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Chapter 147

Before this, Yu Younuan had never even been in a relationship, nor had she ever had a crush on anyone.She had contact with Zuo Wen once before this, which was when Zuo Wen had surgery for appendicitis.She has a vague liking for him. Yu Younuan really admires him for being a kid from a small town who can become a top student in a world-renowned school, and who can get to where he is today at a young age.

But Yu Yiyan's dominance caused Yu Younuan's belated rebellious period to explode, which was more violent than the real adolescent rebellion.

The father's incomprehension and dominance, his never-ending concern, and the fact that the boy he had a crush on turned out to be for the wealth behind her. Every time he cared about her, it was not from the heart, but because her father wanted you to take care of her. money bought.

The love that hadn't had time to germinate was obliterated by the family affection that was about to disappear completely.She and Zuo Wen had an extremely difficult life after their marriage.

Zuo Wen is like the second Yu Yiyan—her father, he is responsible for all her extravagant expenses and disciplines her, but they will never stop to look at her, they are always very busy, busy with their own careers, But what he said was to create the most wealth for her, to give her a better life than other women in the world.

But Zuo Wen is not Yu Younuan's father after all, she has no obligation or blood relationship needs to wait for Zuo Wen to turn around occasionally, she wants to prove to her father that he is wrong, and the life he gave her is not what she wants.She also wants to ask Zuo to prove that even if he gets Yu's wealth, it is impossible, and he will never be able to get her love, and she is not even willing to give him her body.

Yu Younuan soon learned without a teacher that there is nothing more suitable than bed to beat a confident and strong man.He couldn't wet her, couldn't please her, no matter what he did, he was a figure made of mud crawling under her feet.

Yu Younuan closed the notebook, sighed helplessly, and felt sorry for her past self. The 20-year-old Yu Younuan chose the worst way to prove herself.

There are more and more pitfalls in the marriage, and the snowball of hurt is getting bigger and bigger. Yu Younuan began to crazily bury her loneliness in the lively crowd, and then she met Guan Zhaochen.

Yu Younuan in the notebook even proudly told Dr. Pan that she found a very interesting new game.It turns out that Zuo Wen is not without emotions, every time Guan Zhaochen or other men can arouse his bad emotions.

At that time, Yu Younuan would go to Yu Yiyan's grave and say to him, Dad, look what kind of husband you found for me. He hates me so much, but he still has to endure me for money, but he still hates me , it's fun.

No matter how fun the game is, it can't heal Yu Younuan's wound in her heart. She has also become used to confiding herself to Pan Lang, and has been in and out of the psychiatrist's consulting room all year round.

But in the final analysis, when Yu Younuan was young, she received the best education, and she also had a complete and beautiful family. Her mother had high expectations for her, saying that she was a pure little princess, and Yu Yiyan was very strict with her. She always said that her mother always praised her as a beautiful little princess.

Yu Younuan was burdened with the shackles of marriage, which made her desperately want to break free, but when she really faced another man, she couldn't let go.She told Pan Lang that she tried to kiss Guan Zhaochen and many other men, but she only felt disgusted.

No matter how experienced Guan Zhaochen was, she still felt sick when his hand tried to touch the hem of her shirt.But this didn't prevent her from creating an illusion of fun for Zuo Wen.

Afterwards, there were no records, and Yu Younuan didn't need to look at the records again.She could almost guess what happened later, when Pan Lang went abroad for further study, she lost the only one to confide in, so she became more surly and worse, and then she had brain-dead ** and tortured Zuo Wen even more.

This continued until she lost her memory in her first car accident.

Yu Younuan turned up the collar of her coat, and after leaving Pan Lang's consulting room, she asked Uncle Wang to send her to the cemetery.

Yu Younuan squatted down and gently stroked Yu Yiyan's name. Although Yu Younuan in the record book was so pitiful, it didn't mean that she was right. She had many ways out, but she chose the darkest and most stupid way out. That one—hurt someone who loves you by hurting yourself.

In the eyes of Yu Younuan, who is nearly 35 years old, the past self is not so worthy of sympathy, but it is indeed excusable.

Yu Younuan sat on the platform in front of the tombstone, gently hugging the cold tombstone, "Thank you, Dad." Thank you for teaching her so well. In the most helpless and darkest time, there is no real love. Erosion down.

Snowflakes fell on Yu Younuan's head, she murmured: "Dad, have you been looking at me from the sky, bless me?" Otherwise, how could there be a car accident by such a coincidence, and amnesia by such a coincidence, which can be erased. All the pain, start again.

But in the first marriage, she hurt Zuo Wen too deeply, even if he lost his memory, Zuo Wen couldn't forgive her.So on their way to divorce for the second time, fate made another magical twist.

This time she was lucky and got Zuo Wen's tolerance.

"Father, you must be protecting me, right?" Yu Younuan cried, "You have always been guiding me and protecting me, right? I shouldn't blame you, I shouldn't have taken care of you when you were sick. Singing against you, I shouldn't have stayed with you during the last period of time."

Although Yu Younuan in the record book does not admit it, she has long regretted the misunderstanding of her father during those days, otherwise she would not have been able to get out of the nightmare of life, self-exile, self-destruction, it was she who let her father down left.

Yu Younuan cried uncontrollably in front of Yu Yiyan's grave, in pain.

In the distance, Xiao Jin was holding an umbrella for Zuo Wen, and the two of them looked at Yu Younuan silently.

Every time Yu Younuan went to Pan Lang's place, he was not allowed to accompany her. She only wanted to face the hurt in her heart alone.But Zuo asked how to rest assured her, knowing her whereabouts has become a habit in his life. He wasn't there for her when she needed him.

Yu Younuan came out from Pan Lang's place and went to the cemetery. Zuo Wen had a hunch that something was wrong, but sure enough, when he drove here anxiously, he saw her crying in the wind and snow.

(End of this chapter)