Five-year-pregnant concubine: the emperor's favor is too much

Chapter 326 Waiting for Love's Letter 5
"You're back? You're not dead?" Hong'er was shocked, and hastily opened the next letter, as if hope appeared in her heart again.

"I'm sorry, I lied to you again. How could I come back? I can't come back. Tomorrow is the last battle. We have run out of ammunition and food. If we don't break out of the encirclement, we will die here. The support army doesn't know how long If you can get there, you can only rely on yourself.

In the end, how sad I am, I don’t know myself, I just sat there for a day, and then shed tears for a day, because I miss you so much, I want to see you so much, because tonight is going to be a fight to the death, it’s very bad luck At least, how could I, who have experienced so many wars, not know that this battle is inevitable.

I just can't let the soldiers give up their lives before they go all out. The hope of the whole army is pinned on me, but I have no choice but to save them tonight, and then die by myself. The superior horse took the initiative to be captured and distracted the enemy's target, so that they still had a glimmer of hope of surviving.

Hehe, when I die, I have no regrets, but I am not reconciled, I am not reconciled to not seeing you for the last time, not even a reply letter, I really miss you, I am so worried about you.

I'm afraid that someone will bully you after I die, I'm afraid that no man will be so infatuated with you after I die, I'm afraid that after I die you suddenly say that you also have feelings for me, what should I do, this is my worst I am afraid that you will be sad, I am afraid that you will regret it, I am afraid that when you want me to pester you, I can no longer pester you, I am afraid that when you cry, no one will dry your tears for you, I am afraid When you are unhappy, no one will make you happy anymore. I am afraid that when you are sick, there will be no one to take care of you at the bedside. If I know that you are reluctant to let me die, I will die unwillingly. There is a trace of nostalgia, I'm afraid even a ghost would be reluctant to let you go.

If I knew that you suddenly fell in love with me one day, but I was gone, I was afraid that you would be sad alone.I am afraid that one day you will suddenly think of me in a corner of the palace and burst into tears. I am afraid that one day you will meet someone else and you will not even remember my appearance. I don’t know how sad I will be .

I finally realized how much I couldn't let go of you until the last moment of my life, because I was full of you in my head, I thought about you for a day, but I always have endless memories, if I really die , if you feel guilty, I will also feel uneasy, can you just forget everything about me, then you will be a free man, I can't control where you want to go.

Don't feel guilty about me, because seeing you cry makes me feel worse than you.

Finally, the last thing I lied to you, Mumu is the son of you and Nangong Yan, I lied to you, if you know, you should scold me again.I deserve where I ended up today because I've been lying to you all my life.

After I die, take good care of Mumu and tell him that although I have only been his father for a few months, I am very content, he is very obedient and obedient, although I have always been so fierce to him, in fact, I am afraid that I have One day I will like the feeling of being a father, he is the child of you and Nangong Yan, how cruel.

Then don't be so indifferent to Eunuch Cao, I know it's all because of me, he really treats you well, don't embarrass him, it's my fault.

In the end, I still can't worry about you. I haven't heard you call me Qingcheng before I die. I hope you call me. I'm a ghost and I'm happy when I hear it. "

(End of this chapter)