Daughter of the royal palace

Chapter 179
"Two years, during those two years, my mother took me to live in Fengqi Palace. The emperor came to see her, and she only said one sentence. 'If you step into Fengqi Palace again, I will leave the palace forever. So that you can never find me again.'. So my father was afraid, and he no longer came to see my mother. But I knew that every night, after my mother fell asleep, my father would stand at the door and stare at Fengqi all the time. The gate of the palace was in a daze, standing there all night. During those two years, my mother never smiled again... until two years later, on my mother's 30th birthday, she took me out of Fengqi Palace for the first time. Later, without knowing what happened, she forgave my father. At that time, I was eight years old, and the rebels in Lancheng rebelled, and my father asked me to lead the troops to quell the rebellion... A month later, I returned to the palace with a good report. Since then I started calling her Empress...that was...that was the second time I saw her cry..."

He seemed to have lost all the strength in his body, and his body slowly slid down, sitting paralyzed on the snow.With his head down, his hair was scattered and intertwined, just like the thoughts in his eyes.

"From that time on, I found that the mother's body became weaker and weaker, and she fainted more and more times. Every time, the father would guard the mother's sick bed, but never let me get closer. Every time The second mother woke up and didn't see me, so she would quarrel with the father just like before. But no matter how the mother beats and scolds the father, the father will never refute. Since I can remember, the father has never He never said a harsh word to the queen mother. Even if the queen mother sometimes behaves willfully and mischievously, the emperor pampers and pampers her in every possible way." He stared blankly at the open space, his voice murmured like wind.

"But this is the first time, the first time I heard him talk about his hatred for me from my father. I never knew that he hated me so much, and he even really...really He did something to me. Hehe..." He suddenly smiled softly, and looked at Ling Xihan with a deep sadness in his eyes.

"It's ridiculous, isn't it? My biological father, he hates me, he wants to kill me, hehehe..." He always knew that his father didn't like him, but he never thought that his father really Had murderous intentions for him.

Ling Xihan was silent, she didn't know how to comfort Xiao Tingxuan, because she was also in shock all the time.She didn't expect that Emperor Yuan Qing's feelings for the queen would be so deep and persistent, that kind of possessiveness that was almost paranoid, made her feel shocked or shocked.It's really hard to imagine that an emperor who loves his wife to the point of venting his anger on his own son, even murdering his own son, what kind of terrible feelings would that be?

She looked at Xiao Tingxuan with complicated eyes.

After a long time, she sat beside Xiao Tingxuan and looked at the fluttering snowflakes.She said softly: "The imperial palace is the most magnificent and darkest place in the world. The people who live in this place have all come from power struggles." She paused, her voice suddenly became Get low.

"Since Emperor Taizu, the royal family has not many heirs. When it is your father's turn, there is only one son, so you have never experienced court struggles since you were young, and you don't know that you live in a huge harem. If you want to survive, you should be How difficult. I heard that the emperor lost his mother when he was young, even though he was loved and cared for by the previous emperor." She raised her head, sarcasm appeared on the corner of her mouth.

"But you have to know that in the imperial palace, the emperor's favor will only make him a target of public criticism. I think his life was dark after all."

Xiao Tingxuan was startled, his phoenix eyes stared into the distance blankly, his eyes were covered with a layer of white mist.

"People who live in the dark for a long time are afraid of the sun, but they also yearn for it. I think, for your father, your mother is the only sunshine in his life. If a person lives in darkness all his life, Then he will be heartless and ruthless all his life. However, if suddenly one day, a ray of sunshine appears in his life, making him feel warm and at ease. Then he will definitely hold on to this ray of sunshine firmly, at all costs."

Xiao Tingxuan was shocked again, and looked back at the woman sitting beside him.His face is cold, his eyes are calm and indifferent, but those clear blue eyes carry the desolation and loneliness that have gone through the vicissitudes of life, as well as the sadness and loneliness that see through the world of mortals.

My heart suddenly aches.

Ling Xihan leaned back, staring at the snowflakes that kept falling from the sky, and suddenly smiled.

"Your mother is not from this world, you know?"

"Yeah. I know."

"Then do you know how she came to this world?" She looked back, looking at Xiao Tingxuan with a quiet look, with a smile on her lips. "Because she stumbled and fell off the cliff and died, her soul came to this time and space." She took a deep breath, "The reason why your father is so scared is because he is afraid that your mother will just sleep like this, and then return to the world again. That world." She lowered her head, a snowflake fell and melted in her palm.

"Do you know that your mother has been in this world for 20 years, but in that world, it's only 20 days."

Xiao Tingxuan's eyes shook, and he stared blankly at Ling Xihan who had a quiet and confused face.

"Your father, he is the king of a country, and he has power over the world. But no matter how capable he is, he can't open up time and space. That's why he's so afraid..." She looked up to the sky and sighed, and said, "Sometimes , Losing it after getting it is a million times more painful than never having it.”

The snow was still falling, and the ground was full of silver frost.

Xiao Tingxuan was silent for a long time, and finally raised his head, his eyes were blurred and leisurely.

"Father loves his mother very much. Every morning when he wakes up, he will comb her hair in a bun and make up her eyebrows. He can take off his dragon robe, go to the field to weed the fields himself, and plant a sea of ​​flowers, just to win her a smile."

Ling Xihan's eyes moved, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

"When the mother is sick, he will always stay by the bed and take care of it. Boiling medicine, feeding medicine... never leave the hands of others; he can wash his hands and make soup for the mother, just like ordinary husband and wife. The mother is happy, and the parents The emperor will also be very happy. If the mother frowns, the father will be extremely distressed." His eyelashes trembled, and a bitterness emerged from the corner of his mouth. "The emperor father is very possessive of the queen mother, he hardly allows any man to look at the queen mother more."

This Ling Xihan can see it, but it's no wonder that a beauty like the queen who is unparalleled in the world, anyone who gets it will regard it as a treasure, and no one is allowed to covet it.

"Does love really make people so crazy?" He lowered his head, his voice was self-deprecating with confusion.

Ling Xihan was shocked suddenly, looking at Xiao Tingxuan whose eyes were confused and indifferent, he felt a sudden pain in his heart.What Ouyang Chen said to her back then emerged in her mind.

"Don't fall in love with Xiao Tingxuan, he is unintentional."

Perhaps, now, she somewhat understands what he meant by these words.Xiao Tingxuan was unintentional, because the emperor's deep love for the queen and deep hatred for him cast a shadow in his heart.He was afraid, afraid that he would follow his father's path, and that he would hurt his own child one day.Therefore, he dare not love...

(End of this chapter)