sleepless tonight

Chapter 181 You Are Not Fit To Live Here

I remained silent and didn't know how to comfort Chen Chen. Ge Xiaolun died. Even though they broke up before Ge Xiaolun jumped off the building, her death still had something to do with Chen Chen. Ge Xiaolun used this extreme method to Take revenge on Chen Chen.

I don't think Ge Xiaolun jumped off the building just because of heartbreak, because of breaking up, because of feelings, more likely for revenge.

Chen Chen understood Ge Xiaolun's intentions, but even though he knew in his heart that Ge Xiaolun jumped off the building just to take revenge on him, make him live an uneasy life, and let him spend his whole life in guilt, but Ge Xiaolun still succeeded. Chen Chen is also having a hard time, just because she firmly believes that Chen Chen will definitely feel guilty.

"Why did she take revenge on me in such an extreme way? Isn't it good for two people to break up peacefully? Why?" Chen Chen was in pain, "I have already told her very clearly that I have no love for her anymore. I don't answer her calls, I don't reply to her messages, and I avoid her just to let time heal the pain, let time heal this relationship, and during this time, I also clearly realize that I don't have that much love for her anymore. This feeling, she died, and my life was ruined, why did she not let me go until she died, and tortured me in this way."

"It's not your fault," I said.

Chen Wenjing turned her head and glanced at me. I knew what she wanted to express in her eyes. My words might be a little heartless, but I don't think this matter has much to do with Chen Chen.

Breaking up is the best choice for two people who can't get together, and they will suffer for each other if they are barely together. Ge Xiaolun ended his life in this way, it was too impulsive, she left, and she wanted to leave pain for others, deliberately.

At the last moment of her life, she was also thinking about getting angry with Chen Chen.

After sending Chen Chen back home, Chen Wenjing and I were walking on the road, and she said to me, "You shouldn't have said that just now, she was indeed a little impulsive about Xiao Lun's death, but Chen Chen is also responsible."

"It's true that you have to be responsible. Perhaps Chen Chen's responsibility lies in not having any relationship with Ge Xiaolun." I said.

"Are all you men so unfeeling?" Chen Wenjing looked at me, obviously she didn't agree with me.

"Not to mention unfeeling, Ge Xiaolun has sacrificed, her dedication is on the body, and it is easy to be recognized, but Chen Chen's sacrifice is also a lot. In order to satisfy Ge Xiaolun's vanity, he went to a part-time job, distributed leaflets in the mall, and went to I helped cook steamed vegetables in the shop, but in the end, not only did Ge Xiaolun not understand his hard work, he didn't understand his dedication, but he just blindly asked for it, which eventually led to the breakdown of the relationship." I walked slowly with Chen Wenjing.

Similar experience, I am much luckier than Chen Chen, Tong Wangjun is strict with me, and at the same time, she does not forget to work hard, and does not tie me to her.

But Ge Xiaolun is just the opposite. He is harsh and demanding on Chen Chen, but he has no demands on herself at all. Most of Chen Chen's persistence until now is because he feels guilty. As for sex, he dare not say no, but I am afraid that he has already honed it in the endless quarrels. Not much left.

"Is that why you ran away that day, because you were afraid that I would get pregnant, that I would entangle you, and that you would be burdened?" Chen Wenjing said suddenly, bringing up what happened that night.

"How can you relate to the above." I smiled wryly.

"Really?" Chen Wenjing looked at me, she wanted an answer.

"Yes." I admitted, "You are so beautiful, even a man would like it, but you also know my situation. Although I am not a gentleman, I don't want to be a despicable person. I really can't bear some responsibilities."

"I'm a little strange, am I that good, why do you like me?" I asked suddenly as I was walking.

"Do you want me to praise you?" Chen Wenjing smiled lightly, revealing some bright teeth.

"I just don't understand. Many people have better conditions than me and are younger than me. How can you like me." Being admired and liked by others is something that makes a man very proud, and I can't avoid it.

"Feeling, I don't know why, it's just a feeling." Chen Wenjing said, "In front of feeling, age and conditions don't matter."

The longer I spend with Chen Wenjing, the more I can feel a maturity that doesn't belong to her age.

During Qingming, I went back to sweep the tomb. My mother asked me to call me Tong Wangjun, and she was still thinking about Su Ran. I just found an excuse and went back to my hometown alone with my parents.

I bought yellow paper and put copper coins on it, the whole person became solemn in the sound of bang bang, sorrow brewed in my heart with the sound, although I knew that the relatives who died after burning these yellow papers could not really receive them, But doing this thing makes people feel sacred, and it is easy for people to calm down and think about things that they have never thought about in their busy days.

The suffering of life in the face of death is really nothing.

The business of the three steamed vegetable restaurants is getting better and better. The net profit of a month can reach 5 yuan. I also got my driver's license, and my life is gradually getting better.

But it is impossible to be perfect, there is no trouble at all.

I made a cup of tea and served it to Su Ran's uncle: "Uncle drinks tea."

"You don't need to be so polite. I have been to this house many times and I am very familiar with the things here. I can be regarded as half the owner of this house. I should be the one who pours tea for you. You are the guest." Su Ran said Uncle was sitting on the sofa, smoking a cigarette, sitting very casually, he did not regard himself as a guest.

I don't know what Su Ran's uncle's sudden visit means. When I knocked on the door, I thought it was Su Ran, but when I opened the door, I didn't expect it to be Su Ran's uncle.

"How long have you lived here?" Su Ran's uncle asked me.

"About three or four months," I said.

"Didn't you buy a house? The housing prices in the city are not very high. You can't afford a house in Wuchang, but the house in this city is [-] to [-] square meters. Many people at your age can do it." Su Ran's uncle Holding the tea, he took a sip lightly.

"I haven't bought a house yet." I answered truthfully, feeling that Su Ran's uncle didn't seem to have a very good intention for coming.

"You and Ranran are just ordinary friends. It would be inappropriate to live here with this status, what do you think?" Su Ran gave me a look at his uncle.

I was slightly surprised, what did he mean by this sentence, did he want me to confess my love to Su Ran?Is it urging us to confirm the relationship, or is there some other purpose?
But when I met Uncle Su Ran before, from what he said, I could tell that he looked down on me at all and didn't approve of me being with Su Ran.

Could it be that his attitude changed after a month?

"Su Ran is indeed very nice. She is a good girl. I don't deny that I like her, but I think we haven't been together for a long time. We should get to know her better." I think Su Ran's uncle Because of any change in my attitude, I should be happy, and I replied seriously and cautiously.

When I said this, I was still thinking about whether Su Ran's uncle would think that I just wanted to have fun and was delaying time, but I didn't expect that what he said later was like a slap in the face It hit my face and smashed my self-esteem to pieces.

"Of course it's very good. I know this even if you don't tell me. I'm her uncle and I know it better than anyone else. But I think you misunderstood me. I mean you are not suitable to live here." Su Ran said Uncle put down his teacup and looked at me, "I can understand that young people are bothered, but there is a premise. They must be capable, talented, or powerful. If they don't have any of these three things but they are still being bothered, then it's not good." If you overestimate yourself, you will hurt yourself."

"I don't understand what you mean by this sentence?" Uncle Su Ran's words made me a little stunned, as if I might have misunderstood the meaning just now.

"Of course and Xiaomo are very simple, I don't want anyone to hurt them, can you understand what I mean now?" Su Ran's uncle stared at me.

"I didn't hurt them. Have you misunderstood something?" I still don't understand the meaning of Uncle Su Ran's words. Is it possible that the words of big business people are so cryptic that people have to guess .

(End of this chapter)