The maid is the queen

Chapter 92 Enough
I know why Xia Juntang wants to say sorry to me all day long, that sentence has so many meanings in it.

But I don't understand, Xia Juntang said to love yourself well.

He knew that the people in this palace were all fake, and the feelings in this palace were all faked.

How I hate it, living in a dream of lies.

It is finally broken, this is the truth, and it is impossible for people to accept all that.

"Your Majesty, ask your subordinates to bandage your hands first." He stared at my bleeding hands.

I stretched out my finger and pointed at him, but I kept trembling, and said coldly, "Go."

Filled with guilt, he no longer stood there, turned around and walked away.

That heavy and weak back will only make me hate him. Does he think he's doing the right thing?

Reality is reality, why do you want me to live in a dream? Don't they think that I am pitiful when they see me laughing and everyone compliments me?

Go away, go away, what I hate most is deception.

Sitting on the wooden plank of the bamboo house, I looked up at the sun and saw its white flowers, which made my eyes burn so white that I couldn't see anything. I forgot to cry for my sadness, for my palm And tender.

"Niangniang." Yuanyuan approached me with concern and whispered to me.

"Go away." I yelled coldly.

She didn't bother me anymore, and she took the maid to stand there silently basking in the sun.

Whether it was sweat or tears, it slipped quietly from the corner of my forehead and wet my hair.

I can't see anything in my eyes, I close my eyes, only one sentence reminds me, if you want to love yourself, you must not hurt yourself.

Why did you lie to me, why did you use me, he said one sentence at a time, love me, he is gentle and pampers me, he will walk with me, he will carry me back, he will eat the noodles I made.

But why did he treat me so cruelly?Is that love?

The sun gets hotter and hotter in the afternoon, and the sweat drenches the clothes drop by drop, but I don’t feel its temperature. I’m tired of sitting and lie down on the wooden board. I really want to hug myself tightly, but I don’t think about anything move.

The faint fragrance surrounded me, and he stretched out his hand to hug me: "Zhiqiu, wake up, don't lie here and you will get sick."

It was his voice, gentle and soft.

He hugged me very lightly, like I was a soft child like Xu.

I didn't open my eyes to look at him, I don't want to look at such a person I have been tempted to say that he loves me while hurting me.

Enough is enough, utterly enough.

"Zhiqiu, I will take you back to drink some calming tea."

I hugged his waist with both hands, buried my head in his arms and sucked his warmth, sucked his smell fiercely, then straightened up and bit his shoulder heavily.

It wasn't a fake bite, but the real bite made my teeth numb.

He must be in pain, I remember he let go of me and called out loudly: "Yun Zhiqiu."

And when I fell to the ground, my body felt very good and solid, and my mouth was filled with the smell of blood.

The chaotic voices drowned me out, and by the time it quieted down, I was already in the Temple of Observing the Moon.

I kept my mouth shut, didn't hear, didn't ask, didn't talk, didn't think about anything, didn't pay attention to anything, because my aunt brought in something and advised me distressedly: "Mother, at least eat some porridge, your health is important."

I didn't say anything, I turned my head to look at the beautifully embroidered butterfly on the bed gauze, my hands were wrapped with several layers of gauze, and finally I knew what kind of pain it was.

Yuanyuan cried softly: "Your Majesty, don't vomit with your own body. The little prince still needs your empress' care. No matter what your empress is angry with, don't be angry with yourself. How can it be okay if you don't eat or drink?"

I got angry and turned my head to look at her fiercely.

Yuanyuan blushed and burst into tears: "Madam, please eat some, no matter how angry you are, you have to take care of your health, just eat a little, that's good."

I let out a long sigh, and heard Xu You crying again.

He just raised his hand and came to help me quickly: "Your Majesty, slow down."

He drank some water and dragged his heavy body to see Xu'er. He could feel if the adult was in a bad mood, and he cried so badly.

From the nanny's arms hugged him who was hoarse, and patted him gently, Ying'er, don't cry, don't cry.

After seeing the imperial doctor for several days, the whole person has worked hard.

He was a little hot all over, and his clothes were slightly wet. I asked someone to wash him and put on some clean clothes, and then carried him to my room, which was relatively ventilated. He was still in the small cradle, dozing off Qiuqiu jumped onto the table again and stared at him with round, transparent cat eyes. He slowly swayed, blowing the peaceful lotus wind, and he slowly calmed down.

He fell asleep, and the cat fell asleep on its stomach. The palace finally calmed down, but the heart was still too cold in the extremely hot summer.

I took good care of Ying'er, because the little prince was sick, which benefited me, so I didn't have to go to pay my respects every morning after taking leave.

Instead, Lu Yao picked a time to come and see me, and he blamed me when he saw me, he looked at me fiercely and said angrily, "Look in the mirror, what do you look like now?"

"It's okay." I said lightly.

She shook my shoulder: "Is it all right? No matter what happens, it's fine. Why don't you know how to take good care of yourself and abuse your body like this? Are you proud of yourself? Your mother, your father, you If your loved ones are here, I will feel so sorry for you."

"Lu Yao, it's really all right." I smiled.

But her eyes were red: "You still said it's okay, only ghosts believe it, Yun Zhiqiu, I'm Lu Yao, your sister, don't I feel bad for you hurting yourself like this?"

"Lu Yao." I wanted to cry.

She hugged me: "My good sister, don't cry, tell my sister something wronged, such a bad person, is it worth your hatred to eat?"

"Not worth it." Really not worth it.

I shook my head vigorously, Lu Yao put out a dish from the food box, sandwiched it into a bowl and gave it to me: "Eat it all for me."

It was so hard to eat, but slowly, I still chewed and swallowed it.

"Zhiqiu, why don't you give you a smooth life? Obviously you have nothing to ask for, and you have already had a very happy life. Isn't it better not to know about some things?"

"No, I would rather know than believe in cruel dreams, Lu Yao, thank you, I will get up well, but I hate him, don't come to persuade me, I can't let go of this hate."

Lu Yao said lightly: "Zhiqiu, he lied to you, but he won't hurt you. He loves you so much, so don't think too badly about him. I think he also thought about it at the beginning. Seeing that there was nothing irreversible between him and you, he said that you were pregnant, and that happened by coincidence, just like that, he took advantage of the situation and said that you had a miscarriage."

I laughed: "Lu Yao, have I really been so naive all this time? I'm just a pawn. Ever since he said I was pregnant, he has been planning how to pamper me and how to let me out in the harem." In the limelight, he knew that Concubine Li was arrogant and straightforward, he did it on purpose, that woman didn't kill me, she just stabbed me in the stomach, you never know what kind of fear I was at that time, I would rather her Scratched my face, broke my limbs, but I don't want the despair at that time, he acted very similarly, even the imperial forest army and father-in-law were injured, but Lu Yao, what do you want me to do to forgive him , Wrong, can you really give me everything back to me? If I can choose, I would rather never run into him."

Saying this, I am as cold as ice, but I am quite persistent. Give me a chance to choose, and I will stagger from the road where we met.

Lu Yao hugged me tightly, as if wanting to warm me: "Don't be afraid, it's over."

"Lu Yao, don't say anything else. I know you are very worried about me in front of the Queen Mother. In fact, I don't care about this at all now. She can punish me as she wants."

I bit the emperor, many people watched at that time, the queen mother must have known it, the emperor dared not say anything, but the queen mother was not a good friend to me.

Lu Yao snorted lightly: "If I can't take care of that little thing, I'm not worthy to be your sister. I really don't understand why the queen mother aunt looks down on people. People are divided into different classes. Why is the essence of nobility not the same?" , and may not live a hundred or thousand years longer than others."

"Lu Yao, thank you." Thank you for visiting me and explaining me.

It is my luck to have such a sister, who let me know that someone cares about me.

She became a little impatient: "There are too many people to thank me, why are you joining in the fun, good Zhiqiu, sister, don't be angry, every day you are angry is a waste of a day, but this summer trip, you Are you still going?"

I shook my head and said firmly, "Of course I won't go."

I would rather not see him, give me a choice, I will leave the palace.

She sighed and said, "That's true. Originally, the emperor didn't want to go, but the empress was furious, saying that you bit the emperor and punished you and deposed you. The emperor was determined not to do it, but after summer vacation OK but had to go.”

"I don't want to take care of his affairs, I don't want to hear about them." She turned her head and shook the little basket, "I just want to watch Ying'er and let him grow up quickly."

Heart, very tired, very tired, one night is enough to make me ten years old.

Lu Yao came over and touched his little face: "Such a cute child, I like the child Liao Zhiqiu the most. Then let's have a good time in the palace, don't be unhappy, wait for them to leave, hehe, this The harem is my territory, so let's go out to eat, drink and have fun to be worthy of ourselves."

On the night of my departure, a dark shadow stood under the flower tree, and I opened the window coldly, not even wanting to look.

He really hurt me too deeply, this is not something that can be forgiven.

How to forgive, children can be lied to, chess pieces can be used, stomachs can be stabbed with knives, I often dream that I am covered in blood, crawling on the tree with both hands, calling for help over and over again, But those people were looking forward to the arrival of the emperor.

He must have confessed that he will come, and he will still say that I am a miscarriage after entering the palace, and he will keep me in the dark.

My back was sweating profusely, and I got up panting and called, "Come on, light up the lights."

The night was too dark, and I was afraid. In the dream, he stabbed the knife into my stomach with his own hands. It was so real that I dared not close my eyes.

(End of this chapter)