The years I was a birdman

Chapter 325 Casablanca

Zhang Shifei finally fell to his knees on the ground, and he covered his face with his hands. He knew it, and he knew it long ago. He is now in a dream, and that so-called 'dream' is the real reality. He wanted to deceive himself and others, but found that he couldn't even deceive himself. After the short-term happiness, the reality was still cruel in front of him, making it impossible for him to dodge.

It's just that he really couldn't accept this reality. Liang Yun'er died and fell into reincarnation again. However, in the next reincarnation, Zhang Shifei might not exist anymore.

It's over, everything is over, Zhang Shifei is exhausted, tears are pouring out continuously, why, he choked up hoarsely: "Why, why can't you even give me a sweet dream...?"

"That's because it's your own choice." Just after Zhang Shifei finished speaking, there was an emotionless voice behind him. Zhang Shifei looked back slowly and saw the "flower seller" Er'er's stuttering' is still standing behind him, but his expression is no longer as wretched as before, and his speech has become very fluent.

Zhang Shifei looked at him with red eyes, and then said to him: "You...you are not a flower seller or a bartender, who are you?"

I saw that 'stammer' smiled slightly, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Don't you know me, we have met many times, but don't get me wrong, I do sell flowers and make drinks, because those are My interests, speaking of which, my interests are very broad...and these are not important, the important thing is you."

His voice sounded very familiar, but Zhang Shifei no longer had the strength to recall it. With the extreme sadness returning to Zhang Shifei's heart again, he was completely desperate. Whoever suffered such a big blow would After a setback, Zhang Shifei was no exception. The love that lasted for several reincarnations disappeared in the blink of an eye. He felt that now he could finally experience the feeling of Ranxi, but it was too late. It has become a foregone conclusion and cannot be changed.

Zhang Shifei lowered his head, as if he didn't even have the strength to speak. On this familiar yet unfamiliar street, tears fell on the concrete pavement, crying like a child.

The middle-aged man who sold flowers saw that he didn't seem to care about him, and didn't take it very seriously. Looking at his expression, he seemed to have expected this, and saw that the corners of his mouth were curled up, which was very strange. Although he smiled, But the tone of his speech was still without any emotion, like a puppet.

I saw him looking at the heartbroken Zhang Shifei, and then said calmly: "Well, it seems that you are not interested in this, so I will make a long story short. Actually, you shouldn't be so depressed, because , you still have a chance."

What? ?After Zhang Shifei, who was bowing his head, heard this sentence, his pupils dilated suddenly, he stood up quickly, and without any explanation, he grabbed the florist by the collar of his clothes, and shouted loudly with red eyes. Said: "What?! What are you talking about, I... I still have a chance?"

Even though Zhang Shifei didn't know why he had reason to believe him, even though he didn't know who he was at all, even though Zhang Shifei didn't even know where he was now, after hearing that he still had a chance to save Liang Yun'er At that time, he couldn't think much at all, he just wanted to confirm from this guy's mouth whether he was real or not.

After all, he was too uncomfortable. When he thought that there would be no Liang Yun'er by his side in the future, his heart felt like thousands of knife-cut pains. This kind of pain made him go crazy, that's why he lost control like this.

And the middle-aged man selling flowers smiled, and then Zhang Shifei only felt his hands lighten, and that person escaped from his palm like a ghost. It didn't move at all. It seemed that what Zhang Shifei caught just now was just a shadow. When Zhang Shifei noticed, the man was already sitting on the small stool in front of the flower beach. He took off a bouquet of pink roses, and then ignored Zhang Shifei who was stunned, and just said to himself: "Since you want to know how to save your 'lover', it's very simple, first answer me a few questions. a question."

Hearing what he said, Zhang Shifei regained his sanity a little bit. He walked forward involuntarily and stood in front of the flower seller, just like a student standing in front of the dean of students, with his head bowed. head, let the florist look up and down.

Zhang Shifei said hoarsely: "Whatever the question, as long as you can tell me how to save her, I will answer you any question!"

When the flower seller saw him asking a question, he looked at the pink rose in his hand with a half-smile, and said to Zhang Shifei, "I'm just interested in you, and I want to ask you, why are you so sad?" , and why do you want to save her?"

When Zhang Shifei thought of Liang Yun'er, his hands trembled uncontrollably. He looked at the middle-aged man who sold flowers, and then said to him: "Because I love her, she is my favorite in this world." people."

"Oh, is that so?" The flower seller seemed to have doubts about his answer. He took out one of the pink roses in his hand and played with it in his hand. Zhang Shifei said: "Then tell me, why do you love her?"

Why love.

This seems to be a long-standing problem, and it is also a problem we all face. When we hold the other half's hand, have we ever thought about why we love and what is love?

Maybe, our answers are very naive, maybe, we don't have the answer.

Zhang Shifei thought he had it, and at the time he didn't think it was a problem, but even though he thought so, when the flower seller asked him, he felt a little uneasy, but it couldn't stop him In his answer, he said word by word to the flower seller: "Because, I once promised her that I would always be by her side, forever, and never change."

Indeed, if you want to talk about why Zhang Shifei loves Liang Yuner so deeply, you have to go back to the last reincarnation, it is the snow-capped mountain where a hundred birds fly away, the heart-wrenching farewell, Xu Ying's feelings for peacocks, and the peacocks in the past. The last promise to Xu Ying, the promise to wait for my return, will never change.

Xu Ying's frozen body was still smiling, as if she had wished for a sincere relationship before she died. From that day on, Xu Ying became Zhang Shifei's dream. , until he met her again, Zhang Shifei would never forget how excited he was when he saw Liang Yun'er. Although he was already drunk at that time, his heart was indeed extremely happy. Let God give him a chance, let him make up for that fruitless love story.

However, he could never have imagined that this story still ended in tragedy. He couldn't have imagined that even though the vicissitudes of life have changed, the objective lens has changed, and several reincarnations have passed, their love still cannot bear fruit. Could it be that God made them meet again? To tease them?Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei's heart began to ache again. At the same time, he secretly swore in his heart that he would go to save Liang Yun'er no matter what...

After Zhang Shifei finished speaking, the flower seller smiled again, then he looked away from the bouquet of pink roses, looked up at Zhang Shifei, and Zhang Shifei realized that he didn't dare Looking at this person, because there seems to be some magical power in his eyes, so unscrupulous, it seems to be able to look straight into the depths of his soul, Zhang Shifei feels that in this person's eyes, he seems to be naked, no matter what Everything is seen clearly.

Zhang Shifei hated this look.

I saw that person looked at Zhang Shifei, then grinned, and said: "So, you love her because of a promise you made in the snow, so you love her, just want to make up for your previous regrets, and chose Her reincarnation?"

There was still no emotion in his tone, and the tone was very calm, but in Zhang Shifei's ears, it seemed to carry a hint of irony, which made him feel very uncomfortable. He clenched his fists and answered Said: "Yes, he has been waiting for me for so many years, I can't let her wait any longer, is it wrong for me to do so? Do you have any questions, if not, tell me how to save her? Okay? "

The flower seller waved his hands when he heard what Zhang Shifei said, and then said to him: "No, no, what you did before is your previous choice, and only you can judge whether it is right or wrong. But what I want to say is, if you just want to make up for your mistakes and stay with that woman's reincarnation, maybe you don't have to do anything?"

After hearing his words, Zhang Shifei didn't react for a while, but he said to the man, "You...what do you mean?"

The flower seller seemed to be waiting for his words, and he smiled and said, "It's not interesting, I just want you to make your own choice."

Uneasy, Zhang Shifei didn't know, he felt uneasy again in his heart, he looked at the flower seller, and then said with a trembling voice: "What, what choice?"

The florist looked at Zhang Shifei, then slowly raised his right hand, pinching the pink rose between his thumb and index finger, and said to Zhang Shifei word by word. : "Now the choice has begun. If I tell you that the woman you've been pursuing is not the Xu Ying you've been thinking about day and night, then would you still want to save her?"

For Zhang Shifei, this was indeed an endless nightmare. It turned out that the pain really had no end. At that moment, Zhang Shifei's blood seemed to have congealed, his heart didn't seem to be beating, and everything in front of him seemed to lose its color. With a bang, he knelt down on the ground, panting heavily, this was just an instinctive reaction, it seemed that if it wasn't like this, even his breathing would stop.

Never thought about it, really never thought about it, the question about the flower seller was exactly what Zhang Shifei didn't want to hear. Was Liang Yun'er Xu Ying's reincarnation?How could this be?They are not...they...

Zhang Shifei frantically recalled every detail of his time with Liang Yuner, and tried to find evidence that Liang Yuner was Xu Ying's reincarnation to refute the flower seller's point of view. However, he discovered that he could prove that Liang Yuner was There is no evidence of Xu Ying's reincarnation! !
How could this be?how so! !Zhang Shifei opened his mouth wide, and collapsed on the ground in exhaustion, with severe pain in his chest, as if a big hammer was beating his heart fiercely, but he couldn't move at all. Sobbing, sobbing constantly, it seems that the whole world is about to collapse.

The incomparable pain in his heart, this kind of pain far surpasses the body, it seems that the soul has been broken.

Cai Handong once told him that samsara is divided into six realms. There are two ways to return from the beginning to the end of life in this world. From the top to the poor and the bottom to the bottom of the world, between the nine secluded and the surrounding universe, the ascetic can get rid of the suffering of all beings and temporarily escape from samsara. One of the six ways is the way of heaven, which is the realm of the gods. Although the gods have a long life, they cannot escape the five declines of heaven and man when they die. Ordinary people continue to suffer from reincarnation. In the first ring, after death, a person will fall into the secluded city of Fengdu, and practice the way of ghosts and ghosts, just like a living person going to court, revealing what he has done before going to court. If a person commits a heinous crime, he must fall into hell. This is the six realms. At the end of the day, only ghosts who have not done too many bad things, or are truly kind-hearted, can continue to be reincarnated as animals or humans. Relationships, appearances, all change.

Zhang Shifei knew this a long time ago, but his subconscious mind didn't allow him to think about it. After all, he had already determined that Liang Yun'er was Xu Ying's reincarnation. This was the question he was most afraid of, but now that the flower seller said it straight to the point, how could it prevent him from breaking down?
Seeing his reaction so violently, the flower seller didn't make any reaction. He still sat on the small stool, regardless of Zhang's right and wrong, and still addressed Zhang with that calm to weird tone. Shi Fei said: "Actually, if you want to save people, it's really very simple, you just try your best, but if, I mean if, let's assume, if what you have been looking for is not the white lily, but this bouquet of lilies. As for Fen Qiangwei, what if the person you have been looking for is by your side and has never left? Then, would you still go to save that woman named Liang Yun'er?"

Every word of the flower seller's words pierced deeply into Zhang Shifei's heart. Zhang Shifei raised his head and looked at him with difficulty, then exhausted all his strength, struggling and said: "You...you mean ..."

The florist smiled slightly, but didn't answer, just bent down, handed the pink rose in his hand to Zhang Shifei, and then said to him: "You have no strength now, look, how far is the lily from you? You can't climb it, but this pink rose is within reach, tell me now, what is your choice?"

Hearing what he said, Zhang Shifei suddenly had a terrible idea in his heart. Could it be that person that he had been waiting and looking for all this time?

This blow was too great for him, so that he felt that his heart seemed to be shattering, and he could clearly hear the sound similar to glass cracks, shattered into pieces, and then scattered On the ground, if the glass is broken, and it can still be glued together, but if the heart is broken, how can it be filled?
Zhang Shifei's eyes seemed to be unable to shed tears anymore. In the state of extreme congestion, the whites of his eyes turned blood red, and his pupils continued to dilate, as if he was about to die. He opened his mouth and could only utter With the sound of 'Ahhh', he completely collapsed. At this moment, he felt that the whole world had abandoned him.

And the flower seller smiled at him, then got up, and gently placed the rose in Zhang Shifei's hand, then he turned around and left only Zhang Shifei's back, and he sighed softly: "It's hard to make a choice, isn't it? Don't worry, I'll give you time. Remember, we'll meet again the day you make a choice. I'm looking forward to your answer."

And Zhang Shifei only felt a burst of dizziness in his head, and the heart-piercing pain in his chest, as if he was about to lose consciousness, only to see Zhang Shifei said with difficulty: "You...you..."

His voice was as small as a mosquito, but the man heard it clearly. He smiled, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Didn't I tell you just now, we have met before, as for My name, it’s been too long and I’ve forgotten it, but in your world, I have a very familiar nickname.”
When the flower seller said this, he stretched out his right hand and grabbed it out of thin air. A yellow peaked cap suddenly appeared in the palm of his hand. The flower seller put on the hat and turned around. , said to Zhang Shifei: "You call me fate, take care, until we meet next time."

After all, a gust of wind suddenly blew up in the silent empty city, and Zhang Shifei felt a sharp pain in front of his eyes. When he opened his eyes again, the person who called himself 'Fate' had disappeared.

The word fate is very familiar to Zhang Shifei. He has appeared in the stories of countless people, including Ranxi. It seems that Mr. Cui and the others have seen fate before, but is he fate?Indeed, Zhang Shifei had indeed seen that hat. When he was in Snake Cave Mountain, the scene at that time was the same as it is now. It was all dreamlike, but so real.

But these, Zhang Shifei no longer has the strength to think about it. The pain in his heart almost suffocates him. He wants to cry, but he can't cry, and he can't move. A heart would break and ooze blood.

What is the purpose of everything I do?

His head hurt more and more, and the surrounding scene became darker. Zhang Shifei moved his hand with difficulty, but he didn't touch the rose. Instead, he looked at the book Casablanca not far away, and blood flowed from his eyes. , he kept sobbing, as if his body was no longer in control, the bouquet of white lilies was not far away from him at the moment, but Zhang Shifei couldn't touch it because his body was not in control.

Zhang Shifei desperately wanted to climb over there, but even though he scratched his palm, he couldn't move at all. This may be like the fate of him and Liang Yun'er. You can see it, but you can't get it anyway. Zhang Shifei Lying on the ground, he kept grabbing the ground with both hands, his two palms were bloody and bloody from the hard cement, and the blood stained the roses beside him, and the bouquet of roses looked very bleak.

Let me go, let me go! !Zhang Shifei's eyes were blood red, he kept opening his mouth and made a hoarse voice, but he couldn't even move his body, he was too weak.

Gradually, the surroundings became dark. Zhang Shifei looked at the bunch of white Casablanca with his eyes. As the darkness fell, the bunch of Casablanca also began to wither slowly. Zhang Shifei felt that his life seemed to be drying up with it. , but he was helpless, the despair in his heart made him breathless, he dared not look at that bunch of Casablanca again, even though it was the last light in the darkness, even if he closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to feel it, the flowers Has completely withered, and then was swallowed by endless darkness.

After a long time, Zhang Shifei finally opened his eyes, and the white moonlight shone on him. What he saw was the sky full of stars, and the joyful expressions of Li Lanying and Cai Handong.

He woke up, finally woke up, but for Zhang Shifei, does waking up represent the beginning of another nightmare?
(End of this chapter)