Second marriage itch

Chapter 178 His Choice
Xue Duyun didn't speak, his eyes stayed on me.

I don't know why, although I can't see clearly, I seem to be able to see the tangle in his eyes very clearly.

I stand on the cliff, but my heart has already fallen to the bottom.

I knew that the moment he struggled, I lost.

Bei Nan has been crying and begging, but I can't seem to hear anything, only the wind on the cliff pulls the almost suffocating atmosphere.

After about a century, I finally heard his voice again.

"Release North and South!"

He finally made a choice, and my heart was pierced sharply, but I also felt a sense of relief.

In fact, I already knew what the choice was in his heart. Waiting a little longer is just a little more entanglement, but the answer will not change.

I'm not very heartbroken, I just feel a little sad.

After Xue Duyun made his choice, I kept my eyes down and didn't look at him, and I don't know if he looked at me more.I don't want to look at it, I don't want his guilty eyes to make me have countless fantasies.

I should no longer have any illusions, I should wake up from the dream.

At the juncture of life and death, my husband chose someone else. At this time, I can no longer deceive myself and others.

I have no expression on my face, no overreaction, no accusation, and no crying.

In fact, I have always wanted to know who she cares about more, this question bothers me very much.Today, he finally gave me the answer.

Nanbei was untied, and she threw herself into Xue Duyun's arms, crying earth-shatteringly.

What's there to cry about?All were rescued.I'm the one who should cry, right?

But I don't cry, I finally believe that people have no tears when they are extremely disappointed.

"Shen Yu..." Xue Duyun called me softly, as if he was choked by something.

"Get out!" Jiang Feng interrupted him with a roar.

"You've made your fucking choice, so get out, what's the point?"

After a while, I heard the sound of the car going away.

I didn't look up, of course I didn't want to watch him off, even though it might be the last one, I wanted to leave a little bit of dignity for myself.

"It seems that Xue Duyun still likes little stars!" Someone laughed.

"Fuck off!" Jiang Feng roared louder than before.

Those few people didn't dare to say anything more, they hurriedly got into the car and slipped away quickly.

In the end, there were only me, Jiang Feng, and his car left on the top of the mountain.

Jiang Feng stood facing me with his back crossed, as if he couldn't calm down for a while.

Strangely enough, I was so peaceful, even though my heart was cramping, I was so peaceful that I was terrified of myself.

After a while, Jiang Feng turned around and walked over, and untied the rope on me in twos and twos.

I probably had been tied up for too long, and it was too cold, so my whole body was numb. Once I was untied, I couldn't even stand upright.

Jiang Feng held me up, probably feeling that I was shaking, he took off his coat, wrapped me up, picked me up, put me in the car, and helped me fasten my seat belt.

Then he got into the driver's cab by himself, raised the windows on both sides, and turned on the heater in the car, but didn't rush to start it.

"Didn't you say you want me to be buried with you? Why don't you throw me down?"

I'm obviously not sad, but why is my voice so hoarse?
My eyes looked out of focus through the glass window in front of me.

When I saw the distant and dark sky before, I thought it was very hopeless.

Sure enough, really desperate.

I could feel Jiang Feng's gaze, but I didn't look back at him, I just watched the night quietly, motionless.

After a long time, he snorted through his nose.

"What's the point of the dead? The living are fun."

After speaking, he started the car and drove down the mountain.

Jiang Feng drove the car to his grandma's house and stopped.

"Get out of the car!" He said and got out of the car first.

I didn't move, looking at the gate of his grandma's house, the red couplets before were replaced with white ones.

Under the darkness of night, the whole courtyard was full of deep sadness.

Jiang Feng opened the car door for me, "Get out of the car."

I eventually got out of the car.

When I followed him in, my steps were heavy, and I felt like a sinner who came to forgive sins on behalf of the Xue family.

The lights in the main room were turned on, and I saw the portrait hanging in the middle of the main room at a glance.

Although I only met the old man once, I know that the old man is a kind person, so he left so suddenly, and even now I still feel unreal.

"Xiao'an asked you to come, if you don't come, even if you want to have a meal with grandma now, you have no chance."

Jiang Feng probably saw me staring at grandma's portrait, so he stopped and said with emotion.

Thinking about it carefully, I also regret it.

At that time, how did I know that the accident would come so quickly?It was too fast to catch people off guard.

Jiang Feng smiled bitterly, "Actually, I regret it very much. I really shouldn't be soft-hearted to you at that time. I also regret it even more. I shouldn't have lied to grandma that you are my girlfriend. She has always held hope in her heart after she lied to her, hoping that I would often bring you You go, looking forward to our marriage. If I hadn't lied to her from the beginning, she probably wouldn't have any regrets when she left, right?"

Yes, if you don't have hope, you won't despair, and you won't regret it.

The old-fashioned incandescent lamps were lit in the main room, and a ball of yellow light radiated from the bulbs to the surroundings.

Looking at it, I feel like I can clearly see the filament in a light bulb
The lamp obviously didn't move, but I felt that the filament was floating, far and near.

And that cluster of condensed yellow light slowly filled my entire vision.

The moment I fell, it seemed that a pair of powerful arms caught me.After that I don't know anything.

When I woke up again, everything I saw was unfamiliar.

The old bed frame, the unevenly painted walls, the mottled wardrobe and desk due to peeling paint, and the old-fashioned incandescent lamp hanging in the center of the ceiling.

The quilt covering her body smelled of soap, and seemed to carry the breath of sunshine.

This smell seems to bring me back to a certain time in my memory. At that time, my family was not very rich, but it was warm enough.

Since the accident happened, those good things have disappeared.

In the process of growing up, I changed involuntarily while being hurt and deceived, and gradually became less innocent, without absolute kindness and selflessness.

"Release North and South!"

This sentence always echoes in my mind, even in my dreams, it echoes over and over again, disturbing my peace.

With a creak, the door was pushed open.

Jiang Feng walked in with a bowl and glanced at me lying on the bed.

"woke up?"

I didn't say a word, but in retrospect, this should be Jiang Feng's grandma's house.

It was already bright outside the window, it should be the next day, but I don't know what time it is.

He put the bowl in his hand on the table, walked to the bed and said to me, "You fainted. I called the village doctor in the village to show you. He said you might have hypoglycemia. I told you to follow Xue. What kind of life did Duyun live? Make his body look like this?"

I thought I didn't care, and I could easily let it go, but when I heard his name again, my heart still twitched in pain as if pierced by a sharp thorn.

I sat up feeling weak and dizzy.

"One size fits all. He was very kind to me, and made me, a 26-[-] woman, like a little girl who loves to dream and fantasize about unrealistic things."

"Okay?" Jiang Feng snorted.

"Well, why doesn't he take you away? Well, how can he bear to see you die?"

His words were so blunt that it almost suffocated me.

"Forget about him now."

Jiang Feng said, "Eat something."

I stared at the large pieces of meat in the bowl, and felt a little sick to my stomach.

"I do not want to eat."

"I've got hypoglycemia, and still don't eat? Want to be a fairy?"

Jiang Feng's tone sounded a little angry.

I didn't speak.

Jiang Feng asked again, "You really don't want to eat?"

Although he is fierce, I can fully feel his kindness.

I said helplessly, "I really don't want to eat, I can't eat, I want to leave."

Jiang Feng looked at me with his hips crossed, his eyes darkened.

"Don't want to eat? Okay, leave? No."

After leaving this sentence, he turned around and walked out.

The sound of the door slamming was so loud that the dust on the door frame was thrown off.

I stood up and walked to the window in a nonchalant manner to look out.

Villagers passed by from time to time on the small road in front of the door. The willows on the side of the road have begun to sprout. Two children were playing and playing under the tree. Later, the two children were called home by their families.

When the door opened again, I don't know how long I stood by the window.

"Why don't you lie down when you feel uncomfortable?" Jiang Feng talked to me not far from me.

I pinched the corner of my clothes, my voice was not loud but very persistent.

"If you don't need me to be buried with you, please let me go."

Jiang Feng's jaw was tense, and I could see his displeasure and even anger.

"Where are you going? Do you want to go back to Xue Duyun?"

I resisted the trembling in my heart and said calmly, "Although I have nothing left, I also want to live with dignity. Even if I don't go back, I can't stay here. Being abandoned doesn't mean I can be casual. I don't have to live off a man."

I lowered my eyes and didn't see Jiang Feng's expression.

"How can you walk like a gust of wind can blow you down?"

I looked at him quite surprised.

I thought that he would get angry and even use rough and tough methods to keep me. The only thing I didn't expect was that there was still a bit of concern in his words.

"Let's eat first and then talk."

After he finished speaking, he didn't listen to my opinion, so he turned around and went out. After a while, there was the sound of a spatula clinking.

My legs were numb after standing for a long time, so I went back to the bed and sat down.

After a while, Jiang Feng came in with food.

He put the dish on the table and handed me the rice bowl and chopsticks.

"eat first."

The oily aroma of the vegetables wafted over and made my stomach a little nauseous. I didn't pick it up and said helplessly, "I really can't eat it."

Jiang Feng's hand holding the bowl froze in the air, and his chest heaved more and more.

"For a man who chooses another woman at the moment of life and death, to demean yourself, are you fucking depraved?"

After he yelled, the bowl in his hand fell hard to the ground.

Then, he threw me directly on the bed and sealed my lips forcefully.

(End of this chapter)