sleepless tonight

Chapter 59
I didn't know how to answer them, I responded vaguely, but they asked again and again.

I can't stand it.

I can't see the doctor's pity on me, and I don't want to see the sympathetic eyes of the patients next to me.

I don't need anyone's sympathy, I'm a man, I don't want to talk, so I ran out of the hospital with the medicine.

Walking slowly on the street alone, I like this when I have troubles, walking quietly along the bleak street in the cold wind, lighting a cigarette, and watching the lingering smoke People come and go.

Seeing couples walking past me hand in hand, I suddenly had a realization. I always complain that Tong Wangjun cares about other people's eyes and likes to compare me with others, but why don't I always care about Tong Wangjun's thoughts? , care about what she thinks of me.

She has divorced me and is full of disappointment in me, why should I care so much about her thoughts?
It's good to live alone.

After gastric lavage, although I still feel a little dizzy, it is not as strong as before. I am not in a hurry, no one is waiting for me, and I am very free.

By the time we got home, it was already dark.

Su Ran was not at home. She really went to live in another place, and she didn't know when she would come back.

"Brother Chen." Chen Chen opened the door.

I look at him.

"Have you eaten? If you don't want to eat with me, I just bought some food." Chen Chen said to me, "If you don't have time, forget it."

I didn't eat much for a whole day, and I vomited out all the things in my stomach. Although I was still a little dizzy, I didn't really want to sleep, and I was indeed a little hungry.

Su Ran wasn't in the room, I was the only one, I thought about it, then exited the door and looked at Chen Chen: "Is this convenient for you?"

"It's convenient, I'm the only one at home, and she hasn't come back yet." Chen Chen smiled, a little embarrassed, he knew what I meant.

Compared to Chen Chen, I don't like Ge Xiaolun. If she was there, I would definitely not go in.

After entering the house, I took a little look around the house, it was in good order, much cleaner than when I was there.

The intimacy is gone, the position of everything has changed, the bed has changed its direction, and its position has also been moved to one side, next to the window, the table is placed in the middle, and the window is covered with a layer of window paper.

It's not my room anymore, it's not where I live with my daughter, I'm a guest.

"Brother Chen, sit down, the food will be ready soon." Chen Chen greeted me, and then entered the kitchen.

"Brother Chen, would you like some wine?" The dishes were brought out, and it could be seen that Chen Chen's cooking skills were not bad.

I wave my hand, I'm sure I won't be drinking again for a long time, the feeling of the tube going into my stomach is so sick it still hasn't gone away.

"Do you drink?" I asked, thinking that Chen Chen was drinking.

"I don't drink, if you want to drink, I'll go to the canteen below and buy some." Chen Chen was very polite.

"I don't want to drink, just drink some plain water." I said, this time I just want to drink some plain water to warm my stomach.

There are still women's clothes in the room. Chen Chen and Ge Xiaolun are obviously still together, and the relationship of seven or eight years is not so easy to break up.

"Brother Chen, thank you. It can be seen that you are a good person, thank you very much." Chen Chen poured me a glass of boiled water, and poured some for himself, and what he said was a bit thoughtless.

I took a sip of water, in Brother Zheng's eyes I am a good person, in Chen Chen's eyes I am also a good person, but in the eyes of Tong Wangjun and Tang Wan, I seem to have become a bad person, a waste, a scum.

How could this be?I can't figure it out myself.

"Really, don't laugh, I'm telling the truth. I could see it when I moved here on the first day. Brother Chen, you really have a good heart." Chen Chen looked at me and said, "Originally you You don’t have to move out so early, but when you saw me bringing my girlfriend over, you made room for me. I’ve always remembered this, and I’ve always wanted to invite Brother Chen to have a meal to express my gratitude, but I haven’t been able to find it. right opportunity."

Unexpectedly, it was this incident, but Chen Chen has been remembering it until now.

"Anyway, it's just one night, it's a small matter." I waved my hands, and I really didn't think there was anything wrong, "What are you planning with your girlfriend?"

"Go on." Chen Chen sighed. When he said this, he was not happy but a little hesitant. "Actually, I don't even know how I feel about her now. I'm not afraid that Brother Chen will laugh at me. In the past two days I'm very comfortable without her here."

"In this case, why are you still thinking about continuing? She took the initiative to find you?" I actually don't know much about feelings than Chen Chen.

Not in love, but having a child, I am afraid that not many people are willing to believe such a story.

"No, I'm really comfortable when she's not here. I live a very comfortable life. I don't have to worry about being accused if I don't pee in the pit. It's okay to put my clothes on the bed, but I always have a feeling that I'm sorry for her, and I'm a little worried. She wants to What should I do after leaving me?" Chen Chen said.

"Don't think so much, follow your heart, come as you feel comfortable." I said.

"I think so too, but it's difficult. The relationship between me and her may have become a family relationship. We always quarrel when we are together. Although it is comfortable not to be together, I worry about her." Chen Chen himself was very contradictory.

What exactly is love, no one can say for sure, Chen Chen should have thought about it these two days, and he must have made a decision in his heart.

I didn't talk anymore, what should I do, Chen Chen knew it well, it's not good for me to mix too much with an outsider, although I don't like Ge Xiaolun, from my own observation, Ge Xiaolun does have many problems.

Even Chen Chen himself must have felt that Ge Xiaolun couldn't bear it, but Chen Chen still didn't want to break up.

Maybe he wanted to, but there was always a knot in his heart that made him unable to make up his mind.

This pimple may be the feeling that has been transformed into family affection.

I really can't give Chen Chen a good suggestion.

"Are you planning to buy cosmetics for her?" I looked at Chen Chen, "Are you short of money?"

"No need, I have money." Chen Chen waved his hand.

"Would you like to work part-time if you have money?" I took out 500 yuan, "I can't borrow you if you have too much money, just 500 yuan, take it."

"It's not very good, I can't ask for it." Chen Chen refused to answer, "I have no intention of inviting you to dinner, Brother Chen, I just think of you as a nice person, and I am very grateful for what happened last time, so I invite you to dinner .”

"I know, I also think you are a good person. Isn't it normal for good people to help each other?" It is indeed because of this reason that I am willing to help Chen Chen, "I can't give you more, 500 The yuan is not given to you for nothing, just return it to me when you have money."

Chen Chen still refused to accept it.

"Take it, don't be polite, do it if you feel regretful." I put the money on Chen Chen's desk, "Also, don't patronize part-time jobs, study is also very important."

I didn't say anything more to Chen Chen, I drank some plain water, ate some food, and filled my stomach again. My stomach felt much more comfortable. Now I just want to find a bed and lie down properly.

Don't think about anything, take a good rest.

For two days in a row, I didn't go out.

Yang Wendi called me several times, I hung up all of them, and finally got annoyed and turned off the phone.

I was completely awake from the wine, and I didn't go out in the room for two days. I was a little bored. I lay on the bed and wanted to continue to sleep, but I couldn't sleep at all. The depressed emotions in my heart dissipated a lot after two days of precipitation.

Time really is the best medicine to heal pain.

I looked at the mobile phone on the bedside table. The mobile phone has been turned off for the past two days, and my connection with the outside world has also been cut off.

However, I still have people and things I care about, and I can't really disconnect from the outside world. Turning off the phone is just an escape from something.

I turned on the phone.

After buffering for a while, the information prompts sounded one after another.

I watched slowly.

Yang Wendi called me more than ten times, and Liang Fanghong also called me a lot. They also sent messages, asking me where I was, asking me to go out for a cup of tea, sober up and so on.

I know they are trying to persuade me and comfort me, but I just want to be quiet.

Among these messages, there are three pieces of information from Tang Wan: The matter has been found out, the news on the Internet that the Tiantian Charity Fund did not give to the Zheng Wensen Charity Fund is fake, and Zheng Wensen received a charitable donation of 3 yuan, which is the Tiantian Charity Fund of.

I checked the time of the message, it was sent around three o'clock yesterday afternoon.

(End of this chapter)