within Temptation

Chapter 183 Walking along the Riverside
It was completely dark, but the Shuangxi River was still so quiet and gentle, as if there had never been wind, waves and torrents here since ancient times.The lights of almost all buildings in the city on the other side have been turned on.On the half of the river, the colorful and colorful city night scene is reflected.

I stood silently on the river embankment, took a deep breath of the cigarette, and then slowly let it out.Then, I flicked away the long ash that had accumulated on the cigarette butt.A gust of river wind blew, and the soot was scattered in the air, and then drifted into the distance with the wind.

Tang Xiaoru was standing by my side for a long time, just like me, she didn't say a word.I glanced at her sideways, and found that she had a very calm expression on her face at this moment.Looking at the other side, it seems to be admiring the beautiful night view of the city.

But, at that moment, I couldn't help being slightly stunned.Under the illumination of the lights on the other side, Tang Xiaoru's silhouette is like a sculpture of a western goddess, which is amazingly beautiful.My literature level is not high, and I can't describe what kind of beauty she is.But I know that at this moment, my heart is beating for her and obsessed with her.

Tang Xiaoru, do you know that the only woman I really love in my heart is you.All my troubles and confusions are all because of you.Without you, I might still be that stupid kid who rushes around for a living all day long and has no emotional world at all.But after having you, my life and my world have all changed because of you.

It's just that I don't regret this change.It is also because of her that I know what it is like to fall in love with someone, it is so unforgettable and sad.Dreaming about love and thinking about it endlessly is a very good feeling.Let me understand, in my previous 25 years, I lived so empty and pale.

Not only unconsciously, I fell into the fascination again.Silently looking at the woman I love beside me, I forgot the troubles and worries just now.

Just like that, after an unknown amount of time, Tang Xiaoru, who had been staring into the distance, suddenly smiled slightly.Then, she turned her face to meet my gaze, and said softly, "Do I look good?"

"what?"

I was startled, quickly looked away, coughed pretending to be calm, and said, "I... just thought about something, and I was in a daze for a while, you... don't get me wrong."

Tang Xiaoru just smiled, shook her head, and said, "Still thinking about Zhang Wen?"

I had no choice but to go along with the flow: "Yes, I think I did it too hastily. Will it hurt her too much if you are so direct?"

As I said that, I hurriedly put the cigarette in my hand into my mouth, trying to continue smoking to cover up my embarrassment.Just after inhaling, the mouth feels light, as if there is nothing but air inhaled.

Just as I was taken aback, Tang Xiaoru in front of me let out a snort of laughter, and said, "Your cigarette has been extinguished long ago, don't you know?"

When I looked at the cigarette butt, I didn't know when, the cigarette had already burned to the end, and there was only one cigarette holder left.I couldn't help sweating, I threw it away in a hurry, then stroked my scalp and laughed, "I thought about things so deeply that I forgot the cigarette in my hand, haha, it turned out to be extinguished long ago."

Tang Xiaoru still smiled, and there was an inexplicable joy in her eyes.I didn't know what she was laughing at, and with a guilty conscience, I subconsciously took out a cigarette from my pocket, wanting to continue smoking to calm my mind.

As soon as the cigarette case was taken out, Tang Xiaoru found out.Suddenly, she restrained her smile and shouted: "Ah? You smoked again after you finished one? Is your addiction that big? Smoke less, too much will do you no good!"

My hands couldn't help but thumped, and I thought to myself: Huh?Tang Xiaoru...why do you care about me?

Then, I immediately remembered that when Tang Xiaoru saw Xu Shu's concert that day, he saw Fei Jiahui smoking and advised him to smoke less.Could it be that she doesn't like men who smoke fiercely?In other words, she doesn't like the man she cares about and smokes fiercely?

Tang Xiaoru...do you really care about me?In her mind, Fei Jiahui or I, which one cares more?
Just for a moment, Tang Xiaoru said again: "Also, what kind of cigarettes are you smoking? The smell is terrible. It doesn't matter if men smoke, but they should smoke less and better. It's not that you can't smoke with your salary now. Good cigarettes, why are you being so stingy to yourself like a miser?"

I……

For a while, I didn't know what to say.Holding my cheap Blue Mountain smoke in my hand, I stared blankly at Tang Xiaoru, feeling a little overwhelmed by her sudden concern for me.

Tang Xiaoru said so much in one breath, and when she saw my dull expression, she suddenly realized something, stopped talking immediately, turned her face away and stopped looking at me.After a while, she smiled softly and said, "Look at me, am I a little nosy? But I'm also a friend, and I'm persuading you in good faith. You must...don't misunderstand anything."

I had no choice but to groan, my mind was a little confused, so I lost the desire to smoke, and temporarily put the cigarette case back in my pocket.

Tang Xiaoru glanced at me secretly, as if she wanted to get rid of this embarrassing situation, and said, "I'm tired after standing for so long. How about we walk casually along the embankment?"

It was I who proposed to come to the river embankment for a walk.When I came out of Zhang Yun's house, Tang Xiaoru said that she wanted to relax with me, so I thought of this.Ever since I chatted with Zhang Yun all night by the river, I thought that walking around and chatting in this place would be a good way to untangle my troubles and achieve the purpose of relaxing.

What's more, with Tang Xiaoru accompanying me, walking along the river embankment with the woman I like is something I have been looking forward to for a long time.

So, without any hesitation, I brought Tang Xiaoru and came here.Now when I heard her say that she wanted to walk, I nodded and said, "Okay, let's walk."

Facing the gentle wind from the river, we walked along the embankment to the upper reaches of the Shuangxi River.Tang Xiaoru was walking beside me, she looked around here, and suddenly asked me: "Sister Zhang Yun said, last time you were here, chatted with her for half the night, and enlightened her to get out of the pain of being betrayed by her husband?"

I smiled and said, "Yeah, I just didn't expect that the person who needed to be enlightened today became me."

Tang Xiaoru also laughed and said, "What advice do you need? Others need comfort and advice because they have lost their love and marriage. You have too much love and are troubled, so you just come here to relax. Compared with Sister Zhang Yun , don't be too happy."

I smiled wryly and said, "Happiness? Why don't I feel that at all?"

"Aren't you happy? There are two girls who love you so much. How many lives have you been blessed with? I don't know about Shi Shanshan, but I know Zhang Wen very well. She has always been fond of men since she was in middle school. Disdainful, eyes higher than the top. And clean and self-conscious, never associate with men easily. She likes you, it is your good fortune."

"is it?"

I sighed softly, but I was thinking in my heart: Zhang Wen took a fancy to me, but I didn't feel it at all.If you can fall in love with me, it's called good luck, right?
(End of this chapter)