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Chapter 140 Consolation (3)
Lu Mingxuan knew that things had come to this point, so she denied that she didn't hear the conversation between Concubine Luo Gui and Ling Mengqi just now and she was just whitewashing the peace, so she simply nodded and said softly: "I did hear it all, but Brother Ling really doesn't need it." It's not your fault that you feel embarrassed because of this, and what happened back then is beyond your control as an innocent child, so you really don't have to be embarrassed, at least you don't have to feel embarrassed in front of me."

Because I am no better than you, you have a mother who can't see the light, I also have a father who can't see the light, the only thing I am better than you is that my grandmother takes pity on me, and I have another Just a father who treats me like his own daughter!

Ling Mengqi heard Lu Mingxuan's words, his originally dull eyes lit up, he fixedly looked at Lu Mingxuan and said a little excitedly: "Sister Xuan, do you really think so in your heart? You really don't know Because of this, you look down on me and feel that I am not worthy to be your friend anymore?"

Lu Mingxuan didn't answer but instead asked: "When did I tell lies in front of Big Brother Ling? And if I really look down on Big Brother Ling, do you think I'm still here now?"

Ling Mengqi's eyes became brighter and brighter, but then dimmed again. A mocking smile curled up on the corner of his mouth, and he said in a low voice: "Sister Xuan doesn't look down on me, but I can't help looking down on myself... My son, I was like a cat and dog in the Guangping Marquis Mansion. I was said to be the eldest son and young master of the Guangping Marquis Mansion, but my life was worse than that of a servant. Anyone can bully me, anyone can make me angry Shou, I always thought it was because my grandmother and father were partial to the younger brother born to my stepmother and stepmother, so I let my stepmother abuse and bully me. You don't know how much I hate my grandmother and father in my heart these years, compared to my stepmother Mother and son still hate each other, they are outsiders after all, and they have a conflict of interest with me, it is understandable for them not to tolerate me, but I am my grandmother's own grandson and father's own son, with their blood on my body, they But watching others persecute me, how cruel are they?"

"So I vowed in my heart early in the morning that I must make a great achievement in this life, to make my grandmother and father regret what they did to me, and to make my stepmother and stepmother's younger brother pay a hundred times the price for what they have done... …But I didn’t expect, heh, my grandmother and father actually treated me with mercy. At least they still retained my status as the eldest son of the Guangping Marquis Mansion, at least they didn’t make my mother’s act of abandoning her husband and son public. In the world, I can only live with the reputation of being a "son of a slut" from now on! It's ridiculous that I have always thought that I was a victim, and that everyone in the Quang Binh Marquis was sorry for me. Now I know that the real The victims were actually my father and the Guangping Marquis Mansion, and I was the one who should really say sorry... How could I have the face to meet them in the future, and how would I have the face to pretend to be the eldest son of the Guangping Marquis Mansion? I even No one with the surname 'Ling' deserves to have it!"

What she said made Lu Mingxuan's heart feel sore and astringent, and she couldn't breathe heavily like being crushed by a big rock. After a while, Fang softly said: "Brother Ling, how can you take all the blame on yourself? What is wrong with you? ? When what happened back then, you were less than two years old. I’m afraid you couldn’t even speak together, let alone other things. What’s wrong with you? Not only were you not at fault, but you were more innocent than anyone else. The harm is also greater than anyone else, as long as you have a clear conscience, why bother yourself?"

Ling Mengqi became more and more excited, "Why am I not wrong? I was born by that woman, and that woman did such shameless things again. As her son, do I still want to be alone and say that I am innocent? Are you a victim yourself?"

Lu Mingxuan hurriedly said: "You are a noble concubine... You are indeed born by her, but don't forget, you are also the son of Marquis Guangping, your surname is Ling, not Lu, how can you blame her for all the mistakes she made? What about yourself? Don’t let your grandmother and father think so well, maybe they didn’t make the events of the year public, and didn’t deprive you of your status as the eldest son, it’s just because they feel that the Guangping Marquis can’t afford to lose that face Well, if they really miss the family relationship, they wouldn't treat you like that these years. You are you, she is her, no matter how bad you are, you are still the flesh and blood of the Ling family, with the same blood flowing on your body, not to mention It's not something you can control... So, you really don't have to think so much, and you don't have to pay attention to the grievances of their previous generation, all you have to do is to live a better life than all of them!"

Hearing this, Ling Mengqi thought of the indifference and indifference that Mrs. Guangping Hou and Guangping Hou had treated him over the years, and had to admit that Lu Mingxuan's words might be true. His identity as the eldest son is just because they can't afford to lose that person, so they can only claim that the woman died of illness, and they have to continue to admit that woman is the father's original wife, and continue to admit that woman is the original wife. He can only continue to recognize his identity as the eldest son, otherwise he will try to hide it.

However, because of the indifference he had towards Mrs. Guangping Hou and the mother and son of Guangping Hou over the past ten years, he had already been exhausted by their indifference to him. It can be said that he had lost much of their mother and son. Feelings, so this fact didn't make him feel very uncomfortable, what really made him uncomfortable was actually Luo Guifei's ruthless abandonment of him back then!
This time, he was silent for a little longer than last time, and then he shook his head and smiled wryly: "Having said that, how can I really ignore the grievances of their previous generation? After all, they gave me life People... my father is fine, he never treated me kindly, and now I only feel a little grateful and guilty for him in my heart, but my mother... But that woman is different, she has always been in my heart She is the most beautiful person in the world. Even though she left early, I still have the softest place in my heart for her. I would confide in her whenever I was wronged. When I was young, I occasionally heard people say that she never said a word. Well, I will stand up immediately, even if I am beaten badly, even if my grandmother and father will punish me afterward... Who knows that everything I did has now become a joke, laughing at me You are a big fool, making jokes that I am more pitiful and pathetic than those real motherless children..."

As she spoke, her voice was choked with forbearance: "She didn't want me, so why did she give birth to me in the first place? Since she gave birth to me, she should fulfill her due responsibilities as a mother, but I endured it Where was she when I was cold? Where was she when I was bullied? I almost lost my life several times and had to flee the capital. Where was she when I was living under the fence? She was not there when I needed her most. Now it is so easy for me Life is getting better, but she jumped out and wants to continue the relationship between mother and child with me. How can there be such a cheap thing in this world? Since she abandoned me first, then don't blame me for not recognizing her later, I will never I will forgive her, I will never forgive her in this life, and I will never forgive her in death!"

(End of this chapter)