CHIEF agent, the goddess is coming

Chapter 242

In the end, I still didn't tell her. "Prism Paradise" was really created by me, but I never let her know the reason.and everything in those days.
==========================——Shao ​​Dongxu——===================== ========
In my life, it is destined to be complicated and fruitless.Living in the shackles of hatred every day, it tortures people's hearts every day.Among them, I often ask myself, is this what I want?

In the end, I still lost, to my younger brother, to Bing Tuanxi, and to everything else.In the end, all the endings were unexpected, and I really didn't expect that it turned out to be my own self-indulgence.

I often fall into conflicts and entanglements. In fact, it is not that there is a problem with myself, but that my heart is divided into two parts. One part is to give up and forget; the other part is to destroy and get.

That day, young Nan Xu happened to be sent out for special training by the organization, so I entered the Ruin-Angel organization alone.I look exactly like Shao Nanxu, even my behavior and temperament are quite similar.My curiosity prompted me to venture in and experience what life in an organization is like.

Until later, I met her.Her name is Lucia, and her smile is like the crystal-clear morning light, warm and deeply rooted, the most beautiful I have ever seen.Similarly, her deep understanding and righteousness can always go deep into the bottom of people's hearts and purify them.

At that time, I was very tangled and frustrated, so she said to me: 'No matter what, she will be by my side.Don't keep memories in the past, find ways to work hard to change your future!No matter what I do, she will always choose to believe. '

Since then, I have decided in my heart that she is the warmth I am looking for.However, I also laughed at myself even more, because I knew that what she said was actually about Shao Nanxu, not me.

I am heartbroken, and I am comforting myself at the same time. Being able to be with her is actually the best gift from God to you.You will never, ever be able to replace Young Dongxu.

She once made me less Nanxu, the reason why she didn't recognize me as a fake was because, at that time, I actually had a sunny and pure side in my heart.We watched under the stars and fished in the river.I know she likes music, so I studied the violin and piano for a long time, but I never thought that I could create my first score in history, "Prism Paradise".

The real wish of this song is to hope that we can stay together forever in a transparent heaven, away from worldly troubles, which symbolizes the eternity of happiness.In the end, I'm glad she loved this piece so much and has always cherished it.

I have been contradicting myself, if Shao Nanxu and I stood in front of her at the same time, who would she choose?Because I know, she likes me a little bit!At that time, we were really happy.When I knew she was an agent, I vowed to take down the entire Mafia, firstly to satisfy my own power, and secondly to give her the best protection.

With her, I always feel that I can let go of everything, and I have never felt more relaxed.For me, she is a rest station for my soul, and even a psychological healing healer.

I never imagined that a girl who is bright inside and outside can live so happily in the dark.I know that she cherishes her secret agent partners very much, and her future career will be more fulfilling if she has emotions.

My ability to hide is very good, and I got a lot of things about Shao Nanxu from her mouth.The more I listen to her, the more jealous I feel in my heart is climbing.I hate it so much, why should I be willing to do this as a substitute?
Until one day, when I finally mustered up the courage to explain everything to her, he came back.I panicked and had to hide.But fortunately, the fetters between us did not conflict.Shao Nanxu didn't have any doubts.

Afterwards, I kept following them secretly, the more I looked at them, the more painful it was, the pain was heart-piercing.

She still had that pure and warm smile, same as him.Their tacit understanding has long been surpassed by no one. To use a metaphor to describe it, it is another self in their hearts.

I'm jealous, if I'm the only one who understands Bing Yuxi, how good would it be?
But the truth came to his lips, but he couldn't say it.I could only watch as Bing Yuxi happily played the song "Prism Paradise". They bathed in the sunset together, leaving only the lonely and lonely self behind the shadow.
At that time, even if there were thousands of words, no one would tell them.The bitterness in my heart no longer has a habitat.She obviously told me that she will never leave me!
But later I learned that she had always said this to Shao Nanxu.

In the end, I admit that I have lost, completely lost.

They lived and died together, and we had only met for a few days.What do I compare it to?
Actually, am I really a bad person?I did have a murderous intention in my heart, but I never did it.
In the end, Shao Nanxu's death was an accident.I didn't kill him, but he had unknowingly fallen into the trap I originally intended to deal with him.The reason why I admit it is just to prove my decisiveness.

Do you regret it?I often ask myself, but my heart is already paralyzed.
I hate Shao Nanxu, but after all, blood is thicker than water, no matter how hard I am, I will never forget the happy time we had together.People's feelings can't lie to themselves, Shao Nanxu is not a bad person in his heart, the real selfish person is himself!

However, things have come to an end, and regrets cannot be undone.So, I still decided to grasp the original purpose and proceed.

I fell into the underworld and met a head-down master from Malay. He seemed to see the troubles in my heart, so he said to me, "Do you want to completely let her belong to you? As long as you have With his memory, you can truly replace him!"

I hesitated for a long time. Although I seldom believe in this kind of thing, but desire defeated reason, so I held the mentality of giving it a try.

He lowered his head on me and said to me: "If you really choose to do this, your body will resonate with him in the future."

When I heard this sentence, I suddenly had a kind of rejection.I want to be by Bing Yuxi's side forever, but I don't want to be a substitute forever.

It was because of such distracting thoughts that my subsequent memory was messy, damaged and incomplete.

Later, there was only one girl in my mind.I know my purpose, but I am no longer myself.In order not to let such a self accompany her, I resolutely left and gave up for love.

I really didn't expect that we would fight against each other under the moonlight.At that time, I didn't recognize her, but the feeling was always guiding me.

At the beginning, I had the purpose of using it, but my memory gradually revealed on the way.At the beginning, in my memory, I remembered some past events of their past, but love is long gone.

Love this kind of thing, even if it is buried, one day, it will be awakened by accident. Yes, I admit, I fell in love with her for the second time.I thought I didn't have the deep affection I used to have, but I was wrong, I deceived myself.

I took every step of the way, but the moment the truth got closer to me, my heart ached even more.What was my cruelty in return for?
When I was in the Die-God organization, I actually tried to deal with them all the time. If I knew the terrain well, I could actually kill them thousands of times, but in the end I didn't do much.I killed Noya, but under the appearance of a sinister smile, there was a helpless heart hidden, but unfortunately, no one saw through.

Everyone in the world thinks I'm cruel and ruthless, but I never think back.

When I knew that she fell in love with Feng Yilie again, I was flat, but I was unwilling in every way.I wanted to fight in the past, but I didn't want to hurt her.

I ruined their wedding and brought Bing Tongxi back to the villa.I wanted to tell her everything about that year, but in the end I found out that after talking a lot, I still hid some things.

I watched her sad day and night, her anger, her silent crying, and I really couldn't bear it.

My antidote is about to be completed. I originally thought excitedly that my illness would be cured soon, but the moment I saw her vomiting blood, I laughed.But the smile is hopeless.

In the end I made a decision to give up everything just to be happy for her.

Because of this, I thought about it all night, if she leaves here, then what is the point of everything I have fought for up to now?There is no one around to talk to, even if you have power, you can only worry about it day and night.

Well, in this case, I will choose self-destruction!hehe
Originally, I really wanted to use the vision of the Mafia to eradicate Feng Yilie forever.But in the end, I saved my ultimate enemy.
For her, I seem to have done nothing, but I don't know that I have actually done a lot
In the end I realized that as long as she is happy, it is better than anything else.Watching her face death with a smile, I decided to give her my only life-long antidote.I also hope that Feng Yilie can give her the last happiness.

That day, she still didn't know about those things organized, and I didn't have the energy to say anything more. With regret, I finally welcomed the final baptism of death.

Xi'er, thank you for not blaming me in the end.To die in your arms is my last happiness.

Very sad, I still can't give you happiness after all, but you are happy because of others, bless you.

May we come to another life without saying goodbye.
(End of this chapter)