sleepless tonight

Chapter 219
I'm so good, why don't you sleep with me.

Looking at the message Su Ran sent back to me, I almost thought that she had taken some medicine and became needy, that's why she asked me to sleep with her.

This was simply impossible in the past.

I thought about it, and felt that it was unlikely that Su Ran would take the medicine. The reason why she said that was probably because she cared about me, so she asked me to accompany her, or she would accompany me.

She is really kind to me, but the more this is the case, the more I feel that I should keep a distance from her, maintain the current relationship, and stop going any further.

I was worried that I would let Su Ran fall into the same situation as Tong Wangjun and Tang Wan.

"I've already taken off my clothes and I'm too lazy to wear them. That's it. Take a rest and go to sleep." When I sent this message, I admired myself a little. I wanted to sleep with Su Ran countless times, with her Sharing the same bed, even because she let me sleep in her room, I was as excited as winning the lottery, but now Su Ran asks me to sleep with her, I refuse, I really admire myself.

Su Ran didn't reply to my message again, she should be asleep.

Lying on the bed and dozing off, I was thinking about how Su Ran would react when he saw this message from me, would he be disappointed with me, or would he give me a thumbs up?
It's a pity that I threw away such a good opportunity, but I don't regret it, I don't want the women around me to be hurt.

If someone treats me well, I should treat him doubly well.

Someone was knocking on the door. At first I thought I heard it wrong, but after a while the knocking sound rang again. I was a little surprised, wondering if Chen Chen came back?
I got up and opened the door. It wasn't Chen Chen outside the door, it was Su Ran. She was standing outside the door in her pajamas. Seeing me open the door, she went in directly.

I looked back at her, not understanding: "What are you doing, do you have anything to take?"

"You're just looking for me, so I'll come and look for you." Su Ran sat on the bed and told me, glanced at my clothes, "Didn't you say you took off your clothes?"

I smiled mischievously.

"You haven't taken any medicine, have you?" I asked her, "Why do you want to sleep with me so much?"

"You just took the medicine." Su Ran grabbed the pillow and threw it at me, "I just want to care about you, but you still push back."

I sat beside her: "But you don't have to sleep with me because you care about me?"

"Don't think so well. I sleep with you just to chat with you and enlighten you. I don't mean anything else. I see that you have been in a bad mood since you came back, and you are a little worried, but I have to leave tomorrow morning , I can only take advantage of some time now to chat with you, but you don't appreciate it and insist on me running over." Su Ran said.

"How do you know I'm in a bad mood?" I asked her, and my guess was right, Su Ran wanted to sleep with me because she cared about me.

She has driven over to see me several times in the middle of the night, and this time she sat on a stool by the door and waited for me all night, her eyes were bloodshot, and she looked so calmly, I suddenly had a feeling of hugging her into my arms Feeling the urge to take good care of her, I stared at her and didn't speak for a long time.

"Don't be foolish. I trust you to come here. If you do something to me, you will be ashamed of your trust." Su Ran became vigilant when he saw my eyes.

I sneered, and suppressed the strong impulse in my mind: "Don't worry, I won't do anything to you."

"Is there nothing wrong with your friend in the car accident?" Su Ran asked me.

"No, they are all fine, just suffered some minor injuries." I nodded, thinking of Logan again, and I don't know how she is doing now.

"Then why are you in such a bad mood? Is it because the scene is too tragic, can't you bear it?" Su Ran asked.

"Well." After all, Logan's matter involves some levels that are inconvenient to talk about. I definitely can't talk about Logan's uterus injury everywhere, including Su Ran. I can only keep this matter a secret for Logan and tell no one. "There were some people in the crash who were too badly injured to survive, and those were family members of friends."

"The distance is too far. Although the convoy is more lively, it is still too dangerous. You shouldn't drive so many cars." Su Ran said, "But it's useless to talk about it now, so don't be too sad. This happened Things are not your responsibility, no one wants it to happen, but sometimes we can't do anything about these things, the power of people is actually not as great as it seems."

I sighed silently in my heart, the car accident did not have much to do with me, but what happened to Tang Wan had something to do with me, so I couldn't be indifferent.

Thinking about it carefully, the words Liu Chuang said in Logan's ward, although there are elements of deliberately provoking the relationship between Logan and me, are not unreasonable.For a woman, whether she wants to have children or not is one thing, but whether she can have children is another matter.

In addition to the biological differences between women and men, the other biggest difference between men is the ability to have children, which is also one of the values ​​​​of women.

Logan waited for me for eight years, paid so much for me, sacrificed so much for me, but in the end it turned out to be like this, it is heartbreaking to think about it.

My expression dimmed again.

"If you still feel uncomfortable, I can lend you my shoulder." Su Ran said suddenly.

"I'm not that fragile yet." I smiled at her, knowing that my smile must be ugly without looking in the mirror.

It's guilt, it's heartache, it's not that I want to cry, I don't want to shed tears, it's just that my heart is bleeding, and the pain comes and goes, I don't want to lean on Su Ran's shoulder hypocritically to vent.

If I have to vent, I hope Logan can beat me up, or even stab me.

Chatted with Su Ran for a while, I was a little sleepy, Su Ran also yawned several times, I looked at her: "Are you really not going to go back to sleep? Now the chat is over, why don't you go back to sleep .”

"I'll just lie here." Su Ran got on the bed, lay down inside, turned sideways, and looked at me. Her face was a little red, but she didn't hesitate at all.

She is worried about me, worried about my current state, and worried about me being alone.

"I'm such an old man, don't worry, nothing will happen to me." I don't know what I am capable of, so many women are so kind to me.

"Do you know what is the biggest difference between you and others?" Su Ran suddenly asked me.

This was the first time she said such things to me, and I also became interested, wondering if she was going to judge me.

In fact, I am also very puzzled, I am not handsome, married, have two children, no house and no car, I also wonder how Su Ran treats me so well.

"What's different?" I asked her.

"Give me the pillow, it's uncomfortable to sleep like this." Su Ran told me.

I tucked the pillow under her head and watched her, waiting for her comment.

"Melancholy, you are very melancholy. No matter what time you frown, you can't open your brows. The whole person exudes negative emotions. Even if you are with two children, you also frown when you smile." Su Ran said, "Why are there so many unhappy things about you?"

I smiled. I am not surprised that Su Ran gave me this evaluation. The melancholy comes from the worries in my heart. I have a lot of worries and regrets. It is natural to have such emotions.

At the beginning, I was confused when I woke up, lost my memory, was at a loss when faced with the sudden appearance of two children, and then faced the pressure of raising children.

What follows is the regret for Logan, and the guilt for facing Tong Wangjun.

"Then do you know what I think of you?" I asked Su Ran back.

"Didn't you say before that I'm beautiful, I'm very good, I'm in good shape, and I'm a good person, isn't that your evaluation of me?" Su Ran looked at me.

"This is my evaluation of you, but it's not comprehensive. There are other evaluations." I said.

"What else?" Su Ran was also curious.

"Big breasts." I suddenly wanted to tease her.

"Go to hell." Su Ran grabbed the pillow under her head and hit me, "seriously."

(End of this chapter)