The years I was a birdman

Chapter 331 Wine Tears

Zhang Shifei woke up.

He really woke up, but, just like what Chen Tuan and Liu Ling said before, he still didn't say a word, maybe waking up was the beginning of another nightmare for him, and he was really scared .

Liu Ling is indeed very efficient. After pouring wine gourd water from the Yuxi River yesterday, he rushed back to his wine cellar and brewed a wine that is unparalleled in the world overnight. According to his words, this is probably The second most precious wine in the world, so far a bottle, if this thing appeared in their time, it is estimated that there will be another bloodbath, but even though this bottle of wine is so precious, Liu Ling didn't drink it, and even smelled it. I don't even smell it, I really don't know why.

Of course, this is not what Li Lanying cares about, he didn't sleep all night, since the bamboo in the bamboo forest glowed green, he has been sitting beside Zhang Shifei, Chen Tuan seems to be full of sleep, so he also He didn't sleep, he sat on the stone bench and repeatedly played with two pieces of Tai Sui skin. One of the two pieces of Tai Sui skin was exactly what he used to wear. I don't know what kind of mood he will be in, but looking at his eyes, it seems that he is not very happy.

Li Lanying had fed some spring water from Yuxi to Zhang Shifei before, so now he was not worried about his hunger. Li Lanying waited bitterly without saying a word for one night.

Until the sky gradually brightened and the green light of the bamboo forest disappeared, Li Lanying suddenly raised her head and saw Liu Ling walking over with a bottle of things. Seeing this, Li Lanying rushed to meet him, and Liu Ling nodded to him , and then handed the contents to Chen Tuan.

Chen Tuan poured out some yellow powder from the bottle, which glistened like golden sand. This was the fruit of Liu Ling's one night. Chen Tuan was very satisfied with the leftover distiller's grains made from the water of Yuxi, so he called Li Lanying Helping Zhang Shifei up, Li Lanying did as he did. Chen Tuan didn't say anything, but just stretched out his right hand and drew a circle out of thin air towards his left palm, and the golden powder in his palm seemed to be floating with life force. When he got up, he saw that Chen Tuan hooked Zhang Shifei again, and Zhang Shifei's body floated up like those powders. At the same time, his shirt unbuttoned by itself, revealing his thin chest. Putting her hands together, Li Lanying felt that this posture was like those monks chanting Amitabha Buddha. With a bang, the golden powder floating in the air penetrated into Zhang Shifei's chest, and then disappeared. .

Zhang Shifei was shocked, and then fell down. Li Lanying quickly stepped forward and hugged him in his arms, but when he turned his head again, he found that Chen Tuan and Liu Ling were already sitting at the table. They didn't look at each other, turned their heads to one side, and didn't say a word.

Li Lanying was puzzled, and then he asked Chen Tuan tentatively: "Father... this, this is the end?"

Chen Tuan nodded, and then said to Li Lanying, "Then what else do you want?"

I don’t want to do anything, what can I do, Li Lanying thought in her heart, it’s just that Mr. Cui has been busy in the world for nearly a month before, and Mr. Cui has made countless attempts, and even used all kinds of soul-calling rituals, which one is not extremely complicated ?I really didn't expect that Chen Tuan's method was so simple that he couldn't react for a while, but he thought in his heart, that's right, no matter how golden or silver tricks are, they are good tricks, and Chen Tuan can't fool around He was playing, so this time Zhang Zhengfei might really be fine.

How did he know that this seemingly simple movement by Chen Tuan actually hides countless mysteries. If Zhang Shifei's "qi heart" is scattered, it is like a piece of white paper being torn to pieces. , it's so easy, you have to use the most aura of fine wine in the world to re-attract them together with the smell of the lees. After all, the mortal body might not be able to support it, and it would be really difficult to get its spirit drunk, and the material of the distiller's grains is also something that can't be found.

Not to mention how rare the female ghost's tears are, but the water from Yuquan is also very rare, the only one in the Three Realms, plus Liu Ling, a master brewer, Liu Ling hasn't put so much effort into brewing wine for a long time. So this time the aura contained in the distiller's grains is very strong, and Chen Tuan, don't look at the few strokes he just made lightly, just with these few moves, he lost at least hundreds of years of Taoism, beating the distiller's grains into fine pieces The powder, together with Dao Xing, was injected into Zhang Shifei's body. Of course, Li Lanying didn't know about these things at the time.

At that time, he only had Zhang Shifei in his eyes, and the powder was really useful. Li Lanying watched Zhang Shifei's already cold body slowly warming up. At the same time, his body also began to soften, not as soft as before. Stiff, a blush appeared on his face, and at the same time his eyes began to flicker.

Great, he's finally waking up!Li Lanying thought very excitedly.

It hurts, it hurts, am I not dead?When Zhang Shifei regained consciousness, he was awakened by the pain, and only then did he realize that his surroundings were pitch black.

where am iwho am I?Zhang Shifei wanted to move, but his body seemed to be immobilized. The pain in his heart never stopped, and the memory came up little by little.

Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, yes, I am Zhang Shifei, or a peacock, I seem to be asleep, why, why don't you let me sleep all the time, why, why do you want me to suffer?Why, why are you still alive?

At this moment, Zhang Shifei only felt a light appearing in front of his eyes. The light was really annoying. Zhang Shifei, who hadn't seen the light for a long time, stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes. When he came back to his senses, he only saw Li Lanying The face that was already distorted with excitement.

Li Lanying saw that he had moved, and at the same time his eyes had regained their vitality, and burst into tears of joy. He grabbed Zhang Shifei's shoulder and shouted loudly: "Old Zhang!! You are awake!!!"

Hearing his shout, Liu Ling and Chen Tuan on the side looked at each other, and then they couldn't help but smiled wryly, maybe only they themselves knew the meaning of this smile.

When Li Lanying saw Zhang Shifei wake up, she hugged him excitedly. His strength was so great that Zhang Shifei felt that his skeleton was being strangled by him for a while, but this kind of pain was compared with the pain in his heart. , is simply trivial.

Although he woke up, there was no reaction yet. Li Lanying let go of him after hugging him for a while, and then scolded him: "What about you, do you know how much we have worried about you? You Fortunately, I really stopped sleeping, hey, what's the matter, why are you looking at me like this, talking, are you dumb?"

Li Lanying suddenly realized that even though Zhang Shifei's body seemed to be able to move, he was still silent. He just looked at Li Lanying indifferently, and then at Chen Tuan and Liu Ling. After that, he didn't move at all. Although Li Lanying had heard about it before, maybe even though Zhang Shifei was cured, there would still be a lot of trouble. Although he had prepared for a long time, he was still a little surprised to see Zhang Shifei like this now, and he stretched out his hand to grab him again. He grabbed Zhang Shifei's shoulder, and then shook it desperately, while shaking, shouting: "Old Zhang!! What's wrong with you, what happened to make you so upset!? Talk, talk!!! "

Under his big hands, Zhang Shifei swayed like a sapling in a strong wind, but even so, he remained motionless. Li Lanying yelled at him for more than half an hour For a long time, until some swear words from Ma Daddy's mother came out of his mouth, he knew that his throat was also hoarse, but he was still indifferent to the right and wrong.

In the end, Li Lanying had no choice but to give up. He lowered his head, loosened Zhang Shifei's collar, walked up to Chen Tuan, and asked in great frustration, "Father, what's going on?"

Chen Tuan shook his head, and then said to him: "Didn't I say that although his heart has been healed, the cracks still exist, so none of us can help him, he can only help himself .”

"Look at his virtue!!!" For some reason, Li Lanying's heart suddenly burst into an unknown fire, and he pointed at Zhang Shifei angrily, and then scolded: "Is he really a man, like a puddle? It's like mud, what's the difference from just now? I... I..."

Li Lanying said the word "I" several times, but didn't say any more. Indeed, considering the one month in the world, they seemed to have said nothing to Zhang Shifei, but Zhang Shifei didn't say a word. He didn't listen to it. Up to now, Li Lanying didn't know what to say anymore.

Seeing that Li Lanying was so depressed, Chen Tuan sighed, then he stood up, patted Li Lanying on the shoulder, and said at the same time: "Forget it, sometimes there must be something in life, and there is always time in life. Don't force it. It's natural, let's let him be quiet first."

After finishing speaking, Chen Tuan pulled Li Lanying away, and when Liu Ling saw the two leaving, she hurriedly got up and asked, "Where are you two going?"

Chen Tuan said without turning his head, "Where can I go if I want to drink, it's your house."

"Oh, you shameless old bastard..." Liu Ling yelled and cursed behind her, but she also followed with her wine gourd. After a while, the three of them disappeared into the bamboo forest.

After the three of them left, there was silence again in front of the small wooden house in the forest. It was such a silence, as if time had stopped, even the wind had disappeared, and the bamboo leaves had stopped shaking. Zhang Shifei sat there blankly. On the soft ground, with his head down, he could only hear his own breathing and slight heartbeat.

He has already woken up, and he has heard what Li Lanying said in his heart just now, and he also understands why, thinking that he has finally returned to the fairyland of Yingzhou that he has been thinking about day and night, but there is no joy in his heart, yes, it is still the same. Endless pain.

Because there is one person missing by his side, Zhang Shifei's breathing seemed to start to become short again when he thought of Liang Yun'er, he really didn't dare to think about that person, because the more he thought about it, the more uncomfortable he felt, as if Tens of millions of ants are biting.

How much he wanted to go back to Yingzhou with Liang Yun'er, and never cared about the right and wrong in the world, but the wish at that time is so far away now, life is constantly searching, he has been looking for it all the time. Looking for an answer, but didn't want to wait for his answer to be so cruel.

He always wanted to fulfill his promise, forever and never change, but he didn't realize until the end that his promise was like a joke.

A big joke.

Xu Ying, this woman who has been deeply imprinted in his heart, the only woman he feels indebted to, may not be Liang Yun'er, but Liang Yun'er died because of him. , what should Zhang Shifei do?

Maybe, escape is the easiest, maybe, there is no possibility.

In the endless silence, Zhang Shifei stretched out his hands and buried his head in them. There was a warm feeling from the sky, which was the temperature of his palms.

Confused, unprecedentedly confused, even though Zhang Shifei woke up, he couldn't find a reason to stand up or walk down.

At that moment, he felt that he was completely a superfluous role in this world, an insignificant wretch. On that day, he thought a lot, for a long time. Although he didn't want to recall, the memories couldn't stop appearing in his mind. From childhood, to the arrogant and domineering youth, to the rotten growth, to the middle of Yingzhou, the top of the snow-capped mountains, and then everything I encountered when I returned to Harbin.

Suddenly he felt that this was really a joke. Thinking about the poor people he met, that woman named Song Lijun, Zhang Shifei thought he was very pitiful at the time, but now that he thought about it, how could she be pitiful? At least, she still knows who the person she likes is, as well as the loyal old dog, the blind little girl, those egg monsters, and Ranxi, no matter what their ending is, but they all know that they What do you want.

They all know, but me?
what do i wantWhat am I doing?What the hell am I... In this world, what the hell am I? !
The more Zhang Shifei thought about it, the more his heart ached. He suddenly felt that his whole life was living in a lie. Nothing was true, even himself. However, he was still played by fate between the applause, and the pain was like a shadow, but Zhang Shifei was already numb. He wanted to cry, but he couldn't cry, he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't, so he could only sit quietly like this.

After a long time, he slowly raised his head and looked at the hazy sky above Yingzhou. It was so quiet here. Suddenly, Zhang Shifei seemed to have hallucinations. He seemed to have seen this kind of sky before. Where is it? It seems to be...

Zhang Shifei looked at the sky obsessively, trying to overlap what he saw now with his previous memories.

Those were the years on the nameless mountain. At that time, he was still a peacock who could not turn into a human. In late autumn, the leaves all over the mountain were withered and yellow. The autumn brought enough food. During those days, the peacock and Xu Ying's most leisure time.

How many days in the afternoon, Xu Ying sat in front of the small shack, hugged the peacock, and told it what she had encountered before, what a beautiful woman she was, the peacock curled up in the arms of a woman, he liked that kind of It feels very real. Although there is no sunlight, it is also very warm. The woman's eyes are very bright, but the peacock can find an inexplicable sadness in those eyes at that time. Maybe the woman is also very helpless and frightened. At that time, he He secretly made up his mind and vowed to stay by this woman's side forever and not let her suffer any more grievances or hardships. Although the woman didn't know it, this was indeed Zhang Shifei's first serious promise in his life.

It turns out that it is so difficult to keep the promise. In winter, the woman was still frozen to death, and the peacock also turned into a human. He vowed to find the reincarnation of the woman, and then fulfill his unfulfilled promise, but...

Zhang Shifei closed his eyes, and there was darkness again before his eyes. Liang Yun'er's face appeared in his heart again. He always thought that Liang Yun'er was Xu Ying's reincarnation, but the reality was so cruel.

He thought that his memory at this time could stay in the comfortable time on the mountain, but whenever he thought of Xu Ying, he always thought of Liang Yun'er unconsciously.

Why is it so painful, why is it so painful?Zhang Shifei was confused, and his memory spread again, returning to those days in Liang Yun'er's school.

Liang Yuner looked very quiet while reading a book. Zhang Shifei clearly remembered that at that time he was sleeping on the table with his eyes closed. Whenever he opened his eyes, he could always see Liang Yuner's face. She wore glasses, So engrossed, occasionally their eyes would collide and they would smile at each other.

I remember one day, after Liang Yuner had dinner with him, they went for a walk outside the school. On that quiet path, their shadows were stretched very long by the dim streetlights. Sometimes Liang Yuner seemed like a child, To play hide-and-seek with Zhang Shifei, Zhang Shifei had no choice but to agree, and then Liang Yun'er asked him to close his eyes, silently counted a hundred, and then went to find her, but when Zhang Shifei opened his eyes, he couldn't find her no matter what. Not Liang Yun'er.

At that time, he was really anxious. It may be that he was really afraid that Liang Yun'er would be in trouble, so he didn't care about face, and shouted loudly on the street. Passers-by looked at him as if they were Look at a fool.

Finally, Liang Yun'er got out from the woods beside her, and she said to Zhang Shifei, "You, really, what are you calling?"

At that time, Zhang Shifei wiped his sweat, and then said to Liang Yun'er, "I, I'm afraid I can't find you."

"Stupid." Liang Yun'er smiled and wiped Zhang Shifei's sweat with a tissue and said, "Why can't I be found? Where can I go?"

Zhang Shifei licked his dry lips, and seemed to be still a little scared, so he said to Liang Yun'er, "I'm afraid...what if I can't find you?"

At that time, Liang Yun'er saw that he was so serious, she couldn't help but chuckled, and after thinking about it, she said to him as if she was joking: "Well, I promise you, if I disappear in the future, you can close your eyes , count to a hundred, and then I will appear beside you with a snap."

"one two three four………………"

Although Liang Yun'er might have been just a joke at the time, Zhang Shifei really closed his eyes at this time and counted a hundred times. After counting, he opened his eyes, but he didn't see Liang Yun'er. Still a cloudy sky.

She will not appear again, never again, Zhang Shifei suddenly found that he is alone now, and in the end, the promise has become false, only the pain is real.

Thinking about it, Zhang Shifei only felt all kinds of emotions gushing out of his chest, a tingling pain in front of his eyes, and a drop of ink-like liquid slipped from the corner of his right eye. After this drop of liquid fell, everything in front of Zhang Shifei seemed to be lost The color changed to gray and white.

(End of this chapter)