the door?"

Zhang Shifei shook his head. All of this was too weird to explain with common sense, so he didn't know how to answer, so he told Mr. Cui exactly what happened today, and Mr. Cui listened carefully. , seemed to want to get some information from Zhang Shifei's words, but what Zhang Shifei saw today were all unusual things, so Mr. Cui didn't know what went wrong for a while.

After Zhang Shifei finished speaking, Mr. Cui thought for a while. Suddenly, his eyes lit up, and then he said to Zhang Shifei: "You said, did you take pictures with Fu Xuehan after you saw her?"

Zhang Shifei nodded and replied, "Yes, what's wrong?"

Mr. Cui hurriedly said, "Quick, show me that photo."

photo?What is he looking at the picture for?Zhang Shifei was full of suspicion, but he didn't say anything, so he groped in his pocket. The photo was still there. Zhang Shifei pulled it out, and said to Mr. Cui, "Here... Huh?"

Looking at the photo, Zhang Shifei felt a thump in his heart. On the Polaroid photo paper, Zhang Shifei and Fu Xuehan were standing in front of the Flood Control Memorial Tower, surrounded by bustling crowds. It was noon. But what surprised Zhang Shifei was that the two people in this photo had no face! ?

The positions of the heads of the two were white, as if caused by overexposure. Zhang Shifei was very surprised and showed the photo to Mr. Cui. Mr. Cui looked at the photo, then frowned and said: "I'm afraid, That's where the problem lies."

Zhang Shifei still didn't understand what was going on. Li Lanying on the side took the photo from Mr. Cui and chatted with Yi Xinxing. Li Lanying asked, "Break up, what do you mean? What do you mean?" Is there something wrong with this photo?"

Mr. Cui nodded, and when he was about to speak, he heard a voice not far from their right hand, that is, on the Songhua River.

"Haha, of course it's about that photo!"

"Who!" Everyone suddenly became vigilant, and then quickly turned around to look at the river, only to see a vortex gradually appeared on the wavy Songhua River, and a person slowly floated up from the vortex. .

Before seeing the man's face clearly, he heard its voice, and he said jokingly: "Me? I'm an old lady who lives by the riverside to take pictures of people and earn a living. I also live on the street The old beggar who cheated for a living, or the elementary school student who was murdered when he went home with his mother, haha, isn’t I me?”

His uncle!It really is this little bastard!Zhang Shifei looked at the grandson who appeared on the river, who else could it be if it wasn't the arrogant Xiaojiu last night?Seeing the smirk on the grandson's face, and then gloating at the crowd, Zhang Shifei couldn't bear it all of a sudden, and yelled at it loudly: "Is this all your fault!!??"

As soon as he finished speaking, Xiao Jiu seemed to have heard some Coke joke, and immediately covered his stomach and laughed, and said while laughing: "Of course it's me, hahaha, aunt, I'm a local, haha , don’t hit her, this has nothing to do with her...hahahahahaha."

It turned out that Zhang Shifei really followed Xiaojiu's way. The demon egg Xiaojiu followed Zhang Shifei all the way, and turned into the old lady in front of the Flood Control Memorial Tower. The two used some kind of ecstasy, so the leaving from the Flood Control Monument, and the old beggar and his killing were all illusory.

In fact, Zhang Shifei and Fu Xuehan didn't walk very far at all, and the direction was not right. They just walked along the river for a while. In the hallucination, Zhang Shifei certainly couldn't feel the time, so it didn't take long in the hallucination, but In reality, it was already night.

In fact, Xiao Jiu could have killed the two of them directly, but I don't know why it didn't do so.

Hearing Xiao Jiu's sneer, Zhang Shifei's eyes seemed to burst into flames. He thought to himself why this grandson is so disgusting!If you want to kill, you can kill, why do you have to torture like this?
So, he couldn't help cursing: "Why! Didn't you say you want to play a game! Why did you do such a thing?"

I saw that Xiaojiu straightened his collar with his hands, then took out 20 yuan, and sneered at Zhang Shifei while fiddling with it: "Of course, of course we are playing a game? You forgot? You I even paid the game coins, am I just enjoying the fun of the game?"

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