sleepless tonight

Chapter 227
Sifeng Mountain is on the edge of the city. It is a park. The altitude is not high, only 300 meters, but it is relatively high in this area. I kept urging the taxi driver to make him go faster, but still It took almost 15 minutes to get to the bottom of the mountain.

I gave the driver 30 yuan, and I didn't have time to get the five yuan I was looking for. While running up the mountain, you took out your mobile phone and called Logan. I called Logan and sent a message when I was in the car. But there is no audio.

"I'm at the foot of the mountain, where are you?" No one answered the phone, so I sent her a message.

There was no reply, so I could only run up the mountain, not daring to stop, and while running, I checked the time, it was already [-]:[-], I was so anxious that I felt like peeing, I was flustered, but I didn’t dare to lose Logan Going to take the exam, if something happens to Logan, I will feel guilty for the rest of my life.

I saw Logan halfway up the mountain, she was sitting in a gazebo built on the mountainside, I breathed a sigh of relief, subconsciously looked at the time again, and ran over: "Are you okay?"

"It's okay." Logan sat on the wooden chair in the pavilion and looked at me, "Why did you come here? Aren't you going to take the college entrance examination today? Could it be that you haven't signed up, or are you not planning to take the college entrance examination?"

"You didn't send the text message?" I was a little confused.

"I sent it." Logan said.

"You sent me a text message like that. I thought something happened to you. As long as you are fine, I have an English test to take in the afternoon. I have to go back immediately." I told Logan, and I saw that she was fine. I feel relieved a lot, "You go back quickly, and I will go to you after I finish the exam."

I turned around and prepared to leave. If I was going back now, there should be still time.

"If you leave now, you won't see me in the future." Logan stood up and stared at me.

I stopped and turned to look at her: "What do you mean?"

"Accompany me for a walk on the mountain." Logan said.

"Can I do it after I finish the exam?" I was a little anxious, but Tang Wan offered me to accompany her for a walk and climb the mountain. I was very happy, and felt that this was a sign of the easing relationship between me and her. She seemed to forgive me.

But now I am only one exam away. As long as I finish the English exam, I am sure that I can enter Tsinghua University and Peking University and fulfill my long-cherished wish.

"How did you do in the first few exams?" Logan asked me.

"You did well in the exam, only one English is missing. After the exam, you should be able to get good grades. There shouldn't be much problem in going to Tsinghua University or Peking University." I said, and I really wanted to share this matter with Tang Wan.

"Oh, the exam starts at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. It's already 02:30. Is there still time for you to go back?" Logan looked at me, as if she had finally noticed this problem.

"Almost." I said.

"It's too late. The English test is half an hour early, and now there is only half an hour left. You can't go back." Logan said, she seemed to remember something after a while, "By the way, I forgot, I made a mistake , It’s true to enter the examination room half an hour earlier, but the time for prohibiting entering the examination room is 15 minutes before the start of the examination, and you still have a quarter of an hour to get back.”

"Yes." I nodded. "You're right. I'll talk about it later. I'll go first. I'll call you after the exam."

"As I said just now, if you leave, I will climb to the top of the mountain and jump off the mountain." Logan said, "You will never see me from now on."

I froze for a moment, I didn't expect Logan to say this, she seemed to be threatening me: "Why, why did you commit suicide if there was anything you couldn't think about?"

"If you don't leave, I won't commit suicide." Logan stared at me.

I wonder if Logan is testing me, using the exam to test me, to see if I will stay for her and abandon her for the exam.

I looked at Logan, and said after a while: "Are you really going to do this? You really don't want me to take the exam? You should know that this is my long-cherished wish. I did well in the first three exams. At a normal level, you can get good results in the college entrance examination this time, and you can enter Tsinghua University and Peking University."

"You can go to take the exam, and I didn't stop you, but I can continue to climb the mountain, or jump off the mountain, you don't care about me anyway, you have already abandoned me once, and it doesn't seem right to abandon me again What a difficult thing." What Logan said pierced my heart one by one, "I can understand, you go to the exam and don't worry about me."

I stared at Logan, looked back at the city not far away, and finally sighed: "Okay, I will accompany you."

"Aren't you taking the test?" she asked me.

I think Logan asked the question knowingly, and looked up at her, feeling that Logan was full of hostility: "I won't go, you are already like this, how can I go?"

Logan smiled, but her smile didn't make me feel warm, instead it made me palpitate. She walked up the mountain.

I followed behind Logan: "I already promised you to stay with you, why are you going up the mountain?"

"I want to see the scenery, can't I?" Logan asked me back.

Walking silently with her, I really wish that Logan could go back on his word, I really wanted that she would suddenly tell me to go down the mountain quickly, I really wanted that she would suddenly say that what she said just now was just a test for me, but there was some resentment in her heart, now It's gone, let me hurry up and take the exam.

But no, Logan didn't say anything, the time passed bit by bit, I secretly took out my phone to check the time, it was already 45:[-], it was completely over, even if I got to school at this point, I would still be in school. I don't go to the examination room anymore.

English zero.

My heart suddenly became heavy.

What was lost was not only the hard work of several months, but also the long-cherished wish, thought, and persistence that had been hidden in my heart.

Gone, all gone.

I was like a walking dead, silently following behind Logan, my heart ached so badly, all this was caused by Logan, but I had nothing to do with her, I couldn't think of beating and scolding her, so I could only bear it by myself .

"It's already three o'clock. The English test should start. Would it be a pity that you didn't go?" Tang Wan said at the top of the mountain.

"It's a pity what can I do." I sighed, looking for a cigarette, and felt in my pocket only to realize that I didn't have a cigarette or a lighter in the past two days because of the exam.

"Are you blaming me? You must hate me to death right now." Logan said.

I shook my head: "Why hate you, I don't hate you."

"Don't hate? How is it possible? Don't lie. You want to go to college so much, but you always feel that you are inferior to others if you didn't go to college. You are almost 30 years old, but you still want to take the college entrance examination, and you want to enter Tsinghua University. In the end, it fell short in the end, and all of this was caused by me, don't you hate me?" Logan didn't believe it.

"I really don't hate it. If you do this, you will feel less resentment towards me in your heart, and you will be able to feel more comfortable. It's worth it." I'm telling the truth, I don't have any hatred towards Logan in my heart, I just hope that she can calm down .

If I say hate, I also hate myself. I am ashamed of Logan, which makes her want to take revenge on me in this way.

"Can't you see, I did this on purpose, I texted you, tricked you into coming here an hour before your exam, but I didn't want you to take the exam, I didn't want you to get good grades, I didn't want you When you go to college, I want to fill you with regrets." Logan's voice was fierce, "You don't hate me?"

I looked up at her, and said slowly: "I already guessed it, you did it on purpose. But I really don't hate you, although it hurts me not to be able to take the English test, it's a pity, but as long as you can calm down, What does it matter if I suffer this little regret?"

Logan looked at me, I thought she would be moved and calm down, but she didn't: "Hypocrisy."

Her expression was just like what she said, she felt that what I said were all hypocritical lies, and she was lying to her.

"I really didn't lie to you. I'm telling the truth. As long as it can calm you down, I'm willing to do anything. Even if you stab me twice, as long as it can make you feel better, I'm willing." I stared at Logan.

"It's a pity that I don't have a knife in my hand. You are willing to say anything, so are you willing to jump off?" Tang Wan sneered at me, and looked at the cliff in front of her, "In order to save Tong Xiangjun, you did not hesitate to fall off the cliff with her. Your own life, then can you jump off the cliff just to calm me down?"

(End of this chapter)