who moved my abandoned queen

Chapter 60

After a light rain, all the mints in the yard bloomed, finely divided flowers, the first time in four years.Qing Deng is very happy. It's been hot recently. Apart from the trivial things she has to do every day, she also has to water the grass at night. Now she can finally have a day of leisure.After fiddling with the water drops on the mint leaves for a while, she stood up and walked towards the hut in the courtyard.

The door creaked open.

On the exquisite big bed, Yaoguang was sleeping, eyes closed, as if dead.

Qing Deng picked up the comb, and gently combed her soft hair again, cleaned her face, and dabbed a little pearl powder. She has done these things countless times, and the methods are skillful and natural, and it will be fine in a while. up.After finishing these things, she hesitated a little, but finally said: "Yaoguang, there is one thing, I want to tell you, after a while, I won't be able to accompany you." She gently stroked her belly, her eyes Gentle: "I'm pregnant for two months." "If you were awake, you would be happy for me. It turns out that being a mother is like this." She sighed pretending to be melancholy: "I knew what it was like to be a mother." It's so good, I've been married to Bai Yue a long time ago, maybe even the children can play soy sauce, how could you have been obsessed with Susu for so many years." Then he laughed again: "Finally it's back!" "So...so shake the light, You wake up quickly, if you don't wake up, what should Su Su do, you... wake up quickly..." In the lonely room, even the air is lonely, she suddenly remembered four years ago, Su Jiuge and Su Su Jun's unprovoked breakup.In the end, Jun Wudu ignored Su Jiuge's stop and slaughtered Qi Lianxiu, Siqian and all the people who followed him. Only then did he realize that the fighting and killing in martial arts was so insignificant.

The war between Li Kingdom and Nanzhao lasted for more than two years, and the people of both countries suffered from the flames of war. Although Li Kingdom won in the end, Jun Wuyuan gained a violent reputation.

However, everything has nothing to do with her.

Four years is not long, and it is not long, 95 days, 140 hours, withered grass and trees, vicissitudes of life, how many loves and hates have changed, but the fluctuating light remains the same, even the appearance has not changed. Add or subtract a tiny bit.Perhaps, she will spend her entire life on this bed, Qing Deng thought, fate favored this woman so much and criticized her so harshly, from the time of expectation to the present, she has struggled a lot, I am afraid that Susu will only be better than her. It was a thousand times more uncomfortable. Back then, Lu Yunchen said in a daze, "It turns out that the person she likes is me, and I thought she liked you." His lonely expression is still unforgettable, but he still brought the flutter back. Luomei Villa, let her sleep here.

"If, if you don't wake up again..." Qing Deng gently held Yaoguang's right hand and closed it in his palm, "Then please forgive me for using Wangyou to Susu, I really don't want him For you...injury...let him forget you... Bai Yue and I will take care of you, we will take care of you..." "You have tortured him for four years... I know it's not yours Wrong, I also hope that you can wake up...but you have been tormenting him for four years..." "He has become so indifferent now... he is no longer the Su Jiuge who was always gentle from beginning to end... I I know it's not your fault, but, but..."

"Sorry……"

Qing Deng finally restrained his emotions, put Yaoguang's hand back where it was, stood up, turned around, and left.She opened the door, and a cool breeze came in, carrying the fragrance of flowers.

She didn't look back.

"sorry."

Yu Yin has been floating in the lonely room, but she has already walked out.

Until now, she still doesn't know who Yaoguang really loves. It is true that she confessed to herself in Zhaixing Pavilion, and it is true that she saved Lu Yunchen with her own life, but everything is not important now.

She used to think that Fluctlight's answer was very important to her, and she had been waiting, waiting for her to wake up, to ask clearly.However, when she finally married Bai Yue, when she knew she was pregnant, she realized how lucky it was to give up her past love for Susu compared to the real happiness in her hands.

The answer or not is not important anymore.

What matters is your present happiness.

The man who smiled at her tenderly since she was ignorant should be happy.

In the past, she thought that fluctuating light was his happiness, just as she thought that he was her happiness.

However, she finally reunited with Bai Yue.

and so……

"sorry."

The fine purple flowers swayed in the wind, gradually withered and fell off. One day, a cold wind suddenly hit, and the original emerald green leaves began to turn yellow, and finally died in a night of white snow.

——That's it, until one day.

That day, it was extremely cold, and the wind blew across his cheeks like a knife.

Fluctlight felt cold.

It was very cold, and my limbs were terribly tired, as if I was falling, falling into the darkness.Suddenly, a hand wrapped around her waist and brought her into his arms.

who is it?It was clearly a warm embrace, but why was there a pain in her heart?It would be great if, if I hadn't met him, every time I saw him, I wished I could hide away and never see him again, but why did I approach him again and again for protection?

In the darkness, she suddenly sat up!
Wiping the fine beads of sweat off his forehead with his hands, Yaoguang panted and looked around: Why is there not even a servant around?she...she...

The hand that was still on the forehead gradually became stiff, and her face was cloudy and difficult to distinguish: why was my mind blank, why couldn't I remember anything?

...can't remember who that person was.

Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, Yaoguang carefully cheered himself up, then slowly bent his legs, touched the strings of the bed, lit the lamp before talking.

It seemed that he hadn't walked for a long time, and his legs were so weak.She almost stumbled and stumbled, and her heart was beating a little. The layout of this room was so strange that she couldn't find where the lamp was.

"Come, come here..." She was lying on the table, her clothes were messy, her voice was hoarse, what happened to herself?So weak?

"Is anyone there? I..." Suddenly, her eyes went dark, and she passed out again.

When he woke up again, he was facing a pair of eyes full of affection.

"you're awake?"

Seeing her open her eyes, the man asked immediately.His voice was a little hoarse, and he held her hand naturally, such an intimate movement made her trance.

She finally saw his appearance clearly: he is a beautiful young man, but if he is only described as beautiful, it seems a little abrupt. His beauty is like a water lily lying quietly on a lake, blooming quietly at night without wind and moon, although he is beautiful , with an alienation that separates everything.

It should be a man with an indifferent personality, Yaoguang thought in his heart, but her fingers were being gently held in his palm.

"You just woke up, you must be very tired. Qing Deng heard that you woke up and made a bowl of gruel. Now the temperature is just right. I'll feed you."

His attitude was so gentle, as if she was a piece of fragile and precious porcelain, Yaoguang just looked at him straight up, watched him lift her up, then stood up, and brought a small flower bowl over , scooped up a spoon carefully, and fed it to her lips: "Eat a little, okay?"

She didn't move.

The man stared at every expression and movement of her breathlessly, his eyes were gentle, Yaoguang suddenly felt pain in his heart.Her eyelashes trembled slightly, she opened her mouth gently, took a sip, and then looked at the man.

The lingering affection from the first meeting has dissipated, but he is still so cautious. Who is he...?I... who is it?

"Take another bite."

Another spoonful was handed over, and Yaoguang dodged it resistingly, a strand of blue hair fell on his shoulder blade, and the atmosphere was a little stagnant.

"What's the matter, don't you like this taste?" The man took it back calmly, frowned and thought for a moment: "But in the past, you liked the rice porridge cooked by Qingdeng the most, and you said it was fragrant and glutinous..." "Ah... ..." There was a flash of clarity in his eyes: "Is the porridge cold, I'll take it to warm up." After speaking, he gestured to leave.

Yaoguang grabbed his clothes all of a sudden, with struggles between his brows and eyes.

"You..." Her voice was still hoarse, just like last night.

"What's wrong?" the man asked softly.

"……Who are you?"

As soon as he finished asking this question, he felt that the man's body stiffened instantly. He looked at her in disbelief, his eyes were clear, and he didn't seem to be fake...

Slowly, he said: "You don't remember who I am?"

Shakelight nodded hesitantly.

There was another silence, and after a while, the man said: "Then, where is Lu Yunchen?"

Keep shaking your head.

"Forget it, just forget it, it's not an important memory." The man looked at her and continued to ask: "Then, how much do you remember now?"

Yaoguang panicked when he saw him, turned his head subconsciously, and murmured: "I don't remember anything..."

Who are you?Why in this room?I don't remember why the man is so nice to me.

... my mind went blank.

"Your name is Chen Yaoguang."

When Qing Deng pulled the fluttering light to stroll around the Merlin together, she was already able to walk around a little.At first she sniffed the fragrance of plums that filled the room, thinking it was specially burned spices, but later she was told that it was because she lived in a special place called Luomei Mountain Villa. Because of this, the fragrance is so strong, Qing Deng saw that she was quite interested, so he took her to the back mountain.

The sky is full of snow, the sky is full of white plums, the fairyland on earth is nothing more than this.

There was an open space in the plum grove, with a stone table and a few stone benches. Qing Deng took her hand affectionately and sat down: "Come and rest, this forest is so big, I'm exhausted after walking for so long."

Yaoguang pursed his lips and looked at Qingdeng's swollen belly, secretly guessing that it must have been several months.

"Seven months." As if guessing the idea of ​​Yaoguang, Qing Deng narrowed his eyes and said: "There are still three months left, and I will be a mother."

"Congratulations."

"Your name is Chen Yaoguang, the man you first saw is Su Jiuge, my name is Qingdeng, and my husband's name is Bai Yue, do you remember?" Qingdeng asked again.

"Yeah." Yaoguang nodded, a little funny Qingdeng's attitude towards her, how to educate her like a child, she just lost her memory, but she didn't become stupid, the name is something that can be remembered naturally after saying it, let alone my own.But thinking about the fetus in her womb, I also understand why she is like this.

Qing Deng gradually told her some past events, she said that her name was Chen Yaoguang, she was an orphan who was rescued by her and Bai Yue when passing by a brothel by chance, and then brought back to Luomei Villa. The maid around her was just that she really hated the smell of traditional Chinese medicine, so she invited herself to take care of Su Jiuge. She fell in love with Su Jiuge secretly, but the other party was indifferent. Until four years ago, Qing Deng offended some people because of her own reasons, and the other party found trouble in Luomei Villa. During the fierce battle, someone secretly murdered Su Jiuge. She saw it with sharp eyes and pushed Su Jiuge away desperately. Only then did he realize that he actually liked this woman too, but he didn't know what love is, and how to confess and get along with lovers, so he missed it again and again. When he looked back suddenly, the beauty was about to die, and he understood the heartache is love.

When Yaoguang listened to Qing Deng's narration of the past, there was a drop of sweat on his forehead.

This story is so bloody and vulgar to the extreme, that the third-rate among the third-rates actually happened to me, it's unbelievable that four words are enough to describe it.But recalling Su Jiuge's attitude when he woke up, and the relationship between the two of them... At first glance, she also thought he was an indifferent man, but he was very gentle to herself, so the ending of the above story was, and finally found out that it was Su Jiuge, who loves her, just waited for her to wake up for four full years?Yaoguang felt a little sweet, and also a little vain, after all, being loved by such a handsome and handsome man... But besides being vain, she felt a little inappropriate. She saw her own appearance in the mirror, and it was indeed not vulgar, but , How could love based purely on appearance be so thick and deep?

She suddenly wanted to recall every detail of the past between herself and him, recalling how she loved him... how she was desperate for him, and gave up her life... Did he hug her blood-stained self at that time, eyes full of heartache?

"What's wrong with you, you're suddenly laughing like that?" Qing Deng looked inexplicably at Fluttering who suddenly fell into his own emotions.

"Ah, ah,? ​​Is there,? No..." Yaoguang flushed with shame, okay, lose face,

After all, he had just woken up, and his body was still very weak. After a long time of raising the light, he got along with Su Jiuge more and more properly. Because it was winter, the weather was extremely cold, and the light was weak. No matter how heavy the clothes are, it can't cover the warmth of the siblings. Qingdeng stays at home with peace of mind because she is raising a baby, and Yaoguang has visited her a few times, but her husband has a weird expression every time he sees her. Feeling flustered, she gradually stopped going and only stayed with Su Jiuge.He is sometimes very busy and can only see her at night, Yaoguang feels melancholy, whether it is an illusion or what, although Su Jiuge treats her very well, he never makes excessive intimacy.

...Shouldn't they be the couple who went through the catastrophe and finally kept the clouds open?Shouldn't it be sweet like insoluble sugar?He didn't even hug her!
Could it be that the story that Qing Deng told was false?

Or... he just felt guilty for her sacrifice back then, and didn't really love her?
Should she pursue that lost past?
During these days, although there is no memory of the past, it is so peaceful and reassuring. She likes this kind of life, but is it really possible?Without the shackles of the past, although he is at ease, he is very ignorant.

In the end, what should we do?
(End of this chapter)