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Chapter 141 Hidden Worry (1)
After Ling Mengqi finished speaking, he raised his head high. Lu Mingxuan was more than a head shorter than him, so naturally he couldn't see if he was crying, but she could clearly feel his sadness, which made her also I couldn't help being infected and sad, I almost couldn't hold back my tears, I took a deep breath to hold it back, and said softly: "If you don't want to forgive, then don't forgive, just don't hurt yourself... It's not all her fault. There are some reasons for that person's strength, and there are more or less reasons for your father's attitude. If you take a step back, why do you have to put a shackle on yourself so that you can't Are you happy? Take another [-] steps back and say, she gave you life after all, otherwise you would not have recognized her at a glance before. You don’t need to forgive her, but there is no need to go out of your way to hate her. Humans are actually a very tiring thing.”

In any case, Concubine Luo in her previous life had saved Lu Mingxuan's life, so she couldn't make Lu Mingxuan speak ill of her, so she could only try to make her words more pertinent.

Ling Mengqi didn't know that his mother couldn't be blamed for what happened back then, but knowing it didn't mean that he could forgive him, so he was really grateful for Lu Mingxuan's phrase "If you don't want to forgive, then don't forgive", and thanked her for not standing up. Persuading and accusing him of being unfilial from the moral high ground, or persuading him to forgive Concubine Luo, saying that she had difficulties in the past after all—seriously speaking, there is no difference between whether there are difficulties in this world, the key lies in that person With an attitude, as long as that person is willing to do it, no matter how difficult it is, it may not be impossible. On the contrary, when that person is unwilling to do it, it will naturally become a difficulty.

Seeing that Ling Mengqi still raised his head and remained silent, Lu Mingxuan didn't know if he had listened to her own words, so she said again: "Didn't Brother Kuang Ling just say that what happened today didn't happen? That's true. It didn’t happen, let’s just assume that Lingtang passed away due to illness 13 years ago, you just need to remember her beauty, as for the imperial concubine, just treat her as a stranger from now on!”

Ling Mengqi took a deep breath, and then said in a hoarse voice: "Actually, I didn't recognize her just now because of the nature of mother and child. Although my father and grandmother never mentioned her, she has always been a very important person in our family. It exists like a taboo, but no one knows that I have a small face of hers, which was put in it when my grandmother sent someone to deliver something to me during the Chinese New Year in the second year of her "death". I looked at the little picture and also looked at it at night, imagining that if I could see her alive one day, I would die immediately without regret, but now I really regret seeing her today. If I had known this, I would rather die than see her again ... You are right, I will treat her as a stranger from now on, what does a stranger's good or bad, joy or sorrow have to do with me?"

After finishing speaking, he took another deep breath, looked at Lu Mingxuan and said, "Okay, it's getting late, I'll send Sister Xuan back to rest, so as not to lose energy tomorrow, and to avoid being found out that my sister is not here at the moment In the house, there are troubles." Although he hoped that he could continue to stay with Lu Mingxuan, he didn't want to cause her any trouble because of this, anyway, they will have a long time to come, and there will still be opportunities to stay together alone in the future, not just day and night.

Lu Mingxuan heard that he intentionally lightened his tone of voice, and saw that his eyes were red, and knew that he was not as relieved as he said, but who could do this kind of thing like this? In a short period of time, if you say let go, you really let go?It was still not easy for him to control his emotions, so he stopped persuading him, and followed his words: "Since that's the case, Brother Lao Ling gave me a ride. Now that everything is quiet, I'm really a little scared. "

Ling Mengqi nodded, walked out of the main hall first, and scanned the surroundings. After seeing that there was nothing unusual, he went back into the hall and invited Lu Mingxuan to come out, and walked half a step behind her to protect her to the courtyard behind where she was staying. go.

When Xu Shicai was in the hall just now, he had already said almost everything he should have said, the two of them didn't speak any more along the way, only heard a few frogs croaking occasionally, adding a bit of desolation to the silent night.

The courtyard where I stayed was very close at hand, and it was inconvenient for Ling Mengqi to go in, so Lu Mingxuan saluted him and said, "Thank you Brother Ling for sending me back, Brother Ling should go back to rest earlier, tomorrow It's another new day, everything will be fine!" Turning around, she walked lightly into the courtyard gate that only left a gap just enough for her to pass through.

The rest of Ling Mengqi watched her brisk back disappear behind the door, and said, "Sister Xuan, thank you today!" 'I could only swallow it back, and then stared at the dark courtyard gate for a long time before turning around and leaving. Although my heart was still disturbed, there was one thought that became more and more clear, that is, he must be determined in this life. Lu Mingxuan, no matter what, she won't see her become someone else's...

Lu Mingxuan pushed the door lightly and entered her room. Fortunately, the women in the courtyard were tired all day, and now they were dozed off, but no one noticed that she had been away for so long.

However, although the wives last night didn't realize that she left in the middle of the night, and that Banxiang was sleeping under her bed, how could they not know?In fact, when Lu Mingxuan got up earlier, Ban Xiang already knew about it. If she didn't even have this bit of vigilance, she wouldn't be able to get the position of the maid next to the girl today. She thought that Lu Mingxuan wanted to clean the room. He wanted to get up to serve, but he thought that Lu Mingxuan had always disliked her and Banqin doing these close services, and now he didn't call her, and his movements were still so light, so it was obvious that he didn't want to disturb her, so he just pretended Asleep and ignorant.

Who knew that Lu Mingxuan would never come back after this trip, so Banxiang became anxious, and when the time dragged on, and after more than an hour did not see Lu Mingxuan coming back, Banxiang became even more anxious, but she didn't dare Surprised anyone, lost the girl in the middle of the night, as the big maid on duty at night, didn't she want to die?I'm afraid it's not just her, even her old lady won't be able to get away with it!
Ban Xiang was so anxious that she couldn't help crying in the room, and she was afraid of making a noise that the old lady who was sleeping outside would hear. Maybe she would find that Lu Mingxuan was not in the room immediately, so she had to bite her own handkerchief. It was really miserable .

Fortunately, after waiting for a while, when she finally couldn't bear to go to Xijian to find Lu Mingfu, and asked Lu Mingfu to decide what to do next, whether she was going to sneak out to find someone, Lu Mingxuan wrapped herself in a cold aura. Came in from the outside.

Banxiang immediately greeted her like a living treasure, and hurriedly greeted her, and said anxiously: "Where did the girl go just now, why did she come back after going for so long, I am really anxious to death, if this happens again next time, It's better for the girl to tell the servant girl in advance, so that the servant girl can go with the girl, so I should take care of it... What's wrong with the girl's neck, what happened..." Before finishing speaking, I suddenly realized Her tone was a little bit bad, as if she was accusing Lu Mingxuan, remembering that Lu Mingxuan didn't like her and Banqin in the first place, when will it be her turn to criticize her?
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