Five-year-pregnant concubine: the emperor's favor is too much

Chapter 325 Waiting for Love's Letter 4
"Whenever I treat you affectionately, you always treat me indifferently. Every time at that time, my heart hurts so much that I can't breathe. I want to tell you that everything I have done for you is My sincerity, but I don't have the courage to untie the weakest part of myself, and let you sprinkle salt on it, so I always pretend, always look indifferent, not angry, open-minded, and sloppy, so you always feel that I am not a man worth entrusting for life, I am actually very fragile, so I am so frivolous on the outside, but you always see me on the surface, and refuse to take a minute to understand the inner me."

"I'm sorry, who made you always be like this, always confuse me with your appearance, if you don't tell me, how can I see clearly, how can I know?" I can't read the lettering.

"I'm sorry, I still haven't heard from you today, so I knew you must have escaped, what should I do, what should I do, facing so many enemies in front of me, how can I throw up my soldiers and come back to you, but I can't get Your echo, my heart flies away, I am absent-minded every day, and my mind is full of you, how do you let me fight the war with peace of mind, why don't you feel sorry for me, even once, it's okay to run away when I go back to the war Why? Why do you want to leave me now? Why don’t you wait for me a little longer? I hate this war, I hate my original decision, no matter how much you reject me, I shouldn’t come out, why did I choose In order to escape, if you don’t come out, you have no chance to escape at all, I don’t want to fight anymore, I want to come back, I want to be there where you are.”

"You idiot, I didn't run away, I was always, always..."

"I'm sorry, the sneak attack last night failed. I don't want to fight at all. I'm full of injuries now. I used to like to use force to solve everything that hindered me from ascending the throne. Now I'm tired of this kind of life. Watching Soldiers are dying one by one, I really want to give up completely, I am in so much pain now, you all appear in my dreams, and when I open my eyes, they disappear, I feel like I have lost the whole world, I don’t know now Where are you, my heart can't find its direction."

Hong'er didn't dare to watch the middle process anymore, because his heart couldn't take it anymore. He always thought that he had escaped, so was he so disheartened?If I replied to the letter and told him that I was waiting for him here, would it be another ending?

I was wrong, really wrong, why didn't I read the letter he wrote to me at the beginning?If he sees himself, he will definitely reply to him, even if he replies with a word, his mood should not be so depressed. Why, why is he so stupid, why is he so stubborn?

Hong'er hugged the letter paper, crying with her head in her arms.

"I'm sorry, today's attack failed, but my mood didn't fluctuate. It's really strange. Whether the war is won or not, it seems to have nothing to do with me. I'm tired of this kind of life, and I'm going back to you. I don't want to worry about that." So what, without you, so what if I win the world, the world without you, the world is just an empty shell. I will bring you back and prove you are my woman again, I said I will prove it a hundred times , I definitely will, but I am afraid that the remaining 97 will be used for a lifetime. I am very happy, because I can stay with you for the rest of my life, and I don’t hesitate to waste my life experience, so be prepared I'm coming back."

(End of this chapter)