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Chapter 7 About dreams, it's never too late to start (4)
When the leader raised this question, the audience was silent.I think it probably talked about the deepest part of many people's hearts, at least he talked about my heart.I don’t want to have the attitude of an old fritters. I have no desire for the future. I squeeze the bus to go to the company every morning, and start packing and getting ready for get off work half an hour before get off work in the afternoon. I repeat my life thousands of times in this way, and I live the same life without waves every day. .

Everyday life is like a new game, no one can tell you what the next level will be like.It also definitely won't work the way you want it to.You may experience loneliness, confusion, depression, you may encounter difficulties, you will encounter no one understands, you will experience those who love you leave one after another, and finally find that the only one who can play the game of life to the end is yourself.

Maybe you die before others, or read a lot of books, think more, persist more, and you can get another life, until the game is cleared, the age is old, we are old, you will know that after the game is cleared What is it like.

When it comes to dreams, it's never too late to start

Only by pursuing worldly recognition without rushing for quick success and instant benefits can you enjoy your own happiness and tranquility in the loneliness of pursuing ideals.

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A few days ago, a girl who was not yet 20 years old left a message on my Weibo:

I always felt that life was about being born and living.But it seems like a waste of life to just guarantee to live.Regarding the future, I always have the mentality of "living well in the present". In fact, I have also worked hard for the future, but after a long time, I found that life is not something that can be achieved through hard work.I am very confused, should I continue to work hard, maybe everything will be fine soon?
I said, why don't you try hard and see if it gets better?She said that she didn't know if it was too late to work hard.If it is too late at the age of eighteen or nineteen, how can it be considered early?After all, not everyone can write her first novel at the age of 7, her paintings were accepted by newspapers at the age of 9, her first work was published at the age of 12, and she began to read Zhang Henshui and "Dream of Red Mansions" at the age of 13 like Zhang Ailing.

When I thought of this, I told the little girl the story of the documentary "Eternal Knights". A group of elderly people with an average age of 81 set off to travel around Taiwan in 13 days because of their dreams.

I think back when I was at her young age, on my 19th birthday, I walked from the dormitory to the teaching building with my textbooks in my arms.That morning, I received a text message from my cousin wishing me a happy birthday.I was in the square in front of the school, stopped to read the text messages on my mobile phone, looked up at the teaching building, and felt that I should continue to fight and study hard for a university.At that time, my dreams about the future and my life were vague, and only after I gradually moved forward did I feel clear.But this little girl, who is not yet 20 years old, began to doubt her dream, and wondered if it was too late to pursue her dream when she was young.

It's not her fault.It doesn't matter right or wrong, but she, like most of us, is urged by this fast-paced life, and her immature mind begins to hesitate and become nervous. She hopes to succeed, hopes to be able to stand in the dream, to be able to embrace the dream Outstanding top-notch talent.

Youth is the age to pursue dreams.In fact, in front of your dreams, as long as you are willing to work hard, it is never too late.And what she was anxious about was a deviation in her understanding of her dreams.Your dreams belong to you, not to anyone else in this world.Pursuing dreams has always been lonely. Only when your dreams coincide with the values ​​of the public can you see the resonance of others for your dreams in the eyes of others.What you need is to enjoy the process of pursuing your dreams and the happiness they bring you.

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Yan Ming is my favorite independent photographer.To be independent is to be alone.

In his 30s, he quit a good job to pursue his dream of photography.In order to go out for photography, I cut down on food and clothing.In his collection of essays "I Love This Romance That Can't Cry," he said that he pursued his dreams. Although others praised his hard work, he said that he did not live "as a model of hard work in the eyes of others."The pursuit of dreams is: "Each suffers his own suffering, each finds his own happiness. Who makes you like it!"

"Likes" really matter.

When he brought his new book to Chongqing to promote it, there were very few media present, and the scene seemed deserted.But I think that Yan Ming should have forgotten his loneliness long ago, and was intoxicated in his "like".

The book tells the story of Vivienne Mayer.The experience of Vivienne Meyer left me with an indescribable emotion.She worked as a nanny and housekeeper in Chicago for 40 years, an ordinary woman who liked to wear a hat, sturdy men's shoes, and a camera on her chest.She was dressed in a rustic manner and had a somewhat withdrawn personality. She was not the kind of woman who attracted attention.Doing ordinary work, I am also happy to be ignored. As an invisible person, I take pictures of myself under the reflection of windows, glass and mirrors, and also take pictures of fleeting street scenes, and strange and even malicious people. The expressions of the neighbors.Her photos record the world and the people in that world half a century ago, vivid and full of care.

She is not a professional photographer, but an unknown woman, a nanny.She never published her own work, and it was not until her death in 2009 that more than 400 negatives were bought by young people looking for old things at auction for $[-].This young man discovered the artistic value of those negatives by accident. Surprised, he began to look for the possibility of publishing the art world in those negatives, as well as the legal heirs of the priceless art.He also shot the documentary "Looking for Vivienne" to commemorate this ordinary but great photographer.

Since then, Vivienne's name has been known to the world.She is even known as the greatest photographer of the 20th century, and her appearance rewrote the history of photography.People have all kinds of compliments on her, and she has been in many families in Chicago all her life, doing ordinary nanny work, and taking photography as her life career.

To become famous after death is probably the most embarrassing thing in this day and age.But when she took photos with great proficiency, she still didn't think about getting rid of the ordinary work and winning the world's recognition for her photography works.She may be the only one who recognizes those works before she dies.

She doesn't have the impatience and anxiety of a fast-paced life, and she doesn't complain that her dreams can't be recognized by the world. She just hides her hobbies, her dreams and her chasing in her heart, and she pursues her dreams just for liking.Ordinary, lonely, but happy. The "Chicago Tribune" issued an obituary for her: "Her free and peaceful soul touched everyone around her."

Only by pursuing worldly recognition without rushing for quick success and instant benefits can you enjoy your own happiness and tranquility in the loneliness of pursuing ideals.After reading the story about Vivienne Mel in Yan Ming's text, I found the documentary "Looking for Vivienne" made by the young man who bought her works, just to see how such an ordinary woman can survive in loneliness Enjoy happiness to wash away the unsteady heart that is easily swayed by worldly values.

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Print media is declining day by day. This is a big trend. No matter how well you do it, screen reading has become an irreversible trend.Although the magazine I created has been on the rise for three years since its publication, the decline of the industry is still frightening.

I remember 3 years ago, before the publication of the magazine, the editor-in-chief and I, as well as two other colleagues, stayed up late for a long time.In order to be able to make the first trial issue.From the first trial issue to the present, I have interviewed many celebrities.During the first trial issue, I interviewed two musicians, to be precise, it should be two groups of musicians.They are all typical lonely people who pursue their dreams, but from their faces and their tone, I can't see a trace of pain caused by loneliness, but the joy of enjoying it.

One of the musicians is Li Bo, a local musician from Chongqing. He has his own band "Li Bo and Chongqing Children". Their first album was just released at that time, called "Chongqing Children"; the other is street punk from Beijing. The band Demerit, I fell in love with them because of their first album "Never say die", and the second album "Bastards of the Nation" also got me hooked.

When Li Bo entered college, he joined the school guitar club to pass the boring time, and learned guitar from his seniors, which made him fall in love with music.Gradually began to learn to compose and write lyrics, and was full of enthusiasm for music.After graduation, he entered the radio station as a music editor.For more than ten years, I have been insisting on writing songs, writing and recording myself, and listening to them in the car after recording. In 2008, he put a song "Chongqing Diao" that he thought was well written on the Internet, and it quickly became popular.But he is still a music editor, an ordinary music lover.

Until the guitarist friend heard the songs he wrote in his car and felt that those songs should be heard by more people.So this guitarist friend found a group of friends who play music, and they formed the band "Li Bo and Chongqing Children".They started preparations for their album "Chongqing Children", and the investor of the album is the senior who taught Li Bo to learn guitar many years ago.The senior is doing business outside and has not played music for many years, but he still has a music dream in his heart.The members of the band all have their own jobs. There are radio editors, music store owners, and bank account managers in the band.They were all lovers of music. After entering the society and working, their music dreams have not been extinguished. A song can bring them together. After working for a week, they practice singing together on weekends.

Li Bo said that the album plans to release 5000 copies, not for fame or money, "We just want to fulfill a dream."

After listening to Demerit for a long time, whether it is the roaring singing voice or the allegorical meaning in the lyrics, I feel that they can vent the pressure and emotions brought about by this imperfect world.After I got in touch with Demerit, they also told me a similar story. A group of people who love music ran to Beijing from various places, where they were making punk music that would never be accepted by the public. Before releasing their album and starting their tour, they Go to the dilapidated factory to pick up weird furniture, go to the scrap station to buy beautiful clothes, drink beer and listen to your favorite music in the rental house.They live in Tongzhou, where there are many people who love music like them, and they see it as a utopia.

Lead singer Li Yang said that when he wrote "Beijing is not my home", he had been away from his hometown for 5 years, and seeing many people come here and leave again, children who look rebellious like them are actually more vulnerable than anyone else.For their dreams, they drank, played the piano and sang with friends on the roof of the rental house.From time to time, planes roared overhead, and the surrounding houses that were being demolished were replaced by new high-rise buildings.With the sense of displacement and loneliness of dream drifting, blowing towards the face.But I still persist.Not for the sake of becoming famous, but for shouting out your own voice.He said that if they want to be famous, they can't play punk music.

There are many lonely dreamers like Vivienne Meier, Li Bo and Chongqing Children, and Demerit in real life, but they are still in the minority.What we see are those successful people standing in the glory of their dreams, enjoying the fast-paced pursuit of dreams that bring rewards.

This era is too impatient and moves too fast, so fast that we have no time to see clearly our inner desires and true thoughts.I remember when we took a Chinese studies class in college, we asked the old professor if there was any relationship between I Ching gossip and fortune-telling.The old professor said that it can’t be said that it doesn’t matter at all. We don’t promote feudal superstition, but everyone can understand what is lacking and making up for it.There are so many people in this world who are preaching "slow life" because we are too lacking.

Slow life should correspond to Yan Ming’s lonely pursuit of dreams, Vivienne Meier’s whole life’s shooting, and all people like Li Bo and Demerit who walk alone to realize their dreams.Rather than the majority of people represented by the 19-year-old girl who left me a message, there is no intention to blame her here, maybe me, you, and more people are like her.

We often say that the truth is often in the hands of a few people.Those lonely dream chasers, those who enjoy the joy of chasing dreams, may really be the few who hold the truth this time.They have dreams, so they are happy, so what if they are lonely?

God gave us youth just so that we can toss happily.If you don't force yourself, how can you find out that life can be different?
(End of this chapter)