The maid is the queen

Chapter 91 I'm a Fool
Yuanyuan showed me the clothes: "Your Majesty, how about taking these clothes with you? The Summer Resort must be much cooler than here."

The soft little clothes are very nice, I nodded: "Just take care of it."

When I saw the little clothes, I was worried about one thing. Concubine Li was about to give birth. I wonder if her child has made the little clothes?What Zhang Xibao said unintentionally yesterday always made me feel uncomfortable.

I don't like the word dystocia. It's really not easy for a woman to have a baby. It's a matter of stepping into the coffin, but if some man-made evils are added, it's so difficult to keep it alive. .

I have seen Lin Shangyi give birth to a child and die. I don’t want to see such a thing anymore. No one wants to know that life is hard-won, so we should cherish it.

This day, this place, will never change, quietly watching people being born, growing up, leaving, and multiplying all the time. In the eyes of people, a lifetime is very long, but in their eyes, a lifetime is nothing but In the blink of an eye, so live well.

Let Yuanyuan prepare some small clothes and some fabrics. When I said I was going to the cold palace, Yuanyuan no longer stopped me as before.

But there was still a sigh in her eyes, she thought it would be no good for me to do so.

The scorching sun made me sweat profusely, trying to penetrate the thin umbrella and bake me in the sun. The four court ladies followed me to the gate of the Leng Palace. When the imperial guards guarding the gate saw that it was me, they immediately asked someone to take me in to find Concubine Li.

I looked at the already dilapidated bamboo bureau in a blink of an eye, and unexpectedly found that the cut bamboo forest had grown some new greenery.

"Niang Niang." Yuan Yuan called back my mind: "You can go in."

There are many trees planted in Lenggong, but it is really shady and cool. There are scattered houses in Lenggong, and pairs of eyes are looking at me, crying and yelling.

The father-in-law who followed in stared fiercely, and his voice fell silent again.

The palace maid took me in. In a very remote place, in front of the dilapidated house, Concubine Li was sitting on a stone under a tree and doing embroidery work. The clothes were very small, but they were made of old fabrics. .

"Li Feng'er, Empress Wanyi has come to see you." The maid called him by his name rudely.

She looked up at me, the dignity and honor of that time were no longer written on her face, she was getting old and haggard very quickly, her hair was messy without any jewelry decoration, and her clothes were very dirty and old, but the way she looked at me was still the same. Same pride.

"Don't be polite?" the father-in-law on the side shouted in a vicious voice.

I took a look at Yuanyuan, and Yuanyuan wisely put down the things in his hands, and then retreated far away with a few people.

No matter what kind of situation she reached, Concubine Li still kept the arrogance of a noble lady in her heart, snorted coldly in her nostrils, lowered her head and bit off the needle thread.

"I brought you some clothes." I said softly.

She looked up at me, as if it was weird for me to do this, and suddenly raised her eyebrows and laughed: "Yun Zhiqiu, you are so cheap, it is obviously the Li family who caused the loss of the child, but you still come to give me things."

The sarcasm in her eyes was strong, and I sighed softly: "I know it's not you, you look down on me, you don't regard me as an opponent at all."

She was a little surprised, and then laughed again: "Indeed, you are not worthy. But I never expected that even if Concubine Yang died, she would not be counted as the king's heart. The last person to be the queen turned out to be Lu Yao. If you think about the empress dowager's calmness, you won't let the Li family dominate."

I didn't understand what she said, so I said with some pity: "When you give birth, if you need anything, you can ask the maids to go to the Temple of Observing the Moon and ask for an imperial doctor, and I will tell them." Guanyue Palace didn't dare to fool Concubine Li's request even after thinking about it.

She laughed loudly: "Yun Zhiqiu, are you stupid or crazy?"

"I'm not stupid or crazy. I never hated you. Take care of yourself. I won't come to worry about you often." It's not that I hate her, it's that she hates me.

I think my intuition is so accurate, more and more let me know that it has nothing to do with Concubine Li.

I turned my head and walked away, but she snorted coldly from behind and said, "You are so pitiful, you are so pitiful, yet you still enjoy it, haha."

I walked back in front of her again, and looked down at her condescendingly: "You can look down on me, but what right do you have to say that I am pitiful, and now I am the one who wants to pity you."

Just because I keep silent doesn't mean I can really be bullied by you.

After hearing my words, she burst into tears with laughter: "You pity me, haha, this is really a good joke, enough to make my concubine laugh all summer, autumn, and winter, haha."

I hate her smile like this: "You just use your haughty heart and continue to be haughty, people look at you, but they disdain you in your heart, you are no longer the person you used to be." How can this be so? Laughing wildly, laughing so hard that it made me feel flustered and chilled.

She wiped the tears from her face and said: "Take away all your things. Whoever this concubine wants to be pitiful to is not a lowly person like you. Do you think the emperor really dotes on you? Haha, he is just Just use you as a pawn, I am really funny, you have always been a joke, do you know, you can't have children at all."

She looked at me very proudly, admiring the stunned look on my face sweetly.

In an instant, my heart fell into the glaciers, and the pain was so cold that I couldn't breathe.

I used to have doubts about whether I would be able to have a baby, but the vague doubts at that time were quickly dispelled. The emperor said that I was pregnant, dispelling all my doubts.

When I was pregnant with the first one, I always threw up, couldn't eat and was always upset, but the next one, I didn't feel anything.

So I ordered myself to sleep well and eat something sour, but not to vomit. When I said I was tired, the cold smile in his eyes seemed to be mocking.

The words between Lin Luoshui that made me have to have some doubts floated up one by one.

He told Xia Juntang, you will really kill me.

I thought that I was seriously injured and there was no way to recover, but I never thought that it was not a miscarriage.

Concubine Li is right, but what have I become?
Like a snowy day, the overwhelming snow and ice spread towards me, covering me, submerging the last temperature, getting dark little by little, shaking my body twice, and almost didn't fall off.

I leaned on the tree to weigh myself, and pinched my fingertips into the tree. Why didn't I feel pain? Was it me dreaming, or it was too unreal, it was just a nonsense joke of hers.

"I say you are pitiful, haha." She laughed wildly: "This concubine asked Ning Gongzheng to give you medicine a long time ago, idiot, idiot, the stupidest idiot in the palace, the ugliest idiot in the world." She laughed so proudly, I was just a big joke in front of her, and I foolishly came to see her and brought her things, but what am I?
I was really a big fool, my body was trembling, I stepped forward and slapped her hard, the palms of my hands were numb, and she laughed even harder.

I am a fool, and there is no need for her to say, I am a fool, who caused it.

What a vicious woman, I bit my lip to hold back the stinging pain in my heart, and then it shattered and spread to every part of my body.

"Your Majesty." Yuan Yuan brought the palace maid forward.

I looked at it coldly, and heard my light voice say: "The reason, please send it to Imperial Doctor Lin immediately."

He didn't know how to sit down, and even sat on the bamboo house outside the cold palace without strength, and the maids guarded the left and right and dared not make a sound.

After a while, Yuan Yuan brought Yu doctor Lin over in a hurry, and said anxiously: "Your Majesty must be feeling unwell. Could it be that she was infected with evil spirits when she went to the Leng Palace just now?"

I raised my face and looked at Lin Luoshui coldly. He was still such an elegant and dignified young man. I told Yuanyou to go down and stand by his side, and then slapped him so hard that his face was covered with tears. It's blood, crying out loudly: "Liar."

This liar, the number one genius doctor in the capital, is a liar.I trusted him so much, but he lied to me.

I was trembling with anger, so angry that I wanted to cry, the blood on his face was the blood from my fingernails in the palm of my hand, his handsome half face was stained with blood, and it was a bit hideous, but his eyes were like this Calm down, and sighed softly: "If hitting me can make you feel angry, then you can hit it with a little force. If you can't hurt me, you will be hurt."

"How can you lie to me? Are you bullying me to be helpless in the palace, are you bullying me to live alone, no one cares about my life anymore." I cried loudly.

There was self-blame in his eyes: "No, Zhiqiu."

"Don't call me by my name, you don't deserve it, I trust you so much, respect you, but why did you lie to me, I really hate you, do you know that?" I really hate it, such things also lie to me, Then my life has always been a joke.

"I thought it would be better if you didn't know." He was a little helpless.

When he said that, I became angrier: "It would be better if I don't know what it is, have you ever thought about how I feel, you are not me, how do you know that it is me, Lin Luoshui, are friends just for deceiving? I know that you children of aristocratic families are just talking. I, Yun Zhiqiu, have a lowly status. How can I be friends with you? You can even make your own decisions. You think people like me have no right to know, don’t you? "Wiping a handful of tears, crying more and more sad.

He shook his head: "No, Zhiqiu."

"Yes, that is, tell me, am I pregnant with a child?"

Taking a breath, I looked at him fiercely, and I wondered if he was going to lie again and lie to me again.

He sighed slightly, and said with a deep expression, "No."

Right, really not, I closed my eyes, I wanted to scream more and more in my heart, something was pressing me down, the pain was so painful that I almost couldn't stand up.

"Then why do you say that I had a miscarriage? You said that my child is gone."

"Don't do that, Zhiqiu."

"You go, I will never see you again, I have never known you before, you all said it was for my own good, you all said that I might be happier if I didn't know, but I found that I was a fool, would Will you be happy if you are happy? Others look at me as a fool, that’s enough, I’m really uncomfortable, go quickly.” I squatted down, and my heart hurt so much that I couldn’t stand anymore.

(End of this chapter)