foster husband

Chapter 189
What is a woman?
I have always thought that the answer to this question has nothing to do with me. Before I met He Chidan, I thought that in my life, I might worry about eating, drinking, and how to fight wars, and it was absolutely impossible to worry about women's affairs.

The fact is, the more you don't care about something, it will often suddenly counterattack and become the only thing you can't let go of.

This is the truth that I realized after I separated from He Chidan.

When my mother was pregnant with me, just in time for my father, who was a captain in Pengcheng, to join Emperor Yuanhui.

My mother scolded my father, "You just want to die."

But scolding can be scolding, my mother followed my father on the journey without hesitation.

Therefore, I was born in a stable and grew up on horseback.

Since I was a child, I knew that I would become a general in the future. Of course, I would not be a henpeck-afraid general like my father, but an invincible general without any scruples.

It was because I wanted to be invincible that I pestered my father and went to study in the eldest princess's mansion.

That is because I want to be free from scruples, I ask myself to be as calm as water, not to touch the love between men and women that sour literati feel at every turn.

Get a wife or something, leave it to my mother.Don't ask about looks, don't ask about background, anyway, the wife I married is to honor my mother and make her feel at ease.

As for me, anyway, I just think that women are the most troublesome thing in this world, and also the least important thing in this world, they come and go when they are called.

I never worry about women other than my mother and younger sister, even the eldest princess... Well, a woman like the eldest princess is really weird.I'm afraid her thoughts are similar to mine. Men are the most troublesome things in this world, and they are also the least important things in this world. They come and go as soon as they are called.

This is something I knew before she raised a tiger.

Looking at Dai Wang's bear, the eldest princess's mind is so clear that it couldn't be clearer.

It was also watching Dai Wang and the eldest princess, which made me once again have the mentality that I must stay away from women.

Really, it's not that I'm ruthless, it's mainly that women are creatures that make it hard to lose weight.

Like my mother's fierceness, my sister's domineering, and the delicacy and affectation of those rich and noble girls in front of outsiders...

There is always a reason why I have such a cognition.

My mother's surname is Xiao, but she has a little relationship with the Xiao family, a century-old family in Luoyang.

The year we first entered Luoyang City, my father was a local turtle and a new rich man, but I was lucky enough to be invited to the banquet hosted by Xiao's family.At that time, Xiao Enlu, the head of the Xiao family, was just an adult.

I was still young at that time, and I was not yet old enough to share seats with girls, so I was lucky enough to witness all kinds of noble girls.

Gao Ruyi, the daughter of the Gao family, has her eyes above her head.

Xiao Baihua, the young lady of the Xiao family, seems to be all-round, but actually she loves to fake smiles.

There is also the young lady of Guang Luxun's family, who loves to bully others, looking at Jiao Didi on the face, but kicks the little girl who has wet her skirt to the door.

There is also the young lady of the Qi family. To be honest, I didn't know which one was Qi Fuzhu at the time, but the little sisters of the Qi family were noisy at other people's banquets, and it was disturbing to see.

From then on, let my mother take a whip, and I no longer accompanied her to the banquets of various families, until I grew up to the age of sharing dinners with women.

The reason is that one is too boring and the other is too noisy.A group of little girls were chattering non-stop. It wasn't because the little girls of this family were so popular that other little girls besieged them.It was the little girl in that family who offended someone who was stronger than her, and was humiliated and cried.

In short, after returning from a banquet, my mind will be buzzing for several days.

How dare I get close to those dangerous species!
My life has never been dull because of the lack of women, which is to say that men can't live without women when they grow up.To be honest, I have never had a woman, and I don't think life is so difficult.

In this way, I grew up from a teenager to a man who stands up to heaven and earth, and according to my plan for myself, I really became a general as I wished.

Although I am still just a teenager, I feel that I am not far from the goal of being invincible.

That's why, when I met Qi Fuzhu, I was so unscrupulous.

Inside, I despise myself.

However, I also look down on Qi Fuzhu.

Right and wrong, as well as loyalty and so on, there are really two pieces of meat in one mouth, and you can say anything.But what kind of woman can put aside her biological parents?

Not that she is cruel, but that she is stupid.Just imagine, even her biological parents are unreliable, who else can she rely on?

Rely on me?I'm sorry, I'd rather cast aside myself for the rest of my life, or just be a man who takes advantage of her.

I'm despicable, I'm shameless, I'm a bastard, I'm a villain, others can call me anything.

But what I didn't expect was that the eldest princess said such words to me.

"Don't always rush forward when you do something, stop and ask your own heart when you are rushing. Good people in this world often do shameless things, mostly because they don't ask their true intentions. I I just want to tell you, about the matter between you and Qi Fuzhu, don't take advantage of her feelings for you, if you owe her too much, you will lose your life if you don't do it well, why bother to harm others and yourself."

I thought about it for a long time, and originally wanted to learn more about Jinyang from Qi Fuzhu, but I felt that I could no longer coax her.So since the eldest princess left, I never went to Qi Fuzhu's place again.

It was the first time I doubted my perception of women.

I seem to have made a very serious mistake, that is, I underestimate women and treat myself too much.

Then I met He Chidan.

The first time I met He Chidan, I thought it was very interesting and novel, but when I told Pei Bao, he always covered his mouth and smiled, I knew that the encounter between me and her was unique to others. To my ears, it is clichéd like the plot of "meeting in a broken temple" that always exists in story books.

Still cliche.

That day was the first time I arrived at the mountain col. Although Pei Qili had robbed Qi Fuzhu, there was still an army of [-] behind me.

How to arrange these people has become a headache for me and Pei Qili.

I faced him two by two, and the more we met, the more irritable I became, so I decided to go for a walk, and as soon as I walked, I came to the puddle with her.

My first impression of her: How could the soldiers led by Pei Qili grow like a malnourished vegetable seedling?

All I saw was the back of her washing clothes, but I didn't see her face, so I didn't think about women at all.

I asked her: "Whose soldier are you under, you have no two legs, how do you go into battle and kill the enemy?"

She didn't even bother me, and kept washing the clothes in the basket.

I think she's either deaf or a stubble.Of course a soldier cannot be deaf, so he dares to despise the general!Hmph, I was so angry that I suddenly became furious.

I found out later that she just thought of me as those whores who would tease her from time to time.

I was very dissatisfied, went forward, kicked her basket over, and said: "I'm asking you something, you are deaf."

Only then did she slowly raise her head and said to me: "Don't think I'm easy to bully."

then……

Then, I fell to the ground.Nima, this is the first time I hated Tan Zhongxiu, what kind of medicine he made, and what kind of medicine is still mass-produced, they all use small porcelain bottles, and he packs it in a pocket.Damn, I just splashed a little on my hands, but it hurts so much! ! !
At first I saw her slowly take out a small blue cloth bag from her bosom, and it looked familiar, but the next moment I saw countless powders attacking, I quickly avoided it, but was unfortunately caught.

Fortunately, it didn't spill on my handsome and invincible face.

I reacted and asked with a howl, "Who gave you the powder?"

She snorted and said, "It's useless for you to tell the general. I'm here with the general's license. I use this medicine powder, which is also the general's license."

It turned out to be the little girl Pei Qili hid.

When I thought of this, I remembered to look at her face.

I saw a pair of big smart eyes hanging on a small round face. It may not be as good-looking as Qi Fuzhu, but it has an indescribable smell more than her. It is as fresh as the air in the mountains. .

I thought to myself, Pei Qili is quite discerning.After thinking about it like this, there was an inexplicable emotion in my heart.

I left angrily, and as soon as I got back to Pei Qili's big tent, I yelled and said, "Okay, how dare you hide a woman in the military camp, see if I don't tell King Zhongyi, and let him steal your Skin."

Pei Qili was stunned for a moment, and said: "Oh, you are talking about the girls of the He family. Their family is the people of Jinyang that I rescued from the robbers. I saw that she was still holding the princess's hand. Self-defense kits, let their family stay in the barracks."

It turned out that the medicine bag was given by the eldest princess.At that time, I didn't think much about it, knowing that she was not Pei Qili's woman, I felt an indescribable sense of relief and joy in my heart.

Now that I think about it, I don't know what kind of fate caused her to meet the eldest princess and then Pei Qili, and then somehow it fell into my eyes.

I remember that I subconsciously hid my injured hand in my sleeve, and when Pei Qili asked me if I made things difficult for her, I also mumbled a word.

Later, I specifically inquired where her big tent was, and when I was wandering there with nothing to do, I bumped into her two older brothers.

He Langtou and He Tiehammer, I have seen them early in the morning.

The two called me: "General Liu."

Seeing that He Chidan's face changed, he glared at me, and hurried into the big tent, and refused to come out again.

The He family brothers asked me: "I wonder what the general is doing here?"

I couldn't say that I was looking for someone else's girl, so I said, "Just go around, just go around."

After parting with the He family brothers, I wandered to the puddle where I met her earlier.

I waited for a long time before I saw He Chidan holding a large basket of clothes.

This time, I didn't interrupt her, but said to her from a distance: "I heard General Pei talk about you, I was reckless yesterday, please don't take it to heart."

When I said that, I always felt that something was wrong. I was the one who got hurt, but it was me who apologized.

He Chidan put down the basket, bowed to me, and said: "The little girl hurt General Liu, and I ask the general to see that my two elder brothers are dedicated to serving General Pei, so don't blame me."

Her words made me extremely uncomfortable, as if I was afraid that I would blame her two brothers for hurting me.

I walked away angrily again.

I'm not a very open-minded person, but I've never been so stingy.

I couldn't figure it out, what happened to me, why I was always angry with that little woman?
The strange thing is that I obviously left very angry, but within half an hour, I wanted to go to the puddle again.

I was confused by myself, and when I appeared in front of her again, she looked at me like she was watching a psycho.There was defense, doubt, and disgust in those eyes.

Well, I ran away again.

When my chaotic mood calmed down a bit, I remembered that the Dai Wang was tortured by the eldest princess many times, but he approached bravely despite difficulties many times.I know I'm finished, I'm finished when I'm confused, I'm finished if I don't understand it, and I'm finished completely.

I was made crazy by a woman I just met yesterday. I don't know what I like about her, and I don't know what is so charming about her. I only know that my heart is no longer my own.

Not to mention that the disease came too fast, but just the impossibility of me and her.

When people live to a certain point, it is an unavoidable habit to pick and choose.

Like my mother's criteria for choosing a daughter-in-law, one must be pure in character, and the other must be a good family.

For example, Pei Bao, my mother didn't like him at first, because she didn't like her mother's character, and secondly, she didn't like his family status.

Even if Pei Bao's father is a marquis, he is still a marquis without real power.Such a family has no prospects for development.

The reason why my mother reluctantly agreed was not because of A Cai's own willingness, but also because A Cai was not too young, and she became more and more disobedient with the eldest princess. To be honest, it was really difficult to marry. go out.

It wasn't until King Zhongyi became emperor that my mother's mood became smoother.

The Marquis of Jianxin became the King of Jianxin. Although Pei Bao could not inherit the throne, he was still a relative of the emperor.

Of course, that was something that came later.

When I was still in the col, I was only worried that my mother would definitely not accept the daughter of a small trader as her daughter-in-law.

You must know that I am the eldest son of the Liu family, and I will definitely inherit my father's title in the future.Now my father is still an earl, but as long as he follows King Zhongyi, it will be a matter of time before he becomes king.

It is undeniable that when I hadn't figured out the girl's mind, I thought a little too much.

But that will be the biggest resistance I face.

If I restrain my heart on the one hand, but on the other hand keep approaching her uncontrollably.

It's like thinking that she and I will never be together, while constantly provoking her to give her hope.

This is even more inhumane than using Qi Fuzhu.

I felt that I was miserable enough, and I couldn't go on being so shameless, using alcohol and the mentality of going to war to numb myself.

I didn't express my feelings to her, and I never went to the puddle to talk to her openly, I just hid from a distance and looked at her thin but straight back.

Just like the time I fell in love with her so quickly, Jinyang City will be destroyed soon.

When the army came out of the mountain, I was on horseback and saw her sitting on the carriage carrying grain and grass.

She saw me too, looked up and smiled at me.

That is the most beautiful scenery I have ever seen in my life.

The He family was originally a citizen of Jinyang. After entering Jinyang City, only He Tiechui stayed. She, her parents, and her elder brother returned to their original home.

And not long after, I followed King Zhongyi to the border town and fought against the Northern Kingdom.

I have repeatedly defeated the attacks of the North Kingdom, but the victory does not make me completely happy.

It means that I am not unhappy, but when I am happy, there is always loss and nostalgia for Jinyang.

Should I be with her desperately?
Should I let go of the lofty ideals I erected when I was young for the sake of the love between men and women?
Should I...

I have been thinking about these things, and her shadow seems to grow in my mind, which is different from what I originally thought. Women shouldn't just come and go when they are called?But no matter how I waved it, I couldn't get rid of her figure.

I've always looked down on women, I've never taken women seriously, I've been punished, I deserve it, I'm guilty, what on earth am I supposed to do?

On the way to retreat from the Northern Kingdom and march towards Jinyang City, I still don't have a clear answer in my heart.

But as soon as I entered the city gate, I heard that the He family had a happy event today, and I rushed over like a madman recklessly, smashing the auditorium of the family.

Well, I didn't know it was He Langtou who was marrying until after the smashing.

I messed up He Tongtou's wedding, and this time, He Tiehui, who made a small contribution to war, wanted to find me desperately.

I hid, not out of fear, but out of shame.

I hid for two days, and when my father arrived in Jinyang with the army, I said to him: "You get ready, go and propose marriage to me."

My dad said first, "What?"

This caught me off guard.

After a long time, he asked again: "Whose girl do you have a crush on?"

I said: "I messed up the wedding of the He family. I want to pay their family a wedding. You go and ask their family if they are willing. If they are willing, your son will marry a wife. If not, your son will be a bachelor for the rest of his life." , lived in the barracks."

My father opened his mouth wide and froze in place.

There is one more thing I didn't tell my father, I'm ready, if the He family doesn't want it, I'll go and please He Chidan, anyway, my skin is thick enough, anyway, I already understand what I want.

God knows how much I hope she has me in her heart.

It turns out that women are not unimportant to me, but that I have never found the important one.

To respect feelings is to respect yourself.

Be kind to others and expect to be treated kindly to yourself.It's only now that I understand what the eldest princess said.

(End of this chapter)