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Chapter 74 The Star Is Me, Love You For Me ([-])
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You asked me why I was unhappy that day.I'm not actually unhappy.I am uncomfortable. (Anhao, you must be so smart to know the difference between the two.)
In the eyes of others, there is everything, and there is nothing missing.Almost like a princess.An Hao, you have always thought so.Yes, none of you are wrong.With a mayor dad, what more could I ask for.

Please don't be surprised, I've been hiding it.One reason is because even if I didn’t say it, you should have heard some rumors more or less. For example, my good grades are actually because the teacher revealed the topic to me.For example, I joined Zilin because of family reasons like everyone else.Well, you probably haven't heard of it.Another reason is that I don't know how to start.Could it be that he said: "An Hao, my father is the mayor." This is obviously showing off?It must be despised by you.You will definitely say that you are the old-fashioned family?Speaking of which, do you remember the last time I got angry and ignored you because of what you said to the 22-star queen?

"I don't know that your old friend's reputation is not asking if Bie Lai is safe."

My first reaction at the time was that it's a good thing that she doesn't know about my family situation, otherwise one day our quarrel would probably be ruined like this.Anhao, not everyone likes the halo on their body, there are many things that cannot be changed.

It's like no one knows how heavy the shadow under my halo is, and no one knows how uncomfortable and unhappy I actually live.

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Choosing to leave is not impulsive.

I have always had this thought.She shook off my hand and walked forward holding my sister.From her fleeting smile on my face.I feel that my life may really be superfluous.

It's just that I'm really not reconciled.Many things can't see the end until the end, good or bad.

I wish my mom could treat me like my sister, really, really.I also think that my sister can treat me like a younger sister.But, I think, I can only think.

My mother told me not to embarrass my father, so I studied hard.She said to live like a sister, and I followed her steps.I have always thought that as long as this is the case, she will treat me differently.She'll find out that I'm not so bad, that I'm not going to embarrass Papa.

But I didn't wait till I died.

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Speaking of death.Anhao, are you afraid?
Confucius said that there is nothing greater in sorrow than death in the heart, and death in the human body is the second.I like this saying.

But I don't think it's right, it should be that there is nothing more to be sad than a heart that never dies.For example, I have always hoped for the so-called maternal love.Always wanted to get it.Even now that I no longer care about whether she will like me again, subconsciously I still think that it would be great if she could love me well.Such obsession.Even if I have given up on life, I have never given up thinking about it.

Well, I am very sad.

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Do you like this little Barbie?Is she the kind you loved as a kid?

You said that the happiest thing for you when you were a child was playing house with Zhang Jingya.Because you guys will make a lot of clothes for the dolls.However, you have never had a little Barbie of your own.In fact, I'm not sure if you still want to own one as much as you did when you were a child, because you told me before that what you waited too long to get is no longer what you want.

However, I still hold good hopes, I hope you like it, I hope you are happy.

Wish we could meet sooner, so we won't be so alone.

(End of this chapter)