Daughter of the royal palace

Chapter 180
Thinking of this, she suddenly felt a little sour.

"I don't know." She pursed her lips and smiled bitterly. She had never experienced love and didn't understand it, so she couldn't answer Xiao Tingxuan's question.

After being silent for a while, she suddenly patted Xiao Tingxuan's shoulder.

"Actually, I'm quite envious of you, because you at least have a mother who loves you, unlike me..." Her eyes drifted into the distance, mixed with misty and bitterness.

"You know I'm from the same world as your mother, right?"

"En." Xiao Tingxuan nodded, his eyes moved slightly, and he looked at Ling Xihan with deep thought.

The corner of Ling Xihan's mouth twitched, "Actually, you are much luckier than me." Her watery eyes shone brightly, as if she had fallen into a long memory.

"I was separated from my family when I was young, and I lived in a gangster... well, it is a gangster organization." She suddenly laughed lightly, "Actually, the gangster is just an illusion. It should be said that it is a killer organization."

Xiao Tingxuan was startled, and looked sideways at the woman beside him.Seeing that her face is cold and her eyes are clear and cold, there is a hint of sarcasm that penetrates deep into the bone marrow.

"There are many children of my age there, there is no so-called feelings, only non-stop killing, non-stop competition... I will always remember that day, it was a stormy night. The adoptive father brought a dozen A man who was tied up came to us and gave each of us a dagger. Then he asked us to stab those people's hearts with the dagger in our hands." She smiled wryly, "We were very scared at that time. , No one dared to do anything. But the adoptive father said, if we don’t kill them, we won’t be allowed to eat, and no one will do it. In this way, one day, two days, three days... finally someone can’t stand it... the first one It was my companion, I looked at him, watched him trembling... stabbing the dagger into the man's chest. The blood stained his hands red and irritated my eyes." She said here, suddenly her eyes Clenched fists, as if enduring some pain.

"Then, I picked up the dagger that fell on the ground, and savagely... stabbed it into the chest of another man. He fell down, staring at me with wide eyes, his face twisted and terrifying. I will always remember that The appearance of a person before death, so that in the next five or six years, I would have nightmares every night." She hugged her knees, her eyes were dull, and she said in a low voice.

"That was the first time I killed someone. At that time, I was five years old."

Xiao Tingxuan was shocked, looking at Ling Xihan, there was pity and distress in his eyes that he himself had never noticed.

"Since then, I have known that this is a dark world. If you want to survive, you have to make yourself stronger, no matter how strong you are. If you want to survive, you have to be ruthless and do everything you can. Even , walked over someone else's corpse." Her fingers trembled slightly, calming down the turbulent waves in her heart caused by recalling this past event.

"Ten years, a full ten years, I have lived a life of killing and being killed every day, and I have to walk past countless corpses every day. Gradually, I become numb. Human life is nothing more than ants in my eyes... 15 years old That year, I took over the position of the gang leader... At the age of 16, I returned home. It was a beautiful castle-like home. I almost forgot that I still have a family, parents, and elder brother... Ben I thought that I would get out of that dark and dirty world and feel the warmth of my family. But..." She laughed bitterly at herself.

"I have a huge family background. My father is the chairman of a multinational group and has a heavy workload every day. My mother is a strong woman. She devotes herself to her career and doesn't care about me, the daughter who came back halfway. My elder brother has already married. Second brother..." She said here, suddenly paused, and glanced at Xiao Tingxuan.Him, you know?

Understanding her eyes, Xiao Tingxuan pursed his lips and nodded silently.

"Before I was eight years old, every year on July [-]th, my mother would take me to Sunset Cliff to worship..." He looked at Ling Xihan, "Your uncle."

Ling Xihan thought about it, but he didn't expect the queen to even tell him this.

She smiled lowly, "Well, it's unbelievable, right? My second brother in that world is my uncle in this world." A cold smile curled up on the corner of her mouth, "Although the second brother loves me, he still loves me in the end. ... or for your mother... to die in love." She paused, and then said: "I wanted to completely break away from that organization that disgusted and hated me, but I was assassinated by them. I was careless and was attacked ..." She looked up, took a deep breath, and smiled.

"After waking up, it became like this." Her watery eyes flickered, and she suddenly smiled mischievously. "Look, are you much luckier than me?" The best way to comfort a person is to let him know that you are more miserable than him.

Xiao Tingxuan looked at her deeply, his phoenix eyes were as deep as the sea, he didn't know what he was thinking.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Ling Xihan said again: "You just said that when you were six years old, your father threw you into Langya Mountain, right?" She smiled slightly, and there was vicissitudes and sadness that could not be concealed in her smile.

"When I was seven years old, my adoptive father asked a hundred of our children to compete with each other for vendetta. Of the five hundred children, only fifty remained. I survived successfully. One month later, the remaining ten of us I was taken to the primeval forest again. That place may be a bit more terrifying than the Langya Mountain you mentioned." She had a relaxed smile on her face, but her eyes were filled with coldness and desolation.

"For two months, our adoptive father only gave each of us three days of dry food, and the food was quickly eaten up. We were hungry, tired and cold, and we were very panicked and afraid of everything around us. Those beasts They mobilized together at that time. They stared at us with green eyes, which were a kind of hungry gaze. I knew that if we didn't resist, we would become a delicacy in their mouths." She raised her head and exhaled.

"Maybe the willpower to survive is too strong, we are united together... I don't know how we survived in the end, I just remember that there was blood in front of us... By the time we were safe, it was already half a month later. Of the ten people we were traveling with, there are only twelve left. There is no food that can be preserved in the primeval forest, we can only eat the beasts that we have killed. Because there is no flint, we can only grit our teeth and eat bloody raw meat..." She turned her face away, until now she still remembered the bloody and disgusting smell.

"When we were full, we finally had strength, but the next wave of beasts came out again... So we began to arm ourselves again, and kept killing... Every time someone was injured or died. Every time the bloody After death, it is time for us to eat. Two months, two full months. In that forest, we not only have to prevent being attacked by wild animals, but also keep an eye on weird climate changes, and those that look beautiful but have Toxins, strange flowers and plants... Two months later, our field adventure finally came to an end. And there were only two people who walked out of the primeval forest. One was me, and the other was my good friend. He had just walked out of the forest. He died because of the serious injuries and blood loss." She clenched her fists tightly, her eyes were suddenly as cold as a pool of cold, a bloodlust flashed in her eyes, and her voice was hoarse and cold.

(End of this chapter)