Miss Yu, come to my bowl

Chapter 65

Although he has already returned to China, Shen Shengnian doesn't visit Qin Hongyan's house many times. Most of the time he lives in his rented hut and observes her through the floor-to-ceiling windows.

Aware of his observation, she drew the curtains.However, even though the curtains were closed, he still sat where he was, as if he could see her figure through the heavy curtains.

Shen Shengnian was nostalgic for the past.

He wanted to go back to the past, so after hearing Qin Hongyan's invitation, he decided that no matter what method he used today, he must work hard to restore the relationship between the two.

Shen Shengnian brought a gift, it was a diamond ring, it was the birthday present he wanted to give to Qin Hongyan last year.

In fact, that night last year, he returned to the country without telling Fu Lingzi, but because the revenge plan had not been completed, he didn't dare to show up, so he stood downstairs at Qin Hongyan's house all night.It was very cold that day, the cold wind poured in from the collar of his clothes, and there were no buildings around to shelter from the wind and rain. Shen Shengnian stood all night, caught cold, had a fever, and was dizzy when catching the plane the next day, and almost fainted at the airport.

Even if Qin Hongyan didn't know that Shen Shengnian was standing downstairs that day, he still felt it was worth it.On his 17th birthday, he made a wish that he would spend his next birthday with her.He has very few wishes, so once he makes a wish, it is serious and must be fulfilled.

At least that birthday, they also spent together.

Shen Shengnian took the gift in his hand, entered Qin Hongyan's house, and was about to give it to her, but Qin Hongyan took out a big cardboard box from the bedroom.

When Shen Shengnian saw the items in the cardboard box, Shen Shengnian's eyes were instantly cold: "What do you mean?"

"This is something you put with me before, and I haven't been able to find a chance to return it to you." Qin Hongyan explained lightly.

The cardboard box was full of clothes and items that Shen Shengnian had left at home when he lived with her. Ever since he left, Qin Hongyan had put away everything.But today, she decided to return all these things to Shen Shengnian.

Shen Shengnian did not take it, but emphasized his tone, and asked word by word: "Answer me, what do you mean?"

Qin Hongyan averted her eyes, and said briefly and clearly: "That is... the meaning of completely severing the relationship."

Shen Shengnian clenched the jewelry box tightly, his body trembled slightly, as if stabbed by an invisible knife.But he quickly concealed his softness, and said with a sneer, "Do you think I will agree?"

Qin Hongyan's mood was still calm, as if she had expected Shen Shengnian's answer in the morning, she just said lightly: "Whether you agree or not, this fact cannot be changed."

Yes, as long as she firmly believes in rejecting Shen Shengnian, then no matter how powerful he is, no matter how many tricks he uses, he will not be able to keep the relationship between the two of them.

In fact, from the very beginning, it was Shen Shengnian who took advantage of Qin Hongyan's emptiness and loneliness to enter her life.Now that she has no weakness, he has nothing to do with her.More importantly, the deeper his affection for her, the easier it is to be suppressed.

Shen Shengnian wanted to laugh, but held back for a long time, but his eyes turned red: "I thought I was vicious and ruthless, but I didn't expect you to be more vicious than me!"

He suddenly calmed down, and smiled like ice and snow: "You want to completely sever ties, that's fine, but first...you have to give me back a child!"

As soon as the words fell, Shen Shengnian grabbed Qin Hongyan and tore her clothes. She naturally resisted.Between the struggles, they fell to the floor.The tearing was still going on, he was on the verge of madness, and she was stubbornly and silently resisting it.

The weather was suffocating, and the foreheads, backs, and even the arms of the two were covered with fine beads of sweat, which were greasy and warm, and they were so close to each other that they couldn't tell each other apart.

After all, he was a man, so he finally pressed on her and tore off her shirt. Her upper body was only wearing black underwear, which contrasted sharply with the white porcelain skin.

He pressed her hands with both hands, and clenched his fingers tightly, as if pinning her with himself.

She is a stuffed butterfly in a glass box, then he would rather be transformed into a silver nail.

He imprisoned her, and he lost his freedom at the same time.

He sucked her softness, as if to suck her life.Action does not see eros, but a kind of madness.

He wanted to swallow her whole and live with him.

"You don't want me, anyway, you never thought about being with me for a long time from the beginning to the end. Well, you give me back a child. As long as you give me a child, I will let you go. Anyway, you are so cruel, even the first You can kill one child, and you can easily abandon the second one. Then you will give birth to a child, pretend that you will never know him, and give him to me..."

Shen Shengnian chattered nonsense until he saw Qin Hongyan's tears.

Her tears flowed silently from the corners of her eyes, soaked her hair, and formed small balls of tear stains on the floor.

Shen Shengnian was stunned for a moment, he couldn't believe that he had always cried in front of her, and he had hardly seen her cry.

But today, she cried.

He let go, and she was able to put her arms over her eyes, which were still oozing tears,
"Do you really think that I won't be sad? Do you really think that I don't care about that child? If I didn't care about him, I wouldn't have given up taking my medicine at the last minute, and I wouldn't have been beaten black and blue to protect him. "Qin Hongyan covered most of her face with her arms. Shen Shengnian couldn't see her expression clearly, but she could only hear her calm and sad voice slowly: "Shen Shengnian, he lives in my body, my flesh and blood made him ...you'll never understand what it was like to have him ripped from me, and ever since then I've felt like a puzzle with a piece forever missing and never going to be complete."

This was the first time Shen Shengnian heard Qin Hongyan talk about the lost child. He originally thought she didn't care, that's why she could calmly face the fact that the child was no longer there after waking up.

At that time, her expression was as if the child had never been born, but no matter what, he never expected that she would have such deep feelings for the child.

He leaned down, buried his face in her chest, and said with a little doubt and surprise: "I don't know...you seem so indifferent to the child, and you don't care about the murderer who killed the child. I thought you didn't love her." He... If you have feelings for him, then we shouldn't be separated. Let's start over, live well, and have another child, okay?"

"Why do you still not understand?" Qin Hongyan sighed, and it seemed that all the strength in her body was exhausted: "The murderer who killed the child was Fu Lingzi, me, and you."

A coldness ran through Shen Shengnian's blood quickly, he couldn't do anything, he could only listen to Qin Hongyan's next words in a daze
"Shen Shengnian, do you think you love children very much? After all, this child is a tool for you to trap me first. Do you think it is fair for him to give birth to him like this? You always reprimand me from the moral high ground The act of hurting children, but you never thought that the person who caused all this is you!"

"I am an orphan. My parents gave birth to me under unsuitable conditions, and then they regretted abandoning me. I hate those irresponsible parents. To me, your behavior is also a kind of This level of irresponsibility towards the child! You made the child's mother feel fear and resistance to his arrival, and you made the child's mother have no choice but to do something that wanted to hurt him!"

"You think Fu Lingzi is the murderer who killed that child, but in fact, if you hadn't deceived her over and over again because of selfishness, gave her hope, and made her desperate and crazy, would she have done these things? I said it before , we settle the matter between us by ourselves, and don't involve innocent people. But you, first Fu Lingzi, and then Lin Mumu, you treat other people as worthless, don't care about their feelings, and finally get revenge. After all , The person who really killed this child is you! It is you, the father who keeps saying he loves him!"

Shen Shengnian was terrified, his heart was like a river and sea, all his emotions were mixed into a ball, and he couldn't distinguish clearly.

While speaking, Qin Hongyan pushed him away, stood up, and half sat on the floor.Her face gradually approached him until the tip of her nose touched his.

There was a cold fire in Qin Hongyan's eyes, looking directly at Shen Shengnian, as if directly scorching his heart.

"Shen Shengnian, you have always maintained a victim's attitude towards our relationship. You said that you are infatuated with me and have done so many things for me, but I am still unfeeling to you. Then you never thought about why I would Like this? Yes, you are smart enough, you have enough cunning, you have made me fall into dependence on you step by step. But intelligence and cunning alone are not enough for love, you don’t know how to make me happy at all! I admit that you are kind to me, but your kindness is conditional. With you, I have no freedom, and I have to guard against being calculated by you every day. That feeling is really terrible. I hope that my other Half can give me a glass of water, a little air, and a bowl of porridge and side dishes, but you gave me a golden cage. This is not what I want, so no matter how gorgeous and precious it is, I will not be happy. Shen Shengnian, I My life has not been going well, and I have resigned myself to my fate. I just want to live a normal life for the rest of my life. I really don’t want to live in calculations and defenses every day, so I have to leave you, because...you are not me my happiness is my disaster."

That night, Shen Shengnian was drunk at the bar, and he kept thinking about Qin Hongyan's words.

"You always stand on the moral high ground and reprimand me for harming children, but you never thought that the person who caused all this is you!"

"The one who really killed this child is you! It's you, the father who keeps saying he loves him!"

"You are not my happiness, but my disaster."

These words were like sharp knives, constantly poking Shen Shengnian's brain.

Pain, endless pain, he couldn't tell where the pain came from.

He knew that Qin Hongyan was unhappy with him, but he never thought that she would use the word "disaster" to describe his love.

It turned out that in her heart, he was such an existence.

From 16 to 20 years old, she was his goddess, his life, and his everything.

But what about him?But it was her disaster.

He was devastated.

(End of this chapter)