The years I was a birdman

Chapter 333

In front of him was a piece of gray, gray pool water, gray bamboo forest, gray world, this kind of world, to Zhang Shifei, was clean.

When Liu Ling came, there was no disturbance in his heart. It seemed that this was a logical thing. In other words, no matter what happened now, his heart would be calm, nothing is worse than death, his heart seems to have died Well, what more sorrow is there.

He was just thinking, thinking about a question that he had thought about a hundred times before but couldn't figure it out. Zhang Shifei didn't raise his head, and continued to look at himself reflected in the water. The same was true for Ranxi. He also understood the situation of the two of them at this time, seeing that they didn't pay attention to him, he ignored him, just smiled a little sadly, and then went straight to Zhang Shifei's side, and patted Zhang Shifei on the shoulder.

Zhang Shifei raised his head subconsciously, and saw Liu Ling who had cleaned up. At this time, his mood had recovered slightly from yesterday. Since he shed that black tear, although he can still see things, he has lost his vision. All the colors, he only saw that Liu Ling was dragging two dark bottles in his hands, and asked softly: "What are these?"

Then Liu Ling replied: "This is the reason why I stay here, remember, forget and possess."

Zhang Shifei looked at the wine in Liu Ling's hand, he was silent, and after a while, he raised his hand to grab one of the bottles, and said at the same time, "Bring me to drink."

Liu Ling shook her head at him, then patted his hand, and said: "This bottle does not belong to you, what you don't have, you will have in the future, because you still have time, and what you need is this bottle." A bottle of forget."

After finishing speaking, Liu Ling handed him the bottle of forgetfulness. Zhang Shifei hesitated for a moment, but took the bottle of 'Wine of Forgetfulness' in his hand. The bottle in his hand was neither warm nor cold, light and light It didn't seem to have any weight, but at this moment Zhang Shifei felt that he seemed to be holding a thousand catties of weight, so that he didn't drink it right away, but froze there.

What is he afraid of?
Seeing him like this, Liu Ling sighed, didn't say anything, just turned her head and walked like Ranxi, and when she came to Ranxi's side, he was not as casual as he was with Zhang Shifei, Instead, he changed his appearance, and said to Ranxi who was still pitying himself, "Spider."

Ranxi raised his head and stared blankly at Liu Ling. Although Liu Ling was a fairy, he was a human being after all. He knew the truth that time is like a knife and time is poison. He saw that Ranxi was aging and withered, thinking about its life, Liu Ling couldn't help but feel pity for this monster. Although he drank heavily all day long, his heart was clear, and he understood the suffering of all living beings. Crazy men complaining about women, seeking the taste of not being able to let go, this is the second hate thing in his life.

So, his tone relaxed a little, and he asked Na Ranxi: "As soon as your lifespan arrives, your soul will return to the sky in a short while. May I ask you, do you have any unfinished business?"

Na Ranxi said tremblingly, "Yes."

After finishing speaking, I saw it leaning down again, looking for its own shadow in the water very desolately. Although it knew that these were futile, it never gave up. I saw it said in a panic while fishing. : "I haven't got it yet, I haven't got it yet, I want it so much, even if it's only for a minute and a second, as long as he sees it, as long as it's one more time..."

The more it talks, the more excited it becomes, the more it talks, the more desolate it becomes, tears whirling in vain to catch its own shadow, this situation really makes people feel as sad as if they are clogged with cotton.

Zhang Shifei saw all this in his eyes, he was very clear about what supported Ranxi to survive during the long years, but until the last moment before his death, it did not fulfill that wish, How many people have tried this taste?

Seeing Ranxi like this, Liu Ling nodded her head, and then said to it, "Well, I will give you a chance to fulfill your wish now, are you willing?"

"Really?" Ranxi was stunned, and quickly withdrew his dry hands from the Yuxi, splashing with anger. It looked at Liu Ling, knew that it was an immortal, and would not lie to him. A heart that was about to be broken, hope appeared again, and it was kneeling on the ground, grabbing the hem of Liu Ling's robe, and then kept saying: "You are serious, are you serious?!"

Liu Ling nodded, then sighed, handed a bottle of 'Wine of Possession' to Ranxi, and said to it: "Naturally, drink it, and you will get what you want." , what I want to have, I will never leave again.”

One thought of heaven and one thought of hell, Ranxi was already in complete despair. Hearing Liu Ling's words, he was really very happy. He saw that he let go of Liu Ling's clothes, and then kept bowing his head to it. It reached this point. , it really didn't know how to thank it, and Liu Ling didn't say a word, just put the bottle on the ground, seeing the situation, Ranxi immediately stretched out his hands, as if holding the most precious treasures Hold the little vial firmly.

It didn't hesitate like Zhang Shifei, just as it didn't have a lot of time like Zhang Shifei, I saw it hastily pulled out the cork of the bottle of wine, and suddenly, a faint fragrance radiated, which The fragrance is very special, smelling it in the nose, a burst of joy immediately penetrated into the lungs along the trachea, as if many feathers caressed his heart, at the same time, Ranxi only felt all kinds of emotions in his heart, and This faint smell of alcohol seems to be constantly changing, and the smell can indeed represent feelings. With the smell of alcohol, all kinds of emotions that are about to be forgotten or have been forgotten are gushing out in Ranxi's heart, such as happiness, joy, anger, Sadness, fear, sweetness, ease, all kinds of feelings emerged in my heart, and Ranxi shivered unconsciously.

It hoped to look at Liu Ling, and Liu Ling nodded to it, signaling it to take it easy, Ran Xi was excited, picked up the bottle of wine tremblingly, and gulped it down.

As soon as the bottle of wine was drunk, Ranxi suddenly stopped moving as if he had been fixed. Zhang Shifei saw all this from the other side of Yuxi River. Like Liu Ling, he didn't react at all.

After about five or six minutes, I saw Ranxi's body trembling violently, but it could be seen that it was not trembling in pain, because a face appeared on its bark-like face. There was a smile, and at the same time, its eyes suddenly opened wide, and there was a look in the eyes that shouldn't belong to it, it was joy.

Its body trembled harder and harder, but its smile became bigger and bigger, until finally, it jumped up, laughed wildly, and danced. Its eyes no longer seemed to be the expression of aging and facing death. Instead, it is like the joy of a newborn baby, the joy of this world, the joy of this unknown but full of infinite temptations.

Seeing that it became so happy, Chen Tuan felt relieved, he knew very well that this should be the effect of the 'wine of possession', so he asked Na Ranxi loudly: "Have you got it now?"

"I got it!!" Ranxi couldn't help smiling, like a drunk person, it said to Chen Tuan: "I got it, I finally got it, youth, love, ah, who is that , but my Feng Lang? Feng Lang, Feng Lang, do you know how hard it is for me to wait for you? Do you know... I'm so happy!!"

I saw that Ranxi turned around like crazy, opened his hands to the air, kept laughing, whispering, and in the end, kept crying, it faced the non-existent Feng Tianyang narrated the sufferings of his life, although he was crying, but his words were full of joy.

It got it, and that's the true meaning of the wine of possession.

The Buddha said that all actions are impermanent, and all living beings have no form.

But there is no phase, there is suffering, the way of heaven is reincarnated, and heartache is unavoidable. The way of heaven is incomplete, and so is the way of humanity. Law, humanity follows the way of heaven, so it is the same. Perfection does not exist in the real world. In a person's life, there will always be many regrets and many irreparable times. This is a pain that follows for a lifetime.

And the wine of possession does not make people truly own, it just can make people have an illusion, a real illusion, like a dream, but extremely real, everything from birth to death is just a process, During this process, we are all constantly gaining and losing. After a hundred years, everything will return to dust, and all the things we have gained will be turned into passing clouds.

Perhaps, real possession can only appear in dreams.

This dream is extremely real.

Ranxi kept telling his grievances to the fictional 'Feng Tianyang', with deep affection, even Zhang Shifei, a heartbroken man, was moved by it, seeing it talking for a while, crying for a while, and laughing for a while , is really incomparably bleak.

However, it did get it again, true or false, false or true, for a spider that is about to die, it is no longer important, its heart knot has been opened, and the long-cherished wish that has been entangled for hundreds of years is now. It is happy. Since happiness is already owned, why can't it keep it happy?

Zhang Shifei was at a loss, for a moment his heart seemed to be touched by something, so he held the wine bottle in his hand in silence, looking at the 'wine of forgetting' in his hand thoughtfully.

It was already dusk in front of her eyes, and seeing the sunless sky gradually darken, Liu Ling understood that when the bamboo grove was slightly bright and the sky was dark, it was also the time when the spider died.

Seeing that Ranxi had fulfilled his long-cherished wish, Liu Ling knew that he had done a good deed, so he said to Ranxi who was immersed in great joy, "Let's go, it's time to hit the road."

Speaking of this, I saw Liu Ling waved her big hand, and a gentle wind blew across the water of Yuxi, and Ran Xi's figure gradually became smaller, and finally turned into a spider the size of half a palm. The spider beckoned again, and the spider flew into his hand. In his palm, the spider was still very happy and trembling, as if it was still telling the pain of longing to its lover. Looks like a dying thing?

Looking at the spider in her hand, Liu Ling couldn't help but sighed a long time, and then read softly: "All beings love and desire the sea of ​​suffering, how many people will pay back with resentment? Years make people don't know, ups and downs have been ups and downs for a hundred years. When the sun sets, I hope Xi Le is in a dream... idiots, all idiots!"

After finishing speaking, he turned his head and looked at Zhang Shifei who was still on the other side of Yuxi River. He didn't say anything, just let out a long sigh, then turned and left.

Only Zhang Shifei was left alone, staring at the bottle in his hand in a daze.

Holding the spider, Liu Ling returned to the hut in the forest. Before the hut, Li Lanying and Chen Tuan had already been waiting there. What they had to do was what they had discussed this morning.

That is to send Ranxi back, because after Chen Tuan learned about Ranxi, he couldn't help feeling pity for this poor spider, so he wanted to give him a better ending, Liu Ling thought the same as him , that's why I gave it the precious bottle of "wine of possession". In the words of the two of them, it is the miserable people in this world, and the fewer the better, if there are more and more miserable people, Has the world become a pot of Coptis porridge?Although the alias in the world is called the Sea of ​​​​Bitterness, the sea of ​​bitterness also has an end. Whether you reach the other shore or sink into it, if you are in the sea of ​​bitterness and sink into it for a lifetime, you still have to get a little sweetness in the end. The way of heaven is not merciless. The two of you know that , all of this has its own definite number.

On the contrary, Li Lanying was a little puzzled after hearing their ideas. Didn't they all say that all four things are empty, do gods have feelings?
He didn't ask Chen Tuan until afterwards, and Chen Tuan scolded him with a smile, except for fate, all living beings have emotions, why do gods have no emotions? worship?Immortals have no feelings?Don't be kidding, even the Jade Emperor has a wife and children, understand?However, this is all for later, so it is omitted here.

Moreover, Chen Tuan also felt that what happened to Ranxi had something to do with him. If he hadn't thrown out the piece of Tai Sui skin in a hurry that day, I am afraid that Ranxi's fate would not have changed. For the immortal, All things being equal, he wanted to do something about the dying spider.

Because it does not belong to the mortal world, nor does it belong to the fairyland. Its appearance is just a joke of fate. It has been persistent for a lifetime, but it will eventually return to the painting.

Regarding this Ranxi, Li Lanying still has nothing to say, neither hates nor likes it, and now he gradually understands that everything has a cause and effect, he already knew this sentence, it was Cai Handong who said it, when he thought of Cai Handong , Li Lanying sighed for a while, the guy who understands cause and effect best is still blinded by cause and effect.

So, he let himself go and saw that Liu Ling coming, Li Lanying really didn't know that the old exhibitionist was still so serious, it was the first time he saw that Liu Ling came, and said a word Without saying anything, he handed the spider in his hand to Chen Tuan, and after Chen Tuan finished it, he turned and walked towards the hut.

Liu Ling also followed, and Li Lanying was worried about Zhang Shifei's situation, so she followed up to ask, but before he opened his mouth, Liu Ling seemed to understand what he meant, and saw him wave his hand at Li Lanying, and then Said: "Don't be busy, talk about it later."

These guys have this kind of temper. Li Lanying shook his head helplessly, knowing that even if he asked again now, he would not be able to find any clues. He has matured now and no longer has the childish temper like before, so he closed his mouth. , followed Liu Ling into the house.

In the wooden side room of the hut, the arrangement of all things has not changed, and the 'reality map' on the wall is still hanging there quietly.

The three came to the painting. Chen Tuan looked at the spider in his hand, and saw that the spider was still very excited, and its limbs were shaking uncontrollably. It seemed that it really owned it. Gone with its life, never to slip away again.

Chen Tuan looked out the window, the sky was about to darken, and the Polygonatum radiata in the bamboo grove also faintly glowed, so Chen Tuan sighed, and said to the spider: "You are in the world. Everything is just a big dream, go, go where you should go, there will be no more pain."

After finishing speaking, he raised his hand, and the blueprint called "Reality" glowed with golden light, and Chen Tuan lightly tossed it, and the spider in his hand flew into the painting with a whoosh.

Everything in the painting seems to have not changed. The wasteland is dry and the grass is silent and desolate. The spider slowly lands in the grass. As soon as it lands, it continues to dance happily in the grass, as if it already has the sky. , owned the land, owned everything, until after a while, it found a tree hole in the big tree beside it, so it got into it.

Finally, in the tree hole, it was tired, smelling the familiar atmosphere around it, this is the feeling of hometown, in the small tree hole, it lay down, its life, it is constantly getting And lost, finally, it still has, it lay in the tree hole, felt that he got the warm woolen blanket again, the blanket wrapped it, just like it was in the mother's womb before birth The general warmth, the spider is very happy, and there is no regret anymore. It just realized that it has traveled a long, long way. After a long time, although its heart is full of joy at the moment, it really should be happy , because before it died, it had everything, but after all it was too tired.

So, it took this happiness of possession and fell asleep very peacefully.

The spider in the painting fell asleep, but everyone outside the painting was still awake. Now that Ranxi was finally sent back to the painting, the matter of the egg demon finally came to an end. Li Lanying was worried about right and wrong, so he couldn't wait to ask Liu Ling: " Old Zhang, he...how is he now? Did he drink? Did he forget?"

He naturally knew that Liu Ling's last wine had been brewed, so he asked Liu Ling, and Liu Ling sighed, and after looking at Chen Tuan, he grabbed the wine gourd from behind, took a sip, and then Shaking his head at Li Lanying, he said, "I've already given it to him. As for how he chooses, it depends on his own destiny."

After his words, everyone fell into silence again.

Also silent, there is Zhang Shifei on the bank of Yuxi. Zhang Shifei sat for a long time. He felt tired, but he didn't sleep. Sitting there, he seems to have a clear idea of ​​what he should do. The sky without the setting sun in the distance is still golden. This golden light is slowly dimming, and the far west turns into a dark red, just like the blood has dried up. s color.

Zhang Shifei thought about it for a long time, until the darkness was about to swallow everything, and there was only a trace of red horizon left in the distant sky. What a beautiful sunset, although his eyes were only gray, but he still had the memory of the sunset in his heart. That memory will never fade away in my heart.

At the last moment before the setting sun disappeared, Zhang Shifei unscrewed the wine bottle in his hand and drank it down.

(End of this chapter)