The years I was a birdman

Chapter 291 The Story of the Past Life

Say goodbye to those untrue hugs, say goodbye to those untrue legends, say goodbye to those false goodwill, say goodbye to those passers-by who come and go in a hurry, we have walked all the way, we have walked a long way, we have never stopped, until the last time we look back , I just discovered that we are already far, far away from the end we expected at the beginning.

Our today is not what we expected yesterday, but what are we expecting, the sunny weather, the smiling faces of our children, the peace of mind, and a better tomorrow...

Zhang Shifei was sitting on the bus, the bumpy dirt road was full of potholes, and almost all the people on the bus were students from universities. Zhang Shifei was listening to the FM broadcast on the bus, while watching them chatting and laughing. Suddenly, he felt Although he is not much older than them in age, his heart is much older than them.

At least, they smiled brightly and were very innocent. Although their lives were not satisfactory, they were much happier than Zhang Shifei, because they didn't know their own destiny.

This is true. In fact, sometimes it is a good thing to not see the future, because the unknown represents infinite possibilities. Knowing too much will often bring deeper troubles, just like Zhang Shifei, who has long been He knew his own destiny, but he was not happy, but was deeply troubled.

The shape of tomorrow can only be seen clearly after the moon disappears. I wonder if you beside the radio are also looking forward to tomorrow. Tomorrow is a rest day. What are you going to do?Facing the computer alone in a daze, gathering with a few close friends, or being with the one you love the most.

Zhang Shifei continued to listen to the soft voice of the female announcer on the radio, accompanied by soothing music, which was very comfortable for his ears. Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, when will this broadcast be so tasteful, what kind of program is this? in the end.

Of course he didn't know what program it was. Since the journey was still far away, he closed his eyes and listened to the soft tone in the noisy environment. The gap is reflected in the car window, and the light and shadow are interlaced, constantly moving backwards and forwards.

In fact, sometimes, the things in mind do not necessarily have to be earth-shattering. People's minds are always unpredictable, and people's minds often inadvertently record some things that look or sound calm, just like a casual sentence. , but it can make us remember for a lifetime.

It was such an opportunity that Zhang Shifei, who did not want to take a taxi but took a bus, heard a sentence in the old box on the bus, and he has not forgotten it until now.

Beloved, why do you love, have we ever thought about what our love is, whether it is a touch, a throbbing, or just love for the sake of love.

Love for love's sake, Zhang Shifei felt sore in his heart after hearing this sentence, love for love's sake, why does this sentence sound so sad?
Things that often make people sad are things that can resonate, Zhang Shifei thought, do I agree with this sentence in the bottom of my heart?

Liang Yuner, why do I love you?

Zhang Shifei suddenly opened his eyes. Although there was nothing strange around him, he still broke out in cold sweat. He couldn't believe that he would think of such a thing. Why, why did he think this way?

Zhang Shifei suddenly felt a chill. Once that idea appeared, he couldn't stop it anymore. It gushed out like a flood of broken gates, and Zhang Shifei's thinking became confused again.

Why love?Why love?Is it just for a promise?Is it because she is Xu Ying's reincarnation?Xu Ying... the woman in the painting, why did I...

enough! !Zhang Shifei only felt that something was wrong for a while, so he didn't have much scruples, raised his hand and slapped himself hard!With a slap, his slap was not symbolic, but very forceful, and a red mark appeared on his right cheek, which was slightly red and swollen.

The students in the car looked at this pale man with disheveled hair and a pointed chin, feeling strange in their hearts, wondering what happened to this man?Seeing that he is well dressed, he doesn't look like a psycho, why would he smoke himself?Could it be because of taking drugs?

Zhang Shifei ignored the strange eyes of those people, he broke out in cold sweat again, his chest heaved continuously, the slap just now pulled him back from his fantasy.

At this time, the driver just stretched out his hand to adjust the frequency, and tuned to a channel that was broadcasting Guo Degang's cross talk. Mr. Guo's voice caused a burst of laughter.

Zhang Shifei naturally didn't laugh, he was very surprised, what was he thinking in his head, why, his wild thoughts became more and more out of order, more and more terrifying?Why do you think about these things?Why... I had the thought of not wanting to love anymore at that moment just now?

I rely on! !I don't know why, Zhang Shifei's heart was shocked suddenly, he suddenly remembered something, could it be like this?

Could this be the true explanation of the body of giving up love?Zhang Shifei's eyes widened, and then he subconsciously covered his mouth with his hands. This is very possible!Zhang Shifei suddenly figured out why he had been thinking wildly since he came back from Yingzhou, no, it should be said that he came back from the painting.

Could it be that this is the characteristic of the body of giving up love?In this way, it is true that since I rescued the fat man in the Snake Cave Mountain a few days ago, the number of strange thoughts in my mind has increased significantly, and each time has become more realistic and more terrifying. Could it be that this is because I personally gave up Have you lost your feelings?
Those who give up love, the meaning of illusion itself, is it that I will gradually disbelieve in love?Could it be that my heart will gradually decay?
Zhang Shifei shuddered for no reason, this was terrible, why hadn't I thought of this?Zhang Shifei's eyes widened. At this moment, he could clearly hear his own heartbeat, thump, thump, thump.

Damn, God, why are you messing with me like this! ?Thinking about it, Zhang Shifei turned from panic to anger. He looked at the sky outside the window, and then cursed in his heart: Where did I recruit you? Why did I choose me? !

He didn't dare to shout out, after all he was very calm, there were too many people here, besides, it would be meaningless even if he shouted out, because God, this thing can only appear in books in the hands of devout believers, or No one has ever seen what God looks like in the mouth of the unlucky drunk.

Zhang Shifei sighed, and his mood calmed down a little. He came back to his senses, and only then noticed that the passengers stood avoiding him intentionally or unintentionally, as if they were afraid that idiots would infect him. He looked handsome, and cast a sympathetic look at him. Zhang Shifei knew that he seemed to be out of line just now. After all, he is not a child anymore. It seems that he has graduated from that ostentatious years in a few months, so , he lowered his head and stopped making any noise.

Forget it, let's take it one step at a time, anyway, there are still two months left, so it doesn't matter what his feelings are, as long as he stops thinking wildly within these two months.

As soon as he thought of this, the car arrived at the stop. Zhang Shifei got out of the car with his head down and followed the crowd. It was nearly five o'clock, and the sun was about to set.

After taking a few breaths of fresh air, Zhang Shifei thought to himself, what the hell, what God, what fate? !Is it true that I have been with the split for too long, why have I become so pessimistic unconsciously? !So what if there is destiny?Why do I have to always be led by the nose?Dry!You said that if you ask me to give up my love, I will give up my love. Why am I so obedient?

Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei raised his head to look at the sun, then spat fiercely on the ground, making up his mind, no matter what, I will never compromise, if I don't believe in love, I will Fuck your grandma!My own heart is my own decision, and no one can control my thoughts!Even if you are destiny! !

After cursing furiously in his heart, he was indeed much happier, temporarily forgetting the unhappiness, Zhang Shifei then picked up the phone, and then dialed Liang Yun'er's number, and he got through after a while. It seemed very noisy on the other side of the phone, and I didn't know where it was. I could only hear Liang Yun'er's very happy voice: "Are you back?"

Zhang Shifei seemed that Zhang Shifei had to speak very loudly to be heard by Liang Yuner, and those worries in Zhang Shifei's heart disappeared without a trace. Indeed, he thought too much. In Liang Yuner's eyes, he was just on a business trip this time. Just like his parents, so Zhang Shifei said loudly into the phone, yes, I'm back, where are you?
Liang Yun'er said that she was hungry and was eating in the cafeteria, and when she learned that Zhang Shifei had arrived at the gate of her school, she was very happy and told Zhang Shifei that she would come out soon.

I don't know why, although I was still full of uneasiness just now, but after hearing Liang Yun'er's voice at this moment, my heart calmed down without warning, Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, yes, why are you still uneasy, Isn't it good now?As long as she has me in her heart, and I have her in my heart, what does it matter why she loves?

So, he hurriedly said to Liang Yun'er, no need, you continue to eat, I'll go find you.

After knowing Liang Yun'er's location, Zhang Shifei walked into her school and went straight to the cafeteria. It was just after five o'clock, and it was time for dinner. Carved out of the mold, Zhang Shifei looked at the cafeteria of Liang Yun'er School and said with emotion in his heart, it's really unexpected that after graduating for such a long time, he can come to such a place again.

I have just said that the cafeterias are all the same, and this is true. When Zhang Shifei walked into the cafeteria, there was a wave of heat mixed with the smell of fish-flavored shredded pork. This is the characteristic of the cafeteria. No matter what he does, there are Carrots, no matter what you eat, will smell like fish and shredded pork if you eat too much.

Zhang Shifei walked through the first floor of the cafeteria that looked like a farmer's market, looking around, trying to find Liang Yun'er, but there were too many students eating, so he couldn't find it for a while, until he heard someone shouting I just looked back, and saw Liang Yun'er in a denim skirt and T-shirt at a table on the right by the window, with a smile on her face, beckoning to him.

I don't know why, seeing Liang Yuner waving to him, Zhang Shifei's eyes were blurred, as if the temperature in the restaurant was too high, and his eyes were covered with a layer of moisture. I have to say, every time I see this little girl , My heart is full of emotion, this moment may also have something to do with what he usually does.

On the verge of life and death, sleeping in the wild and drinking instant noodle soup, for what?Isn't it just to give the one you love a place to belong?Isn't it because of my promise in that painting?

To inherit this promise from you, I will keep it for the rest of my life. This is what I promised her, and I will naturally do it. Even if there are mountains of swords and seas of fire, even hell's frying pan, nothing can stop her!
I don't know the year and month in the painting, and I have been reincarnated several times in a flash. Now that the person in the painting is standing in front of my eyes, why am I still confused?Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes. That's right, he doesn't need to think too much at this moment, as long as he protects his beliefs, that's enough. Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei put on a smiling face, Then walked over quickly.

He trotted all the way to Liang Yuner's side, looking at his sweetheart whom he hadn't seen for a long time, even though he had a thousand words to say, he didn't know where to start, he just stood in front of her, and then smiled blankly, Liang Yuner Seeing him coming, she was also full of happiness, but she put away her smile, then pouted, and said to Zhang Shifei complaining, "When did you come back? Say text me."

Zhang Shifei scratched the back of his head, and then said to her: "Well, just now, I just came back not long ago, and I want to surprise you."

Seeing Zhang Shifei's appearance, Liang Yun'er couldn't hold back anymore, and burst out laughing, then she took Zhang Shifei's hand, let him sit beside her, and said to him: "Okay, I know You are a motivated young man whose career is the most important thing, look at you, you have lost weight, why is your face still swollen?"

While speaking, she stretched out her left hand and gently stroked Zhang Shifei's right cheek. Zhang Shifei smiled wryly, and said that when she was fighting with Na Ranxi in Shedong Mountain, that old hag really showed her face , didn't hit him in the face, his face was swollen, he had done it himself on the bus just now.

Zhang Shifei only felt Liang Yun'er's soft and boneless little hand caressing his face, which was icy cold, and his heart was filled with tenderness, so he said to Liang Yun'er: "It's okay... I guess it's because of the acclimatization. , the water in the Yalu River does not have the support of the Songhua River, so the swelling should subside tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.”

Liang Yun'er seemed distressed and wanted to laugh, Zhang Shifei asked, "By the way..."

"That's right." Before he finished speaking, Liang Yun'er actually spoke first. She took Zhang Shifei's hand, and then complained to him, "You, don't you see who this is?"

what is thisZhang Shifei was stunned for a moment, then he followed Liang Yuner's eyes, and he was overwhelmed, only to see that Fu Xuehan was sitting opposite Liang Yuner eating ramen at this moment, she had seen Zhang Shifei a long time ago, but Zhang Shifei didn't divert his attention after seeing Liang Yun'er, so he guessed it.

Ouch, what's going on?Zhang Shifei looked at Fu Xuehan, and couldn't help feeling a little embarrassed. Thinking about the last time they met, everyone was unhappy. How could Fu Xuehan sit with Liang Yun'er this time?And in this situation, what should I say?

Zhang Shifei opened his mouth, but he couldn't find a word, he was at a loss for words again when he was quite good at talking, but it was Fu Xuehan who spoke first, and she smiled and said to Zhang Shifei: "Brother Zhang, long time no see. "

Zhang Shifei nodded dully. It seems that this little girl is not angry with him, so that's fine, but... Zhang Shifei thought of this, and looked at Liang Yun'er in a puzzled way, only to see that Liang Yun'er pursed her lips She smiled with a small mouth, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Okay, you don't have to think too much, the previous things were all misunderstandings, and now Little Rabbit and I are good sisters."

Zhang Shifei watched Liang Yun'er say this sentence so easily, and couldn't help feeling a little admiration. This woman is really not simple. Although he had thought of this before, Liang Yun'er always gave him some surprises. Thinking about it, Zhang Shifei felt a little grateful again. Zhang Shifei understood that Liang Yuner did this for his own sake. Liang Yuner was not a stupid woman, so he could naturally see that Zhang Shifei and Fu Xuehan had a good relationship Yes, Liang Yun'er really didn't want to see the man she loved breaking up with her friends because of herself, maybe it was because of this that Liang Yun'er took the initiative to approach Fu Xuehan.

Indeed, after scolding Fu Xuehan's brain-dead friends last time, Zhang Shifei was also a little distressed. He understood that Fu Xuehan was not to blame for this incident. This little girl is still a good person. Really, it's just that At that time, Zhang Shifei had no energy to think about these things, and when he arrived at the school gate just now, Zhang Shifei still had some scruples in his heart. What should he do if he meets Fu Xuehan again? Now it seems that his worries are all It's redundant, because there is already a woman behind him to take care of everything for him.

This woman is so nice, and Zhang Shifei was moved again. Seeing that he was silent and in a daze, Liang Yun'er reached out and tapped his forehead, and said to him, "What are you thinking?"

Zhang Shifei never thought that he could sit with Liang Yun'er and Fu Xuehan at the same time, and they talked so naturally. Liang Yuner is a woman who knows how to measure. It's still interesting, so she didn't have too many intimate actions or words towards Zhang Shifei because she didn't see her for a long time. Most of the time, she was still chatting with Fu Xuehan. Zhang Shifei understood why she did this, and knew , she is such a kind woman, she doesn't want to hurt anyone, and she doesn't want to embarrass the person she likes, she is so strong, she wants to do everything best.

So Zhang Shifei gradually blended into their conversation. Zhang Shifei told the two women some of his experiences during "business trips". Of course, things like Sanda with monsters cannot be talked about, but the customs However, it is still possible to talk about some of them, such as meeting the sad crowd locked in the toilet on the train, why an old monk in a temple lived at least 100 years before he died, and why a stone tablet has had its inscription changed three times, etc. Women like to listen to new things, and the two women listened with gusto. Zhang Shifei's language was fairly humorous. Fu Xuehan tried her best to conceal it in front of her, but she couldn't hide the love for Zhang Shifei in her eyes.

It wasn't until Fu Xuehan's noodles were finished that she stretched her waist, and then said to Zhang Shifei and Liang Yun'er, "Okay, I'm full, go back and take a bath first, Brother Zhang, you can spend more time with Sister Liang Come on, I'm not going to be a light bulb."

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