Miss Yu, come to my bowl

Chapter 27

Along the way, Qin Hongyan felt uneasy.

In fact, since she left without saying goodbye, Shen Shengnian's company has been looking for her.It was one evening one month after she left home, she met Shen Shengnian in the company lobby when she got off work.

Among the bustling commuters, she saw him immediately.

This is not a difficult task, Shen Shengnian's appearance has always been outstanding.He was wearing a white shirt and light-colored khaki pants that day. His whole face was so white that it was almost transparent, like an ice flower.

The moment she saw him, Qin Hongyan felt a vague heat appear on her shoulder blades again, which made her tremble all over.

The scenes of that night flashed through her mind in an instant.

She couldn't face Shen Shengnian, so she could only walk past him expressionlessly.

The moment she passed Shen Shengnian, Qin Hongyan found that his whole body was shaken, as if his whole body was about to shatter.

She didn't have the courage to see him again, so she had to run away.

In the next few months, Shen Shengnian's instantly broken expression resurfaced in Qin Hongyan's mind all the time, torturing her so much that she couldn't sleep peacefully.So today, she came here to end the matter.

After entering the elevator, she found that Shen Ang pressed the button for the 22nd floor.

But Shen Shengnian lived on the 21st floor.

Shen Ang has always been a delicate heart, just as Qin Hongyan frowned, he explained in a timely manner: "He refuses to go back to his home. These days, he has been staying in your room."

Shen Shengnian knew the password of Qin Hongyan's electronic lock, so it was not surprising that he entered.

Qin Hongyan didn't speak, and followed Shen Ang to her home.

She hadn't been home for several months, but the house was as tidy and clean as when she left, and it was obvious that someone was cleaning it regularly.

And that person must be Shen Shengnian.

After entering her house, Shen Ang indicated the direction of the next bedroom with his eyes, and said: "He is inside, you go in and talk to him, I will wait here."

It's good for Shen Ang not to go in.

Qin Hongyan took a deep breath and pushed open the bedroom door.

She originally thought there would be a terrible scene inside, but to her surprise, Shen Shengnian was sitting quietly with his back to her.

The windows of her bedroom are floor-to-ceiling. At this moment, the curtains are wide open, and the night is already deep. The entire floor-to-ceiling windows are full of the bright night view of the city.Compared with the hustle and bustle outside, Shen Shengnian, who was sitting on the bed like a clay sculpture, looked even quieter.

He seems to have lost weight a lot, and his back is so thin that people dare not reach out to touch him, for fear that he will disappear if touched.

Qin Hongyan approached him step by step, every step was hesitant, every step was suffering, every step seemed to have a blade standing on her feet.

Finally, she stood in front of him.

The lights in the bedroom were not turned on, but the ambilight outside the glass window illuminated Shen Shengnian's face very clearly.

When she saw Shen Shengnian's face clearly, Qin Hongyan couldn't help gasping for air. His whole face became thinner, and the outline became more distinct; his eyes seemed to have completely lost their life, they were so dark and lifeless; while his lips, Cracked dry enough to bleed.

He is like a perfect sculpture with cracks, ready to break anytime.

"Shen Shengnian, what are you doing?!" Qin Hongyan exclaimed.

Although she was asking, she had a clear answer in her heart.

He was torturing himself, and even more so, her!

It was only then that Qin Hongyan realized that during the days when she was away, Shen Shengnian stayed here every day, like a walking dead.

The doors and windows of the bedroom were tightly closed, and Qin Hongyan's voice echoed briefly.And after that echo, there was another dead silence.

Shen Shengnian remained motionless and silent.

Qin Hongyan's heart suffocated, and she began to wonder if Shen Shengnian was still breathing.

She couldn't help reaching out to touch his nose.

However, before he touched her, her hand was held back by him.

Shen Shengnian's hands were dry and cold, and even trembling slightly.He pressed his cheek against the back of her hand, slowly rubbing it, as if he wanted to rely on instinct to absorb the warmth in her body.

"I've been waiting here, but I don't know if you will come back. I'm very scared, afraid that you will disappear from now on. Don't leave again, okay. If you don't want to see me, then I will hide away."

Shen Shengnian maintained this movement, as if whispering to her hands.There was a hot wet feeling on the back of her hand, and Qin Hongyan knew that Shen Shengnian was crying.

"I can hide away so that you don't bother me anymore. But please stay here and don't disappear. Because if you leave, I will collapse and I will die."

His tone is actually very light, but his words are very heavy.

Qin Hongyan believed his words, not because of her confidence in her own charm, but because she knew too well the feeling that when a person who was regarded as more important than life left her world, everything would be barren.

Xi Huan was about to do this to her, but she had already done it to Shen Shengnian.

It's a sad cycle.

When Qin Hongyan came to see Shen Shengnian, she originally wanted to clarify the relationship between the two of them with him and ask him to leave her life from now on.

But now, she let him hold her hand, as if it was a life-saving driftwood.

She didn't know what changed her mind, she only knew that something had changed little by little before she knew it.

Qin Hongyan has always regarded herself as a hard-hearted person, she gave all her emotions to Xi Huan.Facing other people besides him, she will not have unnecessary emotions.

However, this young man was an accident in her life, and her principles were broken by him time and time again.

When she was at Kong Li's house, even though there was someone on duty every night and Qiao Qiao as her companion, Qin Hongyan still felt lonely.When she realized the feeling of loneliness, Qin Hongyan felt very strange. She should have suffered from loneliness all the time, it should be something she was used to, why would she still feel it?

But at this moment, when Shen Shengnian was weeping silently with her cheek on the back of her hand, Qin Hongyan fully understood that in the days after Shen Shengnian moved in, her loneliness had begun to decrease, so after leaving him and moving to Kong's house, her loneliness would become Reappear.

Shen Shengnian has always been with Qin Hongyan in an obsessive way, and many times she would despise him as annoying.However, she has never really explored her heart. In the depths of her heart, she actually longs for this kind of company.

She has been afraid of loneliness since she was a child, but loneliness goes hand in hand with her destiny.She can't get rid of her fate, she can only pretend to be strong and get used to loneliness.Suddenly, a young man appeared, accidentally entered her life in various ways, and drove away her loneliness.

Before she knew it, she was no longer used to being alone, but began to get used to his company.

She is selfish and does not want any relationship with each other, but desperately needs his company.

Whether it was him or her who was at fault, it was already hard to tell.

Qin Hongyan let Shen Shengnian hold her hand, and let him continue to live by her side.

After that day, they returned to their previous state as if nothing had happened.

Every night, she reads documents in the living room, while he surfs the Internet quietly.

The TV was muted, and the pictures inside were constantly changing, but no one was watching.

Whether this deformed relationship has an end, she doesn't know, and she doesn't want to know.

He needed her, and she needed him, and that was enough.

In such a tacit understanding, late autumn came again.

That night, Qin Hongyan went to Shen Shengnian's house for dinner as usual, but she heard him suddenly say: "Sister Qin, let's celebrate this birthday together."

Qin Hongyan couldn't help sighing that time flies, their common birthday, November 11, is coming again.

Last year's birthday, Xi Huan came to give her a gift, but this year, he probably won't come.Thinking of this, Qin Hongyan's mood also faded: "Forget it, birthdays are really nothing to enjoy, go out and play with your classmates by yourself."

Shen Shengnian went to university, and the university he attended was in this city, very close to their apartment.In fact, that university was not well-known, and according to Shen Shengnian's results, he was admitted with his eyes closed.Qin Hongyan believed that Shen Shengnian filled in the report because it was close to home and could return home every day.

But he didn't tell, and she didn't ask.She felt guilty and burdened towards him, and she didn't want to carry any more burdens.

"November 11th, Singles' Day, all my classmates used this pretense to fool around, so why would they accompany me?" Shen Shengnian laughed.

Qin Hongyan still wanted to refuse, but Shen Shengnian said very caringly: "It's okay, Sister Qin, it's fine if you don't want to celebrate. I'll just stay at home that day and not go anywhere. If you want someone to accompany you, just let me know." , I'll go right away."

Hearing this, Qin Hongyan couldn't bear that Shen Shengnian always stayed by her side so quietly, when she bothered him, he would leave, and when she needed him, he would show up immediately.

Like a shadow, a sad shadow.

Qin Hongyan bit her lips: "Actually, I have nothing to do that day, so let's spend it together."

Hearing that Qin Hongyan agreed to celebrate her birthday with her, Shen Shengnian's excitement was beyond words.In the following days, he started to prepare the birthday cake and the gift for her, so busy that he could not do anything.

Seeing that he was so happy, Qin Hongyan didn't want to spoil his interest, so she decided to give him a gift as well.

But what exactly Shen Shengnian likes, Qin Hongyan is completely unclear.He has always paid attention to her preferences, and she knows nothing about his preferences.

The only thing I remember is that he seems to be very protective of his laptop. Once she wanted to use his computer to check things, but he smiled and refused to let her touch it.

Qin Hongyan didn't care, everyone had their own quirks, for example, she hated others borrowing her books to read, and always felt that they would stain the books.

So, on her birthday, Qin Hongyan decided to buy a new laptop for Shen Shengnian.

November 11th was not a weekend, but Qin Hongyan got off work early in order to help Shen Shengnian buy a birthday gift, and was walking out of the mall with her laptop when she received a call.

When she saw the name on the caller ID, her heart beat like thunder.

It's Xi Huan.

Recently, there are rumors in the company that Xi Huan and Fu Yu are fighting fiercely, and depending on the situation, good things will happen soon.After hearing these rumors, Qin Hongyan told herself that Xi Huan would not be coming for this year's birthday.

She had to let herself be hopeless so she wouldn't be disappointed.

She picked up the phone, but this time, Xi Huan's voice was not as gentle as usual, but full of low-pitched cold anger.

It's just that the anger was not aimed at her.

Xi Huan asked Qin Hongyan to go to a private restaurant. The restaurant is located in a remote alley. It looks plain and unpretentious from the outside, which is no different from ordinary houses, but when you walk in, you find that there is something special inside. The environment is quiet, the walls are surrounded by green vines, and the furniture is all antiques. The real thing, even a random small utensil on the table is worth five figures.

Walking into Xi Huanding's private room, Qin Hongyan instantly smelled the familiar sandalwood fragrance, and took a closer look, and saw that the string of beads that should be in Shen Shengnian's home had returned to Xi Huan's wrist.

(End of this chapter)