We all loved Bai Yueguang

Chapter 33 White Moonlight (5)
The lighter looked so familiar, she picked it up carefully and looked at it carefully.In the afternoon, she asked for the phone number of the Lu civil servant who was mentioned every time. When she called, she was very surprised, "Who? Every week? Oh, I haven't contacted her for a long time. What's wrong with her?"

Dora hung up the phone and fiddled with the lighter.

She remembered every time she said, "I have a man."

It should have started from then on.

Dora stared at the lighter and suddenly remembered that the lighter belonged to Chen Hao.Her chest suddenly seemed to be stuffed with a large ball of cotton, and her breath was excruciatingly painful.

It's him.

Who else but him.

She should have expected it.Zhou Zhou, a stubborn girl, has never loved other men.

Dora flicked through the newspaper and saw a headline on a certain page, "...Chairman of Haoguang Chen Hao and Miss Shi Anna held an engagement ceremony at the Dorsett Hotel today..." The date was December 12th.

Ah.

She left, he was proud.

He regards her love as nothing.

Dora vaguely remembered that Chen Hao arrived the next day, wearing a black suit and huge sunglasses, making it hard to see the expression on his face.

Dora herself was still in grief, and indeed she could not remember whether he had shed tears or not.

In the drawer was a tin biscuit tin with pretty note papers scattered about.Dora picked it up at will and read it. The handwriting was from Changji. She was as beautiful as a flower, but the handwriting was crooked and ugly. Dora remembered that she had laughed at her more than once for this, little tadpole...

Some sentences were written scattered on the note, which seemed to function as a notepad. It is estimated that Xu tore off the note paper and wrote down the things worth remembering today, and then stuffed it into the box.

"It's a surprise. Chen Hao didn't die. He's still alive. Thank God."

"I know, he still loves her."

"It was the first time he looked me in the eye and begged me for help, how could I say no."

"Dora, dear, I'm sorry."

"I know he's absent-minded, and always looks out of the window while drinking tea. It doesn't matter, as long as he's by his side."

"Why does he love her so much? For example, why do I love him so much?"

"Dora, I miss you. Wanted to say sorry. Really."

"The first gift he gave me was a box of mifepristone tablets..."

"Maybe a pain without anesthesia will wake me up from now on. He has lofty ideals, and I will never be among them..."

……

Each meager piece of paper is like a tactful love story.Dora can see through the beginning and the end of it at a glance.

She replaced the note and closed the box.

I returned home very calmly, tried my best to finish a bowl of noodles, and fell asleep.

It was late in the evening when she woke up, so she inquired and called a car to a certain neighborhood.

The community is quite big, and Dora found Chen Hao's house after asking several people.

It is a single-family small villa with blue tiles and white walls, and it is extraordinarily beautiful under the turbulent sky.

Dora rang the bell for a long time.

Only then did the iron gate slowly open, revealing a young and delicate face.

She looked at Dora suspiciously, "Who are you looking for?"

Dora recognized at a glance that she was Shi Anna, and she was only wearing loose casual clothes, which couldn't hide her stunning radiance—she was indeed a beauty.

Dora asked neither humble nor humble, "Excuse me, is this Chen Hao's home?"

Chen Hao's voice came from behind Shi Anna, "Anna, who is it?"

As soon as he looked up, he saw Dora, and he was stunned, with a faint joy in his eyes, "Dora! Why are you here?"

Dora took a step back and said coldly: "Come out, I have something to tell you."

Shi Anna glanced at Dora and asked, "Who is this?"

Chen Hao said: "You go in first." He pushed her lightly, although a trace of doubt flashed in her eyes, she still obediently retreated into the door.

Chen Hao closed the door and followed Dora for a few steps, his expression still joyful, "You came to find me specially?"

Dora turned her head and looked at him blankly, "Congratulations."

Chen Hao stretched out his hand and grabbed her arm, "You know, I only have you in my heart..."

Dora broke away from him lightly, and handed him the bag in her hand, "Here are two boxes that belong to you, and I brought them here for you."

Chen Hao frowned, and asked suspiciously, "My box?"

Dora didn't want to say more, and said softly, "I'm leaving."

She turns away.

Chen Hao shouted behind her: "Dora!"

She turned her head and smiled at him, "Goodbye, Chen Hao."

Chen Hao watched her go away helplessly, and the twilight fell on her gently, making her back look extraordinarily pure and lonely.For some reason, Chen Hao only felt a twinge in his heart, as this side was the last time in his life.

Opening the bag, there are two boxes inside, one is very strange, and the other is deeply familiar—it was her birthday on that day of the year, and he was about to leave, a birthday present for her.

He was the first to open the brocade box sent out from his hand, and there were crammed and crowded inside, which were full of neatly cut small note papers.On it, words were randomly written with different colored pens as if by hand.

"Good morning, Dora!"

"Moonlight Road is beautiful, isn't it Dora?"

"Don't worry, Dora, we'll be together forever."

"Many times I feel hopeless and sad, but Dora, when I think of you, I feel that everything is not too bad."

"Nice to meet you. Dear Dora."

……

He flipped through it quickly, his throat seemed to be blocked by sand, and he couldn't cough it out or make a sound.

But what is the other box?
Open it, and there are also some note papers.

"It's a surprise. Chen Hao didn't die. He's still alive. Thank God."

"It was the first time he looked me in the eye and begged me for help, how could I say no."

"Why does he love her so much? For example, why do I love him so much?"

"..."

He was inexplicably sad, and slowly squatted down, crying silently.

They don't understand him, they are not him, and they don't know how he has survived these years.It is true that he only loves Dora, and she has always been his ideal, but he has already understood the principle that a person who understands current affairs becomes a hero. If this ideal cannot be realized, other goals must be achieved.

He understands every heart, and has been trying to stay away from her.But she refused.She stayed by his side, and gradually he got used to having a drink or two with her and saying a few words from his heart.He told her that if he wanted to love, he would only love Dora, and if he didn't choose love, he would choose interests.

She understands everything, but the wish is really humble.It's best to see him.

It was she who designed to get him drunk and took advantage of the situation to hug him.Waking up in the middle of the night, he flew into a rage and left immediately.

She stayed at his door for a whole week.For three days, it rained all the time. He couldn't bear it, and finally pulled her into the house.

"I can't give you anything," he said.

"It's okay," she said.

He said, "Don't be too nice to me."

"It's okay," she said.

He said, "Alone, okay?"

"It's okay," she said.

His bad, his negligence, his ruthlessness, she will always just say it doesn't matter.

he did not do it on purpose.Although he didn't love her, he never wanted to hurt her, and he never thought that something would happen to her.

He actually wanted to say to Dora: "Dora, in fact, I am in the same pain as you."

But he dared not.He still has self-knowledge and knows that he has lost the qualification to talk about pain.

Ah.What is lost together may also be the qualification to say love.

A car passed by lightly, music was clearly playing in the car, and a gentle singing voice floated out through the window:
Because I dreamed of you leaving, I woke up from crying, watching the night wind blowing through the window sill, can you feel my love, will you still be by my side when I grow old, look at those oaths and lies, and slowly follow the past drift……

What an old, old song.

If possible, he really wants to go back to the past.Then no matter how I dream, I will never come back to the past.

Dora got on the bus and took the seat in the back row.Passengers come and go, the night in the city becomes more and more colorful, Dora only feels lonely and confused.

She felt like a wandering leaf, wandering with the bus in the city at night, the end was far away and unknown, which made people hesitate.

When I finally got home, I found the lights were on in the house.

A heart throbbed slightly.

It's really blissful to have someone waiting for you.

He didn't abandon her.She is deeply grateful for that.

But what to do?
She has no one, and she will lose him in the end, she thought desperately, can I still live?

When she opened the door, she immediately smelled the warm aroma, took a deep breath mischievously, and pretended to be relaxed and shouted: "Oh, what good food do you have?"

With an apron around his waist, he leaned out from the kitchen, "I made it with your recipe, and I'll eat it up later to save my face."

Dora pursed her lips, "I'll get fat."

Zhou Xusheng smirked, "I like it, it feels better in the hand."

Dora picked up the slipper and threw it over.

Zhou Xusheng laughed out loud.

After dinner Dora went to wash the dishes.The TV in the living room was on, and there was a mess of noises.

Zhou Xusheng walked in, hugged her behind him, rested his chin on her shoulder, and didn't speak for a long time. In the small kitchen, he could only hear the sound of rushing water washing his ears and listening to the dishes.

Tears were trickling down Dora's eyelashes.

I'm sorry, Dad.I really long for the warmth of this person's embrace.

Forgive my dad.

Zhou Xusheng said, "I have a present for you."

Dora tried to smile, "What is it?"

Zhou Xusheng smiled mysteriously, "I promise you will like it very, very much."

Dora couldn't bear to disappoint him, "Really?"

He wiped her hands clean, took her hand to sit on the sofa, and then took out a newspaper from a file bag and handed it to her.

Dora looked at him in bewilderment, "Is this the gift you were talking about?"

(End of this chapter)